23 days before Christmas

Liu Yiming was very flustered, and sent messages to Lin Zhixi one by one.

"Are you going home or not? Can you send me a message to reassure me?"

"Why do you ignore me, I'm sorry, you are much more important than that broken phone."

"There's something I think I should tell you."

"Just now, a woman in our class confessed to me. I must have refused decisively."

"I don't like her, I only like you. It's the first time in 18 years that I like someone so much. Lin Zhixi, we will always be together."

"Are you unhappy? I'm sorry, I'm just a fool..."

"I miss you so much, can you write back a message!"

"Hey, what are we going to do for the remaining seven days? I'm going to scratch my heart and lungs if I don't see you for a few hours..."

"I'll sleep for a while, I hope you'll ignore me when I wake up."

Seeing that the interface was full of his own news, Liu Yiming felt his nose sore and felt even more uncomfortable.

close your eyes!sleep!

When he woke up, he happened to be home soon, but Lin Zhixi still didn't call him back.

Liu Yiming was in a panic, and saw that it was almost eleven o'clock.A sense of powerlessness swept over his body, and he had to drag the heavy suitcase home.

When I got home, my parents were still up and waiting for him.

Liu Yiming had a thousand discomforts and 1 discomforts in his heart, and he had to swallow them all, put on a smiling face, and carry out the routine homework that he had practiced since high school—"you ask me to answer" and "you give me to eat".

It was already 12:30 when I was lying in bed.

Lin Zhixi, what are you doing!Even if you send a word or a sentence, it will make me feel at ease!

After sleeping in the car for more than an hour, he didn't feel sleepy at this time, his heart was in a panic, and he didn't know what to do with his mobile phone—he suddenly remembered the night after the college entrance examination. With such a feeling, I was so flustered that I couldn't sleep at all, and I was afraid that I would have to repeat my studies if I didn't go to college.

Fortunately, the gods pitied him so that his unattractive grades were enough to get into a good school, and he met Lin Zhixi on the first day of school.

He was really scared, afraid that Lin Zhixi would not want him.

In fact, from the first day he was with Lin Zhixi, Liu Yiming was very afraid, afraid that Lin Zhixi would not want him, afraid that Lin Zhixi would leave him.Lin Zhixi is tall, handsome, and excellent, with a good personality, a nice voice, and good-looking hands. He is exactly the configuration of a male protagonist living in a novel.As for myself, I can be regarded as handsome in appearance, not too short in height, quite ordinary, not used to living with my brain, and have nothing worth mentioning.

There are so many boys and girls who are better than herself in this world, why does Lin Zhixi stay with her mediocre self?What's more, Liu Yiming didn't know why, he had a low self-esteem since he was a child, and he didn't know where this mentality came from. He just questioned himself not being good enough all the time, but he didn't have the perseverance to make himself better.Fortunately, he is very good at hiding emotions, all the emotions on the surface are largely untrue, and he rarely shows his true self to others.

Fortunately, Lin Zhixi appeared, and he wanted to show him his true self—but he was afraid that that true self was not good enough, or even bad, and would scare Lin Zhixi away.

Liu Yiming thought wildly all night, and he didn't know how long he slept. When the sun shone into the room the next morning, he turned on his phone to check the time. Lin Zhixi, whom he was thinking about, finally—"Last night I got angry and ignored you, eighth I fell asleep on the sofa when I got home after midnight. I just saw so many posts from you this morning..."

Then there was another one: "The reason I'm angry is that we are going to be separated, and you are still in the mood to play games, play mobile phones and check Weibo, why don't we have a good chat together?"

"You really disappointed me yesterday."

Indeed, it should be disappointing.

After thinking about it, Liu Yiming was quite disappointed with himself yesterday.

"I'm sorry." He didn't know what else to say besides apologizing.

"I don't want your apology." Lin Zhixi replied in seconds.

Liu Yiming curled up into a ball and nestled under the quilt, the uncomfortable feeling of restraining himself all night subsided a little, he poked the keyboard letter by letter: "Then what do you want from me?"

"I want you to have a long memory. Don't do this again in the future. Don't leave me alone."

Liu Yiming looked at the line and couldn't help but nodded: "Mmm, it's my fault."

"You're fine. How can I like you if you're not?"

The sudden confession was like a feather scratching Liu Yiming's heart.

Lin Zhixi continued: "Because I like someone, I will be dominated by his behavior, and I will be happy and disappointed."

"In the future, I will not disappoint you, make you angry, or make you unhappy."

"I always have a feeling that you don't like me that much?"

Liu Yiming's heart tightened suddenly, and he asked, "What do you mean?"

"I feel that you don't like me that much. It may be that our two likes are not equal."

Liu Yiming bit his lip, thought for a while and replied: "This is the first time I'm in a relationship, and I don't know how to get along with my lover."

"It's also my first time dating, let's take our time and go on together."

"But what if, I really don't like you as much as you like me?"

Lin Zhixi replied in seconds: "Then I'll wait."

"Yeah." Liu Yiming only felt the corners of his eyes moist, and a teardrop fell on the bed sheet and a small flower bloomed.

Liu Yiming whispered to himself: "You must wait for me."

In fact, Liu Yiming's concept of love comes from TV dramas and novels. Facts have proved that those various legendary experiences are completely untenable in real life.He is a beginner, but Lin Zhixi is also a beginner. The two of them hold hands and side by side to explore the way forward in the dark. They don't know what will happen in the future, but now they have promised each other—"I will always , will be together, never give up."

"Are you up yet?" Lin Zhixi asked suddenly.

Liu Yiming breathed a sigh of relief, and replied, "Not yet. My mother didn't even come to urge me."

"I'm still in bed, too."

"How comfortable it is in bed."

"I want to go to your bed."

Liu Yiming suddenly felt hot on his face: "What, you've become so indecisive all of a sudden."

"Where is it out of order!"

"Hahahahahaha I also want to go to your bed."

"Look at you, you are not serious!"

It was the first time that there was unhappiness between them, so it was resolved like this?

Just fix it, fix it...

Liu Yiming suddenly felt a sense of crisis—he was afraid that Lin Zhixi would not like him one day, and then abandon him...

"Will you leave me one day if you don't like me?" Liu Yiming asked directly.

Lin Zhixi paused there for half a minute, and replied: "To be honest, I don't know how long our relationship can last. But, at least now I like you, and I want to spend time with you very seriously. Live every minute and every second. For the first time in all these years, I have met someone who I like so much."

Liu Yiming's heart moved when he read that passage, but he also felt very confused about the future: "I don't know what will happen in the future. I just want to grasp the present moment."

"We will have a future, we will." Lin Zhixi is very firm about this, "Maybe the love will fade away, but we have to get through the bottleneck period together. We will definitely have a future."

"Well, I will." Liu Yiming made a big promise so easily. To be honest, he really has no confidence in the future.

But since Lin Zhixi was so determined, he had some confidence in his heart.

"I will not let go of your hand." It was Lin Zhixi who gave him the courage to face the future, "You are not allowed to leave me either."

I will never leave you, and you are not allowed to let go of my hand.

Liu Yiming only felt his nose sore, and didn't know what to reply him for a while, so he just typed one word: "Yes."

"Just one huh?"

Liu Yiming thought for a while and replied, "Start the video. I want to see you."

"Huh?" Lin Zhixi seemed to be stunned, and after more than half a minute, "Turn on the video? I'm ugly now."

"I'm uglier than you." Liu Yiming turned on the front camera, and couldn't bear to look directly at it.

He hurriedly said: "In my eyes, there is no time when you are ugly. I like whatever you look like."

My God, Liu Yiming, are you so good at talking earthy love words now?

How do I know, when I feel emotional, I say it myself.

Lin Zhixi opened the video—how ugly!But it's just a bit of a mess naturally, and he looks like he hasn't woken up.

As soon as Liu Yiming put on the earphones, he heard Lin Zhixi's voice: "Oh, you're really ugly."

"Can you speak?" Liu Yiming frowned, although he had 13 in his heart.

Liu Yiming's expression was serious, but Lin Zhixi felt a little uncomfortable and unaccustomed to it: "Why are you so serious this early in the morning? Didn't sleep well last night? It shouldn't be that expression if you didn't sleep well."

"You didn't sleep well, it should be your expression now." Liu Yiming still sullenly.

Lin Zhixi shrank into the quilt, held up the phone, and said with a light smile, "You said I've been holding the phone like this, when will my hand break?"

"If you break your hand, I have to take care of you for the rest of your life. Let's say goodbye."

"What happened to you."

Liu Yiming pursed his lips, and said in a deep voice: "Don't you think the word 'um' just now is too perfunctory? Then let me tell you seriously now, since the first night I saw you when I entered school, I have wanted to be with you." Together. The character and goodwill I have accumulated over the past 18 years failed to turn into good luck in the college entrance examination, but it made me meet you on my birthday. I really feel so lucky that you also like me. You are so good, As for me, I have always felt that I am... very, very hard to describe. When you confessed your love at first, I thought, just grasp the moment, talk about a relationship first, and then talk about the future. I dare not think about the future, but now , It was you who gave me courage, our road ahead may be difficult, but holding your hand, I will not be afraid of anything."

Lin Zhixi was stunned for a long time, tears falling down one after another like broken beads.