Fanservice Paradox

When the whole song ended, Fang Juexia breathed a sigh of relief.

In his view, when receiving love from others, one must repay, express gratitude, and give a response.Pei Tingsong was the only exception. He knew he should respond, but was afraid to respond.At least singing this song can be regarded as an answer.

He is like a lone bee who stumbled into a honey pot, wrapped in sweet honey, both happy and frightened, emotionally he tasted an unprecedented taste, but rationally reminded him of the possibility of drowning .

Pei Tingsong and He Ziyan's performance followed him. After singing a song, they didn't even have time to hug.That's their job.Fang Juexia even felt a little guilty.This is the first time he has put his selfishness on the job and expressed his private emotions in front of so many people.It wasn't supposed to be like this, but he just got stuck.

He's caught in a never-before-seen spring day and tries to keep him.But it is very possible that he can't even keep his own puddle of snow water.

Ling Ban lay on his shoulder, "I feel like Xiao Pei is a little out of shape."

Strictly speaking, this performance is not a solo, but it combines the performances of He Ziyan and Pei Tingsong, one is a DJ and the other is rapping.

Lu Yuan also said, "I also think that usually it will be more explosive. I can't tell what's wrong today, but I can't see it. It's okay."

Jiang Miao glanced at Fang Juexia, then at the people in the stands.

"Everyone is tired recently, and it's impossible to be in a good state all the time." Jiang Miao patted Xia Juexia on the shoulder, "Just get through the singing period."

Fang Juexia's eyes just looked at the people on the stage.He was a little confused, wondering if Pei Tingsong understood his song, so he was a little frustrated.But he doesn't want this. He likes Pei Tingsong's self-confidence and openness, and he wants Pei Tingsong to be like this forever.

"Thank you He Ziyan and Pei Tingsong, everyone please give them the warmest applause! Who's next?"

Under the host's voice, Pei Tingsong walked off the stage and approached Fang Juexia step by step.To be honest, Fang Juexia was very nervous, and he even thought of many embarrassing scenes in his mind.But Pei Tingsong just stood beside him, standing side by side at a distance of about fifteen centimeters. After Ling Yi came on stage, he opened his mouth in a low voice.

"I'm a little tired, and there's nothing here to lean on."

Fang Juexia was puzzled by his sudden statement, and turned to look at him.Pei Tingsong also turned his head, "Can I give you a hug?"

It's like this every time, obviously the one who needs to be hugged is me, but Pei Tingsong finds a good excuse to turn passive into active.He looked aggressive, but after the confession, he kept as little physical contact as possible, unless his consent was sought.The expression is straightforward and proactive, but the action has given Fang Juexia enough respect.

That's how Fang Juexia knew that he had nowhere to hide.

Silence is the slow motion of time, prolonging everything and making every second a torment.From the moment he confirmed that he liked Fang Juexia, Pei Tingsong had already anticipated the difficulty of this process, just like his adventure in escaping from birth, didn't he not know that there was a high probability of failure?Of course I know, but there is always a slight chance of success.

Before he got an answer, he wanted to say forget it, and lowered his head, ready to give him space to talk to someone else.But at the next moment, Fang Juexia turned to face him.

"I..." Fang Juexia was a little embarrassed, "I'm too thin, so it shouldn't be comfortable to hold."

Pei Tingsong suddenly came back to life. He saw Fang Juexia's cramped expression and his arms that were about to be stretched but couldn't be stretched. He felt that he was the happiest person in the world.

With the approval, he hugged Fang Juexia, resting his chin on his shoulder, like a big contented dog.Fang Juexia likes the feeling that he puts the weight on her, a feeling of being relied on and trusted.

"Who says it's uncomfortable, you're lying to me."

Pei Tingsong buried his head and tightened his arms, "It's obviously very comfortable."

Fang Juexia didn't know what to say, turned to see He Ziyan smiling.

"What's wrong with Xiao Pei, you're so empty after singing the whole song." He Ziyan joked, "You're still acting like a baby and wanting to be hugged at the age of 20."

Pei Tingsong didn't look up, he just raised one hand and made a middle finger in He Ziyan's direction.

Fang Juexia raised her hand to touch his back, they communicated with each other in silence, and completed it with a simple hug.It took him too much courage to sing that song, making him look directly at the anxiety and anxiety in his heart, but now, his heart seems to have calmed down, and it regained its calm in Pei Tingsong's arms.

When the meeting was about to end, they went on stage together and sang a non-title song in their debut album, which was a very cheerful song.They started a forced cute business. Everyone wore plush ear hairpins on their heads. Fang Juexia had rabbit ears, and Pei Tingsong had gray wolf ears. Small gifts, there are small dolls made according to the images of kaleido members, some snacks, and official printed lyrics cards handwritten by members.

Everyone sang and sprinkled the gifts in the small baskets, and the scene suddenly became noisy, and the fans in the front row were very excited.Especially Lu Yuan and Ling Yi, bouncing around the arena, even shaking hands with fans in the front row near the stage.

After Fang Juexia sang her part, she adjusted her headset and looked at the fans in the back row. Then she picked out a soft doll from her small basket, walked to the edge of the stage as far as possible, and threw the doll far away, so that They can get it too.

"Ahh! Brother Juexia!"

"Brother Jue Xia, look at me! Here!"

Many hands stretched out from the edge of the stage, Fang Juexia took a step back instinctively, squatted down after throwing the doll, and sprinkled the candy lightly in front.

"Brother Jue Xia!!"

"I also want!!"

Pei Tingsong couldn't keep his eyes off Fang Juexia, he walked towards Fang Juexia while singing rap.Coincidentally, the end of this rap was just the harmony of the two of them, one high and one low.Fang Juexia's basket has bottomed out, but the fans are like a flock of birds waiting to be fed. Even if he turns the basket upside down, they are still calling his name.Fang Juexia turned around and saw Pei Tingsong behind him, so she wanted to take some from his basket.

Seeing him squatting on the ground and reaching out to him, Pei Tingsong thought it was cute as hell.But at this moment, he saw a pair of hands grabbing Fang Juexia's arm and pulling it down fiercely, which caught him off guard.

That doesn't look like a girl's hand.

Fang Juexia's heart was startled, and he fell backwards. Pei Tingsong came up and dragged Fang Juexia to the back, but at the same time, the raiding hand let go and grabbed Pei Tingsong's elbow with both hands. Pei Tingsong had rushed over At that time, the center of gravity had already moved forward, but now he fell directly to the stage.

"what!"

"Pei Tingsong fell!"

"My God!"

There was a commotion in the audience, and Fang Juexia was still in shock, but when he saw Pei Tingsong fall, his brain exploded with a buzzing sound.

how so……

Without even thinking about it, Fang Juexia jumped off the stage, "Get out of the way! Don't step on him." He used his body to protect Pei Tingsong, and was pushed to half-kneel on the ground, the back of his hand propped on the ground was in a mess He was stepped on several times, but he didn't feel it at all.

His mind was full of Pei Tingsong.

Security guards came from both ends of the stage and separated the surrounding fans.Although the height of the stage was not very high, Pei Tingsong fell down due to external force and the impact was huge.Several other members also rushed over immediately, but were stopped by the security guards and staff. Now that something has gone wrong, other artists can't have any more troubles.

Fang Juexia had persistent tinnitus and could not hear anything, as if she had fallen into the deep sea.His eyes became hot and sore uncontrollably, and he whispered Pei Tingsong's name over and over again in the noisy venue.

Obviously, it was me who should have fallen, not him.

Pei Tingsong did not lose consciousness, and he still rested his head on Fang Juexia's leg, as if to tell him not to worry.The activity was suspended after the accident, Pei Tingsong was rushed to the hospital for treatment, and all the members went with him.

While sitting in the car, Fang Juexia's hands were shaking all the time. He saw that Pei Tingsong's forehead and cheekbones had been scratched, blood was oozing from the wound, his brows were tightly furrowed, and sweat was dripping from his forehead. Just thinking about Fang Juexia's I just felt pain, my heart was hanging in the air, bumping back and forth.

It would be fine if he wasn't close to the stage, if Pei Tingsong didn't reach out to pull him back.

If it was him who fell, Fang Juexia would not be sad.

As if seeing his worry, Pei Tingsong stretched out a hand, shook Fang Juexia's hand, and pulled a smile on his face.

Seeing his weak smile, Fang Juexia felt even more uncomfortable. His nose was sore and his eyes were sore.

His self-protection mechanism made him learn very early not to look at the evaluation of him by the outside world, and not to take it to heart.But now, Fang Juexia thought of those anonymous people scolding him, saying that he is a disaster star, and anyone who touches him will become unlucky.

According to his logic, such statements full of loopholes and without scientific basis are not even worth analyzing by him.But seeing that Pei Tingsong got hurt because of him, Fang Juexia was really afraid for the first time that someone else's curse would come true.

When he arrived at the hospital, Cheng Qiang answered the phone, his expression became serious, and after hanging up, he said to them, "This is not right. I thought it was a stage accident caused by fans getting too excited, but now it doesn't seem to be the case. I just left The security guard who was closer reported it to their arena director, saying that the person he saw dragging Xiao Pei was not a fan."

Fang Juexia immediately said, "It's not a girl, she has great strength and strikes fiercely, she should be a man."

"They're going to adjust the monitoring now, and they can definitely find it with a little effort." Cheng Qiang was very angry, and cursed several times in succession, "We must send this grandson to the prison for intentional injury. I can't sue him for death." he!"

"Is it black fans?" Ling Yi guessed.

He Ziyan was a little puzzled, "The tickets for the meeting are not given randomly, they are all drawn by buying albums. Logically speaking, the chance of this is not high."

Pei Tingsong was sent for examination, and they could only wait outside for the results.

Ling Yi was a little scared, "I was also on the side of the stage just now..."

Fang Juexia didn't understand that there were so many people at that time, and other members were all around the stage, but they only grabbed his hand, and it seemed to be premeditated, and the strike was quick and precise. If Pei Tingsong hadn't appeared at that time, he would have fallen down now That's him, and if he does anything else, he could be seriously injured.

Is it still Astar?

"I feel like it's aimed at me." Fang Juexia explained the situation to Cheng Qiang just now.After hearing this, Cheng Qiang thought for a while, "It's probably vicious competition. The methods in this circle are very dirty. A young actor I knew in the past was tampered with while filming, broke his leg and hands, the prime time to take on the show was gone, and then passed away quietly."

Jiang Miao sighed, "I thought it was an illegitimate fan."

"It will happen." Cheng Qiang inoculated them, "Before you were not popular enough, many things were simple, but now that you are popular, the people and things you meet will become complicated. Bastards, scandals, all kinds of things All kinds of slander, traps, and even overzealous fans will not be absent. The company will do its best to protect you, and you must also protect yourself. Learn to keep your distance."

Cheng Qiang called one after another.Due to the effect of the live broadcast, the stage accident quickly fermented on the Internet, and the entry of Pei Tingsong falling on the stage quickly became a hot search.He had to immediately arrange for people to keep an eye on the public opinion to avoid being exploited.The Internet is so absurd, even if you are a victim, you may become the target of public criticism even if you are a victim of the sewage of the Internet.

"The company has just completed the transfer of personnel. The security issue is not a trivial matter. We will arrange more than six bodyguards in the future, and everyone will have at least one security personnel who will personally protect you."

The doctor who was doing the examination opened the door and came out to communicate with Cheng Qiang, "The patient has contusions on his forehead, cheekbones, elbows and knees, and he has mild concussion symptoms under the impact. He needs to rest. The more troublesome thing is that the patient's left wrist fractured." , maybe the palm of the hand touched the ground when he fell, it is more serious and needs a minor operation.”

surgery.

Fang Juexia was uncharacteristically restless, "How long will it take? Will it affect the use of hands in the future?"

"No," the doctor repeated again, "it's a minor operation. It just needs a recovery period of about three to four weeks."

After hastily explaining to the doctor, he began to prepare for the operation.There are very few people in private hospitals, and they wait in a waiting room.The accident came quickly, and Cheng Qiang suddenly had a lot of work.After repeatedly checking the official blog announcement, he arranged for someone to send it out.After answering a phone call, he stood up and said to the members, "Xiaowen has brought the newly arranged security personnel here, and they are downstairs. Everyone go back today and have a good rest. I will play songs with you tomorrow morning." Let’s coordinate with Yunshiwang, and we will push it back one day.”

Everyone stood up, but Fang Juexia didn't move. He raised his head, "Brother Qiang, I'll stay. You still have so many things to deal with, you go back to the company first."

Cheng Qiang was worried, "That won't work, you have to go back and rest now."

"I can't rest well now." Fang Juexia looked at him, "Xiao Pei was dragged into the water because he came to save me."

Cheng Qiang knew Fang Juexia's character well, and knew that he was the kind of kid who liked to take all responsibility on himself, "I can let you stay, and I will arrange a few staff members to wait for you outside. Tell them if you need help .but don't blame yourself."

Ling Yi couldn't help but said, "Yeah Juexia, it's not because of you."

The members all came to comfort him, Fang Juexia smiled, "I know. You go back quickly and rest early. I will call you as soon as there is anything."

No one could hold him back, so Cheng Qiang had no choice but to arrange for a few people to come over and guard outside the rest suite.After they all left, the room fell silent.

Fang Juexia sat silently on the sofa, waiting for the operation to end.The clock in his heart turned round after round, tick tock, and he gradually regained his composure.But no matter how calm you are, as long as you close your eyes, it will still be the moment when Pei Tingsong fell off the stage, with the bustling crowd and candies scattered all over the floor.

The objective time may not be long, but in Fang Juexia's mind, it seems like a long, long time. The door of the lounge was finally opened, and a nurse came to inform, "The patient's operation is over, and now he has been transferred to a single ward."

"Is he okay?" Fang Juexia stood up.

"It's okay, but his hand is fixed now, it may not be convenient."

Fang Juexia breathed a sigh of relief, and followed the nurse to the single ward in the VIP suite.Pei Tingsong lay quietly on the bed with her eyes closed.

"Is he unconscious?"

"No," said the nurse. "Only local anesthesia was used for the operation, but he seemed tired and fell asleep."

Fang Juexia nodded reassuringly, and sat down beside the bed.

"The patient may have headache and tinnitus after waking up. These are sequelae of a mild concussion. If there are other symptoms, please call us."

"OK, thanks."

The nurse closed the door, and the room fell silent.Fang Juexia looked at Pei Tingsong who was asleep, the wound on his face was wrapped in gauze, and his left wrist was in plaster.

It was the first time he felt so sorry for someone when he grew up so big.Fang Juexia wondered if he and Pei Tingsong were destined to clash, and almost all the injuries he suffered were caused by him.Thinking of how he acted like a baby and asked him to hug him after the performance, he was suddenly injured and lying on the bed.

How painful should a broken bone be.

Thinking about it, Fang Juexia's nose became sore.He lay on the side of the bed, stretched out his hand, touched the plaster cast on Pei Tingsong's wrist, and slowly moved his fingertips along the plaster until he touched the half of the back of his hand exposed under the plaster, his protruding knuckles, Gently over his hand.

Fingertips rubbed against the warm skin, unconsciously embedded in his fingers.

The heart is throbbing with pain and tightness.

It turned out that he liked this person so much.

The embedded fingertips wanted to retract, but before they could retract, they were clamped by clenched hands, keeping the fingers tightly clasped that almost escaped.

he woke up?

Fang Juexia got up and looked over, and saw that Pei Tingsong's eyes were still closed, but the corners of his mouth were curled up, pretending to be sleeping was unsuccessful at all.

"you're awake."

"No."

Fang Juexia was not in the mood to joke with him, "Are you okay, is there any discomfort? Does your head hurt? Do you want to call a doctor?"

"You're so nervous, you don't know how badly I've been hurt." Pei Tingsong opened his eyes and smiled at him, "I'm fine, just a little dizzy. I want to sit up."

Fang Juexia hurriedly adjusted the hospital bed for him so that he could lean on it. He clearly wanted to say a lot, but when he saw Pei Tingsong woke up, he couldn't say a word.Pei Tingsong just looked at him like this, so that he could only lower his eyes, his throat was suffocated for a long time, and he said with difficulty, "Tomorrow... I don't have to play songs tomorrow morning, it's postponed for a day."

He regretted it as soon as he said it. There are so many things to say, why did he choose this one?At this time, he is still talking about work, like a fool.

Suddenly heard a chuckle, Pei Tingsong's voice was extremely gentle, "Did it scare you?"

Fang Juexia raised her eyes, and turned away the moment she met his eyes, pursed her lips, and stopped talking.

Pei Tingsong said to himself, "Guess what? When I fell asleep just now, I dreamed that you sang to me again. It was the song you sang during the day. I listened to it again, it was really good."

As he said that, he looked at Fang Juexia, "That song was sung for me, right?"

Fang Juexia didn't deny it, and Quan regarded it as acquiescence.

Maybe it's not only for Pei Tingsong, but also for yourself.

"Did I scare you?" He asked the question again, only this time, he added the subject.

Fang Juexia is not a person who is used to scrutinizing other people's words, but if it is Pei Tingsong, he can quickly react to the emotions conveyed by the details.

"No."

Pei Tingsong smiled, "At first, I thought that love and many things are in common. As long as I want, I can get it. To be honest, I am also afraid that my pursuit will cause trouble to you, and I say every word Sometimes, I will struggle again and again, trying to figure out what to do."

He looked at Fang Juexia, "No way, it's also the first time I like someone."

Fang Juexia suddenly felt uncomfortable, sometimes because of Pei Tingsong's boldness and bravery, he would forget that he was actually a boy younger than himself.The boy recklessly took out his heart to show him, but he didn't have the courage to look at it, he just hid in his own shell and calculated the probability of failure.

"I know," Pei Tingsong continued, "I don't seem to be a person who can give people a sense of security. But I hope you understand that I pursue this way because I am such a person, not because of a quick fix. frivolous."

"I never questioned your sincerity." Fang Juexia lowered his eyes, "Never."

"Then look up and look at me."

Fang Juexia raised her head and looked at him.

Pei Tingsong's face was pale, but his pupils were bright, "Fang Juexia, this world really sucks. Disasters, wars, diseases, turmoil, verbal violence, and endless harm between people. All these are absurd and Vulnerability. I am an outright anti-philosophy supporter, and I disdain to integrate with this society. Yes, the law of survival in this society is convergence. Only by keeping similar values ​​and behaviors with most people can we live a good life. But I hate Such a life."

"I only believe in my self, and I want to break away from all rules to find my self. So I am arrogant, I am arrogant, I only have myself in my eyes, and the so-called freedom I want to pursue."

"But now, I realize that I also have someone I want to be close to and converge with." He looked at Fang Juexia, "It's you. I want to be close to you, I want to know your values ​​and your outlook on life, and I want to be a gentle and strong person like you." people."

Fang Juexia was a little dazed, and could only look into his eyes, watching the flickering light in his eyes.

"But I'm not as good as you think."

"You have." Pei Tingsong retorted without hesitation, "You don't even know how good you are. As long as you smile at me, I can refute myself. There is actually salvation in this world. You are so good that you can make a Rebels give up resistance."

He held Fang Juexia's hand with his right hand, "You are the first person I fell in love with. If you don't feel anything about me, I can also like someone silently like most cowards in this world. I can avoid you, avoid you, and just be an ordinary teammate like Ling Yi and the others. But you obviously like me, so I can't just let you go."

Pei Tingsong's tone was so firm that Fang Juexia didn't even have the strength to refute.He had to admit that what Pei Tingsong said was right, he was just afraid, he was afraid that he would plunge in and end up with only himself, he was afraid that he was really a desperate romantic, like his mother withered grass, for the short-term The spring stays forever.

He made the last resistance, "We may not have a good result."

"I don't want the result, I want it now." Pei Tingsong held his hand tightly, "Everyone is born to die, and our result is death, so you give up life? I don't want to give up because of the calculated hundred There is a [-]/[-] chance of failure to lose what I dream of, and I want every moment of my heart."

"You just need to tell me, do you like me or not?"

Fang Juexia's rationality activated the protection mechanism again.He should refuse, he should remain silent, he has countless plans that can be implemented to protect himself, and also to protect the last bit of turning back between them.

He does.

But Fang Juexia raised her head and looked straight into Pei Tingsong's eyes, as stubborn and persistent as a dead branch that was about to be broken.

"like."

The moment it was broken, he regained the last bit of vitality that belonged to him.

"Pei Tingsong, I like you."