Falling flowers and flowing water

Cheng Yan: "...Don't play too late, go to bed early."

After finishing speaking, Cheng Yan stretched out his hand, wanting to rub Qi Shao's short hair, but suddenly thought of something, hesitated for a moment, and stopped.

Shao Qi was so anxious that he almost grabbed Cheng Yan's hand and pressed it directly on his head.Fuck nocturnal nocturnal, fuck liking, Qi Shao has forgotten all of them in a hurry, if he doesn't do anything else, he may drift away from Cheng Yan.

Shao Qi threw himself on Cheng Yan who was about to go upstairs, and hugged Cheng Yan tightly without letting go.

Cheng Yan stabilized his figure, then pushed away Qi Shao's hand, turned around, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Qi Shao hugged him up again, lowered his head and buried his face by Cheng Yan's neck, and called out in a low voice: "Brother."

Cheng Yan didn't understand, so he gently wrapped his arms around him, and replied in a low voice: "Well, I'm here."

"I don't have a girlfriend."

"……Um."

Qi Shao didn't speak anymore, just like dreaming that he turned into a little black cat and rubbed against Cheng Yan's shoulder in a dream.

The previous grievances, confusion, panic, etc. all disappeared without a trace, and Cheng Yan made him feel at ease.

Cheng Yan laughed, and rubbed Qi Shao's hair like petting a small animal: "Okay, go back and rest, and wait for Aunt Zhang to finish cooking and bring it to you."

Qi Shao reluctantly tightened his arms, took a deep breath in Cheng Yan's arms, let go of Cheng Yan, and went back to his room.

After closing the door, Shao Qi lay on the bed and said to himself repeatedly: Shao Qi, you are finished, you like Cheng Yan, you like your brother.He has never been more certain than now. Maybe when he was a child, he yearned for and depended on, but now his possessiveness grows wildly like a vine... There is only one explanation - liking.

Apart from other things, because of Cheng Yan's nocturnal emission, he wanted to kiss Cheng Yan, and he would feel impulsive when hugging... These are not things that would happen between normal brothers.

So everything makes sense, why is it that he can pull [-] to [-] from anyone, but Cheng Yan can make him feel so wronged by just looking at him?Why did he not hesitate to hurt himself in order to get Cheng Yan's tenderness?And why can't stand others approaching Cheng Yan?

Now that Shao Qi can no longer deceive himself, seeing Cheng Yan with others makes him feel uncomfortable because he just got his brother's attention, this kind of lame reason can no longer cover up the truth.

Qi Shao was not surprised by this result, liking Cheng Yan seemed to be a doomed thing long ago.Since Cheng Yan first entered his life, he always wanted to get close to Cheng Yan.Sometimes he himself wondered why even if Cheng Yan turned a blind eye to him, even if he said he was disgusted, he was not angry at all in his heart.Maybe I'm used to it. I'm used to someone picking up the mess after I make a mistake. I'm used to waiting on the couch when I get home at midnight. I'm used to being taken care of when I'm sick.

Therefore, it is not surprising that he likes Cheng Yan.

Maybe he fell in love with Cheng Yan a long time ago, but because he didn't get attention, he was unwilling to be attracted to Cheng Yan like this. This kind of feeling was suppressed to the point that even he himself thought he didn't like Cheng Yan.

It really doesn't take long to deceive yourself and others.

Shao Qi patted his head and scolded himself for being too stupid. If Cheng Yan was a girl, at his level, he could be regarded as a deep love.

But realizing that I like it is actually the beginning of a nightmare.

Because I have made clear my own mind, what I want, and at the same time, when I can't get it, it is the most painful.