I'm sorry I'm a dog

Li Xiaoshui's eyes lit up when he saw Belle, "This little girl looks really good, Shui Ling'er." She took Belle, and Belle smiled when she saw her.

"It seems that Belle doesn't recognize life." Ji Xinglou looked at Li Ruowu as if asking for credit.

Li Ruowu ignored him, pinched Belle's face, and said, "Belle has to listen to Auntie, brother has something to do, I'll pick you up when I'm done."

Belle didn't know if she understood, so she nodded.

After leaving Ji's house, Li Ruowu actually felt a sense of loss. He saw the familiar scene inside at the gate, which was full of memories, and the corner of the stairs he saw. Ji Xinglou's lingering sweet nest, but now, he doesn't even have the courage to take a step up, let alone the courage to start over with Ji Xinglou.

Ji Xinglou said he wanted to talk, but he really didn't know what else to talk about, what else to talk about, anyway, he just said one word - it is impossible to start again, and he dare not start again.

Perhaps Ji Xinglou wanted to use his memories to kill him, so he took him to the coffee house that he went to during the Chinese New Year. Surrounded by yellow lights, the cartoons on the big wall are still there, and the furnishings in the coffee shop are still the same. Even the boss leans lazily in front of the bar, raises his eyelids and asks what they want to drink, and then continues to lie on the bar yellow old cat sleeping on the bed.

"Two glasses of Americano." Ji Xinglou said, and then walked towards the table in front of the bookcase.

Li Ruowu walked over with him and sat down.If it weren't for the mature faces of both of them, under such an environment, it seemed that it was really nine years ago, and everything experienced in these nine years was just a dream.

The boss brought them coffee and went back to the bar without saying anything.

"Are you killing with memories?" Li Ruowu looked at Ji Xinglou and said with a half-smile.

Ji Xinglou smiled and said, "You saw it, but this trick seems to be quite effective."

Li Ruowu shook his head: "It's good to bring back memories, but don't forget, there are also very bad things in the memories. To be honest, we really don't have many good memories, and we have to make trouble every once in a while." It was awkward once, why are you doing this now? Even if we are still together in the future, we will still be awkward, and anyone will be annoyed if there are too many."

"From now on, I will let you and coax you." Ji Xinglou said.

"You used to...don't let me down." After finishing speaking, Li Ruowu lowered his head in embarrassment and took a sip of coffee.

Ji Xinglou froze for a moment, then kept on playing, and stopped after a long time, "It's hard for you to remember."

"We don't get along well, we always quarrel together, even if you let me, I feel uncomfortable, so we are really not suitable."

"Then you still want to be with me forever?" Ji Xinglou asked.

"What?" Li Ruowu looked at him in surprise.

"The man next to me is so smart, I really want to be with him all the time."

Li Ruowu was stunned, "You saw..."

"I'm sorry, I saw it too late, I saw it after you left... Now, the person in front of you is still very smart, don't you really want to be with him?" Only he himself knows how much he longs Li Ruowu was moved by this sentence, but he didn't expect it extravagantly, because it was far from enough to make up for his fault.

"Just pretend you haven't seen it before." Li Ruowu said.

"You haven't used WeChat in recent years?" Ji Xinglou said suddenly, but no one reacted.

"Hmm... It's useless, and the mobile phone has never been used, and Americans don't use it." Li Ruowu said.

"You even changed your profile picture. I haven't changed my profile picture all these years. It's always your picture." Ji Xinglou said, "You're so pretty."

"Thank you, I'm not as good-looking as you. Who doesn't know how energetic the young master of the Ji family is?" Indeed, in some circles in the capital, it is known that the young master of the Ji family, Ji Xinglou, is good-looking and has a high IQ. Both men and women rushed to look for him, but this young master just doesn't eat meat and vegetables, and some people have suspected that there is something wrong with him.

"If you don't want anyone with such a strong face to lean on you, then you must be more vigorous." Ji Xinglou said.

"...I really don't have anything for you to chat about." Yes, he couldn't find anything to say, and the atmosphere was once awkward.

"I miss you, even if you are sitting in front of me, I still miss you very much, I want to be with you like before." Ji Xinglou said.

"Have we been together before? Did you forget that I asked you if we were in a relationship? You were speechless, but you denied it." Thinking of this, he felt that Ji Xinglou was an asshole, shameless , She treated him so well before, but now she still tries to forgive her in vain.

Ji Xinglou, forgive you, I'm a fucking dog!

"I'm sorry, if you think there is any way to make up for the idiot things I did before, you can just bring it up, I will do it if I can, as long as... as long as you are happy." Ji Xinglou said.

Li Ruowu drank the last bit of coffee in the cup, it was extremely bitter.

"Okay, I said, I want you to stop bothering me, stop thinking about starting over, can you do it?"

The despair in Ji Xinglou's eyes was so deep that he couldn't see to the end, he couldn't give up Li Ruowu unless he was asked to die.

"Except for this matter."

Li Ruowu sneered a few times: "You don't care what other people think at all. If you don't want me, I'll get out, and if you want me, I'll have to come back? Ji Xinglou, listen to your mother, now I don't want you gone."

Maybe it was too loud, the boss's cat barked a few times impatiently, and the boss raised his head and said, "We have to fight."

Li Ruowu glanced at the boss and said, "No."

……

When he got home, he realized that he had forgotten about Belle, and immediately called, "Mom, I actually forgot, I'll go pick her up right away."

"No, she's having fun now. Xinglou is teaching him how to play the piano. This kind of little princess has to learn these advanced things. I'm not busy these days, so just let her play with me." A few days." Li Xiaoshui said.

"...All right." Ji Xinglou actually ran back to attack Belle, which can be said to be very smart...

Autumn in this old capital is very good, but it is cold, and the heating has not been turned on after the end, and he is shivering under the quilt. He doesn't quite understand the owner of this house. They are all well-decorated. Why don't they just get an air conditioner, Belle It doesn't matter if you don't come, it's really not that comfortable.

Ji Xinglou, Ji Xinglou, Ji Xinglou... His mind is full of Ji Xinglou's face, all of what Ji Xinglou said today, no matter what, he can't get rid of it.

He is very clear about his current thoughts, he does not hesitate to uncover the scars to analyze himself, it is false to say that he does not like it at all, he is just afraid, afraid that such a thing will happen again, he is no longer the boy who is not afraid of nothing Yes, he has a stable career, he has these fetters, he can no longer fall in love with Ji Xinglou at all costs, and may drown together.

To put it bluntly, it means getting older and losing courage.

Also, resentment, thinking about that incident back then, he still thinks that Ji Xinglou was too much, unforgivable...

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Sweet little biscuits, let me hear you scream