Rebirth alone

"What did you say I want?" Zhou Ziqian knelt in front of Ye Tao on one knee, as if he was making a sincere courtship, but his expression at this moment had nothing to do with tenderness and affection, and even seemed a little tough, while his chest seemed to be covered by a A soft and transparent little hand penetrated and landed on the apex of the heart, gently scratching and teasing the most sensitive place, which made him feel itchy in his heart.He originally thought that he liked Ye Tao who was gentle and caring and could make him feel peaceful, but it turned out to be more than that, he liked a mature man.

Zhou Ziqian is very contradictory. He doesn't need Ye Tao's intelligence and wings, but these things are part of what attracts him and makes his heart beat.He would feel distressed and feel pity if he lost it, but if he didn't lose it, would he still have him?The complete Ye Tao does not need to be attached to others, and can flap his wings and fly away at any time. It feels terrible not to be able to control him in his own hands.

"Don't let me tell you, if you didn't force me, I wouldn't even think about it." Ye Tao was tired of hiding it, and decided to be honest with him.

In fact, the two people's hearts are as clear as a mirror, and talking about it will only embarrass Zhou Ziqian, but it is Zhou Ziqian who continues this topic, and he heard himself say in a somewhat stagnant voice: "Go ahead. "

"If I think like that, you will be unhappy, and if I say it, you will be even more unhappy." Ye Tao looked at Zhou Ziqian as if looking at his favorite child, but this child is not kind enough, let alone well-behaved. A troublesome bad boy, so Ye Tao's undisguised gentle eyes are also mixed with helplessness.

"If I'm not happy, you don't want to? Can I control your mind?" Zhou Ziqian couldn't help frowning. He wasn't showing his face to Ye Tao, but he couldn't stop his irritability.

Ye Tao sighed very lightly, stroked Zhou Ziqian's frowning brows, and said what was in his heart: "I like you, so I don't want to think of you in a bad way. I told myself that you are not selfish, but you are not good at being a human being." Thinking about it, many people are like this, you are just no exception. But you keep pushing me, and you don’t even give me room to deceive yourself. I have to admit that you are selfish, and you don’t care about anyone in order to get what you want. Here, you are endless, you say you like it, but you never thought about it for me."

"What you can't get is the best, so you can't forget it, even brooding about it. This is what you saw from An Chengxuan. You have been entangled with him for so long, so you naturally have a deep understanding. You are afraid that you will be like him, So you want to hold what you want first, and talk about the rest later. Maybe you won’t be attached to it when you get it, and it won’t attract you anymore, so you don’t have to think about future things.” Ye Tao Zhou Ziqian It was harsh to hear, and what Ye Tao said was also heart-piercing. He really didn't want to think about the person he liked like this, but the facts were in front of him, and no one could argue.

Zhou Ziqian has always known that Ye Tao is a smart person, and he can imagine that his mind will be seen through, but knowing it is one thing, and hearing someone he likes tell how bad he is is a feeling.He stood up, sat down beside Ye Tao, put his hands on his forehead, and sighed: "Why aren't you stupid?"

It's not an accusation, he just doesn't want Ye Tao to see what a selfish bastard he is.

"You don't need to be too smart. Teenagers can think of it. The elder brother passed away, the younger brother became the only child, and it is his responsibility to start a family. How can a sober person like you disappoint your father and disturb you for a man with an embarrassing status? Your family and life? You wouldn’t do that, so you never thought about having a future with me, even if I promised to be with you, we wouldn’t have a future.” Ye Tao couldn’t help but say Sighing again, I couldn't express what I felt, "I knew this from the beginning, but I still like you, do you still think I'm smart?"

Zhou Ziqian raised his head to look at Ye Tao, the self-mockery on the corners of Ye Tao's lips and the sadness in his eyes were like sharp daggers, piercing through his chest at once, causing him an uncontrollable pain.He didn't want to hurt Ye Tao, but he hurt him from the beginning.

Zhou Ziqian leaned down and hugged Ye Tao. The tall man with broad shoulders and broad back made Ye Tao look so thin in comparison, but at this moment Zhou Ziqian buried his head in Ye Tao's neck, as if hoping to be hugged by him. Hug, and then a guilty voice came from Ye Tao's arms: "I'm sorry."

Ye Tao caressed the man's hair, his movements were very gentle, but his eyes were scattered elsewhere, but he was not looking at anything, but just cast them unconsciously, his eyes were like clouds blown away by the wind, a little erratic and scattered.He seemed to be thinking about something, but he didn't seem to think about anything.

The two hugged each other quietly for a long time, with mixed feelings in their hearts, guilt, helplessness, trouble, and bewilderment, but there was no sweetness brought by love.Maybe love itself is not a good thing. It makes the shrewd people stupid, the prudent ones impulsive, and the steadfast ones blind.It has created countless idiotic men and women, men and women are happy because of it and sad because of it, and even seek life and death for it.Of course, there are also people who are happy and satisfied because of it. How long can they be satisfied?Once the heat brought by dopamine fades, no matter how strong the love is, it will gradually become flat and finally become a family relationship.

But what is the use of seeing through these?Seeing it through does not mean that you will not be affected by it, what should come will still come, whether you want it or not, it will not care, it is so evil and so innocent, it makes people look forward to and resist.

Zhou Ziqian decided to give up. No matter how ruthless and ungrateful he was, no matter how hard-hearted he was, he still had a heart. He would feel pain if he hurt someone he liked and loved him.

"Maybe your idea is right. It's not rare to get it. Li Mingjue and I are an example." Ye Tao said calmly when Zhou Ziqian was about to get up and let go, "Let's try it, because of such a small thing Come to be hypocritical, you are uncomfortable and I am not comfortable, just do what you think, maybe you can help me."

The result of racking his brains for so long was delivered before his eyes at this moment, but Zhou Ziqian didn't feel any joy of getting what he wanted.In order to give up on being together, he made an appointment to end before it even started. This was the result he wanted. He only realized how stupid he was after hearing Ye Tao say it himself.

Zhou Ziqian raised his head and looked at Ye Tao, his lips and teeth meshed, his brows were furrowed, he was hesitating whether to refuse or not.

"What's the matter? Do you think my words are not to the point?" Ye Tao stroked the man's hair like a big dog, "I didn't put all the responsibility on you, I also have selfish intentions, so let's treat it as a temporary companion for us. "

"No." Zhou Ziqian didn't feel that what he said before was not pertinent, and he didn't think that what he said now was so pleasant. The word "temporary" alone was enough to hurt his ears. Besides, it's still the same thing in the end. What's so good about saying it nicely? use?

"Think what you want." Ye Tao no longer bothered about those empty-headed rhetoric, he pushed away Zhou Ziqian's arm on his body, raised his hand and rubbed the center of his brows, those gentle, loving faces born of love The connivance towards this person seems to have been rubbed away, "You should do two things to me, one, in the future, be straightforward and don't use your tricks on me as an outsider; two, when it's time to let go, be straightforward , don’t drag your feet even if you’re not tired of it.”

Zhou Ziqian understood that Ye Tao said this not because he was afraid of being entangled with him, but because he was afraid of being tricked by him who didn't want to let go.How ridiculous, in the eyes of the people he likes, Zhou Ziqian is a selfish and insidious bastard.Thinking of this, Zhou Ziqian really laughed, laughing at himself, he asked Ye Tao: "What do you like about me?"

Ye Tao didn't have a clear answer, so he thought for a while before saying, "You were very kind to me when you didn't know who I was, so I was tempted."

"Is that so?" Zhou Ziqian nodded knowingly, gently embraced Ye Tao's shoulders, and kissed his hair, "I'm going back, you should rest early."

Coming out of Ye Tao's house, cold air poured into the heart and lungs, and the feeling of suffocation was only slightly diluted.Zhou Ziqian leaned on the car and lit a cigarette. While smoking, he couldn't help recalling what Ye Tao said just now, and the feeling of suffocation became stronger again.

As early as a long time ago, he put on a layer of hard armor for his heart. After so many years, he thought that the heart and the armor had long grown together, and it turned out to be impeccable. Make him uncomfortable or even hurt him.

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Uncle let everyone down, right?Why……