nowhere to confess

I broke up with Liu Qianshu before, and I, who had always been in a high-cold position during that relationship, couldn't avoid asking her the question of "why". Together, it’s like I’m playing the oboe. After playing alone for a long time, I don’t want to act anymore, it’s boring. With him, I become the person who watches the oboe, and sometimes I can make a cameo, which is quite interesting.”

I never thought that I was such a boring person. I locked myself in the room and thought for a day and a night, and decided to go for a walk in the temple. On the way, I met a master. The master said, "You have something in your inner world.", I saw Bodhisattvas writing on the wall: "Seek within." So I took a pile of scriptures and went home. When traveling, I must enter every temple and worship Bodhisattvas. The miniature earth temple that is square should also straighten your clothes, put your hands together, and worship solemnly.

One day I was carrying a 6L backpack and was going to attend a Dharma meeting held by the Living Buddha in Tibet. Do you understand love? I am going to love all living beings now." "I love you X size!" Zheng Xuelian was angry.

I was stubborn and finally got on the road.Traveling over mountains and mountains again and again did not allow me to meet the "unknown self", but it made me understand that in different seasons, choosing different routes to Tibet can encounter different most beautiful scenery.

Later, I organized what I saw and heard into pictures and texts, and posted a strategy for entering Tibet in the circle of friends. I never thought that I would quickly collect 81 likes. ", "Standing on the plateau in western Sichuan and singing", "Popular euphratica and me", "The End of the Sky——I am a sheep on the prairie" and other articles.In the following year, my circle of friends began to follow my strategy in an orderly manner. Zheng Xuelian said that it was a waste of money for me not to be a tour guide.

I ran to the north and south of the motherland without any desire or desire, and Tutu also went north to the capital to fall in love with Lafite. Every time I swipe a picture, she would post a love update, nothing more than "It's so sinful, I actually ate two bunches of candied haws today ", "Do you sprinkle cumin on lamb kebabs or sprinkle cumin again", "Thank you, this is the best tomato scrambled egg I have ever eaten! MIA~".

There is heaven and earth in my heart, but there is only one her in her heart.Whichever is bigger and which is smaller, the autumn colors stand out.

Later, I got lost in the grasslands near the west of Sichuan in Gannan. This is the second time I got lost (the first time was three years old). I took my driver and went to a nearby village to "rob a wife" I was walking alone in the wilderness. My mobile phone had two batteries left, so I had to turn it off. I couldn’t find a way to turn it on again.At night, the wind blew extremely fiercely, like a pack of wolves howling, I suddenly felt that I might die here, so I turned on my phone again, wrote a very touching sentence, and posted it in the circle of friends, to the effect that "it's really nice to have you in this life Good; we will never meet again in the next life" or something like that.I thought about it, and then set the permissions to be visible to "Liu Qianshu, Tutu, Zheng Xuelian" and my mother.

In less than a second after posting, my mother’s call came. I stood under the moonlight, facing the new wind, holding my mobile phone and smiling with my mother. After listening to her old man’s reprimand, there were comments on the circle of friends I just sent—— — Zheng Xuelian replied, two words: "Sick!" Short and powerful.There is also an unread text message from 10086, reminding me that I just missed a call from Tutu, probably when I was talking to my mother.After reading the text message, I was about to turn off the phone when Tutu called, and she hung up after confirming that I was not dead.

That night, I didn't wait for any news from Liu Qianshu.I walked to Tianming alone, walked through the desolate grassland, stood on the side of the road, took a ride to Lanzhou, and flew back to Shanghai that night.

The next day after we went back, Zheng Xuelian and Xiaoman came to my house carrying a bunch of food, and Tutu also came back from Beijing.

"Yo--it's dark and strong." Zheng Xuelian stretched out her hand to pinch my arm, "It's as hard as a rock, Chen Huashen, how much suffering did you suffer there? Hurry up, let us have fun by telling it!"

"Uneducated," Xiao Man despised Zheng Xuelian for me, "Chen Huashen just went to heal his emotional wound."

"She? She also deserves to be emotionally hurt?" Zheng Xuelian scoffed at me.

What Xiao Man and Zheng Xuelian said were right, Liu Qianshu left me, I was sad, but I was not that sad.It's not so sad because a relationship ended up being either I failed you or you failed me. It's sad because Liu Qianshu really left me.

Saying so many digressions is not to commemorate the lost love, but I think it is necessary to sort out the relationship between me and Tutu. Only by recognizing the history can we create a better future.

The problem is, I still end up combing myself into a ball of yarn.