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When Lin Xiaoyuan sent the message, Ducheng Yi had just finished taking a shower and finished two sets of papers, and was sitting cross-legged on the bed staring at the moonlight in a daze.

Two photos popped up on the phone screen, one was an ugly photo of him eating ice cream all over his mouth under the bright California sun, and the other was standing on the top floor of a certain building at night, holding up his phone to take a selfie, behind him It is the prosperous lights of thousands of families on the other side of the ocean.He was smiling happily in the two photos. The difference from before was that there was Zhuang Shihuai in the two photos. In one, he looked helplessly at Lin Xiaoyuan making a fuss, and in the other, only one of Zhuang Shihuai was in the photo. With a slightly bleak back, he was standing on the edge of the roof wearing a windbreaker with his hands in his pockets.

As usual, Lin Xiaoyuan sent a sentence: Isn't he handsome?

I don't know whether he is asking him or the person next to him.

But no matter what, it's a good thing. Compared to half a year ago, when she could only secretly take pictures of that person's back, now Lin Xiaoyuan's eyes overflowed with happiness.

Well, handsome, all handsome.

As soon as he finished answering, there was a voice over there, Lin Xiaoyuan asked him excitedly: "Hey, how are you and Luo?"

The child was full of question marks: "It's still like this."

All the tepid people disappeared.

Lin Xiaoyuan sent a string of ellipses with an emoji that vomited blood: "If it wasn't for Ducheng Yi, I would be so mad at you, you treat it as a dinner treat! Did you see the baby I gave you at the airport last time!"

Airport?The child thought of the bag he hid, Lin Xiaoyuan or else he really forgot.

"Oh no, I'll watch it now, good night."

Regardless of Lin Xiaoyuan's continued yelling, Duchengyi directly locked the screen and threw the phone aside, went to dig out the hard drive that Lin Xiaoyuan stuffed for him at the airport before, turned off all the lights in the house, and used I covered my head with the quilt and hid in the bed to watch. There were several movies in the hard drive.

He casually clicked on a book called "Call me by your name".

It was a hot sunny summer, with swimming pools, fruits, open-air dining tables and the idyllic wind blowing in front of him, bringing a 17-year-old youthful and beautiful boy to appear in front of men.

Black curly hair and eyes as thick as ink, mixed with the unique peach fragrance of young people, issued a fatal invitation to men.

In this picturesque countryside, all emotions come naturally.The boy is touching the man's feet under the table, the man is stroking the boy's shoulder while playing volleyball, and when kissing, his fingertips caress the boy's lips. Every frame of the shot turns into a heavy heartbeat and jumps out of the screen. The child Watching it calmly, this is the first time he has come into contact with the concept of "homosexuality" seriously. He has never been popularized by science about these intimate ways of getting along. But now these touches can be clearly felt through the screen.

Close your eyes, Luo Zijun's face is all in front of your eyes, slowly, that face overlaps with the "Zhuang Baibu" that once appeared in the dream, Du Chengyi trembles all over, sweating profusely, his lower body is a little uncomfortable under pressure, he He turned over and stared at his frequently fluctuating pants in a daze.

That night, he still didn't call Luo Zijun.

That night, Du Chengyi had a dream. In the dream, the boy and the man were replaced by himself and Luo Zijun. The two ran around in the sunny countryside, playing the guitar on the tree and playing the piano in the house. The man was a bit rough. Fingers passed over the chin of the shirt, rubbing and stroking all the way from the side waist to the back cone, the two hugged together on the soft big bed, the thin kisses spread from the toes to the collarbone, planting pieces of honey fruit.

Waking up in the morning, Du Chengyi's lower body was wet, and the room was filled with an indescribably familiar smell, just like his reaction after dreaming in that old house, he jumped up from the bed and rushed into the bathroom, only this time, It was none other than his Uncle Luo in the dream.

Du Chengyi stared blankly at the mirror for 10 to [-] minutes, once recalling Teacher Mengliluo's face and beautiful back muscles, the two clouds of fire and the hills on his pants couldn't fade away.

When school was over, Xu Chen came to pick him up and go to the bookstore to buy teaching aids. After all, he was in the impact stage of the third year of junior high school. Although there was no need to worry about him failing the exam, the necessary consolidation was still needed.

The weather at the end of April was already a bit hot. Walking on the street in the evening, it didn't take long for my back to be wet, and the clothes were sticky to my body mixed with sweat. The capital was a little restless, and I kept pulling at the neckline.

When passing the milk tea shop next door to the school, Xu Chen ordered him a cup of jelly jelly.

Duchengyi is a frequent visitor to this store. In the past, Mr. Luo accompanied him. The two of them bought a cup of milk tea or fairy grass and shared it. Mr. Luo never let him eat it all in one go. The reason was that eating too fast was harmful to his stomach No, if you eat too much, you won't be able to eat dinner. In short, you are forcing a set of old people's health preservation theory on him.

The boss saw Du Chengyi and said hello naturally: "Brother, is there still less sugar today?"

The child thought for a while and said, "No sugar, thank you."

Although the boss was a little surprised, he didn't say much.

The child lowered his eyes, and Teacher Luo was not around. He had to finish a cup of jelly jelly by himself. If it was too sweet, it would get boring.

Teacher Luo is not here.

Teacher Luo.

Not here.

Xu Chen glanced at him, and the child's entire eyes and eyebrows drooped.He patted the child on the back: "Miss Lao Luo?"

Du Chengyi pursed his lips: "Yes."

In front of Uncle Xu, he made no secrets.

"More than two months will soon, you take the exam well, and when you enter high school, he will come back."

The child counted with his fingers, two months, 61 days, 1464 hours, and now only 48 hours have passed, it seems like years.

Xu Chen said that he would eat hot pot at home in the evening, and asked Du Chengyi to bring homework for a while and go straight back with him.

That day, Xu Zhiyuan happened to show Li Liang the sketches of the newly designed costumes for the concert, so he stayed for dinner together.

The air-conditioning in the room was turned on to the freezing point, and the mandarin duck pot was bubbling hot on the table. Xu Zhiyuan boldly threw all kinds of meatballs of beef and mutton into it, but was stopped by Xu Chen.

"Slow down, put the mutton last, Liangliang won't eat it."

Xu Zhiyuan curled his lips, and was just about to stir it with chopsticks, but was stopped by Xu Chen: "The chopsticks of the mandarin duck pot are separated, please don't bring spicy food into the soup."

Xu Zhiyuan rolled his eyes several times, and exclaimed, "Oh, I know! Why do you still act like this! It's been more than ten years since you graduated!"

"You yell, you yell again and call the neighbors on the left and right to eat together?"

Xu Chen distributed the cooked thin meat to Li Liang and the child, and the tenderness of bowing his head was only towards that person.Xu Zhiyuan angrily poked holes in the beef balls.

What a big deal!Who doesn't have a boyfriend yet!My man works overtime today and doesn't care about you!

Du Chengyi ate with his head down, feeling unhappy, turning a blind eye to the strife at the table.

Xu Zhiyuan asked casually while swiping his phone: "Hey, is Luo Zijun over there? I haven't seen him call yet."

Xu Chen added shrimp paste to the soup, and Li Liang poured some seasoning for the child. He said, "It should be time."

"Why don't you report a letter when we arrive, we are all anxiously waiting, aren't we?" Xu Zhiyuan raised his chin at Dudu.

The child forced out a smile that was uglier than crying.

"Eat your meal, you talk too much, even the hot pot can't stop your mouth!" Li Liang poked a cheese ball into Xu Zhiyuan's mouth.

While several people were talking, the screens of Li Liang and Xu Zhiyuan’s mobile phones suddenly lit up, and a trending post appeared on Weibo: Yesterday afternoon, a teaching bus rolled over in the winding mountain section of X village, X town, X province. After the accident, , The injured were sent to the hospital for treatment. The specific number of casualties and the cause of the accident are still under investigation.

Xu Zhiyuan and Li Liang jumped up almost at the same time. Xu Chen realized something was wrong and leaned over to look at Li Liang's phone, and was also stunned. The three big men didn't even dare to look at Du Chengyi's face.

The child's eyelids twitched, and he silently took out his mobile phone, staring at the standby screen and reading word by word.

X Village, X Town, X Province, X Province, a support teacher, a few large characters caught his eyes unexpectedly, the child's hands trembled violently, and he could hardly hold the chopsticks.

He took a few deep breaths and clicked on Weibo.

Within a few minutes, the click-through rate of this news has exceeded one million.

There are even a few sporadic photos of the accident scene in the comments below. Bloodstains can be seen everywhere. Some people even replied that they were witnesses to the accident. One person died on the spot and the other two were seriously injured. In the ICU for treatment, the liver ruptured and an organ transplant was required.

"Kang Tang", the child stood up suddenly, and all the dishes and chopsticks in his hand were knocked to the ground.He rushed out without saying a word, and Xu Chen quickly grabbed him.

"where to!"

"I'm going to find him!"

"Where are you going to find him!"

"I'll go to the school to ask! Ask the Education Bureau! I can always ask! Don't stop me!" The child was as strong as a wild horse, and Xu Chen couldn't stop him alone. Xu Zhiyuan and Li Liang came to help and barely held him down. live.

Xu Zhiyuan spoke bluntly: "No one said that Luo Zijun was the one who broke all internal organs. Besides, in case, I said in case, there is something wrong with him. What can you do as a child!"

The words are rough and the rationale is not rough, Dudu's heart is cold.For the first time in his life, he felt powerless. He couldn't do anything and didn't know anything. The only thing he could do was wait.

"Whatever he lacks in the internal organs, I will give him what he has. Anyway, I am a deaf person, and the one that is useless is useless, and the two are also useless."

This is probably the longest sentence the child has ever said in his life. His heart is sore and the eyes are scarlet as if it is about to flow out. Every word and sentence pops out from between his teeth.