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A few days before Lin Xiaoyuan returned to China, the old man's illness suddenly deteriorated.

He fell asleep in the middle of the night and coughed up blood again. He couldn’t control his body and almost lost control of his body. The nurse rushed him to the hospital and called Zhuang Shihuai for rescue and examination.

But this time the old man came in, it might not be so easy to get out.

For the first two days, he was in a very bad spirit. He slept for more than twelve hours a day, and he seemed sluggish all of a sudden, and then gradually recovered.

Although the doctor had gently reminded Zhuang Shihuai before that conservative treatment is nothing more than psychological comfort, he had better be prepared, but Zhuang Shihuai was still very nervous, afraid of facing the departure of his relatives again, so he stayed in the ward almost every day. with.

One day, the old man's spirit improved obviously. He lay on the hospital bed and called Zhuang Shihuai over with a serious face, wanting to chat with him about the incident a while ago.

He asked Zhuang Shihuai to sit down on the accompanying chair beside him, but Zhuang Shihuai didn't listen, but just stood aside with his head down and his hands down, his nails digging deep into his palms.

In front of the old man were several stacks of photos and materials, all of which belonged to the girl.

All of them are talented and beautiful, and come from a wealthy family background.

Just imagine, if one day, one of them could stand beside Zhuang Shihuai, that would be a well-matched couple, and everyone would be happy.

Zhuang Shihuai had a vague premonition about the long conversation that was about to begin.

The pungent medicine in the ward mixed with the cold sound of medical equipment coming and going in the corridor outside, made the atmosphere of this conversation depressed to the bottom.

"A while ago, I knew everything about you and Kaikai.

It's also my fault. The old man is old, deaf, blind, and blind. "

After the old man said a few words, he had to stop to catch his breath.

He fell ill, and now he was hunched over on the bed and had to struggle to get up. He looked thin and lonely, as if he had aged ten years all of a sudden.

Zhuang Shihuai pursed his lips and went to help him rock the bed.

"I know you have already dealt with those things on the Internet, so the old man will just say a few more words and find you a few good marriages.

As long as you are married, the rest of the gossip will be gone. "

He pushed the photo in front of Zhuang Shihuai: "See if there is anyone you like among these people, if not, I will find it for you."

Zhuang Shihuai frowned: "No need."

For his answer, the old man didn't seem surprised at all, but his face was a bit ugly.

He paused, looked at Zhuang Shihuai calmly and asked, "Is there someone he likes?" Jump in.

Thinking deeper, if he already knew, there is a high probability that he would have found another person long ago.

Zhuang Shihuai felt a "thump" in his heart, and his uneasiness enveloped him like a dark cloud, which made his heart beat wildly.

He remembered that Lin Xiaoyuan's communication with him had suddenly dropped a few days ago; he remembered that Lin Xiaoyuan should have gotten off the plane this morning, but he didn't come to see him, and he didn't even make a phone call; he suddenly felt scared, unprecedented The powerlessness was like an invisible big hand pinching him out of breath.

Without a word he was about to leave.

But the old man asked from behind: "Where are you going?" "Something."

"You answer my question first, is there someone you like?" Zhuang Shihuai's hand on the sliding door trembled, and the feeling of suffocation returned. He slowly clenched his fingers and took a deep breath: "Yes, there is someone you like." people."

"I like it very much?" "I like it very much, I can't do it without him."

When he said that, he didn't see the indescribable expression on the old man's face behind him.

The next second, when Zhuang Shihuai forcefully opened the door of the ward, he met Lin Xiaoyuan's ecstatic eyes.

In the ecstasy, there is also a touch of deep pain.

"What did you say?" Zhuang Shihuai's head went blank, and he stared into Lin Xiaoyuan's eyes in astonishment, thinking that he had hallucinations, and even the simplest four words that the man uttered changed instantly. It's hard to understand.

Lin Xiaoyuan said, "I'm leaving."

Walk?where to goschool activities?Or go on a trip?how long?When are you coming back?A series of questions popped up, before Zhuang Shihuai had time to respond, Lin Xiaoyuan leaned against the wall and repeated again: "Brother, I'm leaving."

Zhuang Shihuai opened his mouth, and asked numbly, "What do you mean?" Lin Xiaoyuan always carefully avoided his eyes, stared at the floor quietly and said, "I'm going to leave for a while, to do something that must be done."

Now Zhuang Shihuai understood, his whole body seemed to be infiltrated by the cold sea water bit by bit, the cold made him ache from heart to head.

"How long?" "I don't know..." "What's the matter?" "I can't tell."

"I can't do anything...here!" Zhuang Shihuai grabbed his collar, pushed Lin Xiaoyuan to the wall, and almost yelled at him.

Lin Xiaoyuan raised her eyes to look at him: "This time it really won't work."

He had to force himself and put himself at a dead end, so that he could deceive the enemy by creating the illusion of their separation, grow up quickly, and learn the skills to protect the person in front of him.

"Have you thought it through?" Lin Xiaoyuan pursed her mouth into a straight line, and said with a sullen face, "I'm sorry, brother, give me some time."

Hearing Lin Xiaoyuan repeatedly saying I'm sorry, Zhuang Shihuai suddenly smiled: "Do you know that I rushed out just now to ask you what to say?" Seventeen or eight knives were cut in my heart.

Lin Xiaoyuan's face paled little by little, he was holding onto the wall behind him tightly so that he would not slip down.

"I want to tell you, Lin Xiaoyuan, I like you, let's be together."

Zhuang Shihuai was in the ward before, the moment he realized that the old man might have gone to Lin Xiaoyuan, he felt an unprecedented fear of losing everything. He thought that the old man had really used all means and conditions to talk to his young man He couldn't even imagine how Lin Xiaoyuan would be threatened to let go, as long as he thought of his little Tangyuan looking helpless, he would be extremely tormented.

At that moment, Zhuang Shihuai finally understood how cunning and ridiculous he was when he hesitated before.

Although, he also cared about his relatives, but he really wanted to show his cards against him desperately once, desperately to be brave.

But he didn't expect fate to make a big joke with him.

Trembling, Zhuang Shihuai tore off the necklace on his chest, and threw it on Lin Xiaoyuan: "Liar!" He turned and left, but was grabbed by Lin Xiaoyuan again: "I will be back, brother, can you wait for me?" Can you wait? wait for me?Many years ago, Lin Xiaoyuan also asked him in the same tormented and longing tone - can you wait for me?I'll grow up soon, don't think about others, okay?Zhuang Shihuai didn't return to him, he just broke free from his hand and entered the ward without looking back.

Behind her, Lin Xiaoyuan stared at the closed door of the ward for a long time, her hands curled up by her side secretly.

When Zhuang Shihuai slowly drifted back to the ward, his face was pale, his eyes were out of focus, as if he was still trapped in a huge nightmare and hadn't woken up.

"You already knew, didn't you?" He asked the old man, clenching his teeth to suppress the sourness in his nose.

The old man was silent, and after a while he said, "He came to me first, do you want to know what he did?" Zhuang Shihuai looked over after a long time.

The old man sighed, leaned his back on the pillow and closed his eyes: "This kid knocked his head three times to me."

"He said he was sorry for me and led you astray, but he didn't regret it, and he wouldn't back down, so he came to apologize."

Zhuang Shihuai pressed the corners of his eyes and felt the slippery hands.

Later, Lin Xiaoyuan really moved away, pulled a small suitcase, and emptied out all the traces of his life in the house.

The closet was suddenly half empty, the towel rack was empty, the living room would no longer have socks and pants flying all over the sky, and he took that stupid dog with him.

How cruel.

Zhuang Shihuai thought.

In the beginning, he naively thought that Lin Xiaoyuan would come back occasionally to take a look, and even if he didn't come back, he might hide in a corner and watch him secretly, so Zhuang Shihuai always went to the window to look downstairs from time to time, when he went to work, and when he got off work. He also looked at it when he got home, he wanted to try to find that familiar car, and he wanted to see the man standing by the car door, holding out his hand to him while smoking a cigarette and saying, come, give him a hug.

But every time I looked over, the downstairs was empty.

Lin Xiaoyuan's phone has been shut down, and all social platform contact methods are invalid, so the location that the two of them have linked to each other before does not count. Zhuang Shihuai guessed that he may have changed his phone number.

This kind of completely disconnected attitude, as if eager to erase Zhuang Shihuai from his life, is too hurtful.

Zhuang Shihuai began to suffer from insomnia all night long, and reason told him that Lin Xiaoyuan was no longer the kid who followed him around in the past, he was an adult, he had his own logic in doing things, and he had the right to make his own choices, he said, he should go believe.

But emotionally, Zhuang Shihuai still couldn't help being disappointed, couldn't help complaining, Lin Xiaoyuan, didn't you say that he would always appear when I needed it?you liar!After Lin Xiaoyuan left, Zhuang Shikai couldn't find any useful materials to threaten Zhuang Shihuai, and he more or less calmed down. He felt unwilling but still stared at him, dormant like a beast, but he didn't know that the mantis catching cicadas Of course, he didn't know the reason why the sparrow was behind. As he stared at Zhuang Shihuai, someone was quietly watching him from behind.

That year, Lin Xiaoyuan successfully entered the University of California to study finance.

He runs back and forth between the school and the dormitory at two o'clock every day. When he is free, he will go to the boxing gym to box. Day after day, he does not meet new friends or participate in any entertainment activities. People often come to chat with him in the cafeteria and library. Ignore him, and live like an ascetic monk. All the focus of his life is to study.

For this reason, he even put up with the unpalatable meatloaf, mashed potatoes and chicken in the university cafeteria.

Occasionally, Lin Xiaoyuan would also take out the small notebook that she carried close to her body, and caress it carefully.

Everyone was very curious about what secrets were hidden in this book, which made this cold school girl show such an astonishingly gentle expression only at such times.

There seemed to be water between the brows and eyes, and it was about to drip when she moved.

In that year, Lin Xiaoyuan celebrated his first lonely 19th birthday; in that year, he was alone in the United States with no relatives; in that year, he really grew up.

Do you see how I kneel to the standard? In that way, short-term results will be achieved, which is suitable for emotional 1V1 people like them.