between friendship and love

Yang's mother was used to taking naps, so she went back to her bedroom to take a nap after eating and digesting.The two are in the study, one codeword and the other browsing the web.Qi Tian was a little absent-minded, typed a few lines and then deleted them all. He saw the closed door, looked at the side of the man's face, thought for a while, and said: "During this time... I will sleep Here, okay?"

Yang Lin frowned and said nothing, Qi Tian was stunned, and walked over cautiously, "Xiao Lin, do you really... really want to talk to Auntie? They are old and may not be able to accept..."

Yang Lin sneered, "Is it because they don't accept it, or you don't accept it?"

Qi Tian looked at him with complicated eyes.The man grabbed his wrist and stared at him closely, "You have been restless since my mother came, are you so afraid of being exposed about what you have done/loved with me? Are you worried that this will affect your future marriage and childbirth? ?”

"I do not have……"

"Have you never thought about getting married and having children? Impossible? You have someone in your heart, right? When my mother asked you, were you just fantasizing?"

Qi Tian opened his eyes wide in astonishment, "Xiaolin..."

"Are you wondering why I know? Qi Tian, ​​we've known each other since we were born. Don't I understand what you're thinking? Even if you secretly turn off your phone every day? Do you think I won't be able to detect it? You never used your phone before. Shut down, didn't you just shut it down because you wanted to hide something from me?"

When Qi Tian was asked by him, his eyes turned cold, his lips trembled and he couldn't speak.Yang Lin seemed to be annoyed, let go of his arm, and calmed down. "I'll still tell my mom about it because that's who I am. I've tried dating girls, but I can't get hard. I'm gay by nature. I can't change that. But don't worry, I I won't tell you what happened to you, if you want to be with a woman, you can be with a woman, if you want to sleep here, you can sleep here, I will not interfere with you anymore, and I will never... touch you again."

Qi Tian almost wondered if he had heard it wrong, he took a step back in a daze, lost in thought, "Isn't it because I...became like this?"

"Well, it's not because of you." The man's voice was deep and calm, "There are other people without you, they are born and cannot be changed." He felt tired, and the depression that had been pent up in his heart since he discovered that something was wrong with Qi Tian has not dissipated. Although he never really checked his phone, Qi Tian's expression confirmed his guess from this moment.

He felt that the love of the past ten years was like a joke, Qi Tian was like a rock, no matter how much he used his body temperature to heat it up, he couldn't get warm.And he was tired, tired.He lowered his eyes, "Xiaotian, let's resume our relationship as good friends in the future. You can stay here as long as you want, and I won't let you go." He closed his notebook, "I'm a little sleepy, go take a rest .”

Qi Tian watched helplessly as he stood up, opened the door, and walked out.He stretched out his arms to grab something, but there was nothing.

Dazedly, he fell back on the chair, Qi Tian felt a twinge of pain in his heart.The pain in his heart made him frown, and his stomach churned, making him feel like vomiting.The pressure caused his breathing to become short of breath, and it took him a long time to slow down.

My heart was empty.

The two did not show any traces in front of Yang's mother, and Qi Tian slept alone on the small bed in the study at night.Even though the bed was so small, he still felt terrible and cold, curled up, covered tightly with the quilt, still shivering from the cold.

There was no need to turn off his mobile phone, but he didn't want to reply to the messages Zhao Wen sent, instead he read all the text messages with Yang Lin several times.The content of their text messages is very small, and the topics sent by the men are basically daily such as "I have to work overtime today, I will go back later, eat by yourself first" or "I will be there soon".The last one was the three words "I'm sorry" that Qi Tian sent last time, and the man didn't reply again.

So he has been aware of his abnormality since then?

I have tried my best to hide it, but I can still be discovered by him, so he really pays attention to himself to do it, right?

Will he really not be like himself again in the future?

Even if it wasn't like that, their friendship wouldn't change, didn't he promise?

Why are you still unhappy?On the contrary, is it more uncomfortable?Didn't I originally hope to be like this?

It's not that I can't figure out this problem, but that I don't want to face it.Qi Tian covered his head with a quilt and continued to be an ostrich.

Yang Lin had a showdown with his mother on Friday night.At first, the mother had an expression of "are you kidding me", but when she saw the firmness in her son's eyes, she realized that something was wrong, and it might be true.

Yang Lin told her, "It's true, I'm gay, I can't marry women, and I can't sleep with them."

They were talking in the second bedroom. Mom went to lock the door first, and then looked back at him, "When did it happen?"

"I've discovered it since puberty. I was confused, denied it, and even went to see a psychiatrist secretly. But the doctor said it was not a disease, and there was no medicine to cure it. Mom, can you understand me?"

The mother's face was full of disbelief, and she stayed for a long time before asking: "Have you really confirmed it? You... have you slept with a man?"

Yang Lin nodded.

"Then Xiaotian... What kind of relationship do you have with Xiaotian?" Mom immediately became alert.

Yang Lin was full of bitterness, "No, we are just friends with him." He looked at his mother who seemed to have aged several years in an instant, "Mom, can you understand me?"

Mother Yang couldn't understand, but she didn't make a fuss. She packed her luggage and left at six o'clock the next morning.After Yang Lin got up, he looked at the empty room, rubbed his dry eyes, and smiled wryly.He called his mother's cell phone, but the other party hung up immediately, so he could only call his father, saying that his mother should arrive in the morning, and asked him to pick him up at the station.

Dad asked him what happened on the phone, but he couldn't say anything, he could only say that there was some conflict and his mother went back angry.Dad said a few words to him, and he listened and responded, a little helpless.

After hanging up the phone, he saw Qi Tian standing at the door of the study with a worried look on his face.

Yang Lin forced a smile at him, "My mother has gone back, but I have already invited my colleagues to have dinner, let's go to the supermarket to buy vegetables later."

Qi Tian quickly nodded, "Okay."

After they changed their clothes and had breakfast, they went to the nearby supermarket. Qi Tian sneaked a look at the man's face from time to time, and he was slightly relieved when he found that he was no different from usual except for his dark circles.But soon he remembered that this was the supermarket where Zhao Wen worked, and he wondered if he would meet her later, so he couldn't help but feel a little uneasy.

Although the man said that they had resumed their relationship as good friends, but for some reason, he didn't want Yang Lin to see Zhao Wen.

The two chose a lot of ingredients in the vegetable section, bought fruit and drinks, and then went to check out.

Coincidentally, Zhao Wen happened to be the cashier in the queue. Zhao Wen smiled happily when she saw Qi Tian, ​​"Xiao Tian, ​​are you here to buy something?"

Qi Tian didn't know what to do with his nervous hands and feet, Yang Lin thought he was excited and felt a little uncomfortable.But he didn't show it at all, instead he showed a standard smile, "Xiao Tian, ​​is this your girlfriend?"

Hearing the word "girlfriend", both of them blushed a little.Zhao Wen smiled while scanning the products, "Not yet, but I will work harder and it will be over time. Hello, my name is Zhao Wen, and you live with Xiaotian. His best friend is Bar?"

"Well, that's how he introduced me? What else did he say about me?"

"Say you're fine and take good care of him." The girl replied indifferently.

Yang Lin smiled, "Fa Xiao, I should take care of him. My name is Yang Lin, nice to meet you. When do you leave work? We have a party at noon, if you are free, would you like to come and have a meal?"

Qi Tian was startled, and quickly said: "No need..." But Zhao Wen had already agreed, "Okay, I just have to work for half a day today, and I'm worried about where to eat at noon."

Yang Lin took out his wallet and paid the bill, "Then ask Xiaotian to pick you up after get off work, bye."

"Bye-Bye."