gentle fairy tale

Years later, Yu Mian said goodbye to Xu Xiaoyan.

The two-week vacation was not over yet, and she returned to the research team ahead of schedule with new assignments.The tutor is working on a project in cooperation with the local community, which mainly solves the problem of renovation of old community residential buildings. It has nothing to do with scientific research, but a purely public welfare project.

Yu Mian returned to the small apartment where she had been away for a long time, only to find that she hadn't been back for half a year, and the window sills were covered with dust.In the past two years, she has traveled to many places.Sometimes what is here today is there tomorrow.Now life has returned to normal for a short time, just like in her junior year, she helped the teacher with the project and spent the rest of the time reading in the library.

Only this time it didn't stay for long.The students in the research group are interested in participating in the International Architecture Competition for College Students, and they have already started to sign up for the competition last year, and she also participated at that time.Coincidentally, the venue of this final is Yongzhou University.

When Yu Mian received the notice, she couldn't help but smile when she saw the words Yongzhou University.

She suspended her work here and flew back early.

There is still more than a month before the competition. A research team in the team is currently investigating Buddhist temples in the southwest. Before going to Yongzhou, she went to the southwest to meet her companions.

This task is relatively easy.Compared with the cold and windy desert in the northwest, the climate in the southwest is warm and pleasant. Young people go deep into the mountains, sometimes to find dilapidated old buildings, and sometimes to find the ruins of famous artists. The content of their work is more interesting than before.

Yu Mian also likes this kind of life. She enjoys the feeling of filling up time, so she also explores the architectural ruins with her companions.Until the competition was approaching, when she was supposed to go to Yongzhou, she had a minor accident, her left leg was injured by a falling stone tablet, and she bled a lot.

Among the companions was a girl who turned pale and even shed tears when she saw so much blood.Yu Mian endured the pain and told them not to be nervous, saying that she was fine.

The leader of the research team is Bo San's senior sister, with a calm temperament. While arranging for someone to contact the hospital, she said in a low voice, "Yu Mian, don't be brave, just cry when you feel uncomfortable."

Yu Mian smiled, her lips were a little pale, not as delicate as a girl of this age should be: "I didn't try to be brave."

The team leader looked at her with some disbelief: "Aren't you really trying not to cry?"

Yu Mian shook her head, her expression was calm and frank: "I don't want to cry."

She hasn't cried for a long, long time.

Pei Songxi treated her well when she was young, but she felt insecure for a long time, and sometimes she would cry over little things.But now, she wants to give herself the answer, and she also wants to give Pei Songxi the answer. Of course, she can't cry.

When she said she wasn't trying to be brave, she really wasn't trying to be brave.

When the barefoot doctor in the village came to help her disinfect and bandage her, she didn't shed a single tear. She just smiled and comforted her companions, saying that she was fine and that she didn't feel any pain.

The team leader looked at her with some surprise, and felt that this young girl had a strong resilience inside.

Originally thought she was a delicate rose, but it was not the case.

She grows on the thorns, covered with every drop of dew in the morning, wind and frost are invulnerable, and the severe cold is irreversible. Under the tenderness and beauty, she has a very tough heart.

Fortunately, her wound was not serious. After two days of rest, Yu Mian got on the plane to Yongzhou.

When she arrived in Yongzhou, she walked out of the airport and stood on a deserted long street when the sky suddenly began to snow heavily.

It was very much like the winter she had spent here.

Yu Mian first met with the team members, put down the luggage, took a taxi, and posted a social update on the way: "It's been so long, I'm back here again"

Standing on the familiar campus, she felt cordial and familiar.

The snowflakes are falling, and the campus is very quiet.She walked slowly along the lakeside path for half a circle, and suddenly felt a little bit of regret - Pei Songxi never accompanied her to her school.

She really wanted to take her along the school's lakeside path, really wanted to take her to see the century-old sycamore trees downstairs in the dormitory, and really wanted to tell her that the wind in the north was very strong, and she would miss her every time it was windy.

Will she see the circle of friends she just posted?

Maybe you will see it.But so what.

She needs a little more time.After the gap year is over, she will go to the UK to study for a one-year master's degree, and then start working.

There is still a long way to go before economic freedom and individual independence.

But at this moment, standing in the spring snow in the north, she suddenly began to miss her and miss her again.

After the beginning of spring, the weather is getting warmer day by day.

Pei Songxi stood by the window, watching the sunlight passing by the green plants on the window sill inch by inch.She breathed a sigh of relief, and called Ji Xiunian: "Xiunian, where are you, do you have time to chat?"

The other end of the phone was a bit noisy: "I'm in the mall, picking out gifts for Xiao Lang, are you coming?"

"Okay, I'm coming over now."

Pei Songxi hung up the phone, left the company early, arrived at the appointed place, and stood there waiting for Ji Xiunian.

Soon, Ji Xiunian came out of a shop. She was wearing a dark blue trench coat, her makeup was light and elegant, and her smile was gentle. She walked towards her: "Songxi, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"Just arrived. Have you chosen your gift?"

"Not yet, I just bought a pair of watches. I want to buy two more aroma diffusers. Are you short on time?"

Pei Songxi nodded: "I'm fine today."

Ji Xiunian smiled slightly, thin lines appeared in the corners of his eyes, and there was a mellow beauty brewed by time: "Well, let's go."

She carefully selected in front of the counter famous for its cologne and scented candles, while talking to Pei Songxi: "Are you busy recently? Last time I asked you out, you also said you were not free."

"It's not too busy, but if you don't work, you don't know how to let the time pass. After a long time, sometimes you don't want to come out."

Ji Xiunian raised his head and glanced at her, his eyes were gentle and transparent: "You are confused."

Pei Songxi pursed her lips and smiled noncommittally.

There were so many people in the mall, they didn't continue to chat.Pei Songxi accompanied her to choose scented candles, and occasionally took a look at the perfume. When she saw the bottle Yu Mian used to use, she picked up the scent paper and smelled it, but felt very disappointed.

No wonder it is said that perfume is a very personal thing, it will be stained with human body temperature, and it will have different smells on different people.The smell on the paper was different from what she remembered.

Next to them were two young girls who were choosing perfume, with bright and cheerful smiles, and the voice just came: "Hey, is this the bottle? I remember its fragrance is very beautiful - roses grow in the soil, my love is hidden in you In the shadow of. I want to buy this! [Note 1]”

The cabinet sister warmly introduced: "You are right, this is one of our family's classics, come on, try the incense."

Pei Songxi listened quietly, and waited for them to leave before she stepped over, looked at the bottle of perfume just now, and frowned slightly.

The top note of this fragrance is cold and cool, and the back note is a mellow and gentle rose scent.The scent didn't seem to surprise her, but the scent... suddenly touched her.

She pointed to it and said to the cabinet sister, "I want this, thank you."

Ji Xiunian just came over after choosing a scented candle, and asked with a smile, "Why did you buy it?"

Pei Songxi took the handbag and walked out with her: "Buy whatever you want."

Ji Xiunian had already bought presents, the two walked out of the shopping mall and walked on the long pedestrian street: "Okay, now let's talk about your confusion."

Pei Songxi hummed lightly, but slowly turned her head away, looked at the shadow in the roadside window and asked, "You...how do you like your wife? She is several years younger than you, right?"

Ji Xiunian was stunned: "Are you asking Xiao Lang?"

"Yes. Do you mind if I ask you that question?"

Ji Xiunian's smile deepened, and he looked at her with clear eyes: "It's okay. We've known each other for so many years, there's nothing we can't say. Besides, you know something about me and Xiao Lang. I'll tell her It's not love at first sight, she pursued me first."

Pei Songxi nodded: "She... She raised her head and looked at you with bright eyes. When you look at her, don't you..."

Ji Xiu interrupted her in a young voice: "No, things like feelings are not like this. There is a saying that love doesn't know where it started, and it goes deep. It means liking someone. It started suddenly, but it was unforgettable. "

Pei Songxi shook her head disapprovingly: "No...it's not like that."

It's been a long time since.Already have.

Very early on, when she stepped on her shadow and followed her secretly, when she kissed an orange, when she hugged her and said that she would be twice as happy and split her in half, when... Countless days and nights spent together, in the passing time of every minute and every second.

Ji Xiunian called her name with some doubts: "Songxi?"

Pei Songxi smiled, and there was a bit of desperation in the smile: "It seems to have been walking in the dark for a long, long time. She is that piece of driftwood, that beam of sunshine. I know that I shouldn't...should not be close to her, I Will drag her down. But I... can't help myself."

At the beginning of this conversation, Ji Xiunian knew what she was confused about, she couldn't help sighing, and asked her softly: "Then can you let go?"

"I...I don't know."

Pei Songxi muttered to himself, like a difficult self-persuasion.

Only she knew that she had reached the limit of her patience.

From four or five years ago, she realized that she was abnormally possessive, which was wrong.So she refrains, she backs off.

She clearly knew that as long as she said a word, Mianmian would stay by her side for the rest of her life.

But because of this, she couldn't say a word.

However, whenever Pei Songxi thinks of Yu Mian and the video she saw on New Year's Eve, she feels her heart being pinched and she can't breathe.

When Yu Mian was young, she was homeless and lost her family. It was hard; when she grew up, she fell in love with her, but because she went away and never returned, it was even more bitter.

She doesn't even know how to make it up to her.

The only thing that can be done is to reverse the work of day and night.Because now the Pei family and the Yu family have long been related interests, as long as the Pei family grows stronger day by day, then the Yu family will also be revitalized and will be better... But this is not enough, it is far from enough.

Ji Xiunian gently shook her hand: "Songxi, I can't say what you must do. I can only say, don't let yourself regret it. I parted from Xiaolang in the past, and it will be more than ten years in a flash. It was not until I was half my life that I found my long-lost lover. Recently, I often wonder why I didn’t find her sooner. When I think of those lost times, I feel extremely regretful.”

Pei Songxi pursed her lower lip: "I know...I know."

She didn't know that these years passed by like water.She meditated in the sleepless night, but found that every day seemed to repeat the previous day, and she couldn't hold the fragments of time.

It's just... she can't.

It's not that I don't love,

but can't.

My love... is hidden in your shadow.