i stand on the edge

The morning wind blew in through the half-opened window, and the bright sunlight formed an indelible shadow in front of his eyes. Liang Shengge closed his eyes, the eyeballs rolled a few times in the eyelids, turned around a little irritably and buried himself in the soft in the quilt.

"Song of Life..." A voice called him softly.

Liang Shengge could feel that the dream stagnated for a moment, and his consciousness was about to return to reality.But he didn't want to wake up at all. He tried his best to bury himself in the bedding and covered his ears.The sound finally stopped, Liang Shengge breathed a sigh of relief, but was hugged in the next second.

Liang Shengge was taken aback, his eyes suddenly opened with ignorant drowsiness and panic, like a frightened deer, which made the person holding him laugh softly.The laughter caught Liang Shengge in an instant. He looked up at the young man who was looking down at him with a smile, and felt very itchy.

"boom!"

Liang Shengge put on his clothes and looked at Qin Ye who was obediently squatting aside. The right side of the other side was slightly bruised, and he was looking at him pitifully at this moment, as if he was accusing him.

Liang Shengge ignored him, but couldn't ignore the fiery eyes, so he also squatted down, stretched out his fingers to touch the bruise on the other's face, his voice was fierce, but his movements were gentle, "You deserve it for scaring me!"

"Shengge, I'm sorry..." Seeing him squatting down, Qin Ye's eyes suddenly became bright.

Liang Shengge snorted softly, found some ointment and applied it on him.

Qin Ye was sitting by the bed, Liang Shengge was standing in front of him and applying medicine to him, because from the angle of raising his head slightly, Qin Ye could see Liang Shengge's focused and serious eyes, the other's lips were pursed tightly, and his movements were very light, this kind of gentleness The attitude made Qin Ye's breathing a little messy.

"Why don't you talk? Does it hurt?" Liang Shengge didn't notice Qin Ye's darkened eyes. He concentrated on looking at the bruise, thinking in his heart whether he had hit too hard.

"It doesn't hurt, uh..." Qin Ye just said it didn't hurt when Liang Shengge poked the wound.Liang Shengge finally met his eyes, as if laughing at his bravado, but his cute expression softened Qin Ye's heart.

"Dare to lie, hum...ah!" Liang Shengge was still laughing at him, but was suddenly dragged down the next moment. Although Liang Shengge was very skilled, when Qin Ye didn't intend to let him, Liang Shengge couldn't beat him by force The value of Qin Ye's is simply over the top.The other party just used a clever trick to pull him down and overwhelmed him. Before Liang Shengge could react, he saw Qin Ye who was leaning on him and looking at him. There was an unusually ambiguous taste in it.

"What are you doing? Today is not the weekend, and you have to go to school!" Liang Shengge stretched out his hand to push him.

"Obviously it's Shengge, you want me to come."

Liang Shengge glared at him viciously, "What did you say?"

"Otherwise, why didn't you close the window? I remember you used to close it tightly before going to sleep."

His mind was punctured, and Liang Shengge was furious. He looked at the smiling face of the person above him, kicked him down fiercely, "Qin Ye! Get lost!"

Qin Ye hurriedly came to coax him, but Liang Shengge didn't listen to him at all. Seeing that he couldn't be persuaded, Qin Ye changed his mind and said, "Shengge, math homework is due today, have you finished it?"

Sure enough, the other party froze, and turned around after a while, with an unbelievably distressed expression on his face, "You...you threatened me?!"

Qin Ye immediately leaned forward, "No, no, no, look, I've already brought it here." After saying that, he took out the math homework book from his body, and Liang Shengge looked at it with a good-looking expression.Seeing Liang Shengge's complexion turn better, Qin Ye boldly pressed the other's shoulder suddenly, and quickly lowered his face to cover the other's lips.

"Fuck... you... um..."

The two lasted for a while, and Liang Shengge's annoyed refusal at the beginning became a fight for dominance unwilling to be outdone. The air heated up sharply, but at this moment, there was a knock on the door.

"Dabao, are you up? The meal is ready!"

Liang Shengge immediately pushed Qin Ye away and said loudly, "I'm getting dressed! Get down now."

"Hurry up, don't be late."

The sound of pounding footsteps slowly faded away, Liang Shengge heaved a sigh of relief, and wrapped his arms around his waist again, Liang Shengge tore them apart angrily, "Get out! I'm going down to eat."

Unexpectedly, when the other party heard this, he hugged him even harder, and chuckled softly in his ear, "Dabao, huh?"

Liang Shengge exploded. Liang Shengge once fought tenaciously against his mother's pet name for him for ten years, but unfortunately it was ineffective.And Qin Ye has always used this to make fun of him since he heard it once. Liang Shengge thought it was a joke, but in fact Qin Ye just wanted to tease him, even though he was so funny that he still wanted him to coax him.

The furious Liang Shengge ruthlessly drove Qin Ye from where to where.

Life in the third year of high school was always very fulfilling. Liang Shengge finally collapsed on the table after listening to the class all morning while suppressing his sleepiness.His deskmate pushed him and told him to eat.

"No, I want to sleep."

"Sleep, sleep, you know how to sleep." The tablemate pouted, but couldn't help but ask, "What do you eat, I'll bring it for you."

"I want scrambled eggs with tomatoes, eggplants without garlic, cut into cubes and fried with meat, and..."

The deskmate listened, his face getting darker and darker, "Did you make a mistake and ask for so much?!"

Liang Shengge groaned, the tablemate was speechless, and was about to compromise helplessly, when a voice came from behind, "No need, I'm done."

Liang Shengge stopped, turned around lazily, lay down on the table and looked up at Qin Ye, who was standing behind his deskmate, who was standing a head taller. The other party was looking at him with a lunch box in his hand.

The deskmate saw that someone was bringing them, and left with a sigh of relief.

Qin Ye put the lunch box on the table and asked, "Eat now?"

Liang Shengge nodded.So Qin Ye opened the lunch box, and the aroma was overflowing. Liang Shengge saw that it was really his favorite food. He took the chopsticks handed over by Qin Ye unceremoniously and began to eat, asking him: "Have you eaten?" ?”

"Ah."

"Why so fast? I just finished class."

"The last period today is physical education."

"Oh." Liang Shengge nodded to show that he understood. He ate very quickly. Qin Ye handed him the juice. Liang Shengge was a little disgusted, "Why not Coke?"

"Drinking too much Coke is bad for your health." Qin Ye said seriously.

"As long as you have a lot of things, I'm fine after drinking it for so many years." Liang Shengge was not happy, but he still picked up the juice and drank it. Looking at Qin Ye who was staring at him without blinking, Liang Shengge suddenly asked on a whim, "Listen Say your father is back?"

Qin Ye's eyes darkened, "Yes."

Liang Shengge clicked his tongue a few times, but didn't ask any more questions.Qin Ye's father was a very strict man. The first time Liang Shengge saw him was at school. Qin Ye failed a final exam once. After his father went to school and had a talk with the teacher, he beat him right away. Qin Ye slapped him.Fortunately, school was over at that time, and no one else saw it except Liang Shengge who happened to come to school to pick up the homework book he had forgotten.

It was junior high school, and Liang Shengge met Qin Ye for the first time.At that time, Qin Ye was slapped to the side of his head, and he happened to meet Liang Shengge's eyes.Liang Shengge still remembered the disappointment and abandonment in Qin Ye's eyes at that time and the gradually clear indifference. The corner of the man's lips seemed to be torn, and there was some blood oozing out. .

Perhaps it was disgust and anger at seeing the embarrassing side, Liang Shengge thought so at the time, turned around and left.

If it is fate, Liang Shengge and Qin Ye are in the same school in junior high school, and they are also together in high school.Who knows when they hang out together, Liang Shengge's house is also very close to Qin Ye's house, after the two of them got acquainted, Qin Ye often sneaked into Liang Shengge's room from the balcony window.

Qin Ye's father often traveled on business, and finally came back after a few months of business trip this time, but Liang Shengge knew that Qin Ye was definitely not happy.

Sure enough, after a few days, Liang Shengge finally noticed something was wrong. Qin Ye had never looked for him again, which was simply unscientific.Liang Shengge also planned to go to Qin Ye's class to find him, but when he went, he learned that Qin Ye was not in class these few days, but asked for leave.

Liang Shengge hesitated for a few days, wondering whether he should go to Qin Ye's house to find him. It's not that he has never been to Qin Ye's house. Qin Ye's mother died of illness very early, and his father was often away, usually Qin Ye I was at home, so Liang Shengge often slept in his house, but Liang Shengge also didn't know how to deal with the strict Father Qin.

Another day, Liang Shengge was sent back by his mother to buy some washing powder. He had just walked through the dark alley when he saw a dark shadow at the entrance of the alley.It was already night at this time, Liang Shengge clenched his hands vigilantly, and walked slowly. As he got closer, the black shadow moved.

"Life song."

Liang Shengge immediately felt relieved, "Qin Ye, why are you here? Where have you been these few days? Why haven't I seen you? Did your father lock you up at home?"

Qin Ye didn't answer, he approached and held Liang Shengge's hand, and walked slowly towards the street light.Liang Shengge seemed to sense a strange atmosphere, so he didn't make any more noise.

Under the street lamp, Liang Shengge finally saw Qin Ye's slightly pale face. He frowned, "What did your father do?"

Liang Shengge was a little upset, "Why did your father treat you like this?"

Qin Ye lowered his head, grabbed Liang Shengge's hand and rubbed it slightly, and he spoke with a hoarse voice, "Shengge, how are you?"

Liang Shengge was taken aback, "What?"

"Did you eat and sleep well?"

What the hell?Liang Shengge was a little speechless, "I'm doing well, but you have a bad face."

Listening to his concern, Qin Ye smiled, his eyes were gentle, and he frowned suddenly, "What are you doing out so late? It's dangerous."

"Do you think I'm a girl? Damn! I'm out to buy washing powder."

Qin Ye nodded. Liang Shengge saw him walking towards the supermarket, but the two were still holding hands. He hesitated to speak, looked at the other person's pale face, and gave up on himself. .But when they reached the entrance of the supermarket, Qin Ye let go of his hands, and the two of them walked in. Liang Shengge was absent-mindedly looking for washing powder.

When paying, the cashier looked at the two of them with weird eyes.Liang Shengge was in a bad mood when he saw Qin Ye in a bad state, but he was even more angry when he saw the cashier's appearance, "What are you looking at?"

The cashier was startled, and then looked at Qin Ye who was next to him with a slightly pale face. Qin Ye was originally looking at Liang Shengge intently, but now he also turned his head to look at him with cold eyes.The cashier didn't dare to look any further, lowered his head, and gave a disdainful snort after the two of them had left.

Walking on the road, Liang Shengge looked at Qin Ye who was in a daze, and suddenly stood in front of him and stretched out his empty hand in front of him. Qin Ye was stunned, "What's wrong?"

Liang Shengge felt a little uncomfortable, "Don't you want to hold me?"

Qin Ye's expression froze for a moment. Seeing Liang Shengge's tendency to become angry, he took a step forward, held Liang Shengge's hand, put it down, and let go. He glanced at the passers-by and comforted him softly, "Shengge, don't be angry. .”

Liang Shengge just looked at him coldly, Qin Ye had no choice but to hold his hand, he sighed, "Shengge, I don't care, but I'm afraid..."

"I don't care either." Liang Shengge said coldly.

Qin Ye looked at him. He still remembered that when he had just chased Liang Shengge and asked the other party to agree to him, although Liang Shengge accepted him, he was very repulsed to get along with him when there were other people, for fear of being known.Qin Ye also understands that the world is not tolerant of such feelings.

But when did you even condone this?Qin Ye looked at Liang Shengge, who had an awkward expression, and suddenly felt the urge to cry. He tightened his hands and smiled, but his voice became choked up, "Shengge."

"Ok?"

"Which university do you want to go to?"

"Ah, why are you asking this? We are definitely not together anymore." Liang Sheng sang, Qin Ye's grades were much better than his, and it was impossible for him to be in the same university.

"But……"

"No, but it doesn't matter if you're not in a university, won't you come to me?"

Qin Ye smiled, "You're right."

Under the dim light, the early spring is cool, but the holding hands convey the warmth of each other. There are flying insects around the light, rushing towards the hot place of the light source, but they can only stop sadly on the glass of the light bulb. Beneath the surface is a blazing temperature, and the flying insect closes its eyes and dies alone in the deep longing of the soul.

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