Self-illness

"Today is Saturday, and tomorrow is Sunday. Kou is going to see Shisan again." Xu Mi likes to go out for a walk in the middle of the night, and no matter whether Chen Yi falls asleep or not, he always calls her to keep her company.

Sometimes Chen Yi almost hangs up the phone and refuses. Today is considered lucky, and he came out early to accompany her after get off work.

Although Chen Yi knew the relationship between Xu Mi and Kou Guaiguai, he didn't quite understand it: "Would you mind?"

"Mind what?"

Xu Mi asked, and immediately answered himself: "Mind if she treats Shisan well? I really hope that I will feel that strange feeling, and I also really want to be like an awkward woman, hysterical because of jealousy."

The two were silent with each other, the weather has completely entered the winter, but the winter in the south does not have the snowflakes all over the sky to set off the arrival of winter, the green plants on the roadside are dark green, only the wind is saying that winter is cold.

"Why don't I have these feelings, I just don't think it's a big deal."

Chen Yi probably understands what Xu Mi wants to express, but he is not sure that he really understands it: "Maybe it's just that the timing is wrong, some people have a lack of emotion in themselves, and they can't behave naturally like ordinary people."

"I will like the blue sky and white clouds, but I don't understand the feeling of liking someone."

"Don't you like Kou Guaiguai?" Chen Yi still didn't understand Xu Mi's meaning.

Xu Mi didn't even think about it: "I like it, how could I not like it, I like you too, I like Amu, I like Octopus, I like it out of interest, I want to be close, and there is pleasure, but I don't feel it. The love that others say. Just like I am with you now, I will feel happy, but tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, I may not remember this feeling of liking, I just feel that I know you all."

With the wind blowing through his hair and scalp, Chen Yi shrank his neck: "It's just that they are relatively indifferent to feelings, and many people are like this."

"I don't want to be like this. I like to love deeply and thoroughly."

Chen Yi shook his head: "Did you read too many novels or TV series?"

"Probably, I just want a very passionate relationship, can you be saved?"

Xu Mi leaned over and held Chen Yi's hand limply, and leaned on her shoulder: "Actually, it's a pity that you don't like women. I think you are very comfortable. You don't have the hypocrisy of a little woman, and you don't have any Feminist, not paranoid, and rational. Speaking of it, it still belongs to my ideal type."

After getting in touch with him a lot, Chen didn't reject Xu Mi's intimate gestures, and was basically indifferent to her teasing: "Tell me about you and Kou being good."

"say what?"

"For example, how did you get to know each other? Don't you bother with each other's other emotional activities at all?" Chen Yi expressed incomprehension about their bed partner relationship. After all, Kou Kuaiguai and Xu Mi are more rational people in her eyes. It's just that her usual words and deeds don't look like a promiscuous woman at all.

Xu Mi thought for a while: "I didn't say that?"

"Maybe I said it, but I don't have a deep impression." Chen Yi confessed truthfully, she couldn't remember if she had heard it.

"Anyway, that's how we met. You know, she had a big shaved head. I didn't want to pay attention to her. I've seen a lot of short haired heads. It's the first time I've seen her shaved like a girl. .”

Xu Mi took out the smoking set from his coat pocket and lit a cigarette by himself, and handed over the cigarette box to Chen Yi symbolically, but was rejected by Chen Yi again and put it in his pocket: "And she can play the piano and sing, especially when she sings Songs she wrote herself."

Xu Mi took a deep breath, and then exhaled white round smoke rings into the air one after another: "This is the first night I met her, she taught it, it's cool, anyway, I was attracted by her just like that."

"So you had a relationship at that time, and you have maintained this relationship since then?"

"For interesting people, I usually don't want to have a relationship prematurely. I only want to confirm that the other party will only have a relationship with me and not have feelings before I identify her as a bed partner. Later, I feel that she seems no better than me. As much as you are dedicated, let’s start.”

Xu Mi took a puff of smoke and turned her head to look carefully at Chen Yi. When she spoke, a white puff of smoke leaked out from her lips, rising with her breath: "Why, you seem to be concerned about this kind of relationship today. very interested?"

"Just ask." Chen Yi turned his head, she was not used to the smell of smoke and Xu Mi's eyes suddenly became ambiguous.

"Hey, if you want to try, I don't mind being your first teacher."

Xu Mi was half-serious and half-joking: "You're old too, so you really shouldn't waste your good time. Do you know what it feels like when you get high?"

Chen Yi tried to change the subject: "It's too cold, let's go back."

"Especially when kissing with a woman, like this, standing very close, looking at each other, you can hear the heartbeat of the other person when you breathe, and your head will feel blank. Do you feel that you want to taste it and get closer? , the soft tongues will wrap around each other, and we will hug each other." Xu Mi leaned forward and hugged Chen Yi, and whispered softly in her ear, with a bit of panting in her voice, and the sound of hot breathing wandered past Chen Yi's ear .

Chen made up his mind and pushed her away: "Stop making trouble."

"No reaction, no blushing."

Xu Mi was a little frustrated: "Is it true that in your kind of work, the probability of frigidity is higher? I will ask Li Nuowen next time."

Chen Yi tightened his clothes: "Go back."

Xu Mi stopped behind her, watched her slowly walk away and called her suddenly: "Chen Yi."

Chen Yi turned around, and she saw Xu Mi turning around in place towards her: "Did you see anything special?"

Chen Yi looked at it seriously, and because the distance was a bit far away, he had no choice but to raise his voice and shout to Xu Mi: "No."

"Good night then."

Xu Mi waved his hand, pulled the scarf in his hand to say goodbye to her, Chen Yi was confused: "Good night."

While waiting for the elevator, I heard footsteps that sounded familiar. Chen Yi turned around and saw Chen Changdong. His walking rhythm and intensity always seemed to be a little different from others. He was unhurried and light: "Why did you come back so late today?"

"Well, I stayed late to deal with some hospital matters."

Chen Changdong turned around and asked Xu Mi who was still walking under the tree in the distance, "You seem to get along well."

"Fortunately, she lives nearby, so she can walk around more." Chen Yi's mobile phone rang, she took it out and saw that she had received a text message but clicked on it

.

[I heard that if you like someone, even the wind will have color when you look at her, and when she moves, it will light up the whole world. 】

No wonder she suddenly turned around to show herself just now. Chen Yi felt that this kind of words were too exaggerated, so she replied to the text message: "Don't stay outside for too long."

"I rarely see you sending messages with others."

Chen Yi was a little helpless: "Usually you rarely see me yourself."

Chen Changdong suddenly smiled awkwardly: "That's true. But you were hugging Xu Mi just now, what's the matter?"

She didn't expect to be seen, this time it was Chen Yi's turn to be embarrassed, she chose not to explain: "It's okay."

"Well, but I know she is a very casual woman, don't get too close, keep a proper distance." When Chen Changdong said this, his expression was serious, and Chen Yi habitually hummed to express his response.

Back home, Chen Yi first poured a glass of water for Chen Changdong and then entered the room. She was somewhat repulsed by Chen Changdong's evaluation of Xu Mi, but she couldn't explain clearly what kind of woman Xu Mi was.

She hated Xu Mi's waywardness, curiosity, and a lot of questions, but after more contact, she felt that Xu Mi was just too lonely, and her intelligence did not allow her to be vulnerable. She tried her best to find a reason for everything. Answers and explanations to frame your own world, lest you lose your walls and wander in the boundless world.

She is not really pregnant, she just enjoys the warmth and needs comfort. Chen Yi's heart beats up and down with faint gasps. Recently, she seems to be too immersed in fantasies about women, so that she keeps He was forcing himself to think of nothing, sitting cross-legged in front of the window and counting his breaths with his eyes closed.

After hearing the knock on the door, Chen Yicai stood up and saw Chen Changdong standing at the door. He never entered her room: "Tomorrow, take some time to visit Tang Xiaxia, she is Shisan. The reason why she got sick last time has nothing to do with playing. , there must be other influencing factors that made her start to doubt herself."

"I'll go and have a look after work one day, and Kou Guaiguai should be there too."

"Yes, I told her."

Chen Yi was taken aback for a moment: "Have you been in constant contact with Kou Kuaiguai?"

"Recently." Chen Changdong said and took it to the door.

Everything seemed inconceivable, Chen Yi was a little annoyed and couldn't think of a clue, she chased into the living room, just as Chen Changdong closed the door of the study, she turned the doorknob without knocking: "Why do you care so much about Kou Kuaiguai?"

"What?" Chen Changdong just sat down, and was a little surprised when he heard the question that popped up suddenly: "I've known her for a long time, and watching her grow up will naturally be better than treating other patients."

"Is she really a patient in your eyes?"

"What do you want to ask?"

Chen Changdong opened the folder on the table with a cold face: "I do have selfish intentions, I hope you can take care of her more, because she is my friend's daughter, and for me, she is a patient who has been with me for a long time, so I will Some feelings, if you don't want to get in touch with her, I won't force you."

Chen Yi didn't ask any more questions and closed the door.

In her eyes, Chen Changdong is not such a person, there must be some other reason, the pile of information is simply an irrelevant cover.But what is it? Chen Yi felt dizzy because he couldn't find a clue.

Is it related to Kou Kuaiguai's mother?But Chen Changdong never mentioned this kind of friend before.

Chen Yichang took a deep breath and decided to take a shower and go to bed first.

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