between friendship and love

For such wanton and bold behavior of a man, Qi Tian found that he did not dislike or reject it at all, and was faintly glad that the man's attitude towards him had returned to its original appearance.

Among the group of people, only Yang Lin didn't drink, so he shouldered the task of sending the three girls home after the show.Yang Lin's car stopped at the entrance of the KTV, Qi Tian got used to the co-pilot, and the three female colleagues sat in the back.

The car was driving very slowly, Yang Lin asked for the address, and took the nearest Nana home first.The three girls on the road laughed together without knowing what they were talking about. Yang Lin asked, "What are you talking about? It's so funny?"

Nana was the most daring, she dared to say anything while she was drunk: "Your friend is really a bit stupid, you should let Rongrong sit in front and give you more opportunities to get close."

Qi Tian didn't expect that the topic was about himself, so he looked a little embarrassed.Rong Rong quickly said, "What are you talking about?"

"Oh, you are ashamed to say that my sister spoke out for you. If you don't appreciate me, forget it and call me nonsense? Let me tell you, in the future, Mr. Yang will be taken away by others, so don't come hug me and cry."

Another female colleague echoed: "That's right, if you don't go up, I can go up, I'm afraid people will look down on me. Handsome Yang, can you say something?"

Yang Lin laughed, "I'm not as knowledgeable as a drunk like you, go back and get a good sleep."

"Oh, you are messing up the water again. If you are sure, we will make the decision for you. Rongrong is yours tonight."

Rongrong hurriedly covered her mouth, but she was indeed drunk, and her body was unstable. The three of them fell into a ball, and laughed again after a while.

Weeping and howling all the way.After all three of them were safely sent home, the car became quiet, but the smell of alcohol and perfume was hard to dissipate.Qi Tian frowned, Yang Lin seemed to have noticed it, and quickly opened the window.

The cool wind came in, refreshing both of them.Yang Lin suddenly asked, "Going for a drive?"

"it is good."

At this time, it was past zero, and there were no people or cars on the street.Yang Lin drove very slowly, bypassing the commercial street, slowly drove to the riverside, and then found a parking space to stop.

There are street lights along the river, row by row, and the light reflected in the water also forms a row.A cool breeze blew slowly, twisting the hair on his forehead.The two walked down the river, and found a stone step to sit down.

Yang Lin lit a cigarette and asked him again, "Do you want one?"

Qi Tian nodded, and Yang Lin handed him the cigarette he had swallowed, and lit another one himself.

Qi Tian didn't reject the intimacy deliberately shown by men in these trivial matters, he took it and put it in his mouth clumsily, imitating a man and sucking it hard.

The taste of nicotine remained in his mouth. He didn't know how to swallow it into his lungs and then choked it out.The man quickly patted him on the back.Qi Tian frowned, "It doesn't taste good, when did you learn to smoke?"

Yang Lin thought for a while, "Very early, in the third year of junior high school."

Qi Tian was surprised, "So early?"

"Well, it was very annoying at that time. I had dreams that I couldn't understand every day, and I couldn't tell others. At that time, I watched Hong Kong movies and thought their smoking posture was very handsome. When I saw them smoking when they were bored, I secretly I ran to the commissary and bought a pack."

"Incomprehensible dreams? Nightmares?"

Yang Lin smiled at him, showing her white teeth, "Chun/Meng, with you."

Qi Tian's heart trembled, and he wanted to curse obscenely, but he held back.He hesitated for a while before asking: "So you were afraid and worried about liking me at first?"

The man nodded, "At that time, the social atmosphere was not as open as it is now, and I was only in my teens. How could I know that men in this world can still like men? Of course I would be afraid. At that time, I was always worried that something was wrong with me. , Is it terminally ill, and I am annoyed every day, so I hope I can get over it."

It was only then that Qi Tian knew that what Yang Lin had told him about "trying to cut off this relationship" was not a lie.He had never realized that Yang Lin was also afraid, fearful, and self-doubting before.He thought that a man is always going forward in everything, unlike himself who is procrastinating and hesitating in everything he does.He asked, "What happened next?"

"Later, I started to learn to smoke. Not to mention, it really relieved the pressure. As I grew up, I deliberately learned about this aspect, and realized that there are many people like me in the world. I am both It's not sick, nor weird, so I accepted it calmly." Yang Lin said with a relaxed tone, "My mother said to come over to play next week, and I plan to tell her about it."

Qi Tian was startled, "What's the matter?"

"I don't want to keep it a secret that I like men, or she will urge me to go on a blind date as soon as I go back. I think it's better to tell directly." The man stared at him closely, not letting go of any subtleties on his face. expression.

Qi Tian swallowed nervously, feeling that the alcohol seemed to spread in his mind, and felt that what he just heard was fantasy, not real at all. "Xiaolin, are you...really unable to change?"

On the way back, Yang Lin didn't talk to him again, and drove the car in silence, running very fast.A fierce cold wind poured in from the window, Qi Tian felt cold and shrank his neck.Yang Lin seemed to notice it, and frowned slightly, but closed the window anyway.

Qi Tian was a little at a loss, and he made him unhappy again.Anyone will be sad when they say it, right?He obviously wanted to come out for the sake of his future, but he didn't promise his future, instead he asked him if he could change it?

He thought of Yang Lin's sad and disappointed eyes just now, and his heart twitched.In this world, there is only this person, and he doesn't want him to be unhappy.

But I often make him unhappy, it seems that whatever I do is wrong, I don't know what to do at all.

After arriving home, Yang Lin went to take a bath first, and then took a pillow, "I'm going to sleep in the study." After speaking, he left the bedroom, entered the study and locked the door, making it too late for Qi Tian to stop him.He followed to the door of the study, "The bed here is small, should I sleep here?"

There was no response from the house, Qi Tian stood for nearly an hour before slowly walking back to the master bedroom.

With one person missing, the room suddenly felt terribly empty.He mechanically went to take a shower, then went to the study door and knocked, but did not wait for a response.

Returning to the master bedroom in a daze, lying on the bed, he took out his mobile phone and turned it on, wanting to call the man, but seeing that it was already two o'clock in the morning, and Yang Lin had to go to work again the next day, so he didn't dial the number. go out.

There were a few messages from Zhao Wen lying on WeChat, and he took pictures of the dishes he cooked for him to show, and asked him what he was doing, and could we meet at the park last time tomorrow.

It was something I was looking forward to, but now I feel dull.Qi Tian didn't reply to Zhao Wen's message. After thinking about it, he still sent a text message to Yang Lin.The three words "sorry" are still nothing new.

He knew that men didn't want to see these three words, but besides these three words, he didn't know what else to say.

Yang Lin didn't reply.

The place where the man usually lies is empty, and Qi Tian feels that there is also an empty space in his heart.Alcohol made him sleepy with a headache, and the panic and restlessness kept him awake, making him sleepless all night.

After staying up until six o'clock, Qi Tian couldn't lie down anymore. After washing, he went to the kitchen to start making breakfast.He boiled a pot of porridge and fried two poached eggs, then waited for the door of the study to open.

The door opened at [-]:[-], Qi Tian's eyes lit up, and he hurried over, "Xiaolin..."

The man just glanced at him and turned his head away, trying to go around him and go outside.Qi Tian tightly grasped his arm, his voice was pitiful, with some pleading tone, "Xiaolin, I made breakfast, eat a little before going to work, okay?"

Yang Lin closed his eyes, he will never be cruel to this person, as long as his posture softens, he can forgive anything.He hated himself for not living up to expectations, but said in his mouth: "Yeah."

"Then I'll serve the porridge, you sit down first." Qi Tian cheerfully ran to the kitchen and brought out two bowls of porridge, served with pickles and poached eggs.After sitting down, he realized that the man's eyes were bloodshot, and his eyes were blue. He couldn't help worrying, "Did you not sleep well last night? Is it okay to go to work today? Or take a day off."

Yang Lin looked at him with a deliberately indifferent tone, "Aren't you the same yourself?"

Qi Tian said flatteringly: "I can't sleep without you by my side, and I'm worried that you'll ignore me."

As expected, the man's complexion improved a lot, and his tone relaxed, "Then you are still angry with me? Don't worry about me ignoring you when you are angry with me?"

Qi Tian smiled.

The matter was exposed on the surface, and the man went to work that day.Qi Tian slept well all morning, went to the park in the afternoon and met Zhao Wen.