Mr. Cheng Jingqiao · Thinking of the King at Twelve Hours

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After "connecting" with Mr. Cheng Jingqiao, Liang Yiwen has been thinking about how to explain to his family.Maybe he will never explain, Mr. Cheng is still teaching, he doesn't want to ruin Mr. Cheng's good job because of himself.

After that time, Mr. Cheng never got close to him, but he was not alienated either. What happened was like Liang Yiwen had a charming dream.He was not embarrassed, on the contrary, he became even more embarrassed. Since Mr. Cheng didn't come to him, he went to Mr. Cheng frequently, until Mr. Cheng had to talk to him.

It's okay to blame him.

"Don't come to my house all the time, don't you have classes yourself?" Cheng Jingqiao sat on the rocking chair by the balcony, leaning slightly sideways, with his thin shoulders leaning against the back of the bamboo and rattan chair, like a wisp of smoke lingering on the chair It seems to be angry.Liang Yiwen stood aside, looking at his husband with a smile.

"There are classes, but I always come after dinner, so it's always okay to eat." He squatted down flatteringly, and put himself by Cheng Jingqiao's hand. Helplessly charming.If this coquettishness was given to any girl outside, Liang Yiwen would probably marry an eight-bedroom wife, but this coquettish treatment was given to Old Cheng... Mr. Cheng admits that Liang Yiwen is beautiful, but this is the beauty he needs to avoid.

Liang Yiwen went to graduate school, and also got the qualification for combined master and doctoral studies. This time, he didn't follow Cheng Jingqiao anymore. He chose an old professor with quite a lot of qualifications to be his tutor. Occasionally, when he saw Cheng Jingqiao on campus, he started to raise his hands from afar. Greetings are like the sun at seven or eight o'clock in the morning, and like the wind at three or four o'clock in the afternoon.Cheng Jingqiao could immediately see the shyness of the people around him, especially the girls, who turned their heads away from Liang Yiwen's direction, wishing they could be buried in the old trees and grass next to them, just like the kid's smiling face As if it would hurt their eyes.But after Liang Yiwen received Cheng Jingqiao's nod, he would restrain his movements and re-enter the previous chat or march. The girls around suddenly turned back from the old trees and grass, and stared at Liang Yiwen furtively again, with a ring in their ears. Powdered.

Cheng Jingqiao couldn't help feeling a little pity, he came from an ordinary family, he knew what it was like to "look up", and there was a daughter in his family who was about the same age as these girls. The young girl, her true feelings were wasted.And at the end, he remembered his true feelings——but he had no true feelings to give.He is getting old, and his boredom and age have increased step by step with aging, and until today, he still does not believe in the love of young people—no matter how much that young man shed his blood for him at this moment, He also knows that this love is no match for a few minutes.

Especially young people like that, young people like Liang Yiwen.

Liang Yiwen's grandfather was one of the first batch of people in China to do mining business. His family didn't even experience any national disasters. Long before the Japanese invaded, the entire Liang family immigrated to the United States. His grandfather even married an American wife.But after the war, the uncle of the Liang family refused to forget his identity as a Chinese, and returned home with a large amount of family money.After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, the civil war came, and the Cultural Revolution came. The uncle of the Liang family inherited the legacy of his father. He not only had the spirit of a literati, but also had the cunning of a businessman.At that time, Liang Yiwen's grandfather was old enough to have a son, and after giving birth to Liang Yiwen's father, he passed away.The old lady is the wife of the third house. She is not as old as the uncle of the Liang family. She is also a woman with no ambitions.My uncle really hates the face of capitalism and wants to bring them all back to China.

Later, the rest of the Liang family moved back to China, but none of the real estate in the United States was sold. The garden houses that the old man bought in the early years were all taken care of by special personnel. Large sums of pure gold were deposited in European banks.

If the Liang family said that they were not a big family, then the word big family would be ashamed to appear in the dictionary.

Liang Yiwen's father was also a student of Cheng Jingqiao.Father Liang was a romantic and unruly son by nature. He went to Europe for two years for junior high school, and then went to the United States for two years for high school. His elder brother pulled him back by the collar.At that time, Cheng Jingqiao had just gone to the University of Hong Kong to study, and the school gave him a teaching assistant position so that he could subsidize his family.It was at this time that he met Liang Yiwen's father. The little son had inherited his own father's various unethical demeanor, copying homework, skipping classes, and picking up girls.

So I can also understand why the Liang family has four children, Liang Yiwu, Liang Yiwen, Liang Xinyi, and Liang Kunqi. Except for the two brothers Yi Wu and Yiwen who were born to the same mother, the other two have their own mothers. no.

At that time, Cheng Jingqiao was the teaching assistant teacher of Liang's father's major. Due to the delay of several years, Liang's father was a few years older than Cheng Jingqiao, especially Cheng Jingqiao was very young. He still looked a little bit old, even now in his 20s, he still looks like someone in his early 30s.But even though Cheng Jingqiao's appearance was forgotten by the years, he was really younger than Liang's father, and Liang's father still called Cheng Jingqiao "teacher teacher".But also because of the similar age, Liang's father became his close friend, and he would come to ask him for advice whenever he had a problem in life, and Cheng Jingqiao would definitely attend any big family gathering.

He met this child once when Liang Yiwen was very young. At that time, Liang Yiwen was only one or two years old, while Liang Yiwu was more than five years old. On the faces of the two children, there were traces of exotic feelings mixed with different blood races. ——The mother of these two is a romantic French woman that Liang's father fell in love with when he was a teenager.But not long after that, Liang's father moved on.So Cheng Jingqiao only saw Liang Yiwen once when he was two years old, and then the child was taken to the United States by his mother, and when he came back, he was already 14 years old.

From the point of view of blood, Liang Yiwu has inherited his father's flamboyant gene.

There is no reason why Liang Yiwen has become an infatuation.

Liang Yi's literary Chinese is not very strenuous, unlike Liang Yiwu, who has little interest in Chinese.Liang Yiwen's interests are different. His interests lie in Professor Cheng.Professor Cheng was in his forties at the time, and because of his poor family and his current teaching career, his life was very monotonous.His daily hobbies are nothing more than raising fish and fishing, reading and reading newspapers, and making tea at home in his free time. If he must point out any bad habits, he only has to smoke.It is reasonable for men of his age to socialize and have fun outside, but Cheng Jingqiao still prefers to stay at home——

He had no intention of touching those wine bags and rice bags, and he was too tired to deal with them.Cheng Jingqiao's parents died early, and as his elder sister married into a family, he was brought into his brother-in-law's house like a dowry.He also pretended to be smarter and more sensitive than others, and he understood what it was like to be dependent on others at a young age. As he grew older, he had neither spare money for entertainment nor capital to wander, so he could only concentrate on studying, and was even born a little withdrawn, unwilling to get along with his wife. Many people come to chat - one needs to recall the past, but his past is really boring and pitiful.

He himself is boring.

That's what Jing Wan said about him, what's the use of being knowledgeable?It's not that inconsiderate and unromantic.When he was young, he was as indifferent as he is now. No wonder Jing Wan blamed him for being "highly ambitious" and "not making money".

Now that he has money, maybe no matter how rich he is, Jing Wan won't stay.Fortunately, he still has a daughter. Fortunately, the time in the world is not so short, but it is not too long to make him unbearable.

Therefore, a young man like Liang Yiwen would hang around him at the age of fifteen or sixteen. He drank tea and he drank tea. He read whatever books he read. He was smarter and more beautiful than others...

... Cheng Jingqiao just thought this child was playing with him.

He is more than 40 years old. For young people, he is almost "over half a century old", and he is a veritable "bad old man".Why should he like Liang Yiwen?That child was tall and straight, and his appearance was impossibly handsome. Since he entered the school, the girls only saw him. Five years have passed, and the girls still only see him.Why would he like a "bad old man" who is "over half a century old"?

Cheng Jingqiao thought, if you don't like him, you must not love him any more.It's all up to him to mess around, let him go crazy, one day he gets bored and suddenly loses interest in himself or even becomes bored with him, so he shouldn't be too embarrassing.Just let Liang Yiwen pester him, just like a child, when he has had enough fun and feels bored, he will throw this toy away.

Cheng Jingqiao couldn't help lowering his eyes at this point, how should young people figure out in the heart?There are girls like flowers and jade all over the campus, but he just wants this dim and shriveled tree.The flowers are easy to pick, but what about the tree?Uprooted it?

If you fold the flowers, they will bloom again next year.But the root of the tree was dug, and it died in a second.

Liang Yiwen heard that Cheng Roushu told him that the old dean of the School of Economics tried to match his sister to Professor Cheng.Cheng Roushu is one year older than him. The girl is thoughtful and magical. She asked Liang Yiwen when Liang Yiwen fell down the stairs with gangsters last time, "Do you like my dad very much?"

Of course not, I'm... I respect him.

The girl didn't say anything more about him, she was disapproving and full of thoughts, she was a bit like Cheng Jingqiao in some points.But at the moment, he reported to Liang Yiwen about her father's recent abnormalities.

Said that she went out to eat frequently with an aunt, and it seemed that she was going to find a new mother for her.

Liang Yiwen didn't really believe it at first, and occasionally asked Cheng Jingqiao on the sidelines, but the husband didn't give any positive answer.Later, when Liang Yiwen went to visit the professor again, Cheng Jingqiao was often not at home.

Not long after, Cheng Roushu told Liang Yiwen that her father asked her if she agreed with him to remarry.

Hearing this, Liang Yiwen's blood surged up, and he couldn't help but go to the office to block Professor Cheng, and ran to the opposite fourth floor, thinking about his grievances while running - he wanted to focus on his studies, but he On the contrary, Yingying Yanyan got up, didn't she say that she would no longer be tempted by anyone, didn't she just use this reason repeatedly to reject him?But what's going on with that aunt? Could it be that nothing is good for me, but everything is good for an aunt? !

Liang Yiwen suddenly paused when he thought of this. He was already standing at the door of Cheng Jingqiao's office, with his hands clenched into fists. The door was right in front of his eyes. There must be his husband sitting inside, probably reading a book, or approving homework. The over-cooked tea leaves rolled into the teacup, and the curling smoke raised the eyebrows and eyes of the husband.

If he didn't give this jade to him, he thought to himself, this jade didn't move his heart, but it was firmly pressed on his heart, and he didn't move.The indifference to him, and the indifference to Ming Wang for himself are both inaction, but suppressing Liang Yiwen's greed has turned into pain. I really want to destroy that person, tear his indifference, and make the trembling The hot inside was churned out and had to throb and struggle in his hands.

Cheng Jingqiao is not tempted by anything, but he can be tempted by an ordinary aunt.At that moment, Liang Yiwen realized that Professor Cheng might not accept his gender or his age.Or, neither gender nor age is accepted.

He stood there slumped until the door opened first.

Cheng Jingqiao was obviously taken aback, "Why are you here?"

The child gave him a vicious look, and was about to leave without saying a word.

Cheng Jingqiao was inexplicably flustered by this look, and opened his mouth to call him again, "What's wrong? Is something wrong?"

Liang Yiwen turned around and was about to say something when suddenly a student walked over from the other side, and Cheng Jingqiao hurriedly waved, "Come here, come in and talk."

This trick broke the child's courage again. It is very clear that Cheng Jingqiao does not want others to know their relationship. Deformed and morbid year-end love, it doesn't matter how many girls bow down to Professor Cheng's lecture hall, it doesn't matter how many people prefer his elegant and gentle style, admiring his indifferent and simple words, but it seems that I can never show any love in front of others!

This is simply absurd, no matter how much I try to please and entangle, even if I am willing to sacrifice my life for him, this noble and impersonal gentleman will not give him any warmth, even if he has hugged him that day He died? !

Liang Yiwen didn't even know that his body was shaking. He took a few steps and approached Cheng Jingqiao. Cheng intended to let him in, but he grabbed Cheng Jingqiao's wrist. Cheng Jingqiao glanced at the student walking past in a panic. He didn't notice anything unusual and just walked by, but Liang Yiwen in front of him seemed to have his veins bulge out of patience, and his brows were also furrowed sadly.

"I'm asking you..." Liang Yiwen lowered his voice, whispering, but full of grief and indignation, "You did it with me that day, what do you think now? If I want you now, do you agree? ?”

"You...!" Cheng Jingqiao felt insulted all of a sudden, and the hand that was held in someone else's hand was also clenched into a fist. He gave in to this child that day, so can he ask such a question? "I'm your teacher...!"

"So?" Liang Yiwen pushed him into the office, but the door was not closed. Cheng Jingqiao was afraid that people would see him, so he had to struggle to free his wrist, but Liang Yiwen couldn't see him trying to break free today.He never forced the teacher to do anything, but the teacher never accepted him. He knew that he was young and a boy, and in Professor Cheng's view, he must be "unattractive".

"What kind of woman does Mr. Cheng like? A mature woman with big breasts and a thin waist, or a fair-skinned slut?"

Liang Yiwen uttered the word "sex" for the first time in his life, and probably the last time he uttered it in his life.

"You don't understand at all!" Cheng Jingqiao was anxious, he was rarely so impatient, because of the wolf-like eyes of this boy in front of him, he seemed to hate him, and nothing seemed right, "...you always have to like to be with you If you are a good match, why do you waste your good time and entangle with me?"

"How do you know you're not that person?!" Liang Yiwen grabbed Cheng Jingqiao's shirt and recklessly bit the teacher's lip.

Cheng Jingqiao used all his strength to give him that slap.

Cheng Jingqiao's marriage was not consummated, and his precious daughter refused to have this stepmother, and even suddenly revealed all the rebelliousness in her teenage years.I don't know what kind of madness the children have gone into. Recently, one of them swallowed more guns and bullets than the other, and they refused to speak properly.

Liang Yiwen didn't come to look for him anymore.

This is inevitable, this result, Cheng Jingqiao has considered it many years ago, this is the only and inevitable result - Liang Yiwen will put down this weird love one day, and return to the world he should belong to , Go back to the arms of those beautiful girls, go back to the family of a young, promising and handsome young master.

When Cheng Jingqiao was thinking this way, he suddenly had some self-destructive thoughts, and he finally got used to the child's entanglement.Liang Yiwen's way of expressing love, no matter what, is likable. He is probably a beautiful and appropriate young man, who surrounds you back and forth, in awe and stability. For three to five years, ten or eight years, he always Compromise is necessary—compromise to those eyes that seem to hide the universe, compromise to that fiery heart, compromise to the soft kiss.How can one forget the fearless and passionate love of a beautiful young man?

This is what Cheng Jingqiao was so afraid of, even though he avoided and resisted like this, the sudden departure and indifference of the other party at this time made Mr. Cheng have to be depressed alone at night.

Very good, let him go, this time is for his own good.A beautiful young man should never put a bad old man over fifty in his eyes.

Cheng Jingqiao comforted himself, either today or tomorrow, no matter how tight the hug is, such a relationship must have a time of separation.

It was the third month that Cheng Jingqiao heard that Liang Yiwen had applied for a field assignment.The news shocked Cheng Jingqiao to stand up from his chair. Hearing that the higher-ups were in a hurry, and that he was also a person who wanted to be promoted by the party and the government, Liang Yiwen pestered his father for that quota—this father was also a man with excessive romanticism, and he agreed. What's more, Liang Yiwen is an excellent undergraduate, master, and Ph.D. student at Peking University. Even if he hasn't started his Ph. D., he is already half a Ph.D.Liang Yiwen went to various places to go through the formalities, and did not say goodbye to the big guys. He only returned home the day before the final flight, packed his luggage, and left for the Middle East tomorrow with a photographer and two accompanying assistants.

Cheng Jingqiao was sitting at home, impatient and anxious, but it was difficult to show any expression.He wanted to find that kid, it was nonsense!Like everything he does, it's nonsense, all nonsense!

He said he wanted to get him by his side, so he pestered him day and night, said he wanted to enter his school, and came in with the name of the champion, said he wanted to save him, and if he dragged the gangster away, he jumped off the building and died together. just go!

This little bastard, little villain, devil, and ancestor!

Even saying that he likes him, isn't it because of that selfish desire in the end, and then abandons him?

Thinking of this, a teardrop rolled down, and suddenly heard Rou Shu calling him, Cheng Jingqiao hurriedly wiped the teardrop with his cuff, stood up with an "eh", and saw Rou Shu leading a person in - It's Liang Yiwen.

Cheng Jingqiao was stunned and did not move, but the child walked in and looked at him with a bit of shyness and discomfort. He rubbed his palms, and his figure of 185 centimeters was well-proportioned and tall. It is a breath of youth.But Cheng Jingqiao's heart is full of sorrow at the moment.

"I'm going on a long trip, and if I'm lucky, I may have to come back half a year later, so I..." Liang Yiwen was still smiling, his eyes were bright and gentle.

Cheng Jingqiao frowned, "Why do you want to go?" The question was so soft that Liang Yiwen had to distinguish it before he could hear it clearly.

Mr. Cheng looked haggard.I don't know why, Mr. is like a dimmed candle, flickering with a bit of anger, but it seems completely powerless to fight against him.Liang Yiwen didn't know why his husband was troubled, but he couldn't help but understand that he really had the idea of ​​revenge at the beginning.

Since he was reluctant to smash the beautiful jade, it would be fine to smash his own stupid stone.

He wants to go, he wants to go a long way, it's better not to think about anything, it's better to die.If he dies, he dies. If he doesn't die, walking through the flames of war will probably make him let go of some obsessions.The world of mortals is hard to grind, and being a monk cannot stop him.If he were to become a monk, he would still be so hot for this cold gentleman in front of him when he took off his monk robe.

He is a despicable vulgar thing, he is a lewd sore on the body of King Fudo.

Let's stay away from my husband, it's better to spread this heat to hell, than to torture myself here day by day, and make my husband hate me day by day.

"It's all okay," Liang Yiwen smiled, still like the morning sun and the breeze, "It's great to have the opportunity to exercise. I want to be an expatriate reporter. Didn't everyone say before that the war reporter is the real uncrowned king? You know, there is Such an expatriate opportunity..."

"But there's a war over there!" Cheng Jingqiao reached out and grabbed Liang Yiwen's arm, "Bullets don't have eyes, what if something happens? You shouldn't be going, it's too dangerous...!"

"I shouldn't go, so who should go?" Liang Yiwen felt Cheng Jingqiao's fingers gripping his arm tightly, as if grasping a life-saving straw, "Someone must go to hell, Professor Cheng."

"That's not your turn!" Cheng Jingqiao shook his hand, angry.He doesn't understand, he can't even understand, in case of injury, in case of death!what to do?Is it going to be the same as last time?Want to kick the ground casually like that, and fall from upstairs?

Cheng Jingqiao remembered the last time, he didn't understand why he had to go through this feeling twice.This child tortured him, and it was like a child's play to challenge his nerves with his own life and death. Young people, if you say you love it, you will love it, if you say you don't love it, you won't love it, if you say you want to stay, you will stay, if you say you want to go, you will go there To the battlefield of no return!

Bastard, bastard, bastard.

Cheng Jingqiao lowered his head, his hands clenched into fists trembled slightly, the sky was already dark, the lights in the room were not turned on, and the light outside the window was blurred, projecting on the thin professor, it was only a great deal of sadness.

Liang Yiwen understood that the professor felt that he was going to die.He was, but what else could he do?Stay to see him get married, see his family is happy, harmonious and healthy?

He will curse him, he is selfish and mean, he can't see Mr. loving others.

So let's go, his filth and entanglement can fully display his fearlessness and madness, and there is no better place for his courage and madness——

Battlefield is the best, it just couldn't be better.

But even though Liang Yiwen deliberately and intentionally put himself in the role of a villain, he looked at Cheng Jingqiao, and his heart softened. He still felt distressed. Professor Cheng shouldn't save him. Hope seems to be.

"...you are really... selfish..." Cheng Jing's bridge head was still hanging down, but his fingers quietly climbed onto Liang Yiwen's wrist. The cold fingers wrapped around his hand, which made Liang Yiwen startled, "...you want to come here?" , you came by yourself... If you want to leave, you will go again... You are really selfish... You are really..." He leaned forward as he spoke, and Liang Yiwen's body was more conscious than his own brain, and he immediately disappeared. Leaning over to catch Professor Cheng's forehead, the gentleman leaned on his shoulder, tears began to flow down.

It took Liang Yiwen a long time to realize that Cheng Jingqiao was crying. He was so shocked that he didn't know how to put his hands and feet down, and he was so distressed that he couldn't breathe smoothly. He quickly stretched out his arms and hugged him tightly. He felt that he was hugging him so hard that he wanted to rub him into his arms, his chin rested on Cheng Jingqiao's forehead, his fingers grabbed Cheng Jingqiao's clothes, but his throat was blocked and he couldn't speak a word.

"...Can you not go?" Cheng Jingqiao asked him in a low voice, "Stay, stay."

Hearing this sentence, Liang Yiwen was not as excited as he imagined, but suddenly felt a huge desire to protect, as if his vain naivety and muddled love had a goal overnight, as if he was just a A reed without roots took root like an ancient tree in the sky.

"You know this is a national matter, I can't stay here..." Liang Yiwen hugged him even tighter, as if Cheng Jingqiao was the child who made trouble for no reason.Cheng Jingqiao's question was indeed unreasonable, but he just couldn't help it, and now he can't help it anymore.He told himself repeatedly that he absolutely must not love Liang Yiwen at all, otherwise he would have to face the current situation.

Look how ugly he is now.Fall short.

"But I promise you," Liang Yiwen looked down at the man who smelled of tobacco in his arms, sniffing the cold breath on his body, his soul seemed to disappear with him.But now he is firm again, he has made a decision to grow up, so he can't shrink back no matter what, even for the sake of the one he loves, "I promise you, I will definitely come back, a year is very short, half a year may be even shorter. If you are willing to love me, I will have the willpower to come back."

Cheng Jingqiao hugged him back, this was the first time Professor Cheng hugged him.

Liang Yiwen quietly felt the temperature and smell of the person in his arms, and gently closed his eyes, but Cheng Jingqiao suddenly said quietly, "...then you have to come back."

Liang Yiwen opened his eyes at once.

The professor means love him.

Gratitude welled up in his heart, but he didn't know how to release it.There is nephrite hidden in her bosom, and the heartbeat in her chest keeps beating.

"Then let me...stay here tonight?"