funeral

Heishi believes that there are many people who have been wronged and wronged in his life. Wouldn't it be too selfish to die easily before paying off the debt of favor?

So he always told himself to live well, for those who owed them.

Today is the 15th, and Heishi got up early to pick up the goods at the flower shop at the intersection, a bouquet of roses and a bouquet of margaritas.

Roses are for favors, and Marguerite is my sister's favorite.

Heishi has a younger sister named Eri, who is his only relative in this world and the person he is most sorry for in his life.

Things go back more than ten years ago, when Heishi was only 13 years old.

The family returned from a trip that day, and their father accidentally crashed the car into the guardrail in order to avoid the wild dogs that suddenly jumped out while driving.

It was a serious accident, the car and the guardrail were completely deformed.

Heishi heard his sister crying in a coma, and opened his eyes vigorously.Eri cried and told him that she was in pain, because the deformed guardrail was stuck in the car, squeezing her back.

The 13-year-old Heishi didn't have much strength, so he had to ask his parents in the front seat for help, but they didn't respond after shouting for a long time.

In desperation, he had to try to climb out of the car, hoping to run to the main road and find someone to help.But the violent impact caused severe head injuries, and he passed out after walking a few steps.

They were eventually rescued by passing vehicles.

In the accident, both Heishi's parents died, and his younger sister injured her spine due to excessive pressure on her back, resulting in permanent/paralysis.

Since then, Heishi has fallen into deep self-blame. He believes that it is his fault that his sister has become like this. It is because he has no strength to open the guardrail, and he is unable to find someone to help in time.

Eri is only 4 years old, and there is still a long way to go, but as a real brother, he ruined her life like this.

This is a debt he can never repay in his life.

"Say hello to your sister for me!"

"Well, I will definitely convey it well!"

After bidding farewell to the florist, Heishi continued on the road. Today's destination is a private sanatorium.

After the death of their parents, the two brothers and sisters began to move among relatives in various households, but whenever it was their turn to take over, the kind people before would appear not so happy.It's no wonder that the two extra mouths in vain, besides being able to eat, can also add to a mess.

The paralyzed Eri couldn't live like a normal person, especially in the first few years, she often stained the sheets due to incontinence, and they complained openly and secretly.

Then, there are tuition fees, treatment fees...all kinds of money-related issues.

In the cynicism again and again, Heishi understood a truth - money is a wonderful thing, it can make strangers intimate, and it can also make blood relatives ugly.

So after reaching the legal age, Blackstone began to make money desperately.For Eri, only for Eri.

Five years ago, he met a professor through a client introduction. The other party said that he was researching on spinal injuries. If successful, he would have the ability to make paralyzed people walk again.

Although he didn't know how credible the man's words were, but for Eri, Heishi was willing to spend money to try.He arranged for his sister to enter the other party's private hospital for treatment at any time.

It's just that the cost after that is extremely expensive, and it's far from affordable to just walk away/bootleg drinks.In desperation, Heishi began to cooperate with others to sell synthetic drugs in the night market.

He doesn't regret it at all.

The appearance of the nursing home is imposing, and it feels like the money has really been invested in the right place.

Eri's room is located on the top floor, separated from other people and equipped with 24-hour personal care.Although he didn't want to admit it, Heishi knew that his sister had a bad personality. Maybe it was because she had no friends since she was a child and seemed quite withdrawn.

When Heishi walked, he saw someone coming out of the room, and he stepped forward to stop him.

"Miss Peach!"

"Ah, Mr. Heishi...you came early today too!"

The girl named Momo was one of Eri's special caretakers, trying to smile at him.

Noticing that the other party's eye sockets were slightly red, Heishi quickly took out a tissue.

"Is it... Eri lost her temper with you again?" He asked cautiously.

"No...it's my fault, I took Miss Eri's dried flowers without authorization."

"I'm sorry, I apologize to you on her behalf... Eri doesn't understand anything, please don't bother with her..." Heishi handed the rose, "You are all very important to me, no matter which , I don’t even want to lose.”

Heishi feels that he is a complete scum at this moment, he doesn't love Tao Zi, and he can't give her everything she expects.

He was just using unfulfilled promises in exchange for her loyalty so that his sister would be treated with care.

I'm afraid there is no one worse than him in the world...

Kuroishi came to visit in the ward, and found that Eri was putting dried flowers into the glass bottle in a serious manner.

"These bottles are so beautiful, did Miss Peach collect them for you?"

Eri nodded and continued with the work at hand.

"It's obviously something to be thankful for, why make her sad?"

"Because you have to pretend to be effective," Eri said with a serious expression, "Even if you're an older brother, it won't work."

Although he couldn't understand what his sister was saying, Heishi still smiled dotingly. In his opinion, Eri's happiness is the most important thing.

The dried flowers are almost arranged, and Eri is a little tired.Heishi watched her fall asleep beside the bed, and then reluctantly kissed her forehead.

See you next month, little one, and bring your favorite snacks.

After visiting his sister, Heishi came to Uchida's apartment, and almost everyone who worked with him was present.

Most of them were peers and juniors in school, and they gradually formed small groups in the process of engaging in scattered businesses, and then dabbled in synthetic drugs.

Although he knew that they were all voluntary, Heishi believed that he was mainly responsible for how things turned out like this.So he made up his mind that no matter what happened, he would do his best to protect these people.

"This is a new product that just arrived yesterday." Heishi took out a box from his bag, which contained various kinds of pills, which looked no different from ordinary candies at first glance.

The person next to him stretched out his hand to play with it, but he stopped it with a smile, "Although the appearance is cute, the effect is amazing, and it is said that it also has the effect of aphrodisiac...I will send it to you at night."

"Have you figured out the location yet?" Kuriyama asked.

"Well," Heishi nodded, "Go to RED-Bar and try first."

"Hey, that's a very famous GAY bar!" Uchida patted Heishi's shoulder vigorously, with a wretched and obscene smile, "It's really you!"

"That's just one of the reasons. The special tune over there is also the goal of tonight."

Their daily life is smuggling alcohol and synthetic drugs, and occasionally trying to mix them themselves.The private brews in some bars are always very attractive, and many customers come here just for this drink, so once the debugging is successful, more people will come to them to place orders.

This task may seem difficult at first glance, but Heishi has a junior with an excellent sense of taste. He can remember the taste after tasting it once, and he can even distinguish the ingredients in it. He is especially sensitive to wine.

After calculating the time, he should be on vacation, why didn't he come over to play... Was it because he was so entangled by that person?

Thinking of Heishi's look a little lonely here, he also accidentally learned that Kawase was entangled with a man.

To Kawase, he is a reliable senior, but to Heishi, Kawase is a very subtle existence.

When he first heard the news, Heishi's heart was full of resentment, but gradually, he became jealous, jealous that that man could have the complete Kawase, jealous that he could taste the unknown side of Kawase.

Such a weird and distorted emotion, maybe it is "like"?

RED is a fairly established GAY bar in the city, with a more blatant nature than others of its kind.

"Ah, it's amazing..."

As soon as he entered the arena, Uchida stared dumbfounded at the muscular gigolos on the stage. The coquettish lights projected on the masculine body, and there was subtle harmony in the conflict.The occlusion of the dancer's lower body seems to be deliberately chosen to be one size smaller, which outlines the already visually impactful outline and is more conspicuous.

The rotten electronic music is like a rhythmic current, passing through the eardrum, stimulating everyone's nerves one by one.

The breath mixed with perfume and male/hormones is passed around, clamoring for the passion/desire that urgently needs to be vented.

This is a world that couldn't be more straightforward.

Heishi took Kuriyama to inquire about the market, and repeatedly asked the others to take good care of Kawase.Ever since they entered the arena, they have been shrouded in malicious eyes, which made Heishi quite unhappy. If it wasn't for the inconvenience of work, he really wanted to keep them by his side.

However, he didn't consider that Uchida's nerves have always been strong, and he always mixed medicines and food, which caused Kawase to take the new medicine by mistake this time, and ran into the crowd while everyone was not prepared.

After hearing the news, Heishi didn't have time to pay any more attention, and just frantically searched for it.It's dangerous for Kawase to be here, not to mention taking that kind of medicine, if he encounters someone who is in trouble... he can't even think about it.

Such anxiety and panic made Heishi seem to have returned to more than ten years ago.

I can't lose any more...

At the door of the bar, Heishi finally found the delirious Kawase.At the same time, there was another man who seemed to know Kawase and insisted on taking him to the hospital.In order to avoid more troubles, Heishi coaxed and deceived the person away, but fortunately, the person did not become suspicious.

Heishi sent Kawase back to the apartment, the effect of the psychedelic medicine had passed, but the real trouble began to conceive.

Kawase Tong blushed, grabbed the black stone incoherently, and kept shouting uncomfortable.

Heishi knew what the other party wanted, but he couldn't bear to take advantage of others' danger, so he had to look away in pain.

"Senior...Senior..." Kawase's eyes were blurred, and he took his hand to stroke his chest.

Kawase has a thin body and delicate skin like a girl's. The two protrusions began to stand upright under the rubbing, like cherries dipped in honey, which makes people want to lick/lick.

Seeing this, Heishi immediately withdrew his hands, ran to the bathroom and poured cold water on his face continuously.After he calmed down, he silently examined himself.

The man in the mirror was embarrassed and cowardly, he could be said to be a complete loser.

But he obviously worked harder than anyone else to live, what went wrong?

In order to make up for Eri, he owed more favors, and the rest of his time seemed to exist to repay these, just like lying to make a lie.

He never told anyone about his exhaustion, nor did he show his vulnerability, but sometimes he felt that he really couldn't bear it.

So can there be a moment for him to forget about these for a while, forget the original intention of his hard work, and live only for himself?

...is that ok?

Only tonight is fine, he only needs this night.

Thinking of this, Heishi silently turned on the shower.

The author has something to say:

This is a side story about Black Stone. Looking at the world from his perspective, it is actually not easy for everyone.

Heishi is a very complicated and contradictory person, extremely selfless and selfish.He values ​​friendship and can do everything for others, but the source of all these desperate efforts comes from his sister, so once the sister dies, the belief that supports him is gone, and the remaining favors that need to be repaid will also be lost. significance.

Just like telling a lie to complete a lie, trying to tell other lies to complete the first lie, but when the first one is exposed, those lies that exist for it are meaningless, and there is no need to correct it anymore, and there is no need to tell it anymore.

So when his sister died, he naturally gave up on Uchida and the others, and at the same time chose to commit suicide.I think it might be a relief for him.

Regarding the sister’s obsession with Marguerite’s dried flowers in the article, there is actually a legend like this:

"If you prepare a bottle, and on every moonlit night, gently say a word of blessing to a dried Marguerite flower, and then put it in the bottle, with this bottle of dried flower, he can have eternal love." Healthy, even sick will eventually heal"

The person who met Kawase at the entrance of the bar was Ito. The story is interspersed with Ito coming out of the clubhouse introduced by Kirishima, and then went to the bar to hunt for beauty, and ran into Kawase here by chance.It's completely soy sauce, hahahaha.

Kawase and Kuroishi, I always wanted to form a hidden CP, and this time I finally achieved it.Isn't Kawase's image of seduction/suffering amazing?Ah, the full version has to go to blog or Weibo.

As a scumbag artist, I will add another black stone figure. .I can't draw the muscles, let's just make do with it, poof