[Criminal Minds] The Man in the Mirror

For this story, Yao Sulin guessed the heart-piercing, but did not guess the twists and turns. She was silent until Hotch said in a slump.

"I can't forget her, if...if..."

"If the owner can predict the thief's arrival, he will not be robbed①. That's not the point, Mr. Hotchner."

"I can't forget her. I wanted to see her a while ago, in my dream."

Symptoms of OCD, no, you can't.

Yao Sulin sat upright on the sofa, forcing him to look at each other.

"Do you know about the sleeping effect?"

Hotch nodded.

"After a person accepts a piece of information, as time goes by, only the content of the information is left in the memory, and other information surrounding the information will gradually fade away. You remember Haley's death, which shows that you have accepted the information. Why? To forget it? How can you forget it, as if nothing happened?"

"I can imagine Haley, blond, maybe tall, with a beautiful smile, you lose your love, your life partner, Jack's mother, for that you hate this memory, you remember it, you force Remember it firmly, remember your dereliction of duty, remember your incompetence, and remember that if you don't do this job, get divorced, or track her down, she won't die. Haley is dead, she can't answer these questions, you stay What you can't bear to look back on is the memory, it's gone, isn't it? After that? What did you rely on to survive, and how did you work hard to take care of Jack? Since the pain is overwhelming you, why didn't you collapse?

"You're remembering, when you can't hold on, when you can't sleep at night, when you look into Jack's eyes, you can see Haley in his pupils, they are all yours, painful, happy memories, all It’s yours, it’s what makes you what you are. This is life, where pain and happiness are intertwined and closely intertwined. Everyone is licking honey on the edge of a knife. Only you know how sweet and how painful it is. Many people are crazy, from depression to split personality , you have seen more than twice as many as me, what about you? Maybe you said, my duty, my identity, my guilt for Haley does not allow me to collapse, because I am the person in charge of BAU, I am Jack Father, I am a man who is willing to take care of Haley for the rest of his life. Enough, this is enough."

"You can stay in the summer and drink it in an ice drip pot."

Hotch had said this before leaving, but he was with Jack for tea the next summer.

Yao Sulin fell asleep, at Hotch's house.

After Shenlong disappeared for a while, Hotch suddenly asked her to take care of Jack, with a slightly disturbed tone.Seeing that it was Quantico displayed on the phone, she agreed without thinking twice.

Hotch's other end was noisy, he explained that Haley's sister Jassica's family was moving to California due to work, and it would be better for Jack to stay in Quantico.He is still young, and he has inherited his father's calmness and slowness, Yao Sulin can tell.

The two sides remained silent until a sentence came from the other end of the phone, okay.

She said yes, and she did, surprisingly well.

She approached Jack, took him to the amusement park, helped him with his manual homework, received a call from Jack by chance, and rushed to accompany him to spend another weekend without anyone, the two of them nestled on the sofa and watched happily. Watching the cartoon, Hotch came home late at night and didn't know who to put the coat in his hand on to the sleeping adults and children.

He had been to Yao Sulin's rented house before, and like all the people who had just started working, she was kneading animal buns stuffed with bamboo shoots and meat for Jack in the narrow kitchen, and she heard Hotch say, next time if it's too late, you stay.

There was no charity or frivolity in the tone.

In the middle of the night, some people are crying, some are indulging in sex, some are thinking, let go of their burdens and think about things that they have no time to think about during the day, and say something more profound than during the day, during a cup of coffee, they chat about stream of consciousness, psychological novels, DH Lawrence ②, Poe, talk about the relationship between Woolf ③'s feminism and her mental breakdown.

A house can only be alive if someone lives in it.A home looks like a home only when there are women.

Hotch and Yao Sulin said good night and seemed to be enjoying the platonic relationship.