Gardenia ABO

A month later, into the real heat.

Chen Ye was standing in a small alley with a shopping bag in his hand.He reached out and knocked on the door, but there was no movement for a long time.Unwilling to give up, Chen Ye continued to knock twice on the dilapidated anti-theft door. He approached and whispered, "It's me, Chen Ye."

Both sides of the door frame were covered with traces of rust, and when the door was opened, there was a blunt "squeak" as usual.

In the narrow and dark space, the pale Ji Mu pursed his lips weakly at Chen Ye: "Chen Ye, why are you here?"

"I don't worry about you! In my shabby internship place, the interns are only given one day off every month. I will come to see you when I have time. Have you eaten properly recently? Why do you look so thin?" Chen You squeezed through the door with difficulty, and put the shopping bag in your hand on the table, almost all of it was food.

He turned on the light and clearly saw the bandage on Ji Mu's neck, his palms were slightly numb: "Does the wound still hurt?"

Ji Mu sat on the edge of the bed and shook his head.His mental state is not good, his body is not good, and he can't speak.

A month ago, in order not to be found by the Ji family, he asked Chen Ye, the only friend he could contact in country C.

Fortunately, Chen Yi's family always hides from debts, and is the best at finding a place to live.He helped Ji Mu find a small rental house in the small town next to his hometown. Although it was a bit dilapidated, the place was really hard to find.When he came, Ji Mu also came here in Chen Ye's private car, without leaving any footprints.

Meanwhile, something seemed to happen to Han Sen, which was related to Ji's family, and he couldn't come to Country C for a while.After Ji Mu found out, he felt uneasy, and naturally thought that Han Sen was also implicated by him.But there was nothing he could do. The only thing he could do was to unilaterally cut off his contact with Han Sen.

He is finished, and Han Sen cannot be dragged down.

Since Yuan Limei was able to control Ji Feng ruthlessly, what would she be afraid of if Han Sen was just a mere Han Sen?Yuan Limei will not let him go, and Gu Yuanchen may want to seek justice for Ji Mu... He doesn't know how long he can hide, he is at a loss.

But there is only one thing, he is clear——

The only way to make Gu Yuanchen less angry is to take the initiative to remove the marks on the back of his neck.After all, this is Gu Yuanchen's last request to him. Ji Mu has done so many things to sorry Gu Yuanchen, and he doesn't want to let the other party spurn even this.

Mark cannot maintain his love with Gu Yuanchen, Mark can only help the shameless Ji family.

He thought, it would be good to cut it off.

Ji Mu's heart was ashamed, he found a private clinic that could perform surgery without registering his identity information, and removed the mark.Fortunately, the operation was successful, but because of the long-term injection of other people's pheromones, the gland's self-healing ability was slow.In the days that followed, he hid in this rental house to recuperate.

However, he underwent demarking surgery within half a year, and his body suddenly became very weak, and his glands often tossed and turned in pain at night.

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Chen Ye boiled some hot water, poured a cup into Ji Mu's hands, and raised the temperature of the air conditioner by two degrees: "Your hands are so cold, don't turn on the air conditioner so cold, and don't drink cold water, try to Drink warm."

Ji Mu nodded.

Chen Ye sat next to him: "Lu Ze'an came to me before and asked me if I knew where you were."

"..."

"I pretended not to know, and got away with it." Chen Ye was also worried, "Ji Mu, what's wrong with you?"

"Something happened at home." Ji Mu prevaricated.

"Your family has an accident, do you need to wash the mark? Lu Ze'an told me that senior Gu has been looking for you. And some time ago, senior Gu also came to my internship place to find me and asked about your whereabouts." Chen Ye thought Ji Mu would be happy when he heard this, but he didn't expect that when Ji Mu heard this, he just clenched his water glass tightly, and his whole body trembled a little.

When Chen Ye saw it, he hurriedly said, "I won't ask any more, don't be nervous!"

Ji Mu closed his eyes, lowered his head, and the hair on his forehead was slightly long.His amber eyes were almost fading into the twilight.

Chen Ye hurriedly said something else: "By the way, you look like this, and you don't seem to be recovering well. Did you go to the hospital for an examination?"

It's just this question that suddenly brought back the thoughts of emptiness in the season curtain.

He remembered the scene in the hospital yesterday, the doctor told him clearly: "Mr. Ji, you are pregnant."

The simple seven words sound extremely heavy.This is an unchangeable move in the original plan.Now, it has become a "surprise", but unfortunately no one is happy.

Ji Mu smelled the smell of disinfectant, he lowered his head, glanced at his lower abdomen from the corner of his eye, and couldn't tell what mood he was in.

"Even if you did a surgery to remove the marks that caused great harm to yourself, the child still survived tenaciously and did not have a miscarriage. This is a special situation, and it is the first time I have encountered it. The little guy is probably desperately thinking about it." alive."

Under the doctor's simple description, a vague shadow suddenly appeared in Ji Mu's mind.That was his and Gu Yuanchen's child, small, white, and fragile, but it was a brand new life.

He was in a trance for a moment, until the doctor spoke again, shattering his shattered illusions.

"Unfortunately, your physical condition is very poor, and the indicators of your glands are even more frighteningly low. In the next few months, you will have to take medicine to treat your fragile glands. Under such physical conditions , I suggest you better abort the child."

The doctor said very bluntly that he was not fit to keep the child.

However, Ji Mu was held in his mind by that vague shadow.Children are always fragrant and soft, Ji Mu tried his best to get closer to look, only to see a pair of eyes very similar to Gu Yuanchen's.

He couldn't bear it all at once, he was always being stupid.

Ji Mu asked: "If I..."

Halfway through the speech, he moved his lips with difficulty, not having the courage to say the next sentence.He sat dumb, like a fool, slow to understand every word the doctor said.

"Mr. Ji, I know this is a difficult choice. But if you want to keep the child, you must be mentally prepared. First, you must stop these glandular drugs that will harm the child and replace them with harmless ones. In this way, you have to endure the pain of glandular pain every day; second, you have to buy artificial Alpha pheromones to appease the unborn baby, because you have no pheromones to give it. If there is no pheromones to conceive it , over time, the child will die in the womb; third, these two drugs are expensive, and the price is not affordable for ordinary people for a long time."

Ji Mu listened quietly, never stopping the doctor from continuing.

Knowing his hesitation, the doctor pushed the frame on the bridge of the nose, and added: "Also, the artificial Alpha pheromone may also have rejection phenomenon with you. Once rejected, it will lead to miscarriage of the child. If you are sure to use it, it is best to have this Mental preparation. You don’t need to mix too much for the first time, try it first, and continue to use it if your child can keep it, but another side effect of it is that it will cause harm to your body.”

"Harm to me?" Ji Mu raised his head.

"Yes, it will make you emotionally disturbed, loss of appetite, and vomiting is also normal. Mr. Ji, if you really want to keep the child, I suggest you...or find your former Alpha and ask him to help. He is a child Father, his pheromone is [-] times better than artificial Alpha pheromone, it will not have any side effects, and it will also help your recovery." The doctor did not force Ji Mu, he hoped that Ji Mu would think clearly.

This is a difficult choice, and Ji Mu hasn't made a decision until now.

For the time being, he prescribed a new medicine, and also prescribed a little artificial Alpha pheromone. He took some yesterday, and the child was fine, which meant that there was no rejection.

As the doctor said, this little guy, he's trying really hard to survive.It grows quietly and tenaciously takes root in Jimu's belly.

Ji Mu took a deep breath, and unconsciously touched his relatively flat lower abdomen.

Chen Ye asked: "What's the matter, does your stomach hurt?"

"No." Ji Mu looked at Chen Ye and asked suddenly, "Chen Ye, have you ever hated your parents?"

Chen Ye was stunned, he didn't expect Ji Mu to ask such a question.Ji Mu also knew that he was being abrupt, and said, "Sorry."

"It's okay, our family is really special. My dad has been gambling and drinking since the business failed, and my mother is cowardly and indulges him blindly. Sometimes I really... hate them."

What Chen Ye didn't want to say at first was that many things in the original family were scars that couldn't be removed.He looked at the lost season, and thought to forget it, he should comfort his friend: "But if you want to say it's really annoying, I can't say it. When I was young, the family was happy, and when life was hard, it was really hard. In the third year of high school, I was beaten up in the alley every day by debt collectors. I almost thought that I would be disabled and unable to take the college entrance examination. At that time, I was so painful that I wished that I was not their child, but I couldn’t choose my parents... ..."

He shrugged: "And my pheromone is so ordinary, and there are so many troubles at home, probably no one wants to fall in love with someone like me in this life."

Before, he had had a crooked idea, he really wanted to find a rich Alpha in the school and forget it, but he was aiming at Xiao Cheng.Fortunately, Ji Mu came to stop him in time, so Chen Ye didn't offend Lu Ze'an.

But it was also his own mind that was muddled, and even though he was rejected by Xiao Cheng, he still had a sweet dream.In fact, Chen Ye knew the word "the right family", and he could only blame Xiao for admitting that Zhenxue played badminton so handsomely, and he couldn't control it for a while.

After he finished speaking, seeing Ji Mu's unsteady appearance, he quickly helped him to lie down.

"I have to drive back. Is it okay for you to be alone?"

"It's okay." Ji Mu's glands hurt badly, he smiled wryly, and held Chen Ye's hand, "Thank you for helping me."

"We're friends, as it should be."

But Ji Mu said: "But Chen Ye, don't come to me again, and don't ask me why, I don't want to drag you down."

After Chen Ye reluctantly left, Ji Mu curled up in the thin quilt and shivered because of the side effects of the medicine, fluctuating from hot to cold.Time passed by minute by minute, and every day now is very long for Ji Mu.

He didn't know what to do, he couldn't bear the heart to abort the child, and he couldn't make a decision to keep it.No matter which path you choose in the end, it is unfair to the child.As Chen Ye said, a child cannot choose his parents, and his child may not necessarily want to be his child.

Ji Mu closed his eyes and wearily entered one nightmare after another.

The life in Ji's family and the pain of losing Gu Yuanchen all hurt Ji Mu badly.

He thought, what would Gu Yuanchen's expression be if he knew that he was pregnant?Will he show an extremely disgusted look, will he scold him for being shameless, will he never forgive him in this life?

He apologized countless times in his dream, and in the end, he seemed to be dumb.But it doesn't matter, he did something wrong, why should Gu Yuanchen forgive him.

He just wants to be alive.

Obviously have nothing, but sadly want to live.The human instinct to survive is so shameful, it is stronger than the little self-esteem left, and he feels contempt for himself.

But Gu Yuanchen in the dream is still kind, no matter how indifferent he is, he still has pity for his poor self.The sweetness during the first relationship was real, and the love Gu Yuanchen gave at that time was also intoxicating.

Sometimes the dream is always too long, it makes Ji Mu repeatedly think of many things that should be forgotten.

Those past sweetness and sourness mocked him, those suffocating plots and frame-ups surrounded him, and he overcame all kinds of difficulties one by one.But now, he is a useless person.

He is a trash abandoned by Gu Yuanchen, a villain spurned by Gu Yuanchen.

Together with the child in his stomach, he was sentenced to death before he could speak.

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Ji Mu closed his eyes tightly, sobbing in pain in his sleep.

When he opened his eyes, the room was stuffy, and the air conditioner was out of operation in silence.It was already three o'clock in the morning, and there was a power outage in this alley.

Ji Mu struggled to get up, his fingertips touched his face full of tears.In his throat, the disgusting taste kept coming up. He covered his mouth and climbed out of bed, stumbled to the sink, leaned over and retched, as if he wanted to vomit his stomach out.The sour water stings his throat, and the damp taste never goes away.

Suddenly, there was another lingering pain in the back of his neck, as if many needles were piercing him.

He touched his neck and raised his head. In the mirror, the bandages were horribly dense, like the retribution Ji Mu told him back then.His comeuppance had finally come.

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