Disqualification

/write on the leading edge:

This is my 610 five entries in my diary. From today, I have made a decision, that is, I will no longer write a diary.

I still don't know anything about my origin or past, except for Dazai Osamu's name and scattered words such as "Holy Grail", my memory is still blank.It seems that I have forgotten a very important person, and every time I think about it, I can't even piece together the silhouette of the person, and a big hole is opened in my heart.

Oh, by the way, there is also a naturally gloomy self-loathing personality, and a strong self-destructive desire is always with me.

I think that I am probably not a human being. If it is a human being, who will not grow old and die, even if it turns into dust in the air, after a long rest, it will turn into a human form again?

So disgusting.

The original intention of writing a diary was to record the past to fill the empty memory, but now it is no longer necessary, I give up, give up looking for my own source, give up chasing the real past.

Let me live every day in a normal way.

If you give up, there will be no pain. /

——Osamu Dazai, July 12, Meiji three years (1871).

……

45 years later

Taisho five years (1916), December.

[No one is more suitable for wearing western clothes than him. ] Every time I walk into this small western-style building located in Shimotoshima County, Tokyo, Xiao Zhuangsu will have the above thoughts. He is the editor of the Asahi Shimbun, and he is also a well-informed new intellectual in this generation. Over the Portuguese tapestries woven with flowers, birds and plants, the Dutch white table with four corners, and the enamel porcelain vase with delicate hibiscus flowers, when you stare at the figure by the window, you will still admire from the bottom of your heart.

[Mr. Dazai, what a rare handsome man. ]

The Taisho era was a very interesting era. When walking on the street, you can often see scenes where kimonos and suits go hand in hand, or men wear kimonos with Western-style bowler hats on their heads.Trams are even opened from Tokyo to surrounding areas for commuters to take to and from get off work. However, in mountain towns far away from Tokyo, there are still many villagers who don’t even know what a train is and live a traditional farming life.

The young man whose pen name is Osamu Dazai is a well-known writer at present. Dasho is also an era in which a hundred flowers bloom in the literary world. Before that, there was the writer Natsume Soseki who became famous in the Meiji era, and later there were Akutagawa Ryunosuke and others. These people will lead the future generations. One of the best writers in the development of modern Japanese literature.

"My condolences, Mr. Dazai." Editor Xiaozhuang took off his stiff top hat and bowed his head to Osamu Dazai. Mr. Natsume Soseki just passed away. He valued Dazai as a newcomer in the literary circle very much during his lifetime, and he supported Dazai a lot. It is not an exaggeration to say that the relationship is master-student.

"It's Xiaozhuang-kun." Dazai seemed to have just discovered him, and turned his head to show a smile like a Buddha.

"I'm really sorry about Mr. Natsume." A few days ago, Xiao Zhuang, as the editor of Asahi Shimbun, was invited to attend the funeral of Natsume Soseki, a writer. On December 1916, 12, Natsume Soseki, who had a great impact on the literary and educational circles scholar died.

The funeral was held grandly, and prominent figures in the fields of literature, education, and even political and financial circles came to pay their respects. As a young talent recommended by Natsume Soseki during his lifetime, Dazai Osamu was surrounded by the crowd, too, although the experience of this young man before his debut was not well known. You know, but he became a blockbuster. His first work was a huge rock in the literary world and caused a storm. It was reprinted in one edition. Anyone who pays attention to literature in Tokyo, Osaka, and even sporadic towns has never heard of the name "Osamu Dazai" of.

After a brief pleasantries, they got down to business.

"Mr. Xiaozhuang is here to let me know the readers' feedback." The young man in a black suit sat on the sofa and greeted the editor dressed in Japanese style. sofa corner.

"This is the daily newspaper that publishes the new works of the teacher." The Asahi Shimbun and Shi Gujin will reserve a few editions to publish new literary works. As the newspaper with the largest circulation during the Taisho period, its serialization threshold is quite high, and Osamu Dazai is Serialized short stories in newspapers.

Editor Xiaozhuang handed over the newspaper that published Dazai's article to the original author.

The new serialized novel is called "Hello, Taisho". Compared with his past works, such as "Running Melles" and "Disqualification in the World", the title of this novel is straightforward, but the content is quite interesting. Like Urashima Taro, a famous man from the Warring States Period traveled through a hundred years by chance and came to the Taisho Era. Facing the gradually modernized society, a series of ironic things happened.

An excerpt from the article is as follows:

／In order to avoid walking at night, I stayed in abandoned wooden houses in the mountains at random. There have been legends in the countryside that you should not walk at night since ancient times. After setting down the mountain, the old man in the village said, no matter what, put out the fire at night and find a place to settle down, and don't walk at night.

I believe it, but I don't believe it. It is more likely to die at the hands of inferior warriors than to be swallowed by evil spirits. Even so, I still respect the ancient teachings and did not hurry.In the early morning of the next day, the sun was shining brightly, and I thought: What a beautiful day, and then I pushed open the wooden door, only to find that the door, which was only a little old yesterday, had rotted into a bad shape.

I was suspicious in my heart. After I went out, the scenery was very different from yesterday. The arrangement of trees, the topography of the mountain, and the thickness of the embrace were all different. As for the way up the mountain yesterday, I couldn't find it.

After stumbling around for a day, I finally reached the foot of the mountain. A man dressed in a strange appearance came towards me blowing a strange Xun. I later found out that it was called "Whistle". He said his name was "Forest Ranger". I thought, what a strange name , and asked me how I went up the mountain and where I was from, and I explained them one by one.

After hearing this, he looked at me with weird eyes, and then called a doctor, who really didn’t look like a doctor at all. Why do people here wear narrow-cut tops and go down their legs?

……

A few days later, I realized that I, like Taro Urashima, had passed hundreds of years.Don't look at me, I'm also a person who has read Xiaocang Hundred People's Poetry, and can even write some Chinese characters. I am a scholar of Murakami. I have learned a lot of new words in a few days after living hundreds of years. Some are called "chemists" After checking the axe, cloth and discs I carried with me, I finally believed in my origin, and the way I looked at me changed accordingly.It's not that I think too much, they looked at me earlier, it was the same as the woman next door saw Zhuangshang's idiot, I am a scholar of Chinese poetry, how can I be treated like this?Fortunately, they respect me a lot now, which makes me happy.

Not to mention, the life of people after 400 years is really good. Not only can they eat white rice, this kind of rice may not be eaten by famous names, but also bonito has a rich taste, but there is something I don’t agree with. How can it be As for eating beef, isn't the cow used for farming, as if the family exists?The thought of them eating cows makes me sick.

……

The red bean bread is very delicious. I told my doctor that this kind of dessert is mixed with white sugar, so the red beans become sweet and delicious. I was shocked. Sugar is so precious that everyone can eat it. Here's People really live more comfortably than generals!

……

On the 30th of No.[-], someone came to ask me if I wanted to go to the Taisho Expo. It was said that there were many good things in the exhibition. I agreed without thinking too much. You can find a way to send me back home, the world is full of flowers and flowers are gradually becoming charming, I still miss my wife and children at home, I just want to see more interesting things, and then I can go home and brag about them, too Well worth the trip. /

This is the end of the previous article. Xiao Zhuangsu chatted with Osamu Dazai. This is just a short story. It can be serialized two to three times, and the manuscript should be submitted once a week. He started writing and finished it quickly, and his production cycle is longer. According to the teacher himself, he is an experiential writer who likes to write about what he has experienced.

For some reason, he left Tokyo before, and has been wandering in mountain towns far away from Tokyo. He only used letters to contact Xiaozhuang. He guessed that the teacher might be collecting folk stories or understanding the life of the villagers as writing materials.

"It's a very educational article, Mr. Dazai." Editor Xiaozhuang praised, "For people in Tokyo, both the Taisho Expo and modern chemistry are familiar words, but Tokyo has only 200 million citizens in total. Many farmers don’t know much about these new technologies, and Mr. Dazai’s works are simply a guide to modern life.”

He said this because the circulation of the Asahi Shimbun is very large. Even in remote villages, a village will subscribe to a newspaper. Tell what happened, so as to update the knowledge base of the people.

The mountain villages around Tokyo and Osaka are all within the radiation range of the Asahi Shimbun.

Dazai listened to Xiao Zhuang's words, and smiled. His smile changed slightly at this time, the corners of his eyes drooped downward, like crescent buds, and the upward arc of his mouth made the person opposite him tremble a little. He said: "Little Editor Zhuang thinks so."

The meandering ending sound indicated some kind of injustice, and Xiao Zhuang realized that something was wrong, so he bit the bullet and said, "No, it's not that I think so, it should be said that all readers think so."

Like other writers, Mr. Dazai does not want to disclose his address. Letters from readers are all sent to the editorial department. Some readers and literati who are aware of the twists and turns simply do not sign letters to Mr. Dazai, but sign the editor Department received, said his feedback in the letter, to be honest, for this new article, the comments can be said to be mixed.

Some people shouted: "Mr. Dazai has exhausted his talent. It is really disappointing to write such clumsy propaganda texts in line with the development of the times."

Some people have different opinions: "This article is very good. Mr. Dazai's previous writing is too obscure, which is thought-provoking. Yes, after reading it, it is easy to make the people of the country sick. It's just the strange and chaotic words of ogre ghosts. It’s better to say less, we have entered the civilized Taisho era, how can we say those superstitious things.”

The smiling Dazai was too threatening, and Xiao Zhuang had to summarize all these remarks and spit them out to the author. After hearing this, the person on the other side thought about it and said, "Want to hear the ending of the next chapter?" He said, "I've already Well thought out."

Xiao Zhuang clamored in his heart to refuse to refuse, and said in his heart; [Why is Dazai teacher like this, I still want to savor the words, why do you have to give me spoilers in advance], but he had to say with a forced smile: "You Please say, teacher."

[It's so funny, Xiao Zhuang's expression. ] Dazai couldn't help laughing, [resisting forced a smile, just because he can entertain my facial expression, it is worth appointing him as an editor. ]

As time passed, there were fewer and fewer things that would please him in his heart.

"It's like this." He crossed his hands in front of his lower abdomen, with an elegant posture, "Jiali, that is, the protagonist was not brought to the Taisho Expo for a visit, but participated in the display as an exhibit."

"Ah? Alas!"

"It's a fairly normal development, right." He said, "Compared to his human value, his scientific value is much higher. A few years ago, Mr. Einstein's theory of relativity has been translated to this country. It is said that there was a new one last year. Regarding the discovery of time and space, even in the first-class Western countries, there has never been a person who can travel through time and space in the true sense." "That's right..."

"If this is the case, now that politicians are eager to make progress, it is perfectly normal to regard him as a collection that demonstrates national strength, and he can definitely attract well-known foreign physicists, biologists, and medical scientists." He said in a low voice, "Anyone who is curious about the body structure of people who travel through time and space is different from normal people."

"Yes, yes." Xiao Zhuang was so dumbfounded that he could hardly speak.

"That's it." Dazai Tansue said, "What I want to write in the next chapter is the most normal development."

"..." Xiaozhuang didn't know what to say.

He came with a happy mood, but when he opened the door to leave, his heart was heavy, leaving only a bag of letters behind, and he turned his head and murmured, "Teacher Dazai..."

"Ok?"

"Jiali, I mean the protagonist, he should go back to the past." "Oh, it's hard to say, I haven't figured it out yet."

Xiao Zhuang knew that he could not use his own ideas to influence the author's conception. He had long understood that there is a difference between a genius and a mortal. He said something deeper: "Please take care of your health, Mr. Dazai." He said firmly, "I know that writers are sentimental, no, of course I don't say it is a bad thing, it's just that thinking too much hurts your body. If possible, Dazai Teacher, let’s relax more, whether it’s going to the Kamakura beach for recuperation or Hualiu Street.”

[It’s really worrying, Mr. Dazai’s physical and mental condition. ]

Dazai was stunned for a moment, completely unexpected that Xiao Zhuang would say such a warm farewell, just in time for the evening, the sun was setting, and the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on his pale face, smudged with an orange-yellow color full of vitality: " Don't worry about me," he said.

[It's more worrying, okay? ]

"and……"

"what?"

Dazai put his finger in front of his lips: "There are ogres at night, it's not a lie, go back before the sun sets, even Asakusa, which is as bright as day, is not a safe place, no, it's because Asakusa is bright at night It’s more dangerous if it’s lively.”

[Hey, how to describe the teacher's look in words, is it unpredictable or mystic? ]

Editor Xiao Zhuang really felt it, and he warned like a prophet.

"Gudong—" The saliva flowed down the esophagus, and the Adam's apple went up and down for a while.

"I, I understand." Xiao Zhuang said, "I'm going home right now, and please take care of the teacher."

……

Reading letters from readers can be a fun activity, especially if many of your readers are people you know.

Before moving into this house, even Dazai didn’t know where he would go and where he would settle down, so when someone he met while traveling asked, “Where should I send a letter if I want to communicate with Mr. Dazai?” ", he always kindly replied: "I don't know where I will end up. If you really want to send a letter, just pay attention to the newspaper. I will publish the work under the name of Osamu Dazai, and it will be sent to the editorial office when the time comes." OK."

Some people will ask "which newspaper", while others raised their heads in disdain and said in a proud tone: "I don't like reading newspapers, and I don't like writing letters. Let me tell you first. I will read the newspaper with the largest circulation, and if I can’t find your name, I won’t correspond.”

Dazai said with a smile: "Even if it is to communicate with the beautiful Warabihime Oiran, we must redouble our efforts to produce excellent works." He once wandered around Hanayu Street, and Warabihime Oiran knew him at that time.After leaving Hualiu Street, Fern Ji Oiran proposed that she still wanted to contact Dazai, and that was the reason for the above-mentioned conversation.

……

Dazai didn’t deliberately choose familiar names, but just read them one by one. Most of them were letters from readers. As described by editor Xiaozhuang, some readers criticized in a passionate tone, and some praised them. Even keenly touched the core of "Hello, Taisho", a female student named Takano Ryoko wrote:

／Jia Lijun’s adventure is interesting, but it also arouses sympathy. I am afraid that in the eyes of biologists, chemists and medical scientists, he is not a complete person, but a talking gorilla. /

After he took a pen to write /waiting for the next issue/ four words, he put the letter aside.

An old literati named Xiang Kai said that Dazai had "ingenious ideas", and then changed his style of writing and began to criticize Jiali's cowardly ideas:

／The idea of ​​Mr. Jiali’s return is too cowardly. Since one can have unexpected joy in one’s life, one should cherish it and practice hard to dissolve in the Taisho era. It is the best choice. /

Fern Princess Oiran is probably as she said, she subscribes to "Asahi Shimbun", and remembers to glance at the literature edition every day, she doesn't like reading, she barks her teeth and claws like a rafflesia flower blooming on the side of the road, turning upside down Just blame Osamu Dazai: /Too slow, let me wait for so long!When do you come to visit me on Hanagi Street? I want a new kimono from Tokyo Prefecture. /

She was a very popular oiran in Hualiu Street, her face was brighter than Yaori's, and there were many financiers and Chinese among the guests, how could she not even have a piece of cloth? Dazai also heard that Rao is against people in high positions , Fern Ji's posture is also quite high.

He got up and walked to the bookshelf, picked out Basho Matsuo's "Australian Trail" and Takehisa Yumeji's collection of poems and paintings "Yumeji Painting Collection - Spring Scroll" which was popular two years ago, and packed them with cardboard, together with the newly acquired cloth. Put together, the cloth is showing gorgeous plum blossoms.

These are all ready to be brought to Fern Ji Oiran.

The envelope signed "Tomioka Yoshiyuki, Ryodaki Sato, Ryodaki Mako" is very weighty, and it is impossible to guess how many sheets of paper are stuffed in it.Two years ago, he left Tokyo Prefecture to go deep into villages and towns to investigate folk customs, and occasionally worked as a rural teacher, teaching children living in the mountains. Yoshiyuki Tomioka and the others were Dazai's students at the time.

The paper cutter cuts open the envelope and lays the paper flat.

/ Mr. Osamu Dazai:

Forgive me for omitting the pleasantries.

Mr. Meng taught me that while practicing swordsmanship with Satu, I did not forget to read the books left by him to enlighten wisdom and develop our minds. Mr. once said that "although swordsmanship is the most important thing, you can't make progress without brute force", I benefited a lot from reading "The Art of War" the day before yesterday, and I finally know that strategies can also work.

Closer to home, Satu and I have already split the huge boulder, and we are about to leave for the selection site in ten days. Needless to say, Satu, with his extraordinary talent, will definitely survive the selection, but I am a weak person, and my swordsmanship is not good enough. In the past, whether it is possible to return, even if not, it is a blessing to be able to see Sister Tiaozi, but after all, I have not killed more ghosts to take revenge, and if I fail, I will not be able to calm down... /

Tomioka Yoshiyuki's handwriting is very beautiful. Compared with children of the same age, he is not good at speaking and has a shy personality. Let Osamu Dazai say that he is more suitable for reading than Zhangui, and as he said, he is not so good at reading compared to Satu. Easy to survive.

/ "Hello, Taisho" has been read. It is an excellent work. Finally, I hope you can take care of your health and improve your writing skills.

Respectfully

冬安

Yoshiyuki Tomioka／

Compared with Tomioka Yoshiyuki's demure handwriting, Rinaki Sato's handwriting is much bolder and bolder, and the content of the letter is also full of his unique boldness:

/Since I came to the world as a man, I have to shoulder the heavy responsibility of protecting the weak!I have made up my mind to go to the trial, hoping to survive, get the Sun Wheel Saber, and protect others with the sword.

I don't know what Giyu wrote in the letter, but please rest assured Dazai-san, I will definitely protect him, this is a man's oath I made in my heart a long time ago! /

[the two of them……]

Dazai's brows were relaxed, and he could almost imagine the different movements and expressions of the two when they wrote letters. Needless to say, Tomioka Yoshiyuki was a quiet and timid child until he left, and Satu, he was born with a love The two children are almost inseparable because they stand up for others. When Tomioka is bullied, it is Sato who helps him stand out.

He has always protected Tomioka Yoshiyuki very well.

Before writing the letter, he thought for a long time, and the beautiful words echoed in his heart, "I hope you have a bright future, and the solid land you step on will be sunny. Even if you are in adversity, you must support each other and save yourself from danger... "

He thought for a long time, and finally he only wrote six words on the letter paper with a pen:

/ May your martial arts prosper. /

It was rare for him to think sincerely: I hope you can all come back.

The author has something to say:

come come come come

I am Taisho, the timeline is messed up, full of sour smells of literary gossip (no)

The characters belong to Asagiri-sensei Crocodile-sensei, and ooc belongs to me (laughs)

Try to update it every day, but if you have too much homework...

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Question: Will Azai still appear?

Answer: It is possible for the side story, but not for the main text. This is the story of Ruler Zai.