Self-illness

"I should have said nothing

The complete collapse of tenure

should be wandering far away

No longer nostalgic for the past and laughing at the past. "

Even though there was no applause, there were very few people among the scattered crowd listening to Kou obediently playing and singing, but she still insisted on holding the mic as usual, her eyes flashed psychedelic light in the slow rhythm.

At the nearest place to the singing stage, she saw Xu Mi who was offering a cup to her, and the two smiled to show each other's existence.

Finally finished the resident singing job, Kou obediently took a few steps and sat next to Xu Mi: "I haven't seen you for some days."

"Will you miss me?"

"All the time."

Xu Mi smiled disapprovingly. She could always ignore Kou's obedient one-liners without being moved: "Have a drink?"

"So if you are really my girlfriend, you are really unlucky." Kou obediently raised the mineral water in her hand: "You must drink water first after singing."

I don't remember how many times I have repeated this point with Xu Mi, but it seems that I have never paid attention to it. If it were an octopus, it would definitely not be the case.

Octopus always remembers all the little habits of Kou Kuaiguai.

"Did the song you just wrote for yourself?"

"almost."

But regarding Kou's obedient thoughts and words, Xu Mi can always explain them without any effort.Kou obediently took the wine glass in front of Xu Mi and took a sip: "Are you still looking for a job recently?"

"Go to work."

"Really?" Kou obediently didn't believe it: "Just got on?"

"It's been a few days." Probably hearing the meaning in Kou's obedient tone, Xu Mi replied: "This time I will stick to it and try to do it for a longer time."

There is no resentment at all, Kou obediently wonders what kind of job this is: "What do you do?"

"Helpers doing odd jobs in the cafeteria." Xu Mi took the wine glass and drank the remaining wine at the bottom of the glass: "There are a lot of interesting people."

Kou obediently suspected that she had heard it wrong: "You mean the cafeteria?"

"That's right, it's to help others prepare vegetables, cut vegetables, prepare vegetables, etc., and do hygiene."

Xu Mi continued to add golden wine to the glass, she looked dizzy whether she drank or not, Kou still doubted whether she drank too much at the moment: "That doesn't feel right for you, does it? "

"It's pretty good, at least it's more comfortable than reading data and processing documents all day." Xu Mi didn't care at all how unsuitable this job was for him.

It seems that it is still the same as before, playing cards not according to common sense, Kou has nothing to say.

While drinking, a short-haired T leaned down and shouted obediently at Kou amidst the loud music: "There's a man looking for you outside."

"What man?" Kou obediently couldn't remember what boy he had dealt with recently: "I don't know."

"He said it was your father."

Kou obediently licked the cup near her lips for a moment, then opened her lips slightly, and poured the entire cup of yellow liquid into her throat.

"Got it." She wiped Chi's warm lips with the back of her hand, stood up and walked towards the door.

With the help of the blinking advertisement lights, Kouguai could see a bald middle-aged man with a round belly from a distance, his glasses flickering with the smoke from his fingertips.

Seeing Kou obediently, he threw the cigarette butt in his hand to the ground and stamped it out, and then he didn't speak, just watching her step by step towards him.

The two stood looking at each other, silent, as if they were waiting for the other to speak.

"Your mother said she missed you." In the end, Kou Huguo admitted defeat and lit a cigarette again, as if to increase the heat of the film, he also handed Kou Kuaiguai a cigarette.

Kou obediently took it but didn't click on it, but clipped it to her ear: "Oh."

"When will you come home?"

"do not know."

"You can't live like this all the time, can you? Live in a mess." Kou Huguo tried his best to keep his tone calm, but his voice was still a little high: "How did you become like this?"

"I have always been like this, and I will still be like this in the future." Kou obediently behaved indifferently: "I worry about my own life."

Kou Huguo stomped out a cigarette butt again, and stood in the corner to hide the eyes of girls with long and short hair passing by from time to time: "Your mother had an accident while driving a few days ago, and she misses you every day in the hospital. want to see you."

It was rare for him to find this place, and Kou obediently put her hands in her trouser pockets, and her response should be cold and concise: "Yeah,"

"If she didn't read so well, I wouldn't bother to spend so much time looking for you." Kou Huguo took out a piece of paper from his pocket, and the muscles on his face still trembled from time to time: "If you still have something to eat, take a moment to read it." Look at her, if she really intends to break up with us, she'll be up to you, she's not bad for you."

Kou Huguo pulled Kou Guaiguai's hand, his thick palm felt a little callused, and his fingertips were hot. He stuffed the note into Kou Guaiguai's palm, then turned around and took off the glasses, wiped them in his hands and put them on again. After getting into the car, he turned a corner and disappeared from Kou Kuaiguai's sight.

Kou obediently stared at the crumpled note in his hand, put his fingers together, held it tightly, and then threw it into the corner.I heard that time will dilute everything, maybe I have to continue to wait, waiting for the day, there is a reason to let everything disappear.

Xu Mi suddenly appeared from the side, holding Kou who was about to go home alone, obediently: "I almost made you run away, I will stay at your place today."

"it is good."

"Because of what?"

"What, what?" The shadows of the two people under their feet were drawn long by the roadside lights, interlaced and superimposed, and the leaves rolled in the wind and scraped the ground, and a lonely voice was found.

"It's just that your personality should be a feeling of loving home, but it doesn't seem to be the case." Xu Mi hugged Kou's obedient arms a little bit, and leaned on her shoulder: "At least in my opinion, you belong to The one who knows how to take care of others must have some kind of Mao Dun."

Kou obediently chose to avoid the question: "Maybe."

"But no matter what the reason is, at least bear with it. At least a sick mother will be very fragile and will be the woman who needs you most."

Kou obediently lowered her head and searched for the key, Yiluo didn't intend to respond to Xu Mi, but today's key seemed to be oiled, it couldn't be inserted into the lock, and kept slipping past the edge.

In the end it was Xu Mi who took over, and said, "It just happens to be a good opportunity."

After entering the door, Xu Mi wanted to open her mouth to say something, but Kouaiguai turned her head and kissed her, her tongue was entangled and unable to speak. She absorbed Kouguaiguai's proficient kiss and softness, and couldn't help murmuring softly.

No, no, Xu Mi finally pushed Kou away obediently: "This is for you."

What she handed over was the note that Kou obediently threw in the corner earlier, with the name of the hospital, the ward number, and Kou Huguo's phone number on it.

Kou obediently has a headache, this Xu Mi is always too sensible sometimes, even in such ambiguous conditions, he still has to do what he wants to do, what he wants to understand, and only after he has sorted it out will he let go, so When she came up to ask for a kiss again, Kou obediently refused: "You don't have to be curious about my affairs."

"But you know I can't help it."

Kou obediently and silently pushed Xu Mi back two steps, closed the door, turned off the light, took off his clothes in the dark, went into the bathroom and adjusted the water temperature, let the steaming mist spray on his hair and on his cheeks Up, next to the ear, whatever goes down the water.

Liang repeatedly tossed and tossed on the bed until midnight, Kouaiguai finally turned on the light, stood up and went to the door to pick up the somewhat torn note and looked at it.

He didn't wear a bra either, and went out in a loose red T-shirt and gray sweatpants.

While waiting for the taxi, Kou obediently touched the goosebumps on her arms and shivered, and even pulled out her wallet without wearing a coat.Originally thinking about it, forget it like this, but the taxi stopped right in front of my eyes.

Along the way, Kou obediently folded her arms and looked at the window, her mind was full of the scene at home two years ago.

There were fragments of broken glasses on the ground, and bright red blood dripped down Kou Huguo's left hand: "I won't have a daughter like you, get out."

In this way, she left the unfamiliar home just because she was honest about her sexual orientation and her desire to live with Tang Xiaxia.

The taxi stopped at the gate of Nanhua No.1 Civilian Hospital.

In the middle of the night, the hospital was silent, and every beam of light was filled with a chill, Kouaiguai's goosebumps rose immediately after being touched, and her teeth chattered a little.

After asking the nurse on duty for directions, Kou obediently walked in the direction of the ward, the closer she got, the more upset her mind became.

I still remember that when I was young and frivolous, I once threatened that even if my parents who gave birth to me died, I would never be sad, because it felt so indifferent.But after all, she was young and said nothing, and after experiencing the baptism of time, everything proved that she could not be so meaningless.

Opening the door gently, I thought I wanted to see the sleeping person, but I saw that the patient in the ward was still chatting with someone.

"It's Guaiguai." The man who turned his back to him turned around and was surprised when he saw Kouguai, but soon smiled happily: "Your mother has been thinking about you."

Wang Yilan sat up straight on the bed, looked at the person she hadn't seen in two years, smiled with tears in her eyes: "Be good."

"it's me."

"Come here, come and sit here." Wang Yilan stretched out her hand, wishing she could get up and hold Kou obediently: "Your father found you."

Kou closed the door obediently, approached the bed, sat down on the stool next to her, raised her eyes and met Chen Changdong who was sitting in front of her: "Why are you here?"

"Oh, I just happened to be doing business here. I heard that your mother was hospitalized, so I came to have a look."

"I have work to do tonight."

What Kou obediently said casually made Chen Changdong a little embarrassed: "Yes, some old colleagues called over to meet.

"Why are your hands so cold, and you don't have any clothes on?" Wang Yilan took Kou's obedient hands and rubbed them non-stop: "People who don't even know how to take care of themselves have lost so much weight outside in the past two years."

Chen Changdong got up and took off the suit on his body and handed it to Kou Kuaiguai: "The temperature has dropped a lot today, it's cold outside, wear more."

Really couldn't hold it anymore, Kou obediently took the suit and put it on: "Thank you."

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