Heart-finding notice

"Xiaofan..."

I looked at my younger brother's soul, and let the tears overflowing from the corners of my eyes fall wildly.The more I recall the past, the more mysteries are solved, but the more sad it is.

"17 years old...Meeting you was the happiest time in my life."

The two pairs of eyes stared at each other silently. There were thousands of words they wanted to confide in, but in the end they could understand with just one look.Even if we are both crying, but at this moment I am 33 and you are seventeen, I am a living person, and you are a ghost.

There seems to be only a meter difference between us, but it is a distance that is hard for me to reach.

And you smell of reed flowers... because of those memories of playing by the lake, those times that proved our love for each other.

For many months, before I knew the whole truth, those were the most carefree days for me.

Sometimes, we play hide-and-seek in the reeds, but you say that I can't make you find me. I laugh at you unreasonably, but I don't realize the sense of security flooded by seeing you again.

Sometimes, you spend a lot of effort to catch the slippery fish in the lake, just to prove that you can also support me. I laugh at your naivety, but I don’t know the corners of my mouth that have already turned up and my psychologically sweet taste.

More often, we spent the whole afternoon lying in the reeds without talking, just feeling each other's heartbeat with the cool wind...

And the reed flower must be sacred and beautiful in my heart.

He took a deep breath, regained his voice, and tried his best to hold back the sore nose that kept coming up.

"How did I fall out with grandpa...?"

"I'm sorry Xiaofan... At that time, I only wanted you to stay by my side, so I couldn't help but want to tell you the truth..."

I looked at him with red eyes, with crystal tears hanging from the corners of my eyes, and the feeling of headache struck again.

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"Master and Madam are going on a trip. We can secretly go home and live. We are very happy." Luo Yu danced and danced on the edge of the playground. Ling Zifan panted to wipe away the dripping sweat. He hated physical education class the most.Probably the only thing to be happy about is being able to appreciate the basketball captain Mu Zichen's heroic appearance on the court.

"Xiaofan, what did your father tell you?" Taking the water bottle from his brother, Mu Zichen came back from the sidelines and drank it.Ling Zifan stared at the empty hand for a while before realizing what the other party was talking about.

"He said... my biological parents sold them to him because they couldn't afford to raise two children at once."

"Don't you think it's strange? Why did the Ling family spend a lot of money to buy an unrelated child for no reason? Besides... In fact, if there was no buyer at that time, my parents said they would give up their careers and concentrate on raising us."

"Maybe he wants a child very much?" Luo Yu interjected while opening the snack, but Ling Zifan knew it wasn't, because his father hated him so much that it was hard for him to believe that he wanted a child.

"It wasn't him, it was Xiaofan's grandfather. At that time Ling Yu's wife passed away due to dystocia, but his grandfather had been looking forward to that child for a long time. At that time, he had tuberculosis, and his mood easily affected his condition, so..."

Mu Zichen paused, because the boy in front of him was staring at him blankly, his eyes seemed to lose focus.

"Xiaofan, are you okay? I just thought it was necessary to let you know." Mu Zichen worriedly touched the other person's head, and such soothing gestures had unconsciously become a habit.

"I'm fine..."

The bell rang for class, but Ling Zifan kept playing what he had just heard in his mind. He was eager to get his grandfather's personal testimony.

"You're back, how are you doing today?" The old man asked as he sat on the rocking chair with a kind face and put down the newspaper in his hand.

"Grandpa...it's all your fault."

"What's the matter? I didn't eat your red shrimp, it's still in the refrigerator."

"Have you always wanted to have a grandchild?"

Grandpa nodded, and another man walked out of the room, staring at him indifferently.Ling Zifan ignored the warning in his father's eyes. At this moment, all he could think of was anger and the fatherly and motherly love that he had missed all these years.

"It's all your fault, if you didn't want kids that much, I wouldn't be sold!"

Grandpa's shocked and hurt eyes reflected in his eyes.Bloodshot slowly crawled up his eyes, Ling Zifan stared at the family he once regarded as everything.

"Ling Zifan! How did you talk to grandpa? Let me tell you, even if I didn't buy you back then, you would have been sold elsewhere! Do you think it's so easy for your biological parents to give up their careers? A rebellious son can get the entire consortium and status , who wouldn't want it!"

Ling Zifan stared blankly at what his father said to him was so worthless, and didn't understand what he did wrong.

"Where do you say that you are not satisfied? You are given the best food, accommodation and clothing in the whole village, and you still have to complain!"

Frightened by his father's yelling, Ling Zifan, who was already obedient, lowered his head, his voice lost the momentum just now, but was full of grievances.

"You've never heard what I'm trying to say... How many times have you looked at me straight since I became conscious? Why should I pay for your actions with my frightened childhood!"

"If you don't want to live here, get out! Think you are rare, if it didn't happen suddenly at that time..."

"Ling Yu!"

Grandpa severely stopped the words that continued to scrape layers of flesh from his heart, Ling Zifan clenched his hands on both sides of his body, tears slid down his drooping eyes.

"Xiaofan, listen to grandpa..."

"My biggest wish in this life is to have an ordinary and warm home." Before the old man finished speaking, the boy left a sentence, picked up his schoolbag, turned and ran away.

"Xiaofan, Xiaofan, where are you going? Oh, what are you still doing here, go after him!"

"Let him make trouble, he will be back in a few days, it's because you dote on him too much..."

The voice of the words gradually disappeared with the distance, Ling Zifan took a step and ran wildly, fleeing the village and town that he once regarded as a treasure but now suffocated him.

Tears continued to flow until I stepped on a loose shoelace and fell down.Turning around and looking at the sunset in the west, the outline of the world seems no longer so obvious.