Disqualification

The reason why Osamu Dazai insists that he is not human includes - he has never had a dream.

"Do people not dream?"

"No." The woman who adopted her said softly, "Maybe it's because I can't remember the content of the dream after waking up, but people can dream."

At that time, his figure was about 15 years old, and he was regarded as an adult in ancient times, but the woman and his adoptive mother always regarded him as a child: "Sure enough, if you have never dreamed, you are not even a human being." .”

He is very sure that he has never dreamed since he realized it now, but this routine was broken last night. He dreamed a small fragment with a clear vision, and he and someone were sitting in a Western style. In front of the bar counter of the tavern, there is a chandelier on the head, the light is warm yellow, and the whole tavern is made of wood.

Compared with the lamp design of the Taisho era, the lamp hanging on his head is much brighter.

"I" said: "It's really annoying, Odasaku, Mr. Mori blamed me for all the chores, big and small. Anyway, it's too difficult to eat ice-free Hong Kong, not only because there are no crowds in the local area. The gang, the government personnel are still fishing in troubled waters, and their subordinates are also stupid. I went to inspect the Black Lizard two days ago, and some people abused drugs. It is really boring to lead the incomprehensible people to conquer the even more inconsequential people. .”

"Really, it doesn't sound very boring." The man called Oda Saku said, "Besides, if it's Dazai, you will definitely be able to solve it easily." He said what was taken for granted, "Because Dazai, you have never failed. "

"Well, what I'm saying is, of course people don't fail, but I have to work harder to make Odasaku trust so much."

The dream ended, and Osamu Dazai lay on his back on the bed, calmly examining the short conversation that had just happened. He deduced a lot of information, such as Yokohama, Japan's ice-free port, and the conversation took place in a future where technology leaps again.

He wants to know, what is his relationship with "Oda Tsukuru", colleagues?friend?

Reaching out to wipe his face, he touched the saline solution in his hand.

[Of course I will fail. ]

In the Odd Belt of Infinite Reincarnation, whenever he saw Oda Saku go to death without hesitation, he would pull his hair and think of the conversation that year in despair.

[If I don't fail, how can I watch you drifting away again and again? ]

……

Dazai-sensei is in a good mood today.

When Xiaozhuang entered the room, he saw that the room had a new look. The glass windows that had been locked all day were pushed out, and the sunlight filled the room. The vase on the half-person-high cabinet stood alone, and hibiscus flowers with red petals and yellow stamens were quietly blooming.

You can't guess what the teacher is thinking, but most of the time, he does not shy away from expressing his joy. The vases are often empty. Xiaozhuang has seen flower arrangements two or three times, and they are all hibiscus flowers. On that day Dazai would also become very talkative.

"The manuscript is on the table." Dazai Osamu held the bottle of distilled wine and thought for himself. A newspaper was spread out on the bar counter. Dongtian's only son, according to Dongtian's executive, the only son was kidnapped the day before yesterday, and his disappearance was used as a pretext for the family's corruption to be torn apart.

Emerging families that are secretly in debt are vulnerable.

Xiao Zhuang said "I'm sorry" and began to review the manuscript.

Judging from his understanding of Dazai, it probably doesn't have a good ending. The teacher only wrote some short stories with flat and distant endings, but none of them can be called comedies. As for outright tragedies, there are even more.

[But this article, how should I say it...]

The story did not change from what Dazai thought before Ah Chong became a female reporter. Of course, Xiao Zhuang had never heard of his manuscript, and it was quite novel to watch, but after entering the newspaper, her experience was not quite the same .

/ The situation in the newspaper office is not very good. Most men disdain me and make things difficult for me at work. I have thought about these situations before, and I don’t think it is too hard. The editor-in-chief Takeuchi who decided to let me come is better He loves to read Miss Aiko's poems very much, and thinks she is the only female poet in the world. I have heard from the editor-in-chief that although he thinks that women are generally not as intelligent as men, there are occasionally a few who are very talented in literature, otherwise Murasaki Shikibu will not write "The Tale of Genji".

He arranged for me to work on the literature page. The job was just to write recommendations for some works, and to interview popular writers. Although this was not the social page job I admired, it was better than being an antique vase in a newspaper office.

I know that many people have ridiculed me as a beauty in a vase, and the transfer is just for decoration. I secretly vowed in my heart that I must make some achievements and show them.

In addition, the location of the rented house needs to be changed. Right now I have some reputation in the society. It is hard to guarantee that my father, brother and others will not find me. Remember to hide the address of my residence. At the same time, I will deduct all the expenses from my salary to feed my family. Have to leave the bill as evidence.

I still need to write more articles that focus on current affairs. I have not signed a contract with the newspaper to only contribute to my own newspaper, so I can change my pseudonym and post to other newspapers. /

The description in this paragraph is not like the other women in Dazai’s works. He is more hypocritical when writing about women, and prefers to write about innocent and mellow Chinese girls. In addition, Ah Zhong’s actions to record, if given to other people in the society When people see it, they will definitely leave utilitarian comments, as if she is calculating people.

Judging from the mentality of men in the Taisho period, most people still hope to have innocent, lovely and docile wives.

But Xiaozhuang is very clear that if women want to stand out in this era, enthusiasm is not enough.He looked down.

／The book recommended by me has been sold well. It can be seen that the title of beauty in a vase is not without benefits. Outsiders are indeed very curious about the first female reporter in Japan. I know that curiosity is only temporary, and more bargaining chips are needed It coincided with Miss Aiko’s new return from France. It is said that she created a brand new collection of poems in France. An opportunity for an interview. /

The prototype of Ms. Aiko is Ms. Yosano Akiko, a female writer who is second to none in the Japanese literary world and can even overwhelm men. In the subsequent plot, Ah Zhong got in touch with Ms. Aiko. Ms. Aiko is not keen on women's sports, but She feels the same problem with Ah Zhong, and at the same time, she also thinks that the low status of Japanese women is deformed and abnormal. After she came back from France, this idea became stronger, so she agreed to Ah Chong's request for an exclusive interview. The report caused an uproar in the society.

Xiao Zhuang watched with all his heart and soul, and sweated for Ah Chong's fate.

Folk feminist activities have also entered a period of vigorous growth from the budding period. A Zhong took the initiative to ask Ying to report on this matter. Seeing her outstanding achievements, the editor-in-chief Takeuchi finally nodded and agreed to let her enter the social page. At the same time, A Zhong did not give up on liberating public prostitution. Dreaming of the system, he secretly used another pseudonym to contact the leader of the Christian church who was promoting the liberation of factories in Japan.

Japanese people will never agree to ban the public prostitution system. The first to discover the problem of prostitution/prostitution was the missionaries from the West. With the vigorous development of Christianity in the land, more and more people realized that the problem was wrong, and Christianity A small group of people under the church organized the "Salvation Army" to run for the liberation of women in Huajie. Unfortunately, they were weak and had no effective means of publicity. It was at this time that Ah Zhong used his second pseudonym "Zeyue "Get in touch with them.

According to the normal plot, Azhong should have overcome many difficulties and fulfilled his dream next, but for some reason, Mr. Dazai stopped abruptly.

/ Ah Zhong looked at the endless stream of trains, and fell into deep thought with the railway below: I don’t know how long I can last, and I don’t know where my dream will be pushed to. Maybe one day, I will be like Anna Karenina I also lie on the track in despair and chaos, waiting quietly for death to come, but I hope that when I look back on my life before I die, I will think that my life is still meaningful.

I think, I just struggle for "meaningful". /

"How?" Seeing that he had finished reading, Dazai asked for his impression after reading.

"Hmmmm..." Xiao Zhuang thought for a long time before answering, "How should I put it?" He still chose to express his feelings in detail, "In general, being healthy and active is not like Dazai The work written by the teacher is like an article written by a Russian writer."

Dazai smiled lightly, "I think so too."

He asked again: "So do you think women will be emotionally inspired to read this article?"

"That's for sure." Xiao Zhuang said sharply, "It's not an exaggeration to say that this work of the teacher has guided them in the direction of progress. After all, it is impossible to accomplish things with only a passion and no strategy. Like the feminist organizations that are active now, although their voices are loud, no one pays attention to them, and the work they do is not as much as that of Christian churches." He said, "What they lack is the spirit of doers."

And Dazai’s article is a compromise between ideals and reality. Although it is an open ending, looking at the rumbling train that keeps moving forward, like the pace of human progress, you will still think that Ah Chong will succeed.

[There must be a lot of follow-up questions, such as questioning Mr. Dazai for hiring a ghostwriter, the government accusing him of offering an incitement plan against the public prostitution system, men questioning the image of women... ah, just thinking about it makes me feel dizzy. ]

But Xiaozhuang still put the manuscript into the stiff leather briefcase and said, "It's a good novel, Mr. Dazai." He added, "It's a breakthrough."

"Thank you."

"By the way, Teacher Dazai." Xiao Zhuang took out a letter from his pocket as if he just remembered, "I remembered that this is someone you know, so I brought his letter.

Theoretically speaking, it takes three to five days for letters from readers to be consolidated before delivery. It is also a coincidence that Xiao Zhuang recognized the name of "Tomioka Giyuu" from the many letters at a glance, and brought the letter back.

"Thank you." After thanking Dazai, he cut open the envelope with a paper knife, and when he saw the first sentence, his smile froze on his face.

/ Satoshi is dead. /

These four words left a shallow scratch on the wall of his solid heart.

The author has something to say:

Let me talk about it first, I estimate that I will write about 50 yuan for this article. The main combination of Ghost Slayer and Ying Lingzai was originally the third volume of the story of "Disqualified Heroes", because the well-known house collapse incident was opened and written separately.

So this article may not be like the one or two hundred chapters I often write. www

Then the topic came, I opened up a new brain hole, and there is a high probability that I will write it (sorry that life has been too depressing recently, I want to have some fun with my favorite melanistic jiaojiao)

I want to write a second disease XD

The next volume is tentatively called "The Blackening Value is being Cleared"

The following is the text, if you are interested, you can collect it

An and Longye are bad-natured middle-schoolers, drama kings, and game lovers

I like to attack villains who are full of philosophical connotations, full of tragedy, blackened, and love to spit black mud

The newly acquired game "Blackening 101" has become his new favorite with rich scenes and many characters

An Helong also: Very good, I just like the tragic villain with a value of 100 for whitewashing and blackening!The higher the difficulty, the merrier!

Map of Hell in Hong Kong: The heart is like a gray leader Zai, the king of broken families, the chaotic neutral black chaos

Dark Honmaru Map:  …

Hunter: I'm sorry, is there something wrong with this map, no one is blackened at all, they are just born perverted

#How to touch the blackened characters, of course they are more tragic, more philosophical, and more perverted than them! #

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感谢在2020-03-0612:28:42~2020-03-0712:14:25期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 piece of participation;

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: ⊙▽⊙, summer wall-climbing tiger, a chestnut in the palm, long leaves, moxibustion, Ning'er, Jiuquanzi, and Tsugaru;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：无、柠酸、落落、⊙▽⊙10瓶；云之镜、秋理奈5瓶；易翡、long1507713瓶；幽月月啦!、ull2瓶；想屯屯屯奶茶呀、聚星杖、雨、暮秋初五、你知道我是谁1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!