don't pass time

Sunny Sunday, April 20, 4XX

In the afternoon, I stood in front of the corridor window and saw the afterglow of the setting sun.

But this school has too many trees and they are all broken when the light comes in.

I can only stay in this building now.

This building is full of resentment and dirty.

I asked that person to bring me a diary. I actually don't know what is the point of writing a diary now.

But I just wanted to keep something else.

What answer am I waiting for?

Friday, November 20, 11XX Overcast

It's the last diary.

There is no reluctance, the world is too dirty.

Why should I be reluctant.

When I wrote this sentence, I seemed to hear Wu Xingchen's voice.

I don't know, he would be better off without me.

He's free without me.

What should I do, such a dirty world, such a dirty me...

I really... don't want to bear it any longer.

I am sorry.

The diary is very thick, and it seems that it has been written intermittently for a long time. After reading the last two articles, Lu Yuan felt a little confused, so he started browsing from the beginning.

Rain on Friday, May 20, 5XX

He didn't perform well on stage and was beaten.

The wound does not feel pain.

Bloody and dirty.

Saturday, March 20, 3XX was cloudy

Today, when I was sneaking away, I bumped into Wu Xingchen in the school class.

very gentle.

I was very scared, and overheard the class leader saying that he would sell me to that fat man.

So dirty.

I would rather die.

Overcast to cloudy on Monday, October 20, 10XX

It was the happiest day I can remember.

Wu Xingchen said that we are friends.

Light rain on Friday, November 20, 11XX

Got stuck in the toilet.

Humiliation is a mad weed.

Remember this day forever.

I just think about it.

How can there be such a dirty person.

I saw Wu Xingchen at the door, then turned around and ran away.

He was the one who rescued me.

Sunny Tuesday, May 20, 5XX

Someone said that you are so good-looking, you should live with pride.

I can't remember the man's face.

But living in such a dirty world, what is there to be proud of?

Sunny Tuesday, May 20, 8XX

My throat is broken.

Wu Xingchen took care of me.

He said he was chipping in.

Let's go to college together.

Rain on Sunday, May 20, 5XX

We made an appointment to escape together tomorrow.

With him, anything is possible.

It doesn't seem so bad to be alive.

Rain on Thursday September 20, 9XX

It's so dirty here.

Why didn't Wu Xingchen come to save me?

The ten-year-long diary, on and off, records all about abuse, school violence, obscenity, being sold... Lu Yuan's heart is chilled, Chen Xu always likes to mention a line in one sentence, each diary is A few intermittent words.Lu Yuan didn't know why he insisted on writing down these dirty things since he was so sad, and he didn't know what kind of mood he was holding when he wrote these words. .

Lu Yuan looked up at Yan Lang in a daze, Yan Lang was speechless, and said after a while: "After Chen Xu jumped off the building, Wu Xingchen became abnormal, probably because of guilt."

"Guilty?"

"I guessed it." Yan Lang smiled wryly, "If I were Wu Xingchen, I would feel guilty too. The other party could hand over his life to me, but I didn't do anything, and pushed him into the fire."

Lu Yuan was puzzled: "But Wu Xingchen didn't do anything to offend him, did he?"

Yan Lang shook his head: "Before Chen Xu was brought to Wang's family, he made an appointment with Wu Xingchen to run away together. Why don't you say they didn't run away?"

There seemed to be an answer in his heart, Lu Yuan firmly ignored that thought, and shook his head: "Why?"

Yan Lang knew that he had guessed it, and he looked at Lu Yuan with pity: "The person who sent Chen Xu to Wang Quan was Wu Xingchen's uncle."

The sky outside the window had darkened at some point, it was still morning, but it seemed to be dusk, a bolt of lightning tore through the sky, illuminating Yan Lang's expressionless face.He was still cruelly peeling back the film that covered the truth: "Chen Xu probably didn't know until his death. On the morning when he agreed to escape, it was Wu Xingchen, whom he had been thinking about, who revealed his whereabouts."

Rumbling, the belated thunder exploded in the sky.

So, Chen Xu borrowed my breath to take revenge?Lu Yuan thought.

"The world is so dirty. Chen Xu has seen clearly since he was a child that everything is dirty, and the dirtiest thing is the human heart." Yan Lang said in a steady voice, "Whether Wu Xingchen commits suicide or not, Chen Xu wants to push him personally." To die, human nature, understandable."

Yan Lang agreed in his heart, so if he really wanted revenge, I wouldn't think he was wrong, and neither would Wu Xingchen.You don't know, in fact, I am the same person as Wu Xingchen, and I haven't died for a long time not because I don't want to, but because I can't die.Sometimes it is obviously more difficult to live, Wu Xingchen can still escape, but I can't.

Because there is still you.

No, no, Lu Yuan also shook his head in his heart, it's too arbitrary, it's not like this.Chen Xu is not stupid. If he doesn't say or write, it doesn't mean he doesn't know anything.But he is willing to believe, as long as he believes, he will definitely have no complaints.

The two of them had their own unspeakable concerns, watching a heavy rain pouring down.I thought it was just a thunderstorm, which would stop soon, but the sky hadn't come back after noon.

The atmosphere has become very strange, which has never happened before. This kind of embarrassment is different from Lu Yuan's restraint at the beginning because of his status as an elder. It is a kind of hostility caused by differences in fundamental views.

Lu Yuan thought for no reason that Chen Xu would not want Wu Xingchen to die, not to mention borrowing his own aura to take action. He didn't know why Yan Lang believed that it was Chen Xu who killed Wu Xingchen, even though he knew Wu Xingchen Participated in the suicide game, knowing that Wu Xingchen wanted to die in the first place.

At the same time, Yan Lang is also delving into his own heart, he understands that he is selfish.As a bystander, he should be as calm as ever, because it is not surprising that he has seen too many disgusting things than this, but after staying with Lu Yuan, he can't help substituting in, which is beyond his own prediction.He always felt that if Chen Xu took action himself, he would feel much better, and Wu Xingchen would also feel more at ease.

He doesn't want people like Chen Xu who blindly believe in anyone and don't change. He hopes that the people he cares about can understand that whoever hurts you can hurt you back without worrying about who that person is.

He said silently in his heart: "In the final analysis, until now, I am still the most selfish person. I am not selfishly begging for forgiveness, but selfishly expecting to be hurt. Because I feel guilty, I suffer, and I get revenge." , probably also a relief."

The free time waiting for the night to see the truth was stretched extremely long by the low pressure of the rainy day.Lu Yuan read Chen Xu's diary over and over again, guessed his thoughts carefully, and fell asleep on the sofa without knowing it.

He dreamed of those two again.

In the dream, he was no longer one of them, but a transparent bystander.In the dream, it was dark all around, only where the two of them were could still be seen clearly, like a faint chasing light covering the stage.The two of them were fighting for some reason, and the young man who looked about his age was wearing a green robe and red eyes, attacking blindly, with a ferocious expression on his face.The good-looking man was dressed in black clothes, and he frowned in response.

This time Lu Yuan was vaguely aware that he was dreaming, and he watched the two people fighting each other for a long time, but he became anxious because he found that the man in Xuanyi seemed to be afraid of hurting the other party, and he was restrained everywhere. One has accidentally been cut through the front of the opponent's palm.

The bloody smell permeated the air, and the young man in Tsing Yi seemed even more excited, using his hand as a claw, and rushed towards the opponent menacingly.However, the man in black didn't seem to want to fight back or defend himself. Lu Yuan saw the knife in his hand disappear, as if he was just waiting for this moment, waiting for the boy in green to bump into him.

The man received the young man's impact with a hugging posture, Lu Yuan clearly saw his hand stretched behind the young man, as if he understood his intention, Lu Yuan was so anxious that he wanted to shout: "Your trick doesn't work!"

Not to mention that Lu Yuan couldn't make a sound even when he opened his mouth. Before he opened his mouth, the man in black clothes had already covered the young man's neck with his hands.

After a moment of silence, the man spat out a mouthful of blood.

It seems that he was seriously injured by the last blow from the boy's whole body.

Lu Yuan couldn't help but took a step forward, wanting to see his injuries, but the man suddenly raised his head and looked at him with sharp eyebrows and staring eyes.Lu Yuan felt a sudden suffocation in his chest, unable to breathe as if he was drowning.

Struggling to wake up, his chest was beating like a drum after suffocation, Lu Yuan opened his eyes and found that Yan Lang was kneeling on the sofa and looking at him.Seeing him wake up, the anxious expression on Yan Lang's face disappeared for a moment, and he said, "Is it a nightmare again?"

The last look of the man in black looking at him suddenly appeared in Lu Yuan's mind. He didn't forget that face as soon as he woke up this time. He clearly remembered that it was a face he had never seen in reality, but there was a pair of familiar eyes.After a few seconds, the image became blurred again, no matter how much he recalled, he couldn't see it clearly anymore.

Seeing that he didn't speak for a long time, Yan Lang's heart was flustered, but he heard him smile easily: "It's nothing."

After Lu Yuan finished speaking, he turned his eyes away, and saw that it was getting brighter outside, but the sound of rain had not stopped.In fact, the moment he woke up and saw Yan Lang, he already felt a lot more at ease, it was the feeling of coming home after being away for a long time.

The rain gradually decreased from heavy to dark, and the two of them went out in the rain, and halfway through the rain stopped completely.

Everything is silent, and the cool breeze in the middle of the summer night is born from the ground. It is a good time to listen to heartbreak.

Yan Lang took Lu Yuan directly to the corner of the stairwell on the first floor of the residential building. Under the dim light, Yan Lang said: "There is an old formation in the building, called the backtracking formation. It should have been done by a psychic before us. The same thing, here is the formation eye. After activation, the whole building is separated from yin and yang, and the living can no longer hear any movement of us, and vice versa."

Lu Yuan nodded: "How?"

Yan Lang conjured up a tracking talisman out of nowhere, and Lu Yuan found out that he had just drawn the talisman this morning, Yan Lang stuck the talisman on his diary and laughed: "I will also use your spiritual power to suppress it."

Lu Yuan proudly said "You're welcome", and at the same time made up his mind to draw better next time.Yan Lang smiled happily, which was regarded as an answer to Lu Yuan's words.A blue flame emerged from his finger, burning the old thing with the spell on it. The flame quickly swallowed the diary and clothes and fell to the ground.Yan Lang raised his hand, and at some point there was a cut on his index finger. With a little force, the blood that had just condensed fell into the flames.

At that moment, the flames disappeared.From the place where the blood drop fell as the center, there was light invisible to the naked eye like ripples, which quickly spread to the entire old building and covered the entire backtracking array.

The author has something to say:

The sun is out, be happy!

Just a second after I typed these words, I received a message. I suddenly realized that I had to do a lot of things, and I couldn’t be happy for a moment.

Those who have to take exams and hand in homework, those who have to do class presentations, those who go to work, those who write papers, all work hard hahahaha

Some things in Chen Xu's diary were described in violation of the regulations, so the revisions are a bit careless, please forgive me.