[Soul of Chess] Shugui

I'm afraid there will be a day when Zidi is around. This abnormal state will never return to normal.

Sitting on the train heading for Mihara Station, Taya thought so desperately.

At first, I thought it was just me and Zidi walking around casually, but I didn't realize until I arrived at Tokyo Railway Station that I was incidental, and Shinto and Zidi were the protagonists this time.Ahh, it's really bad.

Taya frowned, staring straight ahead, while Shinto beside him looked out the window.Obviously the two have known each other for four years and have had countless fights, but now they have not said a word.The atmosphere of embarrassment has been permeating.

"Passengers, please taste Shizuoka's famous products - Ambegawa sticky rice cakes and wasabi pickles."

The stewardess on the train walked by pushing a small trolley.Hearing this familiar voice, Shinto couldn't help but part his lips.

It has been four years, and every time I hear the recommendation from the flight attendant, I think of the first time I took this train.Mr. Kawai yelled carelessly in the car, and he was anxious to rush to Innoshima to catch Saori back... Time passed so quickly.

The train was running smoothly on the Sanyo Main Line, and the scenery outside the window was slightly different from what I had imagined.

In May, the weather is clear and dry, and the clouds hanging over the summit of Mt. Fuji are clearly visible.However, at this time of year, the clouds torn by the autumn wind are loyally guarding Mt. Fuji like a guard, refusing to leave for a long time, showing an ethereal spirit filled with fairy mist.

The scene in October is full of decay and desolation, with yellow and fallen leaves rustling down.The original fresh and tender green passed away silently like this, just like the moment Zuo Wei left, it was so silent that people were caught off guard.

The exhaustion of rushing home after playing the guide chess yesterday, the astonishment of seeing Taya and Zidi come together today, and the destination that is about to arrive... Well, sad October, ridiculous me.What the hell am I getting on this train bound for Indo?

Shinto, who had been looking out the window, suddenly turned his head and looked at Taya.Taya, who felt the gaze for the first time, tensed his whole body, not knowing how to react.He sneaked a glance at Shinto, but only saw the side face of Shinto turned back again, the golden bangs neatly resting on the side of the face, extremely fragile.

Fragile?How could it be fragile?Taya was puzzled. In his impression, Shinto was full of vitality and confidence, his advanced chess skills, his decisive refusal, his self-confidence declaration, and the radiant spirit he played in the game for so many years, and the vitality in the resumption of the game. ...But now, why do you think Shinto is weak?

No, not just now.Taya recalled that in May of 01, Shindo gave up Go without knowing why, and lost without a fight for two consecutive months.When I went to school to find him, what I saw was a weak and evasive look...until he regained his fighting spirit.So now, is the journey making him vulnerable?

Honinbo Shusaku!

Taya suddenly understood: there must be some connection between the two!Only now, I don't know yet.

Onomichi City, Hiroshima Prefecture.

Zi Di wobbled down from the train, her face was pale and her lips were purple.

"Ah, ah, there's nothing you can do when you're old, your body is failing." Facing the worried gazes of the two big boys, Zi Di didn't care.

Taya and Shindo instantly blacked out.

"How can you young and strong guys understand the mentality of the elderly!" Zidi leaned on the old and sold the old, "Hey, do you understand respecting the old and loving the young? Come and give me a hand, I can't walk anymore."

Taya and Shinto looked at each other, then staggered guiltily, stepped forward tacitly, and held the purple flute from left to right.

Taya knew that Zidi was ill, and also knew that this sister usually looked like an unscrupulous senior, so she was not surprised.

On the contrary, Jinto was a little uncomfortable.The two short encounters before, the powerful momentum during the game, and the tacit understanding of Sai's temptations made Shinto think that Zidi was a serious and unsmiling person like Taya-senpai.I didn't expect to get along with such a temperament, and I felt a lot easier.

With their own thoughts, the two helped Zidi get on the bus to Yindao.

"Well, I still have to take a boat." Zidi watched the car board the high-speed boat, "I think I might get seasick."

Sitting in the last row together, Shinto and Taya heard Zidi irresponsibly say the prediction of seasickness, and instantly felt that the nature of this trip was a little darker.

Why didn't you say it sooner so we can prepare the seasickness medicine? !Both of them roared in their hearts.

"Hey, let's go to the foredeck." Zi Di, who didn't cherish her body at all, naturally put forward what she thought was the most reasonable request.

Taya looked at Zi Di with the face of 'I really want to see the sea', and said helplessly: "But your body..."

"Ouch~ It's okay! Now that you're out, you have to have fun! It's a big deal and you can go back and rest." Apparently Zidi doesn't think that the body can be used as a shield to refuse to see the sea.

"However, it is stipulated in the car that passengers cannot get off the ship at will." Jin Teng, who has always been whimsical, couldn't resist Zidi's unreasonable moves one after another.

"It's okay, just sneak down." Zidi said excitedly, "You see, the driver brother also got out of the car to smoke. There must be a special place to rest on the boat. It's more comfortable to go on the boat than to sit in the car." .”

Facing Zi Di who made many unreasonable reasons, the two had no choice but to compromise.

The three of them got out of the car carefully, thinking that no one saw their actions.

But the problem is that the three of them were seated at the end, no matter which door they got off from, more than half of the passengers would see them.However, even if one is as shrewd as Taya, in the atmosphere of doing bad things secretly, it doesn't matter whether he is being watched, being watched, or being watched.

"Huh, it really feels much more comfortable to blow the sea breeze." Zi Di leaned on the railing and looked into the distance, while Jin Teng stared at people nervously, for fear of any accidents.

On the way to the deck, Taya saw a sign indicating a rest area on the second floor, so he decided to go up and have a look, maybe he could buy medicine to prevent seasickness.

The tip of the ship glides forward, the sea surface is broken by the hull, and the sea water rolls from bottom to top, bringing out groups of white waves.When the sea water fell, it was like a shattered jade silk, splashing in all directions and fanning away into the distance.Not only the bow of the boat, but the surroundings of the boat are full of rolling white waves, which are in full bloom one by one. After they bloom to the extreme, they turn into palace fans that spread out one by one, extending farther away.

The water waves beside the boat, from peak to peak, and from decay to peak, intertwine and reflect each other.

The distance beyond the hull is much calmer.As soon as the autumn wind passes, it blows away a ripple.Even if a wave occasionally flies up, it is extremely small and light, and it will fall into the water in an instant and disappear.

The color of sea water is not pure blue, but a deeper and more intense lake blue.The water vapor on the sea surface is steaming, and the deck is full of water vapor, and the air is filled with the unique fishy smell of the sea.

Zi Di turned around and leaned against the railing, saw Jin Teng's nervous face, and smiled: "It's okay. I just have a little problem with my heart, I've had it since I came out of the womb, so don't be too nervous."

"Ah, oh." Shinto nodded when he heard the words, glanced at Zi Di, turned away his eyes, and looked at her again after a while, then turned his eyes away again.In the next second, he glanced at Zidi again...

Zi Di looked at Jin Teng's hesitant expression, and said with a dumb smile: "Jin Teng-kun, do you have anything to say?"

"No, you don't need to call me 'Shinto-kun', you can just call me Aguang." While speaking, Jinto looked at Zidi with his big amber eyes.

"Ah Guang, your eyes are for looking at the scenery, not for staring at people." Zi Di smiled and said, "I won't fall from here, so don't worry."

After hearing Zidi's words, Jinto was even more at a loss.

Zi Di turned away from looking at the vines, and continued, "Do you think this sea view looks better now, or in May?"

"May...it doesn't seem to be any different." Shinto thought about it seriously.Even in May, I stayed in the car obediently, where would I see the sea while sailing.Wait a minute, she asked me about the scenery in May, does she know...

"Really?" Zidi smiled noncommittally, completely ignoring that Shinto's expression went from bewildered to stunned, from stunned to shocked.

"Zi, Miss Di, do you know about Sai's existence?" Shinto asked recklessly.

"Sai..." Zi Di cast her eyes on the sea again, "Ah Guang, do you know? Each of us in this world may not only exist for ourselves. Some people exist for others, and those Others exist for other people. Those of us who play Go may exist to train disciples who can become chess gods, or to preserve our classic attainments in Go. Or, it exists to chase after an opponent for a lifetime, to find an opponent who can perform the "divine skill" with oneself!"

Zidi paused for a moment, and her eyes softened as she looked at the sea.

"We are not just struggling alone, but everyone is working hard to leave traces of our existence in this world. Besides, Go is not played by one person. It requires two equal players. Only when the opponent can play a game of chess, can we walk together on the road of 'God's Skill'!"

"I don't understand..." Shinto looked at the purple flute in a daze, and the breath that he had been suffocating kept rising, rolling, boiling, and agitating, as if his yearning and guilt for Zuowei could no longer be stopped in the past four years up.

"I don't understand, I don't understand! Existence, existence, does no one know about Sai's existence? For whom does he exist? This question makes no sense at all, because no one except me, except Toranojiro, knows about him at all." Existence, how unfair this is to Sai!"

"Fool, he exists for you." Looking at Shinto struggling, Zidi stepped forward and hugged his shoulders, "He exists for you. He imparts what he has learned all his life to you, you That's why he exists."

"Then why did he leave me! Since he exists for me, why did he leave me?! I haven't learned all his skills, I haven't reached the height he reached, obviously he has accompanied Toranojiro through his life , why did you leave me so early, so early, I haven't..."

"Because he knows that you can fulfill his wish of the 'divine skill' that he has pursued for thousands of years, and he believes in you! Because he is Sakai Fujiwara, and you are Hikari Shinto!"

A cold voice rang in his ears, Shinto leaned his head on Zidi's shoulder blades, his suppressed voice was like crying.Zi Di patted Jin Teng's back lightly, comforting Jin Teng with distress and pity.

Even if I know that Fujiwara Sawai exists in my chess game, and I know that as long as I keep playing chess, I can see the existence of Fujiwara Sawai on the chessboard, but the guilt and longing for Sakai's disappearance will not decrease in the slightest .

After four years, Shindo finally understood a little bit how Sawei felt when he disappeared.

After a long time, Shinto looked up shyly, and said "thank you" to Zidi in a hoarse voice.

Zidi looked into Teng with red eyes, and thanked herself, just like seeing her own child.

She lowered her head very naturally, and kissed Jinteng's forehead as if comforting.

Shinto was startled, and hurriedly backed away, only to see Taya standing behind him with a look of shock and astonishment on his face.

The author has something to say: The first revision of the article on August 2014, 8 [K]

On September 2017, 9, the second revision [K]