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Most of the time, as long as Tao Ran wants to, she can make everyone happy.

He is like a planet without temperature, walking its own orbit impartially; it shines brightly by reflecting the light of the stars, neither dazzling nor dim.

So there are very few gaffes.

29 years old is an age that is afraid of the cold, wandering alone in a foreign country, stepping on the neon lights reflected on the water surface, the mood is damp and cold.The retreat of memory made it impossible for him to fill in each blank with his own hands, and it seemed that only repeated and similar fragments were left in the patchwork.

His mother left him first when he was 16 years old.

When that moment really came, Tao Ran didn't feel anything at all, it was hard to imagine that an important person was just stripped from his life and closed his eyes forever.

So he was expressionless and didn't have a tear.

Whether it's guests, relatives or friends, they are all saying that the child is probably sad and can't recover.Tao Ran didn't have any thoughts in his heart, he didn't feel how sad or heartbroken he was, he just thought... why did it just happen.His mother, who was obviously a beauty, suddenly lay there emaciated, letting her body be manipulated by others.

Turning around, I heard the truth: "The temper is too cold... Is it possible for a mother who has given birth to more than ten years to not have a sad expression at all?"

He lowered his eyebrows and glanced at his toes. The shoes were bought by his mother as a birthday present because he liked to wear them all the time.

The long wooden box containing his mother was pushed into the stove, Tao Ran had a thought in his mind, what if his mother could still talk and laugh?Anxiously wanting to step forward to stop or even take a step, remembering that everyone but him is sure that his mother is dead.

After a while, someone came out to show them the finished product, praised the beauty, and everyone agreed.Tao Ran thought, his mother is really gone now.There is only such a box left, which burns away the weight of soul and body, and holds the sorrow and desolation of the living.

No matter how well the daylilies he had planted for his mother bloomed, they did not belong to her anymore.Because she can't keep anything, and her heart is all vain.

Again it's similar.

For Tao Ran, it seems that there is nothing left to lose.Losing one's mother at a young age is a misfortune, and then losing one's father became a disaster. Unexpectedly, even the poor qualifications were lost.

... Fortunately, he is ruthless, separated by a layer of ice, no amount of viciousness can hurt his heart.

Studying abroad alone doesn't seem to change much, Tao Ran doesn't even need to go home once a month.It turned out to be the north and south of the city, and later it was the latitude and longitude... The time difference is the furthest distance.

Until the age of 21.

Rain is the weather that makes Tao Ran most sad. He doesn't have many memories of holding an umbrella, and he doesn't know how to avoid this kind of predicament. He can only be blown by the cold wind and wait for the rain to stop.

At that time, he thought that he must buy a car by himself, just like when he was a child, no matter whether it was sunny or rainy, it was enough to go home comfortably.

——It was Jiang You's warm embrace that changed his mind: "I don't think you can learn to take care of yourself, why don't you let me take care of you."

The couples on the street are holding each other's hands. Normally, the shops should be closed at this time, but many of them are still open today, and the small light bulbs are blinking.

Christmas.

Some people grow up, others grow old, but the world is always young.

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He went to a bar.

While studying, Tao Ran likes to spend time here.It's lively but not noisy, and you can have a drink in the corner quietly. Occasionally, your favorite song will be sung on stage, and this night will make money.

...he was a little lonely.

Tao Ran had read Emily Dickinson's quatrains when he was in school, and thought at the time that it probably meant Jiang You, because no one knew what he needed like Jiang You.

"I could have endured the darkness if I hadn't seen the sun;

Yet the sun has made my desolation a new desolation. "

Now the feeling is deeper, but he can't say it.

Sadness, happiness, cold and heat, and time and time, Tao Ran can't keep anything. If he wants to, he will save the seeds of disappointment, which will take root and germinate sooner or later, trapping himself to death.

His eyes fell back to his own cup, more than half an hour had passed.Tao Ran picked it up and drank it down. The gorgeous liquid shines through the charming light, which is weird and beautiful.

... The dizziness was caused by suddenly throwing him down, and someone caught him from behind, and the triumphant laughter revealed that it had been premeditated.

It's not that he completely lost consciousness, he probably knew that he was being tossed and tossed over and over again, but he couldn't resist yet, and his heart was filled with awe-inspiring despair.

It is a lie to say that there is no feeling, the other party is obviously a master, no matter how he resists in his heart, the body still overflows with boundless pleasure.

The person on his body licked away the teardrops from the corners of his eyes, and the kisses were extremely gentle, as if he heard his own name vaguely, and his deep voice was very much like the one he loved, Tao Ran thought vaguely, in such a At that time, it turned out that he wished to see him.

After an unknown amount of time, he opened his eyes and found himself in a hotel room, the curtains were drawn, and the air was cold and gloomy.

The lip was bitten, and some blood oozes out just after healed, and the throat is extremely dry, with a bitter taste that cannot be swallowed.Her body was clean and fresh, and she put on her pajamas properly. If there were no unspeakable aches and mottled marks all over her body, Tao Ran would have thought that she had just slept deeply.

He had no way to pursue this matter, and he didn't even see him face to face from the beginning to the end. A man with a head and a face made public about it, fearing that it would hurt the company's face.

... hard life.

He could only think of such words to describe his situation.

After rushing back to work for two consecutive days, Tao Ran managed to let himself forget about it temporarily, but once he rested and had time, the not-so-painful but terrible memory began to play in his mind automatically.

He had no choice but to sit in front of the TV and watch the movie, and he had to choose the worst one to barely watch it.At the end of the story, the man couldn’t get the one he loves, and watched the other party die in his arms, while his organs were failing day by day, his consciousness was trapped in the body and he lost his freedom, and he couldn’t realize the dream shared by two people in his life.

Tao Ran did not expect that one day he would need to rely on the tragedy of someone else's death to heal his own wounds. The sadness that reverberated in his heart had spread to his limbs along the blood, and after he warmed up, the sadness was calmed down.

The feeling of loss is so familiar, there was Zhong Pei at that time, but now he is gone.

After singing, the story started to play again, and the boy smiled sweetly, as if he didn't know the ending of the script.