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"How long has it been since he didn't sleep? I'm afraid he hasn't slept since the day his grandma left."

It seemed to be Aunt Wang's voice.

Then came Fang Xu's voice, "Aunt Wang, you go back first, I'll just watch him here."

"Hey, this kid is also pitiful. You are his good friend, please enlighten him more."

"Well, I know, Aunt Wang, thank you."

"Hey, what are you talking about? We are all neighbors in the village. If you can help out, I will go back first. If he wakes up and wants to eat, you can call me."

The footsteps went away, and He Xu felt Fang Xu sitting down beside him.

He was already awake, but he didn't want to move at all, and he didn't want to open his eyes.

At this time, he felt a hand gently placed on his forehead.

Fang Xu's hands are very warm, different from his rough hands after long-term work, Fang Xu's hands are very delicate, even soft. When this hand is gentle, it can give people the best comfort, but at the same time, These are also a pair of very powerful hands. When he was beating someone and when he was supporting himself, they were very stable and firm, which could give people the greatest security and reliability.

He Xu felt that his hand rubbed against his forehead a few times, and then, just when he thought he should take his hand away, the hand slowly moved down, across his eyebrows, eyes, cheek……

The force was light and fluttering, even too cautious, and it seemed that there was nothing in the touch.

He Xu couldn't help holding his breath.

His movements stopped, and then, He Xu felt a warm breath on his forehead, and then there was a warm and soft touch on his forehead.

This is……

Caught off guard, he opened his eyes in shock.

Looking at each other, Fang Xu's expression was almost cracked.

He never thought that he would wake up at this time, all his actions just now had been deliberately suppressed to the lightest strength.

He just wanted to touch him at first, seeing how he lost weight rapidly within a few days, he just felt pain in his heart, but he couldn't help him share anything.

In this world, the most unshareable thing is pain.

It never occurred to him that he would kiss him.I didn't even expect to be caught by him.

Fang Xu didn't dare to look him in the eyes, his heart was in a mess, but he didn't know how to explain it.

Even if it is to comfort a friend who is in a bad mood, a hug is enough, so what is a kiss?Even if it's just a kiss on the forehead!

And when he was so psychologically fragile, Fang Xu always felt that he seemed to be taking advantage of others.

"I..." He quickly retreated, looking like he wanted to escape, panicked.

He Xu didn't have time to think about it, he grabbed his collar and pulled him back, "What are you?"

"I just..." Wasn't it intentional?Accidentally bumped into it?How should I say it?when did he wake upWhat is he thinking now?Is he going to hate himself?Fang Xu really wanted to travel back to 2 minutes ago and beat himself to death.

He imagined countless reactions of He Xu, but was also shocked by He Xu's next actions.

He Xu pulled Fang Xu down hard, and then buried his face in his chest.

"do not……"

His voice was hoarse and muffled, Fang Xu couldn't hear the next words clearly, so he couldn't help asking, "Don't what?"

"do not leave."

He heard it clearly, but thought he didn't hear it clearly. The next moment, He Xu stretched out his hands and hugged him firmly, "Don't leave me."

He may have been stimulated by Fang Xu's flustered look that he wanted to run away immediately, or because the fear of being abandoned brought about by grandma's death has not completely dissipated, He Xu's reaction was extremely intense.

Rather than saying that he was hugging Fang Xu, it would be better to say that he strangled Fang Xu to death, causing Fang Xu's chest to ache.

But he didn't struggle, he was so weak, so overwhelmed and so terrified that He Xu made his heart soft and sore, he just let him lean on his side, and responded to him in a low voice, "I won't leave."

"I, I have no home, Fang Xu."

For He Xu, the reason why the small square courtyard is called home is because there is still grandma and people who can be called family members.

But now, there is no longer a home, but just a house, a place to live.

What he really wants to say, perhaps, is that I have no grandma and relatives, but for him, these are equivalent to a home, without these, there is no home.

Fang Xu felt a pain in his heart, stroked his head and said, "It's okay, you still have me."

"I have no home, Fang Xu."

"It's okay, you still have me."

He said it once, and Fang Xu answered it again, as if he was constantly helping him strengthen his heart.

He seemed to have listened, and finally relaxed his arms. Fang Xu was pressing him down just now, and now he will support his own weight and look down at him, "Do you want to eat something?"

He Xu shook his head.

"Would you like some water then?"

He Xu continued to shake his head.

Fang Xu hesitated for a moment, then said softly, "Then, do you want me to hug you?"

He Xu hadn't moved yet, but Fang Xu quickly took off his shoes and got on the bed. He wrapped the quilt around He Xu, then opened his hands, and hugged He Xu together with the quilt in his arms. He Xu, who was like a silkworm chrysalis, smiled and said, "This way, will it be warmer?"

Even if you know it may be useless, will your heart be warmer in this way?

He Xu only felt sore eyes.

He felt that he might have accidentally turned into a sissy, otherwise why would his tear glands be so developed all of a sudden.

That's not okay, he thought.

Even though I'm gay, I don't want Kid to be a pussy.

"Aren't you cold?" He finally controlled his emotions and talked to Fang Xu as usual.

Fang Xu only felt that half of the big rock in his heart had fallen.

He Xu spoke, and it was normal, and he talked to him, no longer wanting to say something, or unconsciously repeating muttering to himself, but talking to him.

"Cold." He nodded honestly.

He Xu's room is not equipped with air conditioning.

Although Lin City is not a northern city, the wet and cold winter is still terribly cold.

He Xu pulled out an ugly smile, "Then why don't you come in?"

Fang Xu also smiled, let go of He Xu, and got into his quilt.He was still wearing a coat, and he was bulging and squeezed next to He Xu, but it seemed strange that he could feel He Xu's body temperature, a fresh, warm body temperature.

"What are you smirking at? Can you take off your coat? Are you uncomfortable!"

"Yeah." Fang Xu took off his coat as he said, and wanted to hug He Xu, but the momentum just now seemed to shrink back as He Xu "woke up", and he didn't dare to hug him anymore.

Because I don't know what He Xu thinks of him now.

The two lay on their backs, staring blankly at the roof for a while.

The room was so quiet that it was as if they could hear each other's heartbeats. Although there was so much sadness, uneasiness, resentment, sadness, and distress in their hearts... they seemed to be able to absorb a sliver of happiness from this series of negative emotions. the taste of.

"Fang Xu."

"Ok?"

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