they

She asked me why I was so nice to her.

why?

Probably because I can also draw warmth from it.

But since I brought her back from that place, she hasn't spoken much.

In fact, I feel guilty. I told her that the outside world is so good, but she ended up in that kind of place. She must be very disappointed.

After giving others hope, then using cruel reality to push others into darkness again...

I have a deep understanding of this feeling... She was like this before.

It was also at that time that I realized that I liked women.

When I was wandering the streets, it was that person who brought me back and taught me the courage to live again.

Maybe it's because I shouldn't have such a different kind of affection... But, she clearly accepted it at the time...

But she got married in the end... At the wedding, she smiled happily... Then what am I to her...

But what else can I do besides bless her...

Since then, I have lived alone and now, and many things have become numb.

However, when I saw her who was more numb than me, my heart was suddenly touched. Is living like this considered alive?

Why do people live?I have never thought about this problem before, every day is the same, even if it is a different task, I can't feel any waves.

In fact, what is the difference between me and her?It's just that I look a little brighter than her on the surface.

Bringing her home made a difference in my life after all, and I wanted to change her as that man changed me.She is alone now, so I will be her family member.

This guy Yu is real, how could I treat her badly?But I really thank him for bringing her inside, otherwise she would have run away in the end.

Seeing her sitting by the bed and peeling apples at this time, I feel a little warmth in my heart. In fact, she should be a very gentle person, but she has gone through those unbearable things...

She still doesn't like to talk, but at least she is not as cold as before.

The next day, she came again, and I still could only lie on the bed.She poked her head first, probably to see if there was anyone else in the ward, and when she saw that I was the only one, she walked in slowly.

I look at her, but she doesn't look at me.

In addition to the things I asked her to bring, she was carrying an insulated box in her hand. She put the insulated box on the small table in front of me and opened the lid.

"You did?" I was a little surprised.

She looked up at me and nodded.

The appearance was quite good, and I used the only remaining movable hand to clamp a piece of ribs.

She kept looking at me from the side.

At this time, my face should be expressionless, but my mouth seemed to be overwhelmed.

I swallowed the ribs abruptly, and pointed to the bedside cabinet, "There are vegetables over there, let's eat together."

She obediently brought the dishes, but she just looked at me and didn't intend to eat.

"It seems that you haven't eaten, so eat with me." I tried to keep a gentle expression and looked at her.

She froze for a moment, picked up the chopsticks, and tasted a piece of pork ribs in the insulated box.The next second her expression changed, she hurriedly packed the insulation box, and then ran out of the ward with it.

I just find it funny. She cooks, but she doesn't even know how to taste it?Shaking his head self-consciously, he began to settle the food in front of him.

In the next few days, she hardly came to see me. I looked at the spring scene outside the window, but felt a little lost in my heart.

However, instead of her coming to see me, I waited for another person.

"Hi, Chief." I could only sit there, unable to get up to salute him, but I still made a symbolic move.

"You have a good rest and don't move." The director hurriedly held me down.

"Xiao Chen, the bureau has just decided to resume your captain position. When you recover from your injuries, go back and resume your post." The bureau chief looked at me with a smile.

To be honest, I was recuperating here during this period of time, but I just lay here every day, unable to do anything else, and it was quite lonely.So I'm happy to be back.

"It's like this. The person you held back earlier was a small leader of the theft gang we were chasing. We got a lot of valuable clues from him. The case was closed quickly, and the city bureau even opened it on purpose." The commendation meeting." The director explained this to me.

In fact, I know that person is related to the theft gang, and that person's car is one of the few unstolen cars in that area, and that bar has the best view in that area.And judging by his appearance, he should have a certain status, that's why I tried my best to hold him back and not let him go.

The reason why I didn't catch him at the beginning was because I was afraid of scaring the snake. When I was sitting there, someone always looked here intentionally or unintentionally.Then just use a trick to lure the snake out of the hole, and I happened to see her again, but it was true that I was angry at the time, but I didn't lose my mind.

I just nodded after listening to the director's words, and didn't explain much.

After all, I still took advantage of her, and after all, I still have some embarrassment about my behavior.

In the following period of time, more people came to see me. They all congratulated me on my successful reinstatement and wished me a speedy recovery. Those with good or bad relationships usually came to see me.

However, among the people who came to see me, she was never there. Did she leave again? That's right, it's better not to get close to people like me...

After staying in the hospital for a period of time, my injuries were almost healed. When it was time to leave the hospital, my colleagues said they would treat me to dinner as a celebration of my discharge and reinstatement.

They found various reasons to pour me a lot of wine, and I took it one by one. I don't like drinking, but this time I didn't refuse, probably because I was happy, I think so.

Later, Yu stopped those who still wanted to drink me, and said that he would send me home.

He asked me why I was drinking so much alcohol.

I said happy, isn't it normal to drink more wine?

He said he didn't think I was very happy.

Yeah, I'm not a happy person...

Maybe to pamper yourself?

My head was a little dizzy, and I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I pushed Yu away.

"I'll go back by myself, you don't have to send it off."

I just vaguely remember him sighing.

When I got home, I found the light was on and a woman was sitting on the couch, as if waiting for me.

Mom, is that Mom?

I looked at her and couldn't say a word.He just strode up and hugged her tightly.I hugged her very hard, afraid that she would disappear in front of my eyes in the next second.

She stroked my back lightly, but said nothing.The temperature from her palm is so real, and my mother is still as gentle as ever.

"Why are you crying?" Her tone was a little panicked.

Only then did I realize that my tears had wet my face and dripped on her shoulders at some point.

"I miss you, I've been thinking about you for so many years, please don't leave me again." My voice became smaller and smaller, and my head was deeply buried in her shoulder socket.

"Okay." She seemed to be taken aback for a moment, but quickly replied, "I won't leave again." Her voice sounded like a dream.

When I heard her words, I felt relieved, and I was also tired, and I didn't want to hold on any longer, letting my consciousness gradually blur.

Anyway, she promised not to leave, so she probably won't leave...

I woke up the next day to find her in my arms.

I thought back to what happened last night, and I thought that the mother I saw at that time was her... What would she think?I was a little apprehensive.

She hugged me very tightly, I couldn't see her expression, because her whole face was buried in my chest, I suddenly felt that my heart was beating very fast, but I didn't dare to move, for fear that I would wake her up .

Her eyelashes trembled suddenly, but she didn't wake up, but rubbed against my arms twice, and I suddenly felt an indescribable feeling in my heart.

I can't go on like this anymore, I grabbed her hand and slowly moved it away from my waist, very carefully.When I put down her hand, I realized that she woke up at some point, her eyes were clear, she was staring at me, and there seemed to be a vague smile on her mouth.

I don't know if it's my delusion.

Seeing that she was awake, I got up and got out of bed without hesitation, but she still had that indifferent expression.

It must have been an illusion just now.

When I got out of the room, I noticed that there was a table of dishes on the dining table, two meat and three vegetables and one soup, very rich.It's a pity it's freezing cold now.I probably know why she has been there for so long.

But I don't have time to take care of this right now. I quickly washed up and got ready to go to work.

Before I left, I still didn't forget to say to her, "I'm coming back for dinner tonight, please wait for me."

She just nodded at me.

There was a meeting in the bureau today, and the huge arms smuggling case that has been following up recently has finally made a breakthrough.Now that the criminals are confirmed to be trading in an abandoned warehouse on the outskirts of the city at ten o'clock tonight, it's time for us to close the net, and when the time comes, we will directly come and get all the stolen goods, so that they can't be blamed.

Before the director always went to the hospital from time to time to bring up the case with me, and I realized something.But I didn't expect him to directly say at the meeting this time that I was directly appointed as the commander-in-chief of the operation. He also said that although I had just been discharged from the hospital, my adaptability and mentality adjustment were almost unmatched here. It is also a good opportunity for me to make contributions.

I can't say no, it's just that I won't be able to have dinner with her tonight.

I feel a little sorry.