between friendship and love

After a meal, after drinking the red one, I switched to the beer one. Zhao Wen likes to drink, and she was almost drunk, and she staggered when she walked.Qi Tian helped her into the study and lay down on his bed to rest, and made her a cup of strong tea.

Zhao Wen didn't make a fuss when she was drunk, but kept frowning, as if unhappy.Qi Tian rarely saw her like this, so he asked her: "Xiaowen, what's wrong with you? Is there something uncomfortable?"

Zhao Wen shook her head and closed her eyes, "I miss my mother."

With a sore nose, Qi Tian covered her with the quilt, drew the curtains, went out and closed the door gently.

The mess on the dining table had been cleaned up, Qi Tian walked into the kitchen, Yang Lin and Rong Rong were talking and laughing while washing the dishes, he froze for a moment, and didn't go in again.

Hao Wen had already taken out his cards to play for an upgrade, and asked Qi Tian, ​​"Who are you in a team with? Let me tell you first, among us, I am the luckiest."

Zhang Yixuan laughed at him, "You are the best at cheating, right?"

Qi Tian was a little embarrassed, "I don't know how to play cards, you guys can play."

Hao Wen pulled him, "If you don't know it, I'll teach you, it's very simple."

The rules are indeed very simple, Qi Tian figured out how to play in a short time, but his luck and skills were not very good, after several rounds they still played 3, while Zhang Yixuan and Ding Yu had already reached 7.When Yang Lin and Rong Rong came out, he quickly stood up, "I may have drunk too much and feel dizzy, let them play, I won't play anymore."

Hao Wen saw that his face was indeed pale, and he didn't force it. He looked at Yang Lin and Rong Rong, "Which one of you will come? Or husband and wife together? I'll make room for you?"

"You can't spit ivory out of a dog's mouth, you, I solemnly tell you that I don't have that kind of relationship with Rongrong, so don't spread it in the future."

"Oh, Xiao Tiantian has found a partner, and you still refuse to submit? How can the number one beauty in our company not be worthy of you?"

Yang Lin smiled, "Rongrong, go and play, I'll rest for a while."

Rong Rong nodded and stared at Hao Wen, "You should play your cards carefully, don't hold me back."

"Miss Rongrong, just rest assured, I won't hold you back if I want to, and I will hold you back."

Qi Tian was really not feeling well, he was a light drinker, beer was better, and it was easy to get drunk when he drank red wine.Sitting on the sofa, because other people playing cards were noisy, he couldn't calm down, and his head hurt a little.But there is Zhao Wen in his own room, and Yang's mother sleeps in the second bedroom, so it is not easy for him to go, so he can only stay on the sofa.

Yang Lin came over and glanced at him, "Uncomfortable?"

"Ah."

"Go to my bed and have a rest, it's noisy here."

Qi Tian was stunned for a moment, his heart suddenly started beating frantically, as if it was going to burst out of his chest at such a fast pace.He wanted to refuse at first, but the temptation to get close to a man's taste was too great, so he nodded his head out of nowhere.

On the way to the master bedroom, his steps were a little wandering, so he had to walk more slowly.He had obviously entered that bedroom so many times, but he had never been so expectant and excited as this time. Even when he turned the doorknob, his fingers trembled slightly.

The bed was still the same size and soft, but there was one missing pillow, and a single pillow was placed on the right side, looking a little lonely, as if waiting for the return of the other half.Qi Tian buried himself in the quilt, and took a deep breath of the familiar smell on the quilt.This smell calmed his empty heart a little, but gave birth to a stronger hunger and thirst.

He suppressed the restlessness severely, and felt that there was no one else here, so there was no need to suppress it.He fell into Yang Lin's scent, slept soundly, and had a sweet dream.

After waking up, it was already dark, and he touched Yang Lin's pillow and Yang Lin's quilt as if aftertaste, thinking in despair when he would be able to get close like this again?Or there is no chance at all, Yang Lin said that he is looking for a boyfriend, will other people sleep on it in the future?

Not daring to think deeply about this question, he forced himself to get up, then made the bed, looked at it reluctantly, and walked out.

Yang Lin's colleagues have already gone back, Zhao Wen seems to have left, and only Yang Lin is sitting on the sofa watching TV in the empty living room.He propped his head on his arms, his eyes were half closed, and he looked a little tired.

Hearing the sound, he turned his head, "They have already left, I made porridge, are you hungry?"

Qi Tian nodded, "I'm hungry."

After quietly drinking the porridge, washing the dishes, and taking a shower, he went to the study to turn on the computer.Yang Lin has already taken the notebook back to his bedroom, and he will basically never enter this room again.

His bed has also been made, and without getting close, he can smell a scent left by a girl, which seems to be the smell of skin care products or shampoo.The smell was actually very light and not pungent, but Qi Tian felt uncomfortable, so he suddenly replaced the whole set of bedding with new ones.When carrying the quilt cover and sheets to the washing machine on the balcony, I happened to meet Yang Lin smoking.The two looked at each other without speaking, Qi Tian started the washing machine silently, and was about to go back to the study when Yang Lin asked, "Is your hand feeling better?"

Qi Tian's heart warmed up, "It's much better."

Sitting back in front of the computer, he typed more than 1 characters in one breath, and the world time in the plot became less difficult. He was so focused that he didn't even pay attention to the girl's WeChat message until the phone rang.

It's Zhao Wen.

"Are you awake? I saw you were still sleeping when I came back, so I didn't wake you up."

"Well, I'm awake already."

"So what are you doing now?"

"I'm writing a novel."

"Ah, did I bother you? Then I'll hang up first and contact you tomorrow. Goodbye."

"Bye-Bye……"

After hanging up the phone, he couldn't remember the original coherent plot anymore. He sat there for a while, then got up and went to the balcony to hang up the washed quilt cover and other things to dry.

When he walked to the balcony, he realized that Yang Lin had already aired it. He looked at the closed bedroom door, hesitated for a while, and finally went back to the study silently.

He turned off the computer, lay back on the bed, and turned off all the lights. It seemed that only being in the dark could give him a sense of security.

I don't know if it's because he slept too much during the day or what, he tossed and turned but couldn't fall asleep, and kept thinking about what Yang Lin said during the day to find a boyfriend.

He came out with his mother, saying that he could only like men, live with men for the rest of his life, and find a boyfriend...

These few words have been lingering in his mind, burning his reason, picking out the deepest thoughts in his heart, and spreading them out in front of him.He resisted desperately, but couldn't stop it.

The last sentence still floated up, and it was clearly and plainly placed in front of him, making him unable to avoid it even if he wanted to.

As long as Yang Lin spends his life with a man, he will not marry and have children, so why can't he be the one who will accompany him all his life?

As long as he is willing, he will embrace himself in his arms. His pampering can make him experience the ultimate happiness, why not respond?

What are you afraid of?What are you rejecting?If you really marry a woman, you will definitely not be happier than being with Yang Lin. Aren't parents the best example?

He couldn't figure out these problems, and was in torment, afraid to move forward, unable to retreat.