Demolition

Ji Chuan thought he was dead.He heard that when he was about to die, all the things that happened in his life would be quickly replayed in his mind. He was like an outsider, watching his life from the sidelines.Deep mountains and valleys, running through the forest, countless partners, a big fire, strong winds in the cold winter, carrying suitcases... If there is something that cannot be completed before death, it will turn into obsession and stay in the world after death. What obsession does Chuan think he has?He thought there would be many, but in the end he realized that his only obsession was that he had never met his mother.

He only knew that her name was "Wanwan" and Master Bao had told him before he died, and before that, Master Bao had been reluctant to mention his mother.He asked Lord Bao what his mother looked like.Master Bao snorted and said, a yellow-haired crow.He has never been able to imagine what a crow would look like if it had grown yellow fur, but he was sure that it would look like a fairy in human form.

Master Bao didn't want to talk more about this younger sister, most of the reason was because she complained about her waywardness, falling in love with a human being, a prince, and having children for him, was too deviant.Ji Chuan sometimes fantasizes that Wanwan is probably a quirky girl who loves everything, cherishes everything, is brave and affectionate, knowing that there will be no good results, but still loves that person without hesitation.I love him, whether he is a man or a bird, am I a man or a bird, whether we are recognized by the world, whether we will go to the end, these are not the basis for me to choose him at this moment, as long as I love him now, We should be together.Ji Chuan seemed to be able to see his mother saying these words to Master Bao.If even love has to look forward and backward, then there is no point in living, moths to the flame, and the moment of glory.

Ji Chuan remembered what Master Bao said to himself at the end, your mother brought you into this world to let you feel the beauty of the world.Does this mean that Wan Wan never regretted her decision until the end of her life.She still feels that her life is complete, that this world is beautiful, and it is worth paying for it, and that it is worth the life in her body to come and take a look. In fact, this can be regarded as a happy ending.

Happiness and pain complement each other, fate is fair, and no one will be allowed to enjoy the glory of the whole life for no reason. Everyone has experienced different hardships in corners that others do not know, and the beauty that they finally show envy others They are all secretly sacrificed ten times and a hundred times in exchange for it.Love with all your strength when you can be together, and be grateful when you are forced to separate. The beauty that people gain in their life is a gift from God, so there is no regret or resentment when they are taken back.I had nothing at first, thanks to God, let me know what love is, let me have a lover, let me continue this love.Greed is the origin of evil, Ji Chuan thought, he should not have existed in this world, but now he has lived for so many years, seen so many scenery and met so many people, isn't he lucky?

He really wanted to ask his mother, how did she do it?How to overcome obstacles and be with Si Yun, how to reluctantly part with your lover while pregnant, how to give birth to yourself knowing that heaven and man are separated.How do you choose not to give up in all the difficult moments?I will be tired, no matter how I comfort myself and resolve myself, but I will be really tired when faced with something that cannot see the result. No matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, I can’t change it. I am obviously unwilling but powerless. This kind of alternation Can it really go on?What is Wanwan thinking about every time, and how much courage did she use to make those choices?

This is probably my only obsession. I wonder if my mother would praise him if she was still alive. Good job.

Ji Chuan's brain was filled with bizarre dreams, and the pain in his body tormented him repeatedly.A part of his body was forcibly stripped off, causing him to almost suffocate in pain. Just when he thought he had only his last breath left, a new force was injected into his blood, and with the beating of his heart, he brought life back to the every corner of his body.In Ji Chuan's opinion, this process has lasted for hundreds of years. Every time the familiar pain hit him, he couldn't help but want to shout, "Please forgive me, please let me go.".If a person is broken by a sharp weapon, even if he survives and recovers completely, he will tremble all over when he sees the sharp weapon again. Those pains have been engraved deep in the memory, and the body will make the most intuitive Reaction.Jichuan is in the darkness, drifting like a lone sail, with no beginning and no end, only the endless sea of ​​suffering.

But he is reluctant to say give up, he knows that if he gives up, he will really die, and every moment of his life is worse than death, anyway, he is alive, and he can hear those words when he is alive.

"I like you."

It was Lu Chen who said it. He knelt in front of him with tears on his face. He thought that Lu Chen would hate him, hate himself for deceiving him, hate himself for using him, but he didn't. He said he liked him.Originally, Ji Chuan thought he would hate Lu Chen. Although his father saved him, he let him pay for it with his life. However, this person is still ignorant, and he looks innocent and peaceful. Yeye was ruled by the fear of death, bearing things that should not be borne by him on his behalf.But he doesn't hate him, he didn't hate him before, and he won't hate him when he heard that sentence, because no one has ever said this sentence to Ji Chuan, he knows that parents and children will say this sentence, husband and wife love each other He would say these words for a while, but he didn't have these two words. He didn't even think that he would hear these four words one day.He originally thought it was just an ordinary sentence, but when he really heard it, it was like the sound of heaven.

How amazing it is to like someone, because when you fall in love with someone, you will shine brightly because of this throbbing that came from nowhere, and the person you like is obviously just the most ordinary ordinary person, but can be in love with you. In the vast crowd, he was found by the other party at a glance.Because I like it, my parents can hold hands with each other life and death, and I am lucky to have someone who likes me in my three lives.In his mind, Lu Chen's serious and solemn face appeared, and he was very curious about when such a meticulous person found out that he liked him.

He could even imagine Lu Chen's tangled appearance. He was a crow, his sworn enemy, and he was still a man. With an identity and gender that were not recognized, what kind of inner feelings did he go through? Only through the process can I confirm my own mind, and how much effort I spent hiding it in front of myself.No, maybe I was focused on other things, so I ignored those details, Lu Chen's inexplicable blushing and sudden stuttering, his occasional words and the way he looked into his eyes, Ji Chuan Want to laugh and cry, if he hadn't stood on the opposite side of him, he would never have said it.According to Lu Chen's thinking, after all this is over peacefully, will he and he just part ways?Or will he speak out to keep himself?What kind of reason would he think of to justify himself to stay?

But Lu Chen has forgotten himself, Ji Chuan is a little regretful, the fate between himself and Lu Chen always seems to be one step away, but Ji Chuan doesn't care, everything is always difficult, can get his words , is already the most precious gift, and thinking about anything else is nothing but extravagance.Ji Chuan couldn't help thinking, what does he look like now?Did he get the spirit of Chaohu?Did he find his father and enemy?Has he returned to Ying Yuanzhi's side?How is he?

He is so curious, or he likes Lu Chen so much that every time he is half-conscious, he can hear Lu Chen's voice in his head, every tone, every word, and even the last sentence. Pause, he took it out and revisited it over and over again.He can't just give up like this, even if he can only listen to this one time in his life, then someone likes him, how can he just give up like this, how can he die like this if he hasn't fully experienced that kind of love.

Ji Chuan gritted his teeth, endured countless times of wandering between life and death, and he was about to arrive. He encouraged himself so much, I will definitely find the way back.

"woke up?"

When Ji Chuan opened his eyes, he saw a strange face under his nose, it was an old man with wrinkles, his expression was full of excitement.Ji Chuan instinctively wanted to back away, but the pain in his body made him frown and hiss, before falling back again.

"Don't move, don't move, you're half-lifed, don't toss about it again."

The old man's mouth was full of disgust, but his hand was on his pulse.Ji Chuan didn't struggle any more, and he didn't have any extra strength to struggle. If most of the pain he felt in the dream came from imagination, but at this time, it was a very intuitive pain like heart-breaking pain, and his forehead was almost immediately covered. Drenched in cold sweat, the old man took his pulse and saw his pale face, picked up the soup prepared by the side and poured it down the corner of his mouth.The decoction was extremely bitter, but the soothing effect was wonderful. After a while, Ji Chuan felt that his breath was no longer like stepping on the edge of a knife.

He wanted to make a sound, but found that his vocal cords were locked by something, his throat was burning and hurting, the old man seemed to see his intention, he waved towards the door, walked in a person, Ji Chuan took a closer look, Only then did I realize that the man was Duan Lin.He nodded towards Duan Lin, and Duan Lin's eyes turned red instantly. He walked over slowly, squatted in front of him, held his hand, and said with a sob

"It's good to be alive."

The old man was not afraid of spoiling the atmosphere at all, he slapped Duan Lin on the hand, and said to him carelessly:

"You still don't take out the empty bowl, you're clumsy."

Duan Lin didn't argue, just wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, took the bowl and went out.The old man turned his attention to Ji Chuan again. Ji Chuan didn't know who this person was, but seeing that he and Duan Lin were familiar, he might also be from the Tzu Chi Church, but he hadn't heard of it, and Duan Lin hadn't mentioned it either. ?Ji Chuan sighed in his heart, never thought that Duan Lin's joke of "I'll help you collect the corpse" before his death would pull him back from the gate of hell, and this old man who seemed to have a bad temper, like Hua Tuo reincarnated, would really be able to rejuvenate his life own.

It's just that the old man's scrutinizing gaze made Ji Chuan feel a little awkward. It didn't look like looking at a patient, nor like a genius doctor admiring his masterpiece, but like an old man looking at his son-in-law who came to the house for the first time.Ji Chuan suffered from being unable to move or speak, so he had no choice but to let his savior scrutinize him, and complained in his heart. Now that there is another savior, he doesn't know if the little life he picked up is still useful or not.

Unexpectedly, the old man looked at it for a long time, and said something strangely.

"It looks pretty good."

"?"

Ji Chuan was puzzled, and the old man shouted out again

"Come in soon."

Ji Chuan reluctantly raised his head, and in front of the dilapidated wooden door, a figure came in against the light. Do you make up for all your previous sufferings?

The figure got used to the darkness in the room, stood two steps away from him, looked at him, Ji Chuan felt that there was no closer distance in this world than the present moment, he waited for so long, endured for so long, just For this moment?

"Young master." Ji Chuan murmured

"Jichuan." Lu Chen broke down in tears.