burning heart

Ji Ranxin and Qin Yi sat at the square table facing each other to eat.

The food was prepared by Ji Ranxin's mother before, and the taste is the same as Ji Ranxin's childhood habits, but under this environment, I still feel that it is a bit different when I eat it in my mouth.

Qin Yi didn't say anything, just ate with his head down.

Ji Ranxin put down his chopsticks, leaned forward slightly, and said, "I went to your school to look for you."

Qin Yi paused for a moment.

Ji Ranxin continued: "I went to your school, only to find out that as long as you don't answer my calls or return my messages, I don't know where to find you. I have also been to the classroom for self-study, and I haven't seen you for a few days .”

Qin Yi finally looked up at him, "What do you want me for?"

Ji Ranxin said softly: "Brother Yi, are you angry?"

Qin Yi said, "Why are you angry?"

Ji Ranxin said to him: "I'm afraid you will beat Qu Hao to death."

Qin Yi also put down his chopsticks, "How long have you known Qu Hao?"

Ji Ranxin replied: "For more than ten years, we have known each other since we were very young."

Qin Yi said: "Why did you come here? It's not a good school."

Ji Ranxin said: "My grades are only in this kind of school."

Qin Yi didn't seem to agree with this answer, he said: "I thought about it, the biggest possibility is that you came after Qu Hao."

Ji Ranxin was silent.

After the two of them finished their meal, Ji Ranxin took the initiative to wash the dishes.

Qin Yi went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when he came out he was wearing a loose T-shirt, the color of the pattern on it was washed out.

He went back to his room, turned on the computer that had not been used for a long time, and played games for a while.

When Ji Ranxin came into the room after taking a shower, Qin Yi turned off the computer, hugged the quilt and pillow on his bed, and said to Ji Ranxin, "I'll sleep on the sofa, you should have a good rest at night."

Ji Ranxin's hair was still wet, his cheeks were flushed, and he sat on the edge of the bed and looked up at him.

They had dinner late, so Qin Yi lay down on the sofa and didn't bother to turn on the light, and played with his phone for a while in the dark.

The room was very quiet, and Ji Ranxin didn't make a sound.

It was almost eleven o'clock, Qin Yi threw the phone aside, pulled up the quilt to cover half of his face, only opened a pair of always cold eyes in the dark.

When the mobile phone screen is on, the living room seems to be dark, but once it is turned off, the surroundings become brighter.The curtains of the windows were not drawn, and the light from the street lamps in the community came in, and the warm yellow hue reflected the outline of every piece of furniture.

Qin Yi looked at the crystal pendant of the old-fashioned chandelier on the ceiling without blinking.

Suddenly, he heard slight footsteps in the silence, the people in the room were wearing slippers, walking gently on the floor, pushed open the door and entered the living room.

Qin Yi closed his eyes and lay motionless on his back.

Footsteps came all the way to the sofa and stopped in front of him.

After a while, Qin Yi felt a soft touch on his forehead, accompanied by a slight breath patted on his hair.

He couldn't continue pretending to be asleep, opened his eyes, and saw Ji Ranxin squatting beside the sofa, his eyes were also smudged with a warm bright yellow, looking at him close to his face.

Qin Yi looked at him.

Ji Ranxin said softly: "Brother Yi, I came after Qu Haokao, because I hadn't seen you at that time."

Qin Yi didn't speak.

Ji Ranxin leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek, and then on the lips, like a touch of water, "Qu Hao likes women, have you forgotten?"

Qin Yi said blankly: "I used to like women too."

Ji Ranxin kissed his neck and Adam's apple, "But I like you."

Qin Yi lay on his back, looking down at him.

Ji Ranxin lifted Qin Yi's quilt, and pulled up his crumpled old T-shirt to reveal a flat abdomen with clear lines. He lowered his head and kissed it, starting from the navel, and leaving a light and warm kiss all the way down .

Qin Yi looked at him blankly.

Until Ji Ranxin pulled down his pajama pants and underwear together, and lowered his head, Qin Yi suddenly got up, stretched out his hand to pinch Ji Ranxin's jaw, and raised his face, "No."

Ji Ranxin's lips and eyes were slightly red, he was breathing a little short of breath, he was forced to raise his head slightly, and looked at Qin Yi with moist corners of his eyes.

Qin Yi said, "I want to think about it."

With doubts in Ji Ranxin's eyes, he pursed his lips: "What are you thinking? When you kissed me that night, didn't you think clearly?"

Qin Yi didn't answer this question, but asked, "Have you slept with Qu Hao?"

Ji Ranxin was taken aback, and then replied: "No."

Qin Yi said: "So you prefer to have sex with strangers. If you met other people in that place that night, you can do it too, right?"

Ji Ranxin found that it was difficult for him to answer Qin Yi's question. His purpose from the beginning of the day was to ask a strange man out for sex.He was silent for a while, then asked, "Do you care about this?"

Qin Yi said "hmm", he pulled up his pants, and said to Ji Ranxin, "Go to sleep."

Ji Ranxin glanced at him, turned around and walked into the room.

When Ji Ranxin left, Qin Yi lay down on his back, covering his eyes with his arms.He breathed heavily as if there was not enough oxygen around him, and his head throbbed.

The words he said to Ji Ranxin are of course the reason for him not to move forward, but more, he is afraid of himself, as if a hand is dragging him into the abyss, and he does not hold on to the stone next to him tightly. , once it falls, it will never come back.

Time passed by, Qin Yi maintained his original posture and did not fall asleep, when he heard footsteps approaching again.

Ji Ranxin walked to the side of the sofa and said softly to him, "Brother Yi, I want to sleep next to you."

Qin Yi moved his arm away, and he saw Ji Ranxin squatting beside the sofa, his eyes gleaming with water.

Ji Ranxin said, "Do nothing."

Qin Yi watched him for a while, then silently lay on his side, leaning against the back of the sofa, and stretched out his hand towards Ji Ranxin.

Ji Ranxin faced him and lay on his side, put his arms around his waist, squeezed together with him on the narrow sofa, pressed his face against his chest, and said in a muffled voice after a while: "You don't have to What do you care about, I haven't done it with other men, you are the first."

At that moment, Qin Yi's breath tightened, as if he was being strangled by the neck, and pulled down forcefully.

He tried his best to reach out and grab the armrest of the sofa, his nails sank in, the pressure on his neck eased, and his breathing gradually became smoother.

Ji Ranxin closed his eyes and said, "If it's another man, I won't."