23 days before Christmas

"Let's break up peacefully for Christmas."

Liu Yiming woke up naturally after sleeping. He just took his phone to check the time, but unexpectedly...

Liu Yiming rubbed his eyes, unable to believe that line.

It was a message from early in the morning, not long after he fell asleep.

Recently, he faintly felt that there might be some minor problems in this relationship, but he kept telling himself that Lin Zhixi would never leave him, absolutely never.I slept late last night, and for some reason I dug out the chat records and photos of the two of them before.This morning he woke up later than usual, and when he opened his eyes and saw this, he felt like his heart had stopped for three seconds.

Is this relationship so fragile?Is the shelf life so short?Will you kick me away when the novelty is over?

Lin Zhixi, are you crazy?

What date is it today?There are 23 days until Christmas.

are you kidding me?

He couldn't believe it.

Throw the phone aside, get out of bed and take a shower.

In the morning of early December, it wasn't that cold in the dormitory, but there was a gust of cold wind blowing through the balcony. Liu Yiming shivered when he opened the door.I forgot where I put the water card, so I had to pick up cold water to wash my face and brush my teeth casually.

After getting dressed, Lin Zhixi sent a message: "Are you up?"

Just as he was about to reply, another message came: "Do you want to have dinner together?"

He rolled his eyes, mixed with unspeakable uncomfortable emotions in his heart, and replied: "Look at you."

Then no more news came.

After Liu Yiming put on his clothes and changed his shoes, he sat on the stool in the bedroom and was in a daze for 10 minutes.

The last roommate to leave closed the door and glanced at him suspiciously.

The bedroom was empty, and he was the only one left.

If it was before, Liu Yiming would definitely send a message to Lin Zhixi, and Lin Zhixi immediately ran over from three meters away.So in the early morning, the two of them hugged and kissed each other for more than ten minutes, and then reluctantly went to the cafeteria to have breakfast together.

Not today.

Liu Yiming sneered, picked up his schoolbag and went out.

"I'm leaving." He pressed the "send" button.

Lin Zhixi replied in seconds: "Wait for me for 2 minutes."

Another one: "Right now."

"I'm downstairs." Normally, Liu Yiming could walk from the third floor to the first floor in five minutes, but if the two of them were together, the journey would take two hours.He remembered that he would secretly kiss each other in the corridors and corridors every time, even when they came back together a few nights ago... Liu Yiming's heart sank, and he sent another message, "I thought you didn't want to It's over."

When he saw Lin Zhixi coming down, he felt like he almost cried—a peaceful breakup on Christmas?what is this?Time bomb?What's the difference between this and the countdown to death!

He smelled his body, and only felt his nose sore.

He likes the smell of him the most.Liu Yiming used to say: "I don't know why, but I feel at ease when I smell you. Laundry detergent mixed with shower gel? What brand is it?"

Lin Zhixi would just roll her eyes at him, then chuckled and said, "Go back and borrow it from you."

Are you still at ease?

That's all.

"Christmas......"

"Don't think about it." Lin Zhixi's voice was pleasant to hear, but at this moment, it sounded like a wind knife and a frost sword.

The bitterness in his heart didn't subside at all. After thinking for a while, he asked tentatively in a low voice, "Then are we still a couple in the past 20 days?"

"Of course." Lin Zhixi took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, "Let's have lunch together."

Liu Yiming didn't know what Lin Zhixi was thinking, anyway, he couldn't understand it at all - he just wanted to be with him forever, but...

After that, neither of them spoke much.Liu Yiming felt uncomfortable, couldn't eat breakfast, and talked a lot less; Lin Zhixi is a person who is not good at taking the initiative, unless you pick him up.This is definitely the quietest morning in a long time, the two of them are thinking about their own things and not talking.But obviously there were always endless things to talk about before, from the dormitory to the cafeteria to the teaching building, the two tacitly walked very slowly, wanting to stay by each other's side for a while.

"I'm in this building."

"Then, see you at noon." Lin Zhixi glanced at him, and added, "Take a good class. Don't think too much."

He didn't answer, let alone look back.

Where can he listen to the class.

He took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Lin Zhixi: "Why did you look like that just now?"

"No." He replied with one word.

He kept staring at the word, feeling weak all over his body, his nose was sore, his heart was in turmoil and his mind was in turmoil, and he couldn't hear a word at all.

"I can't listen to the class at all. What should I do?"

Five minutes later, I received another message from Lin Zhixi: "It's going to be better slowly. This time we all grit our teeth down."

this time?They also broke up two months ago. At that time, they were only together for a month, and their relationship was not that deep.Originally they were together in a hot-headed and muddle-headed way, but Liu Yiming only thought of a stinky man, where could he not find him?If you don't fall in love, you have nothing to do. It's a waste of feelings and time.Then after deleting all the contact information, he went to add Lin Zhixi back after less than two days, and it took another half a day for the two to get back together.

Does love in this era come and go quickly?It's like fast food.

He stared at Lin Zhixi's head in a daze—it was the Ferris wheel they took together in the amusement park on Halloween.

I don't know how long it took before Liu Yiming replied: "I will try my best."

Added: "But I don't want to."

"I wanted to let you go a long time ago, and I don't think it's necessary to go on like that." He pressed each key with trembling fingers, tears rolling in his eyes, "but I tried. I can't."

But Lin Zhixi said, "We can all do it."

All he wanted to do now was grab Lin Zhixi's collar and yell at him, "You can do it if you say so!"

"Why not?" He was asking him back, and within half a minute, he sent another message, "Let's go to class well."

He pulled out a tissue, lowered his head to wipe away the tears that were about to overflow, raised his head to look at the beaming teacher on the podium, but couldn't listen to a word, only Zhixi's face was in his mind, and ten thousand swear words rushed through his mind.

We made an appointment to have dinner together at noon, but Liu Yiming couldn't eat at all now, and he didn't even want to see him.

Then let him dove.

After class, he walked quickly back to the dormitory.

Lin Zhixi called: "Where are you? I'll be waiting for you at the bridge..."

"I'm going back to the dormitory." His mind was disturbed by Lin Zhixi's voice, "I don't want to eat."

Lin Zhixi over there seemed to be stunned, neither of them said a word, just kept silent - he hung up the phone.

He didn't dare to ask him face to face, even if he heard his voice, he sent a message: "Why? Why do we have to break up?"

"I have already begun to regard you as a friend subconsciously." He quickly replied.

Crazy, subconscious!

"But I don't want to be friends with you." His roommates haven't come back yet, he doesn't know what kind of ugly posture he is sitting on the stool now, and the tears that he endured in the classroom just now have accumulated until now. Yes, it fell straight down with a "pat-pat--".

When was the last time you cried like this?It seems to be for him too.

"Then be a stranger." Liu Yiming was stunned when he saw that sentence, he didn't expect Lin Zhixi to be so ruthless, "I said I will bite my teeth this time."

Lin Zhixi seldom utters such words, but he is indeed the one who can say such words—"You have to believe, I'm not that good, and you don't love me as much as you think."

His heart was in a state of confusion, he only felt that his mind was in chaos, and an uncomfortable feeling ran through his limbs and bones, forcing him to be out of breath.He tapped on the keyboard, every time he struck his heart, "I didn't expect that I would love you so much now. I think you are already a part of my life, and it's hard to let go."

Liu Yiming pressed the "Send" button and suddenly felt ridiculous.

You have only been together for three months, and you are talking about "how deep is love" and "a part of life"?Do you think you are living in a campus novel with no brains?If you read these sentences yourself, you won’t believe them, and you don’t blame Lin Zhixi.

"I went through this stage of letting go earlier than you. It can be regarded as finding myself." When did this all happen?Liu Yiming didn't realize it.

"Since you're not happy, why are you still together?"

He sighed, only feeling an indescribable pain in his heart: "Aren't we happy together?"

Lin Zhixi replied several times.

"is my problem."

"I'm not happy."

"I really can't fall in love."

"I don't have feelings for you anymore, you know it clearly."

All right.He sneered in his heart, pretended not to care, let out a long sigh of relief, closed his eyes, his mind was full of that person's face, his natural curls, and all kinds of smiles.The moment he opened his eyes, he kept hinting in his heart that "it's nothing" and "it's nothing", and he blocked and deleted all his contact information as if he broke up for the first time two months ago.How cool and unrestrained, this series of movements are so smooth and flowing, as if he never took this person or this relationship to heart, and he didn't even bother to stay for a second—let alone be sad.won't be sad.

Then, are you a little hungry?Then go out and have lunch.

He didn't have class all afternoon, he remembered that Lin Zhixi's class was full.Lying in the dormitory with nowhere to go, his roommate played games with mic, wishing that his voice would be in direct proportion to his skills, and the heart-piercing noise made his brain ache.He packed a few books indiscriminately, picked up his bag and hurried to the library.

Can't read a single word.

He put the book aside and lay down on the table.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he remembered that at this time last week, the two of them had made an appointment to study together in the library.He was not feeling well that day, and he became sleepy after reading for a while, and fell asleep on the table for a while.After sleeping for more than an hour, it was quite comfortable, but my arms were sore and numb from the pillow.When she woke up and raised her head, Lin Zhixi looked down at him with a smile on her face.

And today...

When she woke up and looked up, the girl sitting opposite was biting the cap of her gel pen, frowning at the fourth-level questions.

Looking at the time, he calculated that he had only slept for less than half an hour.

Just now I dreamed about Lin Zhixi.

He smiled at him in the dream, as bright as when we first met three months ago.