Self-illness

Kou Guaiguai and Shisan were in the back seat of Chen Yi's car, Amu chose Xu Mi's car with Octopus to drive at the front, and Xu Nuowen drove at the back alone.

Originally Octopus wanted to share the car with Kou Guaiguai, but everyone chose to avoid Kou Guaiguai's uncharacteristic expression.

Thirteen, on the other hand, seemed to be in a good mood all the time, looking out the window in surprise, but his hands kept holding Kou Guaiguai tightly.

"Don't you smoke?"

Chen Yi tried to find some words to ease the tense atmosphere in the car.

Although Kou Guaiguai's expression gradually relaxed due to the communication with Shisan, she could still tell that the brows were not frowning: "No smoking."

The car drove all the way out of the city. The pale and dull winter made the outside scenery gloomy. Thirteen seemed extremely excited, and she scratched the window glass with her hands from time to time, leaving light and faint finger marks. She was smiling. He said: "Look there is a paddy field. There are also white birds."

"Yeah." Kou obediently spoke to Shisan always very gently, she looked at her side clothes, and she said: "There are buffaloes here."

"Chen Yi, where are we going?" Thirteen suddenly asked Chen Yi, friendly and happy.

Chen Yi couldn't help observing her expression in the rearview mirror. There was nothing strange or sick. Is this the same Tang Xia from before?

Chen Yi said: "I don't know either, Xu Mi in the car in front didn't say anything, just let her go."

"I think Sister Xu Mi looks really good."

Shisan squinted her eyes happily and turned her head to Kou obediently and said, "Yes, her hair is so long, but obediently she is also pretty."

Unknowingly, the car turned into the forest area, got on the rough concrete floor, and drove further and further inside.

It seems that Xu Mi didn't intend to pull them into the city's booze, the car finally stopped by the lake with a wide view.

After getting out of the car, the mountain wind blowing across the lake was blowing head-on, Chen Yi shrugged his shoulders and tightened his coat tightly.

Winter in the south is here.

Thirteen still maintained his high spirits, got out of the car and greeted everyone.

Kou obediently approached Chen Yi's side, and the smile that he had been dealing with Shisan slowly faded, and there was helplessness in his voice: "You asked her last name, I think you probably guessed who she is."

"Well, she was mentioned in the information about you." Chen Yi reviewed the fragment about Shisan in the information, or it should be Tang Xia.

In the winter of 17 years old, Kou obediently said that she lost Tang Xiaxia.

"I dare not let her try too many new things, and I dare not expose her to old things. Try to let her repeat the same life day after day."

Kou Kuaiguai finally took out the cigarette, and in the cold wind, tried several times before lighting it up: "I'm very afraid that she will suddenly change and become a stranger."

Chen Yi didn't quite understand Kou Guaiguai's words.

Xu Mi and the others have already started laying out a blanket, and laid out the scattered snacks and some exquisite cooking utensils in the car.

Li Nuowen became the most capable little brother, and was commanded to run back and forth. When he saw two chatting standing here, he didn't forget to say hello: "You two, don't try to be lazy."

"Hey, come here quickly." It was Thirteen who shouted, she had already participated in the fun of several people and got along well.

The octopus ran over, cautiously, and said with a small mouth: "Hey, you're not angry, are you?"

"What do you think?"

Chen Yi patted the octopus to comfort her and said, "Have fun, she won't be angry."

Kou Guaiguai didn't intend to cooperate: "How do you know I'm not angry?"

Octopus stuck out its tongue: "She is a doctor who specializes in human psychology and brain, she must have seen through you."

Chen Yi has become accustomed to this kind of misunderstanding, and sometimes he feels that what others say is really similar to that. No protest means anything, and he goes to Xu Mi and his group to see if there is anything else that needs his help.

Everything is ready, it seems like a lot of good things.

In addition to a biscuit, salty and spicy appetizers and other small snacks, there is a lot of meat piled up in a white plastic box next to it. Chen Yi took a closer look and found that chicken, duck, beef and mutton were all available, and he was inconceivable for Xu Mi's appropriateness: "These Is it the lunch you're waiting for?"

"It's ready for barbecue."

Amu is quite satisfied with the current arrangement. With the big shawl removed, she now wears a thin long-sleeved upper body: "Xu Mi has prepared everything, even the ice cubes for the town wine, isn't it amazing?" ?”

"It looks good."

The things to be done have been almost prepared. Everyone's opinion is to walk around first when you first come, and look at the surrounding scenery.

Amu was not very interested in the scenery of lakes and mountains, so he threw himself on the blanket wrapped in a scarf and complained: "I am a person who opens a shop until two o'clock in the morning. How can you be either a student or a high-level employee like you? It's trivial to make some money." , anyway, I have to sleep for a while, and wait to get up to eat meat."

Shisan took Kou Kuaiguai and walked to the lake with everyone.

Li Nuowen moved his arms that were carrying heavy objects back and forth just now, sweating profusely on his head: "This place should be good for fishing in spring and summer."

"Don't be lazy, you haven't used what you've prepared." Xu Mi didn't intend to let Li Nuowen go, Cui urged him.

Li Nuowen wiped his sweat before responding: "Oh, that's right."

He turned to Chen Yi again and said, "There will be something interesting in a while."

The octopus also ran away with Li Nuowen.

Only then did Xu Mi try to talk to Kou obediently: "It's not bad here, I often come here to relax by myself, but it's usually at night."

Facing the dark lake?

Chen Yi was baffled by Xu Mi's way of distracting his mind. This kind of psychological behavior was too extreme.

"It's not bad." Kou coped obediently, but he didn't show any joy or anger.

"I love it here."

Thirteen ran to the lake and squatted in front of the water, gently touched the water surface, shattering his own face in the reflection: "The water is icy, slippery, and there are many birds' sounds."

"It's winter now, less. In other seasons, there are so many birds, and there will be many small flowers growing by the lake." Xu Mi squatted beside Shisan and played with her in the water, looking at her sweet and peaceful face. Face asked: "Is there any place that Shisan particularly likes to go?"

The movements of Thirteen's hands began to slow down, and the smile on his face also gradually subsided.

Chen Yi noticed this change and realized that thinking and remembering would change Shisan's mood.

"Thirteen, look, I picked up a stone."

Kou Kuaiguai suddenly called Shisan, holding an inconspicuous small stone in his hand.

Thirteen didn't answer Xu Mi, and turned to pick up what was in Kou Kuaiguai's hand: "There are many such stones here."

"I just like this kind of non-special stone." Kou quibbled obediently, while looking at Xu Mi lightly.

Xu Mi is a smart woman, she quickly understood something, she retreated to the bank and stood beside Chen Yi: "She is willing to give in and bring Shisan out, it should be the reason why she saw you."

"That's right." Chen Yi himself didn't know what to do, and he didn't know what he could do to help Shisan.

"Thirteen, what kind of symptoms are these?"

"Selective amnesia, and multiple personalities." Chen Yi sighed. She didn't know what Shisan's other personalities were like, but she confirmed that the current Thirteen was another personality of Tang Xia, and Tang Xia herself should be A depressed personality, and perhaps some other personalities.

Xu Mi half understood: "How do you know that she has selective amnesia?"

"Kou obediently concealed her existence on purpose, and when you asked her the question just now, she obviously couldn't remember it, so she only remembered part of the things, and too much thinking and triggering of memories would cause her to have bad memories. feeling."

Chen Yi watched Kou obediently chatting with Shisan with a doting face, but felt very uncomfortable in his heart: "It is really hard work to make such a person happy."

If Tang Xia began to suffer from the disease at the age of 17, would Kou Guaiguai have been by her side all these years?What about her family?Chen Yi couldn't help becoming more curious about the relationship between Kou Guaiguai and Tang Xiaxia.

"Try to restrain your curiosity, and don't provoke Thirteen anymore."

Chen glanced at Xu Mi who was in a daze: "What are you thinking now?"

Xu Mi, who was in a daze, said in a low voice, "I thought Kuaiguai was someone who didn't love anyone, just like me."

"Then, what do you think now?"

"It turns out that she has so much affection hidden in her heart. It's really sad."

Chen Yi noticed that the corners of Xu Mi's eyes were wet: "What are you sad about? Sad that Kou has someone you really love?"

"No. I just think that I have never loved deeply, nor will I love deeply, and I feel that my whole life is very empty." Xu Mi took a rather sad breath, and stared at Chen Yi in a blink of an eye, with a pitiful expression: "You Say, am I the kind who is incapable of love, that is, I just can’t fall in love with others?”

Neither science nor medicine can fully explain the term love, so Chen Yi shook his head: "I don't know."

In fact, why didn't she want to know what would make another person treat another person desperately?Even like crazy.

Li Nuowen fiddled with the shallow water beach area by the lake for a long time, calling for them to pass.

The octopus shouted excitedly: "It's great, we made a boat, and we can row the boat later."

"Looks like an inflatable boat?"

Chen Yi was a little surprised: "You have prepared these fun things for the past two days, right?"

"I attach great importance to this trip. As for me, I feel that life should not always be alone, and it should not always be alone. I sincerely want to live a good life. Some friends who walk around just feel that you They are all very good people, so we pulled them together." Xu Mi walked in front of Chen Yi, and when he said this, he looked very fragile, and his tone was flat: "I like to put good things, good people All get together and form the circle I want."

"pretty good."

Xu Mi turned around suddenly and forced a smile: "It's just that it's not always successful."

Chen subconsciously hummed, but didn't know how to comfort her, so he could only continue walking silently, pretending not to understand.

Everyone has their own role and life trajectory, even if they are sometimes intertwined, time will always wash away everything.

The only constant is that the starting point is life and the end point is death.

Xu Mi ran quickly, rushed towards the inflated steamboat, and fell into it all at once, she laughed loudly and said.

She was in the world, smiling so easily, but also lonely.

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