between friendship and love

Qi Tian didn't know how he got back, and after entering the house, he hurried to the toilet to spit out all the food he just ate.The fullness in his stomach was unbearable, and he didn't feel relieved until he couldn't vomit anymore.But it was still uncomfortable. He came out of the bathroom and passed the kitchen. When he saw the knife on the knife holder, he couldn't help but walked over and took it down.

Pull the sleeves a little, and there are scars all over it, distributed in deep and shallow. The word "death" took root in his heart, and he couldn't drive it away no matter what. Whenever he touched any pressure, he would run out instead, filling his mind in a large area, which made him feel very tempting.

The blade slashed at his wrist, and he stopped.The kitchen knife seemed to become extremely heavy, and he couldn't hold it, so it fell on the table and made a loud noise.Beads of sweat slid from his forehead. Looking at the bright red blood, his chaotic head gradually woke up.

"Can't be here...not here..." Even if it's death, it can't be seen by the man, let alone dirty his house.He decided to die, and suddenly felt that his whole body and mind were much more relaxed.He washed the blood off the kitchen knife and wiped the blood off the ground.

He went into the bedroom and packed his clothes. Most of them were bought by men, so he folded them and put them in the closet.There is nothing else, the meaningful things are basically brought to him by the man, such as the souvenirs he bought when he went out to play, and the small accessories he specially bought during his business trips, all of which are stored in his backpack.

He found a banknote from his backpack, in which his only savings were stored. After thinking about it, he went out, went to the bank's self-service teller machine, took out all the money, and put it on the desk in the bedroom. in the drawer.

In this case, it can be regarded as the only reward for him, right?

After all, I have lived here for so long, and I have been taken care of by Yang Lin in terms of money and life. He will specially put pocket money on the box of the shoe cabinet, and other things will be added. , almost never withdraw money from the card.

After doing all this, Qi Tian felt a little more at ease, when he heard the man come back and open the door.

He walked out and greeted with a smile, "Xiaolin, are you back?"

The man's face was not very good, but he smiled at him.Qi Tian went to make two cups of tea, the two sat on the sofa, Qi Tian felt deserted and nervous, so he went to turn on the TV.

What was shown on the screen was a recent popular Xianxia drama. The male and female protagonists were both very good-looking, and they happened to be in a very funny place, but neither of them laughed.Qi Tian held the teacup, feeling the heat from the cup to his palm.Yang Lin suddenly asked: "Xiaotian, are you really in such a hurry? Move the day after tomorrow?"

Qi Tian gave a soft "hmm".

"Then let me help you. If you need something, I'll help you buy it."

"No need, in fact, I have already prepared everything before, as long as people pass by, I am sorry to tell you now, I have never found an opportunity before." Qi Tian even himself was a little surprised that he could say this passage smoothly , he took a sip of tea, "I may not come here often in the future, you...you take care of yourself. And don't get angry with your uncles and aunts, I think it's better for you to go back during the Chinese New Year..."

Yang Lin didn't know if he had listened, and looked at the TV screen in a daze, and finally said "hmm" after a long time.

Qi Tian didn't know what to say, but he really wanted to talk to Yang Lin, so he had to try his best to find a topic, "Well... I saw your boyfriend today... I think it's very good..." After saying it, I can't wait to talk to Yang Lin. Swallowing the words back, the last thing he wants to think about now is that a man has a new boyfriend, and he has to face up to the fact that he has indeed missed the greatest happiness in his life.

His heart ached again, and he grasped the cup in his hand helplessly, as if trying to break the cup.

Yang Lin didn't notice this at all, and responded indifferently, "Really?"

There was no way to continue the chat, Qi Tian was afraid that if he stayed for a long time, his madness would be exposed, so he had to walk back to the bedroom slowly.Closing the door, the bone-wracking heartache came violently. He pinched his arms, waist, and thighs, but nothing worked. He wanted to smoke again, but he searched the drawers and couldn't find a cigarette.

In the end, he could only curl up on the bed, bite the corner of the quilt and endure, not letting himself growl.

He has seen his father look crazy, and he doesn't know if it's his nature or he's insane from drinking, his eyes are red, and everything he can hold is smashed to the ground.At that time, my mother ran out on her own, and didn't take Qi Tian out.Dad was full of anger and had no place to vent, so he walked up to Qi Tian viciously in the end.

The glass cup fell on the wall behind him, and the shards of glass splashed everywhere. Dad couldn't find anything in his hand, so he slapped his hands high.

Qi Tian was crying so much at that time, he bit his lips and dared not make a sound, seeing that the slap was about to fall on his face, he timidly called out "Dad".

Then his dad didn't continue to fight.Later, when he went crazy again, he smashed the things in the house, but he never thought about hitting the sky again.

So even though others look down on his father, in his heart, he still thinks his father is very good, at least much better than his mother who abandoned him.

Now he can understand his father's behavior more deeply. He is indeed a lunatic, and normal people will not be so irritable.Because he wanted to do the same now, he tried his best to restrain himself, unwilling to let out the devil in his heart.

That devil was too scary, he could see its bloody mouth with sharp fangs growing inside, and it had a hideous appearance.He was afraid that it would come out and hurt the people around him.

And if he dies, the devil will definitely die with him.

The next day he cooked a good meal.

The amount of food was almost enough for five people, and the whole table was full, but they didn't invite anyone else.Qi Tian seemed to have tasted the difference in the taste of different dishes for the first time in recent months, he ate very slowly and tasted every dish.

The man sat across from him, looking a bit sleepy and unable to lift his spirits.Qi Tian stared at him for a long time, "Xiao Lin, will you cook by yourself in the future?"

The man hesitated, "Maybe..."

"Well, if you really decide not to go home for the New Year's Eve, then you must prepare well for the New Year's Eve dinner. Don't wrong yourself." He deliberately controlled himself not to think that Yang Lin would not be alone when the New Year's Eve dinner really came. Regarding the matter, he continued on his own: "You must buy a fish that is braised in brown sauce or steamed, and the whole tail must be whole. For the rest, you can do as you like. Xiaolin's cooking skills are also very good, so it must be very good." delicious."

The man looked up at him, "Aren't you coming?"

Qi Tian smiled, "If I can come, I will."

If you die, don't you know that the soul will really exist?Or become a ghost?If I become a ghost, it would be nice to be able to stay by the man's side all the time... Ah, I don't want it anymore, I definitely can't bear to see him being in love with other people...

Qi Tian began to think wildly.