Conscientiously making soy sauce

Carefully turn the screwdriver to install the solar panel.Zhang Chen wiped the sweat from his forehead, he has no way to go down now, he can only climb on the beam of the house.During this period of time, his health was getting worse and worse, and it seemed that he could hear the sound of decay in his body, but after just over half an hour, he couldn't hold it anymore.

No, he can't fall down at this time.

He once promised someone something, even if that young man has long forgotten, even if he failed him, but he still has to complete it.

That was his promise, and it was the only thing he could leave behind in his life.

After the dizziness passed, he tremblingly supported the ladder and walked down step by step. When he reached the last two steps, his legs went limp. He had injured his leg during the activity, but it relapsed at this time.

The white-haired old man fell to the ground, screaming in pain, but the wind blew through the window, the house, and the empty yard full of weeds. No one heard it, and no one came to help.

Zhang Chen fell to the ground, and an ant crawled slowly in front of him, holding a piece of biscuit crumbs in its mouth, and crawled slowly, staggering.

After a long time, the pain in his feet was relieved, no longer felt like needle pricks, and he got up in embarrassment.Patting the dirt and dust on his body, before checking his legs and feet, he staggered to the wall, looked at the clock he made with trembling hands, and touched the clock with his hands that were as dry as bark full of age spots. , you need to add some parts, and you need to wait until you can move around before adjusting.

He should be in time, should be in time.

When the parts and things he asked Zhang Jianguo to buy arrive, he can adjust and polish them.

Zhang Chen patched up the wall again, so as not to let people see the clues.This thing was made for someone in his heart, and he didn't want others to know.

One piece after another, carefully, build it piece by piece.

Legs and feet were a little numb, Zhang Chen managed to stand up while leaning on the wall, walked to the cabinet, opened the drawer, and there were a few banknotes inside.Over the years, in order to see a doctor for his wife who is equivalent to a relative, the previous compensation has been used up to seventy-eight eighty-eight, and even the inheritance of parents has been spent. In order to give myself an explanation, I bought those parts and tools, the furniture and furniture in the house. Everything was sold empty and there was not much left, even the exquisite wooden doors and windows were dismantled and sold at a low price.

Even so, the money in hand is still short.

With trembling hands, Zhang Chen counted the poor banknotes over and over again.

It was still a shortcoming, he looked at the wall disappointedly, no, he had to re-plan.Tremblingly, he took out a pen and paper from the drawer, and repeated calculations over and over again under the light of the setting sun. His eyes could not see clearly, and the reading glasses were not strong enough. Unfortunately, he had no money to change them.

It's better to buy some other, other parts for that money.

The room was getting darker and darker. Zhang Chen stood up and went to the wall and pulled the pull rope. Under the dim light, he opened another drawer.

Inside was a photo pressed on glass, a black and white photo, in which were two young men standing straight in the clothes of that era.Although the facial features have been erased by the cruel hands of time, in Zhang Chen's heart, the person beside him is still so young, so gentle, with a hint of shyness in his smile.

That was... that was... the only person he had ever loved in his life, for all his life.

It is also the person he owes the most.

"Xu Jin..." The trembling voice of the old man was blown away by the wind.

He was sorry for him, and he had no face to look for him again.

Another day, Zhang Chen coughed a few times, feeling unbearable pain in his chest, like countless insects and ants gnawing on him, he coughed violently again, and spit out a mouthful of blood.Looking at the blood stains on the ground, Zhang Chen was a little dazed.

But soon, he stepped on it and hid the blood stains under the soil.

Finally got a few more parts, he can adjust it again, now the time is not accurate, every day will be a few minutes slow, and the sound has not been adjusted well.

Moonlight... His favorite Moonlight Sonata used to be, but unfortunately now it's out of tune, it sounds very permeable, even if it is installed with solar panels, it will still stop on cloudy and rainy days, and the silly pointer will not move one cent.

He knew that his requirements were a bit high. A general clock needs to be wound up 24 hours a day, while a button cell clock takes about a year or a year and a half.But he wants to do it for a long time, and he doesn't need a wind-up alarm clock for him.

This is what he once promised. Maybe he had forgotten it long ago, but he firmly put it in his heart.

The body of the clock is still rough and needs to be polished, otherwise it will be easy to scratch the hand, and the hands are not satisfactory to him, but there is no better material and parts, he can only do this.

Zhang Chen sighed and went to look at the solar panels later.Just about to stand up, he built the wall piece by piece. Now his body is weak, and he doesn't know when he will fall down.The clock was made for him, no one else needs to know.

Putting the ladder up to the beam, Zhang Chen was out of breath and the bellows was broken. He took a short rest and started to climb up. He climbed up, wondering if he should adjust the angle, or change the board?But now there is no money, this board is not cheap.Even if you cut down on food and clothing, you can't save a few dollars.

One level, another level, the pain hit his chest like a sledgehammer, the old man's eyes turned black, and he couldn't hold the ladder with his hands, and he staggered and fell directly to the ground.

bang.

The old man lay on the cold ground with his eyes closed, bleeding more and more.

The wind blows through the window and blows through the old man's white hair.

Short and long, in front of Zhang Chen's eyes are grotesque, with various gorgeous patterns flashing like a kaleidoscope.Inside...he saw him, young him, young and gentle and handsome.

Xu Jin.

Xu Jin.

Always with a gentle smile, although he grew up in an orphanage, he has been making progress. His classmate, his lover, he is the only one who has failed and the only person who has been completely hurt.

At school, by the lakeside, under the willow tree, he confessed his love to Xu Jin, causing the young man to panic for a while, but then the gentle young man still accepted him.Because at that time same-sex love was too shocking, they would always sneak a look when they met, and a small touch could make them happy for half a day.The two even discussed how to get along in the future and how to face the opposition of the world.At that time, he always comforted Xu Jin, saying that he would not get married, and that he would rather be single for the rest of his life than let him down.

Xu Jin has always been poor, so he gave Xu Jin a watch, a Seagull watch, a watch that needs to be wound.Because Xu Jin was not used to it, he was the one who helped wind the clockwork every time.

The youth will sit quietly on the side and watch him quietly, while the second hand of the watch is passing steadily bit by bit, like the years, like a stable mood.

But everything changed in the end, everything changed.

He was taken back to his hometown and forced to marry, and his family even wrote a letter directly destroying the youth's job and future.Forced by his parents to die, he was powerless, tied up and worshiped, and forced to have a wife. When his mother stood on a stool and tied a rope to the beam, he was forced to write a cruel and heartless letter. He was just playing with Xu Jin, writing that he didn't like him at all, writing about how disgusting he was, writing that he was going to get married soon, and writing that he should not pester him anymore.

It's just that he has never shared a room with his wife. He originally thought of taking it easy, slowly convincing his parents when the time comes, and then settling the innocent girl.

But it was too late, too late.

The activity was like a storm, and his family did not escape. Several years of prison and heavy physical labor completely destroyed his body.When he returned to his hometown, his parents were both dead, and his wife took care of his parents.At this time, how did he say that he wanted to divorce his wife, how did he say to find another person?

Later... Later, his wife became seriously ill, and he couldn't leave.

He obeyed his parents, and he took responsibility for his wife, but he failed the person he loved the most from beginning to end.

The person he loves the most.

Without relatives, with his future ruined and people criticizing him, how should he live his life?

He ruined him, not giving a shred of hope.

The screen changes faster and faster, and finally freezes at the moment when they met for the first time.In the school, under the sunlight, the simple-dressed young man raised his head slightly, the sunlight illuminated his brows and eyes, and he felt that time was stagnant.

"Hi, my name is Xu Jin."

"Hi, I'm Zhang Chen."

The old man was lying on the ground, gradually losing his breath. He was still holding the wrench tightly in his hand, thinking that he could finally adjust the alarm clock.

His Xu Jin never remembers to wind it up. He once said that he would make him an alarm clock that he would never have to worry about.

Unfortunately, none of the promises he made to him were ever fulfilled.

In March, the spring breeze blows green willows and powders peach trees. Xu Jin is tidying up his home and is going to a nursing home in a few days.He didn't want to drag Zhuang Yuan down at his age, he was a good boy, and he shouldn't be busy all the time.All the books are left to the child, his pension is enough to cover the expenses of the nursing home, and a little money saved will be left to the child after death.

Even if the child doesn't need it, it's still in his mind.

He didn't know what was playing on the TV. He turned it on casually to make the empty room a little noisy. Although he had long been used to being lonely, far away from others, and being pointed out by others, he still turned on the TV.I heard that the book written by Zhuang Yuan's child was photographed, so he went to read it when he was free.

That kid is good, but he can't be fooled by bad guys.When the time comes, he can only continue nagging, he doesn't want Zhuang Yuan to be like him.

I went to the balcony to collect clothes, and there was a strange sound in a certain house on the TV. I talked about the village's sayings, and I talked about the deep affection and righteousness of the owner of the house for his wife, who has taken care of him for many years.Then reveal the secret is the clock hidden in the wall, and finally the narrator himself made a clock for his dead wife, lamenting the master's deep affection.

Xu Jin heard the last two sentences vaguely, but didn't pay attention to them.

By the time he walked into the living room, the show had already finished.

He opened the drawer, and there was a seagull watch in it. He smiled and shook his head, and put it aside, no need, no need.

In the spring breeze and March, two people once met and knew each other.

But now the obsession of a certain person in hell has not been known to the person he has loved all his life. In the end, what others are feeling is his feelings for his wife. No one has ever known that the half-dead person died Missing, so painfully missing is another person, no one knows, he saves himself in order to fulfill the promise he once made to someone.

Irony, how ironic.

Nobody knows.

And Xu Jin...doesn't know, never knew, and never will know again.

He once experienced a love that was secretly and carefully so that his heart could fuse together, but he was betrayed in the dark, he was pointed at, his future was ruined, and he fled in embarrassment. He even attempted suicide several times.

Life is too hard, too hard.

too painful.

In the end, all the joys and sorrows, all the emotional turmoil were blown away like that, leaving him alone, leaving him deserted and lonely.He even forgot that person's face, forgot that person's name, forgot that the two of them listened to the Moonlight Sonata and blushed secretly, forgot that person once laughed and said he was confused, forgot that person promised I want to give him a clock that doesn't wind up as long as I live.

It's just that he will forget to wind the clock until the end of his life.

Mistakes, fate tricks people, is a lifetime.

It is a lost life.

The author has something to say: Uncle Xu's life

Zhang Chen's life

By mistake, by accident

Uncle Xu didn't even know until the end