Qinse is in the imperial court, forgetting both favor and disgrace

Zhao Rang just talked about it, but the next day the emperor actually sent another piece of jade, which was similar in size, shape and color, with a pattern of fish playing with lotus leaves carved on it, and on the reverse side, the words "Shang Shan Ruo Shui" were engraved on the lotus flower.

Along with Peiyu, there were more than a dozen "golden leaves", which were handed down to the eunuch to thank Zhao Rang for his kindness, and said flatteringly: "Your Majesty's favor is growing day by day, I'm glad to congratulate you."

Knowing that he was the emperor's personal servant, Zhao Rang smiled lightly, took a piece of gold leaf, and stuffed it into the servant's hand calmly.

The man thanked him and left, Zhao Rang drove away all his attendants, and went to the back garden alone. On the swing where Changle and Gao Zheng played that day, the carefree laughter of young men and women still lingered in his ears. Things are different.

The time has passed, and the autumn cold is getting stronger. Even if the sun is high, it can't withstand the invasion of the cold, not to mention the bleak autumn wind, but Zhao Rang stood there for a long time in the wind like a wooden chicken.

It's a pity that I didn't ask the emperor for a flute. In this situation and the scene, it's time to drink wine and send each other off, playing the flute to say goodbye.

Zhao Rang caressed Xinyu, only to feel that the object was as heavy as a thousand jun, pressing heavily on his chest.

What happened in the previous two nights made him feel as if he had been in another world. If he insisted on going his own way, he was putting his life on the line. If he died because of this, it would be nothing more than an apology, not a cowardly attempt to die.This is actually a cowardly move, Zhao Rang can't pretend to be confused, he knows what's going on in his mind, what he can't let go of, apart from the oath with Ye Ying, is also the huge difference in identity between Li Lang and him.

This is a worry that Li Lang can't get rid of even though he is willing to commit himself to his wife, but it is difficult to express it.

He doesn't want to and can't be a concubine in Li Lang's harem, it's not about honor or disgrace, but someone who can make him promise his body and mind, how can he be the one who hugs left and right and enjoys three thousand beauties?

Zhao Rang felt inexplicably distressed when he saw Li Lang's repeated probing and retreating step by step, but with those two layers, he couldn't face each other calmly and without reservation.

Once the heart is made, Zhao Rang is afraid that he will fall into the abyss of eternal doom. May I ask what kind of man can allow the one he loves to sing and sing every night, travel freely in the flowers, and pick them wantonly?After Li Lang got married to the imperial concubine, could he still talk to his mandarin duck as if nothing had happened?

Absolutely no such possibility.Since they are both men, who can be ridiculous enough to bear the reputation of "virtuous" and praise "benevolence" without jealousy or hatred?

Not to mention himself, even Changle, as an elder brother, he can't tolerate her being wronged like this.He wholeheartedly hopes that Changle will be able to find a loyal and kind man to match him, even if he is humble and poor, monogamous, sloppy, loving kindness, companionship and support, it is better than rich clothes and good food without ignorance and care.

It's just that Li Lang is just like him back then, but he is in Ye Ying's situation. Thinking about it this way, he feels sorry for his former wife and is not blessed to receive the emperor's favor.

It was Gao Zheng who made him finally make up his mind——Gao Zheng who died on the night of the full moon in the Mid-Autumn Festival, folk family reunions, and beautiful nights.

After the banquet that night, Zhao Rang thought that there would be no chance to meet Chang Le alone, but the empress dowager was so kind that she specially asked the brothers and sisters to meet for a short time. Chang Le shyly handed over two sachets to her elder brother. I want him to help Gao Zheng.

She was well taken care of in Tai'an Palace, her complexion was very good, and she was even more charming when she was in love. Zhao Rang knew the two people's thoughts clearly, so it was not easy to reveal, except for agreeing to donate, other words were vague.

Back at Chengxian Palace, naturally Gao Zheng came to serve him, Xiao Huangmen's face was ugly, as if he was still recovering from a serious illness, Zhao Rang only said that he "misses his relatives every festive season", his flesh and blood were separated, and he was like a prisoner in the palace. He didn't ask any more questions, so as not to touch his heart, he only ordered Gao Zheng to warm the wine and drink with him.

As soon as Gao Zheng left, it took a long time for Fang to come back with the food table, silently preparing, still reticent, with tears in his eyes.

Zhao Rang was surprised, and wanted to ask, he hesitated to speak, took out the sachet embroidered by Changle from his pocket, handed it to Gao Zheng, and said with a smile: "This is from Changle, you just keep it."

He originally wanted to make Gao Zheng happy, but he didn't want Gao Zheng to take it with trembling hands, sticking it to his cheeks, tears rolled down, and he sobbed silently.

Now Zhao Rang had no choice but to ask. He put Gao Zheng on the shoulder and asked softly, "What's the matter? Do you think about others? Or do you miss relatives and friends? Xiao Gao, Chang Le... have never forgotten you, you treated her well Sincerely, she also understands."

Gao Zheng wiped away his tears, raised his face to look at Zhao Rang, his lips were trembling, but he still smiled, and he said in a crying voice: "General, this servant is too happy, let you laugh at me——Slave, servant still wants to ask the general, If the servant is not an eunuch, you, you..."

"Xiao Gao," Zhao Rang frowned slightly when he saw Gao Zheng's tears streaming down his face, and the strength of his hand on his shoulders couldn't help but heavily sighed, "As long as you're not here, even if your body is crippled, Changle will fulfill your wish. Is there any objection?"

However, people are in a place full of dangers, Changle is already Zhao Rang's weakness, Gao Zheng is involved in it again, and it will be difficult every step of the way, Zhao Rang has to think about it.

After Gao Zheng listened, Fang Shi showed his face, grinned a huge smile, and asked again like an inch: "The general really regards slaves as friends?"

"Naturally." Zhao Rang nodded, frowned, and was about to ask a question. Gao Zheng had already come to the food table with a smile on his face. The servant girl prayed to the Moon Immortal, hoping that the general and his family would be reunited one day and enjoy peace. The servant girl was taught by the general to know how to advance, retreat, survive and die without losing the righteousness. Tonight, the servant girl finally understands."

As soon as the words fell, Gao Zheng smiled at Zhao Rang again, Zhao Rang's thoughts changed, and he shouted: "Little Gao!" He wanted to reach out to grab Gao Zheng's wine glass, but it was too late, Gao Zheng had already raised his head and poured all the wine into it throat.

Zhao Rang grabbed Gao Zheng into his arms, Gao Zheng burst into tears, his complexion changed terribly, and he was speechless.

"Who is it?" Zhao Rang felt ten thousand arrows piercing his heart, and asked reluctantly, "The queen wants you to kill me, doesn't she?"

At this moment, Gao Zheng's whole body was twitching, his face was blue and purple, and he pulled his lips with difficulty towards Zhao Rang, but he couldn't form a word. Suddenly, his eyelids dropped and closed, and he passed away silently in Zhao Rang's arms.

Zhao Rang couldn't sleep that night, he carried Gao Zheng's body and walked to Xiaohuangmen's house, and packed Gao Zheng's things with his own hands. He had no time to be sad in his busy schedule, but he couldn't stop thinking about it, and finally got a result: Now even if the opportunity is once in a lifetime, he can't leave.

He, Zhao Rang, is not a saint. He has repeatedly feuded against each other, both public and private, and he cannot tolerate the Xie clan.Even though Gao Zheng died like an ant, he was still his friend and died because of him.

As soon as the cock crowed the next day, Zhao Rang called someone to visit Gaozheng's relatives outside the palace. He learned that Gaozheng had a widowed mother and five brothers in the city. Qingzhi must have been threatened by someone with the life of his relatives to force Gao Zheng to submit.

However, the child was willing to die on his own behalf, and he was unwilling to do harm to others. He abides by the righteousness of a friend, and his true righteousness is not as good as Yuntian. To stagnate uncomfortably.

Die for a friend, die without regret.Zhao Rang couldn't remain indifferent after Gao Zheng's innocent tragic death.

He wants to see Li Lang, and begs the emperor not to leave him here, he is not an incompetent person who needs the protection of others, and everyone close to him is affected by him, how can he be so helpless?

And Li Lang...

Still don't want to believe him.Still unwilling.

Knowing that Li Lang's unfeeling words came from resentment, Zhao Rang's heart felt like falling into an ice cave at that time.

If he still sticks to the oath, Li Lang will always think that he has other intentions.But if you want him to bend his waist and knees, flatter him, and obey everything, how long can he last?

In the flash, Zhao Rang decided to take a gamble:

If Li Lang called for help, or used his status as a king to force him, or if Longyan was furious afterwards, then he would stop thinking about it and find another way to avenge the Xie family. The first step would be to find Wei Yixiao again, Designing out of the palace, even joining forces with Li Ming's mother and son temporarily, he would not hesitate, no matter how bad it is, he will follow in the footsteps of Nie Zheng and Jing Ke, and blood debts must be paid.

If the situation were completely opposite, and Li Lang endured his daring behavior again, the past would be just a dream, he would no longer be entangled, no longer trapped in himself, and for the rest of his life, he would regard the emperor as a caring and loving person, and he would treat Li Lang It is regarded as the only one, unchanged and unchanged, and never wavered.

After making up his mind, at the beginning of the action, he originally uttered many mocking and ridiculing words, intending to humiliate Li Lang while forcibly courting him. Since he surrendered all kinds of unspeakable helplessness and anger, he wanted to surrender to the emperor just once. The catharsis in the gamble is full of joy.

But when things come to an end, I still can't bear it.

The tears that Li Lang couldn't suppress made Zhao Rang understand in his heart that when the dust settled, he no longer had the thought of struggling to escape, so he let the person under him capture him.

When handing Peiyu to Li Lang, Zhao Rang, who had changed his mood, felt pity spontaneously, and laughed at himself silently. Sure enough, the softness of the world, the firmness of the galloping world, and the sign of soft tears are the most useless things in the world. This softness can be frustrating to a heart of stone.

When Li Lang heard about Zhao Rang's servant's death, his expression changed suddenly after he was stunned. He held Zhao Rang's hand firmly in uncertainty, and said coldly, "I really thought I wouldn't dare to do anything to them!"

Seeing Zhao Rang closing his eyes and showing sadness, Li Lang said disapprovingly: "You don't need to be too sad, it's not your fault. Besides, that little Huangmen was doomed to die when the mastermind found him. Even if he was cruel Kill you, don't say that I will pursue it, the plotter will definitely die in order to silence him."

Zhao Rang looked at Li Lang, shook his head and said softly: "It's a fluke, and he wants to poison, so there are many opportunities. The mastermind should use both threats and lures. He... always dies because of me."

Li Lang didn't say a word, and sighed slightly in relief, "It was my negligence, I never thought of taking precautions, and you will be sad if you are tired."

Zhao Rang smiled silently, and patted Li Lang's arm lightly. Sure enough, he never misjudged the emperor who was introspective.

However, the smile Li Lang returned was melancholy and disappointed: "You act rashly today, you still want to use this to gain my strength, don't you?"

At that time, the two had already dressed a little, and they were side by side on the bed. Zhao Rang smiled calmly: "I am stupid and incompetent, and I can't be used by a king?"

Li Lang shook his head and sighed: "There is absolutely no such thing. I have read your [-]-word letter over and over again, and I am not afraid of your laughing. At first glance, I even feel jealous. With your talent, you should not be unknown." He Turning his head to Zhao Rang, "Jinling has been set for another day. I want to tour South Vietnam and see the territory under your rule. What do you think?"

Zhao Rang smiled gently, and said: "It's not too late to find other things after the king's side is cleared up."

Gently picked up the jade that was on Li Lang's neck and returned it to its original owner, Zhao Rang said again: "I do have selfish intentions. Before... I was worried that you were just a whim and greedy for novelty, but... after what happened today, I will... As you wish, only you are allowed, no one else."

Li Lang was silent for a while, grabbed Zhao Rang's hand and said, "If you want me to believe you, tell me the reason why you stand on your own. Qi Zhenxu did state in detail in the booklet that at that time the troops were sent to seize Fujian County, and the separatist regime became king. Do you still want to tell me about the Ximan girl's idea that he is deceiving the emperor?"

"It's roughly true," Zhao Rang finally let go, and talked about the past frankly, "just don't use this contemptuous term to refer to her."

"What? You want to say she is your wife again?" Li Lang raised his eyebrows.

Zhao Rang's expression turned gloomy, and he sighed slightly: "She is my former wife. Since the oath is gone, there is no need to speak ill of each other. In the final analysis, I owe her something."

Li Lang was at a loss for words, and was bored for a while, then turned to Zhao Rang with undisguised concern in his eyes, finally sighed helplessly, and said with a wry smile: "Forget it, it's you! Tell me what happened in the past, if you deceive me a little bit, I will never forgive you."

"I obey the order." Zhao Rang smiled lightly. Although the haze in his heart had not been swept away, it was also reduced a lot because of Li Lang's affectionate eyebrows.