23 days before Christmas

"Christmas Eve tonight, can we meet?"

When Liu Yiming pressed the "Send" button, he felt tense and tense. He didn't know if he had annoyed Lin Zhixi to the point that he was already blocked.

Liu Yiming wrapped his down jacket tightly and walked in the cold wind. It has been 5 minutes and he hasn't responded to the message. Maybe he blocked me.

There were a thousand swear words in my heart.

Liu Yiming stopped in his tracks, lowered his eyes and stared at the screen of the phone. On it were long paragraphs of words he had written to him. There were not many words in the text messages, but he didn't reply. With words, he let him go, he doesn't care about him anymore.

Lost in my heart.

Yesterday... yesterday was just a dream.

His tears were about to fall.

It was almost time for class, and he hurried to the classroom regardless of his messy mood and uncomfortable heart.

As soon as he sat down, the phone rang a text message notification tone, and Liu Yiming clicked on it immediately. It was him: "When? I'm done with class today."

"At night." Liu Yiming replied in seconds.

"Okay." He replied simply.

Liu Yiming suddenly felt that there was finally a glimmer of light in the dark days of more than 20 days.

Lin Zhixi was still willing to see him.

They still have a chance.

"Dining together?" Liu Yiming asked.

"forget it."

Generally speaking, he is still very happy, at least there is still a little room for change. Lin Zhixi does not have no feelings for him at all, and really wants him to go away.

There was a big class this morning, and he ate something casually at noon. In the afternoon, he woke up naturally after three o'clock. He packed a few books and went to the library to review for a while. Zhixi.

Lin Zhixi's face, Lin Zhixi's smile, Lin Zhixi's voice, Lin Zhixi's smell.

How could there be such a good boy as Lin Zhixi in this world?

He will still want his.

Finally, counting the time, it was 06:30.

About to be on the roof of the school library, where he and he often go.

Liu Yiming went back to the dormitory and took out the scarf that was knitted last night. It was blue and white. Although it was a cool color, it looked very warm. He forgot how many nights he had spent on it. There were his tears on it. There are also scratch marks.

He had nothing to do, he was sitting on the steps at six o'clock.

Seeing the stairs, he suddenly remembered that more than ten days ago, when he was full and had nothing to do, he bought two cans of beer, got himself drunk, and frantically called Lin Zhixi, but he didn't answer any of them.Liu Yiming, who was almost blown to death by the cold wind, couldn't bear it any longer. After sitting for almost three hours, he returned to the dormitory, extremely embarrassed.

At almost [-]:[-], Lin Zhixi appeared.

Gray and white short down jacket, sky blue schoolbag, coincidentally, today they are wearing couple shoes.

"You're late, 8 minutes." Liu Yiming felt that the first sentence he said when they met was completely out of his mind.

Lin Zhixi's expression was flat, and her voice was a little cold: "Then should I say I'm sorry?"

"No, no need."

"Today should be the day we broke up." Liu Yiming's eyes were all about that boy, the boy he was thinking about, the boy he was thinking about like crazy.

Somehow, with some crying, this guy couldn't help it.

Liu Yiming wanted to rush up and hug Lin Zhixi, then rub his head on his shoulder, and kept rubbing until his clothes were covered with tears, nose, saliva, and then he was satisfied, and then his nose would be full of the smell of Lin Zhixi's laundry detergent. She hugged the back of his head, bit his earlobe and kissed his neck.

But Liu Yiming was timid, he didn't dare - Lin Zhixi's expression seemed impatient, he was even more timid, and he didn't dare.

"I miss you so much."

Lin Zhixi glanced at him, but said nothing.

"Thinking of you crazy!"

Lin Zhixi glanced at him again, but still didn't speak.

Liu Yiming's nose was sore. The two were more than two meters apart. He was sitting and Lin Zhixi was standing. If they were confronting each other, he would have lost all the limelight.

"Do you know how I got here in the past 23 days! I thought I could be unrestrained, delete your contact information, and delete you from my life completely, but I am a piece of garbage , I’m not that good! After I deleted you, I regretted so much. I added you like a dog, QQ rejected me, WeChat ignored me, phone blocked me, and all friends who were previously related to each other were disassociated. , have been removed from the blacklist! I don’t even know! I thought you blocked my news, but fortunately, I can still contact you..." Liu Yiming finished speaking in one breath, tears in his eyes filled with tears. Falling down in frustration.

He was born with milk, but now he was crying, his eyes were red, and his mouth was pouted, as if someone had bullied him and ravaged him.

Seeing that Lin Zhixi was still silent, Liu Yiming continued: "I'm still sick! My tonsils are inflamed and festered. It hurts like hell, but I recovered yesterday. It hurts to swallow my saliva, and I can't eat at all. It's like burning. It's been a whole week. Yes, I take more medicine than I eat, and I wake up every night with pain. My roommate also said that I snore. I have never snored before. No one is with me."

"Liu..." Lin Zhixi said suddenly, but couldn't say anything, his brows were tightly frowned, and his eyes were different from the softness he had just come over.

Liu Yiming choked up and said: "Did you take all my luck away when you left? I have been really unlucky for more than 20 days. I can't do anything well, but there is still an exam. I have reviewed it, but I still can't do it." I can do it, but I don’t know how to do everything in the test. Do you think that there are only a few unlucky things, and there are many more!"

"Stop talking." Lin Zhixi said in a deep voice.

"Why don't you say it? I just want to tell you that I really can't live without you. I go to class alone, eat alone, go to the library alone, and do everything alone. I don't like them, even friends I don't even want to be with them, it's so boring." Liu Yiming frowned, "I miss you so much. I didn't expect that in just three months, I could like someone so much, even to, to, love."

"I..." Lin Zhixi took a few steps closer, "I miss you too."

Liu Yiming stood up suddenly, his voice raised: "Then you tell me to get out of your life! Then you go find someone else! Do you miss me? What do you miss me? You just block everything I have, this is called missing Me? You still say that you will only feel disgusted if you are so nonsense! Lin Zhixi, do you have a heart?"

"sorry."

"Is an apology useful! Do you know how many nights I couldn't sleep in the past 20 days? Looking at the chat records and photos I took screenshots before, I was crying alone in bed. The next day I went to class with swollen eyes , everyone thought I was beaten!" Liu Yiming became more and more angry, "What about you! When did I see you in the cafeteria or downstairs in the dormitory, were you with others? You are like kicking away garbage Kick me away and go find someone else? Have you ever thought about how I feel? I really don't know how you can be so cruel?"

Lin Zhixi lowered her head, and just said: "It's not what you think, it's because he is interested in me, I haven't..."

"Aren't you tempted yet? When are you going to be tempted?"

Lin Zhixi suddenly hugged him, put her face against his, and whispered in his ear: "It's all my fault, it's my fault. I thought I could forget you, but it turns out that I can't. I I can't forget you at all, Liu Yiming, what are you so annoying! You are haunted every day, I thought I deleted you, where did you delete it? I said "I don't feel it anymore", it's all my fault. "

Liu Yiming was stunned, he was addicted to the fragrance and warmth of Lin Zhixi's body, he just wanted him to hold him like this all the time, don't let go, never let go.

"I am, because I don't have confidence in myself. I'm afraid I won't be able to give you what you want." Lin Zhixi also cried, and big tears fell down, landing on Liu Yiming's skin, which was hot. Hot, just like the love between these teenagers.

Liu Yiming patted him on the back, rubbing his head back and forth on Lin Zhixi's shoulder, crying as usual: "Didn't we agree before! We are suitable, you have to have confidence in both of us!"

"I'm sorry." Lin Zhixi was still apologizing.

"Can you stop apologizing!" Liu Yiming reached into his coat and pinched his waist, "You still dare to go out and find wild men! You scumbag! They all say you are a scumbag! Just me I still believe in you! I still believe that you love me!"

Lin Zhixi put her mouth behind his ear, her voice was as gentle as usual: "I still love you. I love you."

Liu Yiming felt that today's tears were so fucking endless that they kept falling down and down until his clothes were wet.

"I love you too. I have never loved someone like this in 18 years. After I gave my heart to you, a stinky man, I can't take it back." Liu Yiming lowered his voice, "Besides, I have a long memory. I It seems that I know how to fall in love with you correctly and well. My temper will change, and we will love each other equally and together. No one loves the other more or less than the other. "

"No, I love you more."

"You fart!" Liu Yiming lightly bit Lin Zhixi's earlobe, "It's the same!"

"Okay, okay, the same is the same."

Liu Yiming hugged the boy he loved dearly in front of him tightly, thinking that time would stop at this moment and not go any further.He used to think that love at first sight was unreliable, and time was the criterion for measuring feelings, but this boy in front of him shattered all his theories, and three months of contact made him willing to give his whole heart.

Lin Zhixi relaxed a little, looked into Liu Yiming's eyes, moved his gaze down to that lip, lowered his head slightly, and pressed his own lips to it.

Tongue pushed against the teeth, and the tip of the tongue moved across the palate, like a dancing elf; Liu Yiming's mind went blank, as if he had kissed for the first time that night in three months, sticking out his tongue clumsily, completely forgetting that he deliberately went to learned skills.At the moment of contact, both of them seemed to be electrified, he licked his teeth, and he bit his lips lightly.Stirring, entanglement, licking, nibbling, dancing together... the long-lost feeling.

I don't know how long it took before the two separated, but their bodies were still hugging each other. Liu Yiming's hand was on Lin Zhixi's waist, and Lin Zhixi's hand was already warming Liu Yiming's back.

"It's been a long time, it hasn't passed." Liu Yiming was still crying, so that both of their faces were covered with tears.

"I love you so much."

"I love you too."