I've been to this room

2015 1 Month 28 Day.

Su Ran looked at the boy in front of him with a smiling face that seemed to never fade away. She had many questions in her heart, but she didn't dare to ask them.

In the middle of the night, all the accompanying family members went back, and the little loli in the next bed and the high school boy against the wall were also fast asleep. I didn't know which room Su Ran's ward was changed to. To be precise, I didn't know that Su Ran Where is the body now, anyway, his consciousness has not left now.

"Are you okay?" Qin Yuqi asked with concern.

Su Ran raised his head blankly, he didn't realize that he was a ghost.

"I'm this guy's escort." Qin Yuqi laughed and pointed at Xia Mingxiao who was sleeping like a dead pig.

Su Ran smiled: "Oh, he's lucky to have someone stay so late to accompany him."

Qin Yuqi asked: "Then you have been hospitalized for so long without anyone to accompany you?"

Su Ran pursed her lips: "My family is not here, and I don't have any friends."

"But I clearly saw someone coming to visit you before."

"That was my teacher in high school."

"Oh, you two have such a good relationship, you are still in touch now."

"Good relationship?" Su Ran lowered her head, "It's pretty good."

Qin Yuqi asked, "Why do you seem unhappy?"

Su Ran took a few steps slowly, and sat on the bench in the corridor, as if he was going to tell a story. Facing the child in front of him, he suddenly had the desire to talk, for some reason.

Qin Yuqi is also a good listener, she obediently sat down beside him and prepared to listen: "If you want to talk, I will listen, and I won't tell anyone else." To be precise, there is no way to tell.

"They are standard northeasterners, while Chen Qiumiao is a standard southerner. In layman's terms, even the way of playing mahjong is different, but they have been friends for more than ten years. It is not accurate to say that they are friends. Chen Qiumiao is My high school physics teacher is 36 this year, and Su Ran will be 28 after the new year." Su Ran seems to be telling a very long story.

Qin Yuqi nodded, indicating that she was listening.

"Mr. Chen was only 25 years old when he first taught our class. He was the youngest teacher in the school. And I was only eighteen, the most mischievous student in the school."

"I always thought that going to school was just to pass the time. I never took the persuasion of teachers and parents seriously. Other teachers almost gave up on me, and only Teacher Chen would grab my ear and tell him over and over again about current and circuits and ohms. Laws, talking about mechanical energy; only he will hit my hand when I am not attending class; only he will not call his parents because of my bad deeds in school."

"In the end, I got into a good university because my physics score greatly increased his average score during the college entrance examination. I still kept in touch with Mr. Chen in college, and we chatted on Q|Q almost every day , although it’s just a topic with little nutrition.”

"When I was in my junior year, Teacher Chen got married. The woman is a simple girl from the countryside. She is naturally beautiful and popular. She cooks delicious food and does housework. There were many suitors back then, but she still chose us to be honest and responsible. Mr. Chen. I went to the wedding banquet."

"I graduated from university so I could stay in this city. I became an office worker every nine to five or three o'clock. Teacher Chen also became a sloppy uncle."

"I have been working for three years, and I finally became a small business executive. I saved enough money for the down payment for buying a house, and bought a small house of about [-] square meters in this small town with a loan. My parents give I sent four or five text messages urging me to get married, one every week on average. But I would call my parents every month to say that I wanted to focus on my career first, and not worry about finding a girlfriend.”

"At the class reunion that had turned into a business forum at the beginning of the year before and after, Mr. Chen and I put aside the happy crowd and lay down on the balcony to chat about unnutritious topics, just like before. At that time, I Only then did I learn that Mr. Chen was divorced. It was the woman who knew that she was infertile and didn’t want to drag Mr. Chen down, so she took the initiative to propose a divorce. Although Mr. Chen didn’t care about that, the woman was very determined, and the two finally divorced.”

"At that time, I asked, 'Teacher, is a child so important? I don't plan to have one in the future. I haven't figured it out yet, how can I have a child'?" Teacher Chen smiled wryly, 'Student Su, their family is from the countryside. I am old-fashioned in thinking, and think that there are three kinds of unfilial piety, and no future is the biggest, so I forced her to leave me, and now I am not even allowed to enter her house, saying that their family has a rule that a divorced woman cannot see her ex-husband, what can I do'? "

"I asked again, 'Then you don't care if you have children?' Teacher Chen replied, 'Yes.' I asked, 'What do you think of me?' Teacher Chen replied with a wry smile, 'Well, I look good, if I can wash clothes I will marry you if I cook...'."

Qin Yuqi understood a little bit: "And then? You..."

Su Ran sighed: "I know Teacher Chen is just joking, but I still started to learn how to cook. I used to cook instant noodles, but now my cooking skills have gradually changed from 'unable to swallow' to 'not bad' It's ok, and then I will run to Teacher Chen's house from time to time, cook a big meal by myself, and then open two bottles of beer to eat with Teacher Chen. The reason is to let Teacher Chen have a taste of his own cooking skills. Can't find a girlfriend."

Qin Yuqi nodded: "Oh."

"Ms. Chen is not at home during the day, so I don't worry about hiring temporary workers. When I found that the dust in this house was almost up to his ankles, I volunteered to help Mr. Chen clean up. In fact, I never Clean up."

"Later, under the tough attitude of my parents, I found a girlfriend. She was also from the north. She was a legendary female man. But we broke up within half a year. Even the female man couldn't stand it. I went to a man's house every three days. Run to cook for him, clean up the house for him, but never seriously cook for his girlfriend."

Qin Yuqi suddenly asked: "Didn't you find out...did you find any clues at that time?" Some things seem to be quite obvious.

"Later, my parents had a special talk with me." Su Ran said, "That's when I found out."

"At the end of the conversation, I said that I have someone I like. Although I can never marry that person, I just can't like someone else. I don't want to delay other girls' lives. I said I'm sorry for fucking myself all my life Care about my parents, I said that I will listen to them about everything in the future, but please stop asking them about this matter."

"My parents seem to have noticed something. Maybe they saw that the children who have been rebellious since childhood are now living a good life. The parents who no longer expect anything extra agree with my idea. But I must find a girlfriend to marry."

"I breathed a sigh of relief, and I still go to Chen Qiumiao's house to cook and clean up the house from time to time."

Qin Yuqi asked again: "Then did you find anything?"

Su Ran answered honestly: "To be honest - no."

2015 1 Month 28 Day.

Chen Qiumiao took all Su Ran's daily necessities to the new ward yesterday, but Su Ran couldn't wake up for some reason now, he was a little scared, afraid that Su Ran would just fall into a coma and die.

Chen Qiumiao is a high school teacher who teaches physics. He has taught many students and served as a class teacher. His humorous teaching method is very popular among students, and he himself likes teaching and educating people.

Chen Qiumiao is a good teacher, but not a good husband.He never does housework, never cooks, and never sees the melancholy in his wife's eyes.Until the end, when his wife left him because she didn't want to be his burden, he failed to keep her.

Chen Qiumiao, who lives alone, doesn't know how to do housework, so his house is always in such a mess.

Sometimes, Su Ran would come to cook, let him taste his cooking skills, and help him organize the house by the way.

As long as Su Ran is around, his stomach medicine will never run out, there will always be clean socks in his closet, and freshly cooked meals in his refrigerator. of happiness.

At first, Chen Qiumiao thought that Su Ran really couldn't bear to look down on this house whose dust was almost up to his ankles, but gradually he found that he was used to relying on Su Ran.

Thinking about it carefully, his parents helped him with housework when he was a child, he had a wife after he got married, and now Su Ran washes, cooks and cleans the house for him.He is such a happy man.

Su Ran is the best in the middle school of the first batch of students he taught. She is cheerful, young, and loves to laugh. She owns her own house and her career is thriving.But he hasn't mentioned anything like a girlfriend to Chen Qiumiao in these years.

Su Ran runs to Chen Qiumiao's house every day, so she has no time to find a girlfriend.If Su Ran had a girlfriend, he wouldn't run to him every day, maybe his life would become difficult, but Chen Qiumiao hopes that Su Ran can find his own happiness. The days of bread scrambling in the kitchen may be over. .

I remember that when Su Ran was in high school, his head teacher gave his parents' contact information to all the teachers for the convenience of supervising him. These years, Su Ran's parents did not change their contact information, so Chen Qiumiao found them easily.Through Su Ran's parents, Chen Qiumiao introduced Su Ran, a girl from Northeast China who is bold but caring, as his girlfriend.

Chen Qiumiao watched Su Ran take the girl to the movies, and watched the girl take Su Ran to pick out clothes.He was wondering, many years ago, when Su Ran came to his wedding, was he as strangely sad as he is now.

However, Su Ran will still come to help him cook and clean up the house.

In less than half a year, Su Ran broke up with that girl, that's right, no matter how careless a woman is, she can't stand her boyfriend running to other people's house from time to time.

On the second day after the breakup, Su Ran's parents ran to have a long talk with him.

That day, Su Ran's parents called Chen Qiumiao. They said they agreed with their son's choice, but they would also respect Chen Qiumiao's opinion.At that time, Chen Qiumiao was confused.

It was also that night that Su Ran ran to Chen Qiumiao and complained a lot.

Bottle after bottle of beer was opened, Chen Qiumiao didn't know how to explain his smell of alcohol to the students in class tomorrow, did he really want to tell the students that it was the smell of alcohol lamps?

Su Ran leaned on the armrest of the sofa in a daze and asked, "If I wasn't your student, would you still like me?"

Chen Qiumiao also sat on the ground in a daze and replied: "Yes..."

Then Su Ran fell asleep on the armrest of the sofa in a daze. Seeing that Su Ran gradually lost his voice, Chen Qiumiao also stood up, hugged Su Ran to the sofa, and kissed Su Ran's forehead lightly in a daze. Then it fell on the carpet.

The cold lips touched the hot forehead, as if singing a song in the middle of the night that has also become hazy.

2015 1 Month 29 Day.

Su Ran felt that she had hinted so many times, but even if Chen Qiumiao didn't respond, it was also a kind of rejection.

However, he wanted to hear Chen Qiumiao reject him personally.

Does this count as self-abuse?

Su Ran was very conflicted. On the one hand, he was urged to leave quickly by his strong self-esteem, and on the other hand, he was worried about Chen Qiumiao, who couldn't even do housework.

However, when he saw that Chen Qiumiao was able to take care of him when he was sick, Su Ran felt at ease again.It seems that Chen Qiumiao can take care of herself in the future, and Su Ran doesn't have to worry about it anymore.He can completely erase his feelings for Chen Qiumiao and find his own happiness.

However, Su Ran was a little unwilling.

After a long silence, Qin Yuqi suddenly asked, "So have you ever confessed to him?"

Su Ran was taken aback.

Before Su Ran could reply, another person came in from outside the door: "I said, you two, now is not the time to say hello leisurely, is it?"

The person who came to visit suddenly in the early hours of the morning was a young lady. Qin Yuqi was stunned when she saw her, and Su Ran was not good at dealing with others, so there was a weird silence in the corridor.

However, is the ward really a place where you can come if you want?

"Then what, may I ask if you have anything to say?" The lady couldn't help but speak first.

Su Ran said, "May I ask who you are?"

"Before asking someone's name, you should report your family name first." The lady said with a smile.

"My name is Su Ran." When he realized that he had answered first, he seemed to have lost the opportunity to strike first, so he had to honestly explain, "I am clearly here, why can't others see me? Also, may I ask who you are?" who?"

What a queer woman.

But this is a hospital after all, and any strange things can happen, maybe they are just waiting for someone, so everyone didn't ask much.

"It's a ghost messenger, because your current half-dead state affects the normal operation of the Past Life Department, so let's confirm whether you are dead or alive." The lady said with a smile.

Qin Yuqi also testified: "She is indeed a ghost messenger." And it was a ghost messenger that she had met all the time.

"I think I'm still alive, but no one can see me." Su Ran said.

"What is alive? What proves you are alive is your breathing, heartbeat, blood pressure and metabolism, not your own cognition. People are mortal, and they are heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. Therefore, as a person in this human society As a member, you can only say that you were alive, because I and we don’t have the idea that we are still alive.” The woman who claimed to be the ghost messenger said, “Indeed, now, your breathing and heartbeat are normal, but you Why did your soul leave? As a soul state, you cannot be called alive. That's why we are in a dilemma, should we take your soul away or let you go. Your name is Su Ran, right? Choose, you still Do you want to live on?"

Su Ran was confused: "You mean, I'm a ghost now? Then what are you, God of Death?"

The ghost messenger said: "I am just an ordinary ghost messenger, and I am responsible for picking up ghosts."

Su Ran: "...I don't understand yet."

"You'll know if you come with me!" After saying that, the ghost police officer took Su Ran's hand and ran to the intensive care unit at the end of the corridor on the third floor, then pointed to the person inside the glass window. "Look at this first!"

Another Su Ran, or the real Su Ran, was lying in it.When Chen Qiumiao left before, he didn't follow him because he was afraid of seeing this situation, so that Su Ran really couldn't figure out whether he was alive or dead.

The ghost messenger pointed to Su Ran who was sleeping peacefully and said, "Now, do you want to die or live?"

Su Ran calmed down and asked, "What if I want to die?"

Master Ghost Emissary sneered: "Because you are in a state of leaving your soul and your body is on the verge of death, if you want to live we will leave you alone. If you want to die, I can rush in and stab you to death right now."

Su Ran: "Okay, I want to live."

The ghost messenger said: "Don't worry, you don't feel any pain now."

Su Ran said, "But I still don't want to die."

The ghost messenger asked, "Why?"

Su Ran didn't speak, but just looked at Chen Qiumiao who was guarding the bedside.

Su Ran didn't expect Chen Qiumiao to return to Su Ran exactly what Su Ran had done for him, otherwise it would become a deal.Su Ran knows what Chen Qiumiao is worried about, Su Ran also knows that Chen Qiumiao may really dislike him, and Su Ran knows what kind of future her choice will face.

The future, time, vision, expectations, responsibilities, these are disturbing realities.

So, Su Ran didn't want to wake up.

Because I have decided to leave his side after waking up.

In parting and bondage, he chose the latter.

Between hurting and being hurt, he chose the former.

But it's not a solution not to make a decision now, after all, the ghost messenger is already waiting by his side.In order not to cause trouble to others, Su Ran still felt that he should reason with Chen Qiumiao well. Although this would cause unnecessary trouble to each other, it was better than dying for no apparent reason!

In fact, he really thought it would be better for him to die before, but when he thought about his parents, his friends, and this Chen Qiumiao who didn't belong to him, Su Ran suddenly didn't want to die anymore.In life, there are infinite possibilities.At least he didn't want to make them sad, at least he didn't want to die in front of Chen Qiumiao.

"Will I be able to wake up as long as I want to?" Su Ran turned her head and asked Qin Yuqi who was waiting beside her.

Qin Yuqi turned her head to look at the ghost messenger.

Gui almost nodded: "Yes, you are now in the state of leaving the soul, as long as the body is not dead, you can wake up. I will put your soul into the body."

"As expected, I still want to live." Su Ran also smiled.

Su Ran looked at herself in deep sleep, and then looked at Chen Qiumiao, who was guarding beside her, whose eyes were almost as black as eye circles.

What are you afraid of, just tell the truth when you wake up.

Just say you like it!

I'm such an idiot, why did I delay talking until now!

2015 1 Month 29 Day.

Su Ran's family members are rushing here, Chen Qiumiao suddenly feels unable to face them.What would they say when they saw his family?Say you are his high school teacher?But, high school teachers don't have to keep guarding their unconscious students, right?Did he really always think that Su Ran was a student or a child?

Actually, Chen Qiumiao was afraid.

What is he afraid of?

He was afraid of ruining Su Ran, afraid of being hurt, he was afraid of the eyes of the world, he was afraid of the blame from his ex-wife, and he was afraid of his cowardice.

Who can stand the mocking eyes of those around them?Who can stand the pointers of the seven aunts and the eight aunts?

Of course, Su Ran can't bear this, can she?

What happens if the status quo is disrupted?

Will Su Ran leave herself because she can't stand those things?Will I make more wrong choices?

What does the future look like?

What was it like in the past?

He didn't dare to think about it!

Therefore, their relationship has always remained at the stage of close friends.

So, he kept procrastinating, refusing to give him any answer.

But now Su Ran just fell asleep like this, and didn't even give him a chance to reply.Like it or not.The answer to this question is actually very clear, but he has been avoiding it before.Now, even if he didn't want to escape, Su Ran couldn't hear his reply anymore.I am such an idiot, why did I wait until this time to have the courage to say I like it!

If only I had such courage earlier.

It would be great if Su Ran could wake up...

The wind slightly opened the white gauze curtains, and a ray of sunshine took advantage of this opportunity to shine in and sprinkle on Su Ran's face. It seemed that another difficult night had passed.

On the hospital bed, Su Ran opened her eyes, just in time to see the expression on Chen Qiumiao's face.

2015 1 Month 29 Day.

It was a calm and changeable morning, even the shadows of the trees outside the window were still.

The happy laughter comes from Chen Qiumiao

The confused tears came from Su Ran.

The expectant smile came from Qin Yuqi.

"I like you."

The small voice that only the two of them could hear came from Su Ran.

"I know."

The warm embrace in the quiet morning comes from Chen Qiumiao.

"Come on."

The blessings full of gratification and joy came from Qin Yuqi who saw these.

after a long time--

Maybe it was really a long time, when the sun melted the last inch of permafrost, the kind-hearted Mr. Guicha suddenly remembered the two people hugging each other tightly in the ward, out of curiosity, but also to ensure that he The quality of the work, she began to inquire about their later stories.Let's not explain whether people can see it or not, at least anyone with a gossip mentality can guess what happened between Chen Qiumiao and Su Ran, and of course the ghost messenger is more concerned.

At least some people hope to see them break the shackles and truly be together as each other's lovers, but things backfire.

Chen Qiumiao is still a physics teacher in high school. She makes lesson plans every day and faces headaches for students one after another.And his ex-wife had remarried a long time ago, with a former suitor.Su Ran is still a small business executive, living a boring life from nine to five to three o'clock every day.However, the two hadn't been in touch since they left the hospital, as if they had suddenly become strangers.

The two began to be busy with each other, began to deliberately not care about each other, began to stride forward in the direction they wanted, and began to put each other's photos at the bottom of the cabinet.

Su Ran said that knowing that he likes me is enough.

Chen Qiumiao said, just know that I like him.

The contact between the two is not completely severed, at least the address, mobile phone number, Q|Q and so on have not been changed, so it is easy to get in touch.

But they need time.

It takes them a long, long time to cool, precipitate, and ferment their feelings for each other, turning them into bitter wine that flows in every drop of their blood.In this way, they can recognize whether it is the love they expected, and in this way, they will not hurt each other.

Therefore, they tacitly chose to alienate each other.

Perhaps, only in this way can Su Ran and Chen Qiumiao find real happiness.

It may be their best choice to keep those ignorant, small, and unspeakable emotions in their hearts forever.Their bond will not disappear because of separation, because they have already experienced what it means to be unforgettable.

Why force, why lament.Since we can't have each other now, isn't it a joy to keep the best him in our memory?

Why sorrow, why regret.This may be called escaping, but eternal love exists in dreams. In the limited life of the world, who knows what the future will look like?

It's enough to get here.

Come here, let's say goodbye first!

Come here, looking forward to that 'Hi, long time no see! '

Maybe a long time later, when Su Ran and Chen Qiumiao meet again unexpectedly, the person they have been looking for all their lives can make them abandon all their grievances and love without regard for themselves, and they will inadvertently raise their heads.

Their eyes met, and a slight smile appeared on the corners of their mouths.

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