It turns out that I love you

Zhou Yingjun took advantage of his work to organize weekend trips to sea.

When I brought it up with Yuan Jingkun and asked for his opinion, Yuan Jingkun couldn't deny it and asked Gong Xinuo instead.

Gong Xinuo thought about it, it was a good choice to go out to relax, firstly, to ease his mood, secondly, Yuan Jingkun could breathe fresh air, since he was always bored at home, he was prone to get sick.

The weather on the weekend is good, the clouds are light and the wind is light, the temperature is neither high nor low, suitable for going out and playing.

Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun were dressed in white sportswear and trotted hand in hand to the pier. They were late due to the traffic jam.

The two stepped into the yacht one after the other, and Yuan Jingkun found that Song Yeyang was hanging his arms, and asked in surprise: "What's wrong?"

Song Yeyang explained helplessly: "Hey, people are old and useless. When I went downstairs, I didn't pay attention, I missed my step, rolled down the steps, and broke my arm."

Standing beside him, Zhou Yingjun corrected him angrily: "What's more, it's all caused by the ball. If it wasn't for fear of stepping on its claws, could it fall down?"

"You're all injured, why don't you come out to play?" Yuan Jingkun felt that he should honestly stay at home and recover from his injuries.

"Isn't it because I was injured that I came out to relax and change my mood." Song Yeyang smiled, and there was no look of pain on his face.

"Uncle, can we sail?" Xia Lefan and Geng Xin leaned forward and urged.

The activities organized by Zhou Yingjun naturally cannot lack the presence of the two of them, and they are counting on the two live treasures to adjust the atmosphere.

Although Song Yeyang was injured, it didn't affect his driving the yacht. Xia Lefan took care of all the things that he couldn't take care of. Now he has a great interest in driving a yacht, and he is clamoring to worship Song Yeyang as his teacher and learn how to drive a yacht. This is a hard-won opportunity to practice, of course we have to make good use of it.

Gong Xinuo and Zhou Yingjun stood side by side on the deck, facing the sea, looking up at the blue sky, breathing the fresh air.

"What do you plan to do after the contract expires?" Zhou Yingjun suddenly asked, breaking the silence.

"Huh?" Gong Xinuo turned his head and looked at him with a little surprise. He understood the meaning of Zhou Yingjun's words and wondered how he knew that he would resign.

Zhou Yingjun smiled lightly: "Don't underestimate me! We are not in the same industry, but we are inextricably linked with being in the business field. Don't ask who told me, anyway, I know now."

"Not yet." Gong Xinuo didn't intend to get to the bottom of it, Zhou Yingjun's foreign trade business has cooperation with M&B.

"If I were you, I would choose to marry a woman. But I will not give up this relationship. The feelings brought by men and women are different. They are not contradictory, there is no conflict, and they can completely coexist." Zhou Yingjun Speak his mind lightly.

Gong Xinuo stared at him for a while, then turned his eyes to the boundless and turbulent sea, took a deep breath, and said slowly: "Let's put aside ethics and morality, and only look at this matter from the perspective of emotion. Okay, choose Marry a woman. First of all, do you have enough energy to properly balance the relationship between the three people? Secondly, the wife is in the light and the lover is in the dark. Where is the opponent? The opponent is watching you. Slightly If you are careless, you will be caught by good people, spread it out, and everyone will know about it, let alone ruin your reputation and lose your career, but who among them do you have the heart to hurt? Finally, the key point, The woman you marry is a real woman, not a puppet at your mercy. You can put her aside, but she will never wait for you passively. She will use the characteristics of a woman to do her best and do whatever she can. When you have a blood-related child, it means that your relationship with him has come to an end. Whether it is conscience or responsibility, whether you are willing or not, whether you admit it or not, you will Gradually take the initiative to integrate into a reasonable and legal family life, and will work hard to create a happy family. The older you are, the more worries you have, the higher your position, and the heavier your worries. At that time, you have to make a choice, too Many objective factors will make you give up the so-called love. What he can give you, your wife can give you, but what your wife can give you, he can’t give you. Besides, if you really love him, you can’t bear to Do you want him to live in a dark corner all his life? Do you want every meeting between you to be like having an affair? Do you want him to be a third party? During the time you spend together, the only thing that accompanies him is loneliness, solitude, and waiting Is it? A person spends his life with melancholy. Isn't it too cruel to love like this. It's not fair to him, to you, or to another woman. "

Zhou Yingjun had never heard such a long speech from Gong Xinuo before, he was stunned for a moment, digesting his words in his heart.

Gong Xinuo really thinks deeper than him, thinks farther, thinks thoroughly, and thinks comprehensively. Indeed, if he does this, it seems to solve the problem, but in fact it hides a huge hidden danger, which is not the best way.

"But, is it really worth it for you to make such a big sacrifice? Are you really willing?" Zhou Yingjun couldn't help but ask, he didn't know how much determination Gong Xinuo made, or how much he loved Yuan Jing Kun actually has the courage to give up a hard-won career.

"To be honest, Yuan Jingkun and I are not suitable. He and I have different living environments and growth experiences, which have created our different personalities. He stands at an extreme in his views on some things. And I stand at the other extreme, the distance between us is very far. However, we are attracted to each other, we need each other, and we love each other. For him, except for the sudden family accident four years ago, his childhood It is almost smooth sailing, and he grew up and lived happily under the protection of his parents. He has never experienced great suffering, and he will magnify the small pains in life without limit. Any small ups and downs and setbacks will cause him great harm. For example, he always feels that I still think about Yang Yiqing and even loves him; for example, he always feels that I will end up marrying another woman and leave him for the sake of fame and fortune; For example, it takes him a long time to adapt to every change in his living environment... These are all manifestations of his inner anxiety. In fact, he doesn't want to be like this, but he can't control his thinking, and the same contradictions and pain There are a lot of things that I don't want to say, and it's just a matter of saying it; there are many things that I don't want to say, and he will think wildly; there are some things that I can't say, and he will be sad and disappointed if he can't do it. What I do is to stay by his side and let him feel my presence. We need a process of running in, to understand each other deeply, and to truly walk into each other's heart. I love him, not how to say, but how do it."

Gong Xinuo looked at the slightly undulating water surface, and his calm voice revealed infinite affection. His words seemed to be speaking to Zhou Yingjun, but also seemed to be talking to himself, speaking to himself.

He who has been suppressed for a long time needs a way to vent, to release his emotions without any scruples.

Zhou Yingjun looked at his profile, the perfect and exquisite outline, with a slightly sad expression, making people feel sorry for him for no reason.

"Since you've thought it through so clearly, why bother?"

"The more you think about it, the more painful you feel. When two people are together, the spiritual world is important, but the material life cannot be ignored. No matter what kind of relationship we choose, we are all ordinary people in the end, and we cannot escape the world made of firewood, rice, oil and salt. Life. Poor and lowly couples are sad about everything, and the sayings are summed up by experience. After two years, I will leave this position and start from scratch, so I will inevitably fail. I have to be mentally prepared, and I may live an ordinary life. This is not about whether Confidence, ability or not. In this world, how many underappreciated people end up regretting all their lives. Opportunities are not windy and rainy, they will always appear. Since the best things have been given, then once everything disappears, there will be no one. I can experience a strong sense of frustration and self-blame. Although these are not what he wants, they are what I want to give. However, having him by my side is the motivation for me to live actively and hard. Without him, even if It's meaningless to get everything." Gong Xinuo's previous words were a little cool, and his tone was a bit sad, but when he mentioned Yuan Jingkun, he was full of vigor and vitality.

"Xinuo, why do you have to embarrass yourself so much? Maybe there will be a better solution. Take a step, take a step, life may bring you unexpected surprises." Zhou Yingjun couldn't help comforting him.

Gong Xinuo smiled, with helplessness in his smile, but a hint of hope: "In M&B, if you don't advance, you will retreat. It won't make you stand still. Take one step at a time? Young people in their twenties will If I think so, I will do it. But I don’t have the capital to waste time.”

"Mr. Yuan, have you found Mr. Gong?" Geng Xin's crisp and clear voice sounded behind them without warning.

Gong Xinuo and Zhou Yingjun turned their heads at the same time, and when they saw Yuan Jingkun standing not far away at some point, they both showed surprised expressions.

Especially Zhou Yingjun, his mouth opened unconsciously. He didn't know how much Yuan Jingkun had heard of the conversation between them, whether he already knew Gong Xinuo's decision, and what he would do. reaction.

Gong Xinuo is much calmer than Zhou Yingjun, he knows that Yuan Jingkun should have heard most of the conversation between them, at least, he should know that he will resign.Whether you know it or not, you have to know it sooner or later.

Yuan Jingkun held two bottles of water in his hand. He was going to come over to deliver water to them, but he didn't want to hear these words by accident, and the news that Gong Xinuo would give up his future completely for him.

Yuan Jingkun froze in place, thinking slowly, unable to fully accept all this for a while, including Gong Xinuo's words that almost confessed his love.

The appearance of Geng Xin made Yuan Jingkun a little more awake. He adjusted his state as quickly as possible, smiled easily, and pretended to be just here: "Do you drink water? I'm here to deliver water."

Zhou Yingjun quickly reacted, stepped forward a few steps, and took the mineral water in his hand: "Thank you, I happen to be a little thirsty."

"What about you?" Yuan Jingkun stretched out his arm and handed the water bottle to Gong Xinuo, still smiling. "Aren't you thirsty?"

Gong Xinuo took the water bottle and touched his cold fingers, took the plastic bottle with the other hand, held his hand behind his back, and pulled him towards the cabin.

In the following time, Geng Xin and Song Yeyang hid in the cabin and played checkers, while Xia Lefan and Zhou Yingjun stood on the high deck, looking at the blue sea, and the figures of Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun.

"What did you say to Mr. Gong? We talked for a long time." Xia Lefan asked curiously.

Although Gong Xinuo didn't let Zhou Yingjun keep his upcoming resignation a secret, he was still unwilling to reveal his private affairs without Gong Xinuo's permission: "No."

"No wonder! Anyone with long eyes can tell that Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun are in a heavy mood. What's the matter?" Xia Lefan had a keen insight into the emotional changes of Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun.

"How should I put it, hey, it's a matter of mixed joy and sorrow." Zhou Yingjun was determined not to tell him, and couldn't resist his cross-examination, so he had to reveal some clues and let him guess by himself.

"Mixed happiness and sorrow?" Xia Lefan pondered for a long time, and suddenly misunderstood that they had a baby, Gong Xinuo was worried, Yuan Jingkun was happy, it must be like this.He smiled meaningfully at Zhou Yingjun. "Yeah, I got it."

Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun sat on the bow of the boat, one high and the other low, silent, looking at the white clouds in the distance, their hearts were surging and their faces were calm.

Gong Xinuo's palm was close to Yuan Jingkun's, and the tightly held hands were a little warm and moist.

Yuan Jingkun slowly rested his head on Gong Xinuo's knee, closed his eyes gently, his long eyelashes soaked in the moist eye sockets.

The unique brilliance of dusk illuminates the two white figures leaning on the front of the car, and the infinitely magnified sunset hangs in the golden sky and moves slowly downward.

"Did you choose to watch the sunset because you thought it was too hard to watch the sunrise?" Yuan Jingkun put his hands on the car body and kept silent about what happened on the yacht, as if he was deliberately avoiding it.

Gong Xinuo crossed his arms and stared ahead without blinking: "Many people think that the sunrise will bring people hope and vitality, but when the sun is completely high, do you think that there will always be a time when it will set? And The sunset is different, it looks sad and lonely, but in fact, it contains great hope, because the sun will always rise. Don’t you have a lot to ask me?”

"Should you have a lot to say to me?" Yuan Jingkun asked back.

"Yes." Gong Xinuo lowered his head and paused for a moment. "In the world of feelings, there is no right or wrong, who is sorry for whom, or who makes more sacrifices than the other. When a person makes a choice, he always has to weigh the pros and cons. The result of deliberation is not necessarily It is the best, but it must be the most correct. There are 360 ​​industries in the world, but you, there is only one. I choose feelings, and I will not give up my career. This is just a turning point in my life. Like before, I will It was handled well; unlike before, there are many of you by my side. What I gain is far more important than what I lost.”

At this time, Yuan Jingkun had nothing to say, he was so surging in his heart that he couldn't express in words the shock and touch that Gong Xinuo had brought to him.

A man is willing to use his life's career in exchange for a relationship, which is enough to show his deep affection.

He never expected that Gong Xinuo would see him so thoroughly and analyze their relationship so accurately. It can be seen how much he cared and valued this relationship, and he couldn't help but be moved.

Yuan Jingkun thought he didn't know anything, but in fact he knew everything.

He blamed himself and felt a little sad. He had never paid attention to Gong Xinuo's inner dynamics. Looking back carefully, many times, Gong Xinuo always thought too much about him, thinking from his standpoint and angle, Whenever this happens, he is always ungrateful and even angry.

Thinking about it now, it was too harsh and hypocritical.

Gong Xinuo is right, they still need to communicate with each other and need a period of time to get in touch.

Fortunately, love built a bridge between them to each other's hearts.

"I'm very selfish. I don't want too many people to know you. It's not because I'm afraid of the consequences of being exposed to others, nor because I'm afraid that you will be hurt as an excuse. It's just..." Gong Xinuo took his hand, Keep it close to your heart. "In this world, there are only you and me. What I want is not a vigorous love, but a long-lasting relationship. In the first half of my life, I will look for you, and in the second half of my life, I will protect you. Because I care too much, any promise is worthless." It's big."

The palm of Yuan Jingkun felt his heart beating, and his promise echoed in his ears. The first half of life plus the second half of life, this is a lifetime promise. Gong Xinuo is a person who keeps what he says. Faith, he will never say it easily.

The sea level completely engulfed the sunset, and the cool breeze picked up slightly. Yuan Jingkun put his head on Gong Xinuo's shoulder: "From now on, only I can accompany you to wait for the sunrise and watch the sunset!"

On a quiet night, Gong Xinuo and Yuan Jingkun were lying on the bed without any sleepiness. Yuan Jingkun broke the dull atmosphere: "When you resigned last time, why didn't you think about liquidated damages?"

"Why didn't I think of it? Actually, it's not that I can't afford to pay the liquidated damages. If I pay, I will really go bankrupt and leave the house. At that time, I'm afraid the three of us will have to stand by the side of the road and drink." Gong Xinuo closed his eyes and answered him.

"Oh. It's so serious. Then you submitted your resignation letter?" Yuan Jingkun continued to ask.

"Didn't we meet again at the time? I was so excited, my head got hot, and I didn't think carefully." Gong Xinuo confessed all his thoughts at that time, and did not hide his immature actions.

Yuan Jingkun laughed, leaned on him, nodded his nose, and laughed at him: "Oh, you still have a time to be excited, and a time when your head is hot!"

Gong Xinuo grasped his hand with the tip of his nose messed up, looked at him with a smile, and stopped his inappropriate movements: "Aren't you feeling unwell?"

"Are you expecting me to be uncomfortable every day?" Yuan Jingkun said angrily, struggling with his hand.

Gong Xinuo frowned, turned his body sideways, laid him flat, and covered him with the quilt: "Sleep with peace of mind."

Where is Yuan Jingkun reconciled, rolled his eyes, thought of a way, leaned over, and whispered in his ear: "Hey, let me ask you, don't think about my thoughts, tell the truth. If you saw a beautiful woman, would you Will there be impulse?"

"No." Gong Xinuo answered him neatly without even thinking about it. "how about you?"

"Of course! I'm a normal man, okay?!" Yuan Jingkun raised his tone proudly.

Gong Xinuo opened his eyes, Yuan Jingkun, what does this mean?

Co-authoring is obliquely suggesting that he is not a normal man.

Whether he is a man, others don't know, but Yuan Jingkun still doesn't know?

Yuan Jingkun's provocative method was more effective, Gong Xinuo turned over and held him down, raised his eyebrows, a little helpless: "Baby, you may be detrimental to yourself if you openly provoke like this."

Yuan Jingkun succeeded in teasing him, suppressed his laughter, held his face with both hands, and defended: "I didn't provoke, I was telling the truth."

Gong Xinuo decided to take practical actions to tell him what is the truth.

The author has something to say:

Thanks a lot! ^_^