[tutor] my wife

A few days ago, Buonarrotti's headquarters.

The sunlight slowly projected into my eyes, and Rodel, who had been waiting by my side, helped me up from the bed, and let me half lean on the pillow with a worried expression on my face.

"How's the situation?" I asked softly after taking a sip of the warm water he handed over.

The long-dried throat was moistened by water in an instant, and the hoarseness was also slightly relieved.

"The results of the physical examination have come out. The doctor said that your body..." Rodel choked up for a while, and said with great determination: "Because it is difficult to control and the super-powerful flame is loaded, so, so..."

He didn't continue talking, and I roughly understood what he meant.

In fact, I have been self-conscious for a long time, since the first time I burst out endless flames.From the first time I lit the flame for my family, I knew that my control over the flame was not as good as I thought it would be.It's like a raging fire meeting dry wood, rubbing shoulders lightly, bursting out extremely dazzling sparks and energy.

This extreme power did not give me a sense of security, but instead gave me a sense of emptiness.

Because the power is too strong, I can't control it.

The reason why I fainted, but also because of this.I also felt that my body was like a wooden barrel with holes, and the energy inside was pouring out continuously, which could not be suppressed.One day, I will be drained of energy.

"I see." I nodded slightly, looking at the white curtains blown by the wind outside the window.

Perhaps surprised by my indifference, Rodel was a little sullen: "Since the leader knows his physical condition, why should he force himself!"

Yeah, why... because I don't want the Buonarrotti house to be ruined by me.How much ardent hope my father had placed on the family, how could I let it be shattered.

"It's not forced." I shook my head: "This power should belong here." It just brings me destruction.

"Then you can't hurt your own body just because of this!" Rodel's voice raised a few loudness: "If there is anything, we will help you, the leader! Why are you doing this!! Is there no such thing in this world? Do you want something to miss!"

The thing you are nostalgic for...?

I lowered my eyes, and the tall figure appeared in my mind, and the eye sockets were slightly moist.

Of course there is, it's just... I can't go back.From the day Bai Lan left, I knew that there was no going back.From the time I left Gabrielone and signed the divorce agreement, all this was like a joke of fate, and there is no turning back.

Because I am not only sorry for Mr. Dino, but also for Bai Lan.

Bai Lan is dead, even though I didn't kill him with my own hands, it doesn't make any difference.

That's right, in the eyes of everyone, he is a bad guy, and he deserves to die.But when I met Kikyo in the dungeon, I realized just how lonely Bai Lan is.

Although I always do things that embarrass me and make me hate him when I wake up, but whenever I get hurt, he will always guard me every step of the way, and never leave me if it is not necessary. leave.

There are always my favorite dishes on the dinner table, my favorite books are always prepared in the room, and I always have a smile when talking to me... I always know what I am thinking and what I blame.

It's not that I don't know how much this man loves me.

All he did was to hope that I would cut off everything in the past, whether it was stabbing Mr. Dino or others, he just hoped that I would live well, even if he had died.

"Because if you leave it alone, you will definitely leave this world out of self-blame."

"However, if you use this method to make you remember me, it is also a kind of luck."

You have guessed everything, Bai Lan.

When I calmed down and thought about it, I blamed myself immensely.No one deserves to die, no matter how many things he does wrong.

But this is just my wishful thinking, and it was only after Bai Lan died.If Bai Lan was still alive, I would never have thought of this, so let's live with resentment.

"leader……"

Rodel's words brought me back to my senses, I turned my head to look at him, and just smiled reluctantly.

"Rodel, I think the biggest mistake in my life is probably stepping into the world of the mafia."

If I hadn't met Mr. Dino in the first place, none of this would have happened, and it had nothing to do with me.

"Leader?" Rodel's expression became more worried.

"I'm fine. I won't die easily until I fail to accomplish something. Although the flame will slowly consume me, as long as I don't use it, it has a chance to make up for it."

Yes, I still haven't finished the task that Bai Lan entrusted to me, and I must rescue Kikyo, even if it burns my life.

Sometimes I don't understand why I have to do this, but I just feel uneasy, and I just can't let go.

So when the flame burned my body, I never regretted it.

All of this seemed like a lengthy dream. When I opened my eyes again, I was struck by strange illusions and powerlessness.

"Doctor, how is Lucia?"

It was Mr. Dino's voice.I turned my head slightly and saw that he was talking to the doctor with his back turned to me.

"Mr. Dino, we have really tried our best." The doctor's tone was almost desperate: "The energy in the patient's body has been slowly exhausted. Although there were traces of temporary suppression before, this outbreak almost made her Everything is exhausted. It's like a barrel with a hole in it..."

"Why is this so?" It was Tsunayoshi Sawada who asked the question.

"Probably due to the excessive use of flames, and the patient's natural physique. Although the patient has a strong flame energy storage, he cannot ignite it. Because he cannot control the flame well, it makes the flame run wild, and his body's energy supply is replenished. If you don’t make such a big gap, it will become like this over time. And this kind of runaway will become more and more intense with the number of times the flames are lit, and the supply of life energy is also limited, so..." Speaking of Here the doctor sighed.

"Is there no remedy?" Sawada Tsunayoshi spoke again.

"I'm sorry, chief, but with the current medical situation in the world, we can't find a suitable solution. Because the patient is already in an extremely weak state. Although I don't know how the patient persisted until now, but, I think, the patient If the energy is no longer used in the future, and only the life energy provided by the patient itself is used, the patient can probably live for about a year."

...! !

As soon as these words came out, everyone fell into silence.

"You already knew about the situation, didn't you, Lucia?"

Li Baoen, who had been silent all this time, jumped onto my bed, staring at me with a pair of black eyes.

After seeing Li Baoen's movements, everyone realized that I had woken up.Facing Mr. Dino's worried expression, I just slightly raised the corners of my mouth.

"Well, I know." I looked at Liboen, and said calmly: "I have noticed it since I brought Youni back from a far away place. At that time, the feeling of powerlessness almost collapsed made me I found something unusual about the body."

"Lucia...you..."

"Also, Bai Lan's training for me is not to let me burst into powerful flames to fight, but to hope that I can control my own flames. It's just a pity that no matter how I control it, I still can't suppress the flow of energy .”

"Yuni, you also know about this, right!" Li Baoen said in a low tone.

"Yes." I nodded.

"So you two are trading your lives for everything now." Li Baoen could not hear any emotion in his voice.

I also kept silent.

Yuni once said to me that a transparent flame that dyes and changes burns inside me.Later, she also said to me that people with this kind of flame often have a short life, either because they are involved in different flames and die of internal restraint, or they die because they cannot control it.The causes of death are various, but as short-lived as Dakong's Rainbow Son, it is the same.

"Well, this is all your own decision." Li Baoen said, jumped off my hospital bed nimbly, and then left with Sawada Tsunayoshi and his party, leaving only me and Mr. Dino Individuals, looking at each other.

Neither of us probably knew what to say, so we just kept silent.