On the wedding show before the divorce

——You are about to hit the grass, come on, don't get so close, come to the safe place on Mom's side.

Sawyer didn't understand what was going on at all, and she even helped Ruan Youran pick the grass around her carefully. Ruan Youran looked at the two mothers and shook her head. The chili came into the house.

Sawyer narrowed his eyes and looked at Ruan Qiu blankly.

What's wrong with shredded pork?

In the room, the boiling hot red oil hot pot base was already full of fragrance, and Sawyer ate happily. She has a straightforward and free-spirited personality, and she doesn't stick too much. She quickly had a few drinks with the two mothers. became familiar.

Ruan Youran ate very little. She used to like spicy food, but she stopped eating it when she was with Chu Nian.Chu Nian is a light person, and his meals are even lighter, but he can eat with Chu Qing, and Ruan Youran consciously becomes lighter. At that time, Ruan Qiu was jealous for a long time. It was the elbow turned outward.

Ruan Qiu chatted with Sawyer a lot, she asked with a smile: "How did you become my cheap suitor?"

Sawyer turned to look at Ruan Youran with a smile when he heard the word "cheap", "You still have a nickname, Rousi? So cute."

Ruan Youran stared at the boiling material in a daze.

She remembered dating Chu Nian when she was in college. She wanted to eat boiled fish, so she ordered a large plate of Chu Nian and looked at her without eating. Let's go together, I won't have dinner with you later, it's meaningless at all."

Chu Nian raised his eyebrows: "Then who can you eat with?"

Ruan Youran deliberately teased her, and casually reported the name of a suitor. Chu Nian was startled when she heard this. She was silent for a while, then picked up chopsticks and started eating fish.

Ruan Youran was taken aback: "I'm just kidding with you."

Chu Nian's eyes were red from being hot, she looked at Ruan Youran: "I can do it."

Later... in the middle of the night, Chu Nian suffered from acute gastroenteritis and was dragged to the hospital for transfusion. Ruan Youran's intestines were all green. What made her most sad was that she had a cold, let alone such an acute inflammation. Both mothers had to be with her when she had a fever, but Chu Nian's mother just came in a hurry, asked the doctor, and paid the hospitalization fee. She turned to look at Ruan Youran: "Youran, Auntie has an important meeting tomorrow morning, so we can't delay it." , there are still a lot of materials that have not been prepared, you help Auntie look at Niannian."

Ruan Youran didn't know what it was like to hear it.

After Chu's mother left, Ruan Youran held Chu Nian's hand with red eyes and accompanied her. Seeing her frowning in pain, she swore from her heart that from now on, she would never eat spicy food again.

and then……

Ruan Youran did it.

ten years.

She really didn't eat any more spicy food.

Even now, that person no longer belonged to her, and when she could eat the peppers that she once loved, her stomach couldn't take it anymore.

This is probably a bitch...

Ruan Qiu and Suoya are still chatting, and Suoya is generous: "I saw the shredded meat in front of the beach of Crab Island. That night, the moonlight was very bright. When she talked to me, she was like Guanghan. A fairy from the palace."

Ruan Qiu smiled awkwardly.

The fairy who came down from the Guanghan Palace, Suoya probably didn't know that she was Chang'e, who used to be the heart of her family.

Sawyer held up his wine glass and recalled: "And her beauty is very distinctive, she is different from ordinary people. Rousi smiled at me at the time, but I felt tears and grievances in her eyes, which made me feel very distressed." Her heart beat so fast Powerful, "Makes me want to protect her."

Both Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing were silent.

Sawyer looked at Ruan Youran: "I know, there must be someone unforgettable in her heart, but it's okay, I can wait, who hasn't passed? No matter how big the barrier is, just walk out."

……

——No matter how big Kaner is, just walk out.

These words were simple but powerful. After a hot pot meal, Ruan Youran called Sawyer to her room, "Sawyer, I have something to tell you."

Sawyer smiled, her blue eyes were as clear as lake water, rippling with frightening waves: "I know, you want to reject me."

Ruan Youran looked at Sawyer in surprise.

Sawyer spread her hands: "Although I haven't been to China many times, I feel that many Chinese girls are very dedicated to their feelings, and it can even be said that they are pursuing a once-in-a-lifetime thrilling love." She hooked her lips: "But, meat Si, you can't get into a dead end, you have to learn to let go, just take it as a chance for yourself."

Ruan Youran was speechless. After a long time, she slowly lowered her head: "It's useless, Sawyer, I tried my best." Her voice was very light, but filled with infinite sadness: "I know, I can't forgive her, but I... also can't pull her out of my heart completely."

Sawyer suppressed her smile, and she looked at Ruan Youran distressedly.

She has always been good at seeing people.

I always feel that Rousi is very similar to her in his bones. He is obviously a very optimistic person, but now he has become so sad because of the past.

Ruan Youran: "We've known each other since we were young. I watched her walk all the way, and accompanied her from her parents' divorce, to her frustration in the college entrance examination, and then to her career in the entertainment industry... Just like you said, I love her dearly, and I have loved her for half my life."

Her voice was choked with sobs, and she had tried hard to control it, but she was still vulnerable: "When she was a child, her parents often quarreled, and even went to the company, and she would hide in the company's closet and cry secretly. My When I was looking for my mother, I saw her late, and I was only a little old at that time, but when we met for the first time, I felt very distressed. I helped her dry her tears and told her to be a good baby and don’t cry, and I will cover her from now on.”

The past is like dusty wine, with ripples.

Ruan Youran murmured: "Later, we went to elementary school, junior high school, and high school together... Even before high school, I thought that my feelings for her were just like sisters, until one day, I discovered the difference." She smiled wryly: "I was a person who bullied my classmates, bullied my teacher, and went to the house to expose the tiles. There was nothing I was afraid of. She was the only one who could make me surrender with a word and a look..."

Sawyer could not fully understand what she said, but the emotion in these words also made her heart ache.She had never experienced such feelings before, so she would not understand.

Ruan Youran untied the necklace with the ring from her neck, she looked at the faint luster on it, "I love her, I will never turn back, even if I am often caught by her who can't speak, like a dumb love, I will explode, and by her She was driven crazy by her incomprehensible flirting, and vowed to break up countless times, but I was never really willing to push her away..."

"Later, we were twenty, and I remember it very clearly. The moon was very round that day. She became popular in the entertainment industry because of the role of Chang'e, and she had countless suitors. I was losing my temper with her, and she suddenly hugged me from behind and gently hugged me. Kissing my ears." Ruan Youran smiled, tears rolling down her cheeks: "She told me that she finally felt that she could stand by my side, and finally she didn't feel inferior, she said she couldn't wait to have me, She wants to marry me. Even my bad temper, my childishness, and my princess disease, she said she loves them all... She doesn't want others to look at me more, and wants me to belong to her forever..."

Such a happy past, but precipitated under the taste of tears.

"On the day we received the marriage certificate, we laughed like two fools. For the sake of her future development, we chose to keep our marriage hidden from the outside world. I know that she has low self-esteem and insecurity since she was a child. Only when she is strong enough can she not Will be anxious... I don't blame her, she is different from me, she was alone since she was a child, she lived with her stepmother for a period of time at her father's place, and returned to her mother after being abused, but she also didn't get love , if I don't love her with all my strength, what should she do?..."

"We are very happy together, because we are young, I always want to change her, want to make her not so cold, know how to express the love in my heart, we have quarreled countless times, every time it is vigorous, even my two mothers never From the initial nervousness to the later numbness and habituation..."

"Later, we wanted a child, but God didn't give it to me. Both she and I were very sad, but I thought, we are the happiest if we have each other, aren't we? People shouldn't be greedy... She also gradually changed, and she would Talk to me and gradually learn to express your feelings... When everything turned around in the seventh year of our marriage, she suddenly started to be busy again... She told me that she signed a secret role and needed to be isolated from the world Shooting for three months..."

"It's not like this happened before." Ruan Youran wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, "I'm counting the days and sending her messages every day saying that three months seems to be three years... Heh." She laughed at herself She smiled: "I never imagined that she really just walked away for three years."

"When she just left, I was very angry. I called her day and night and sent messages... I thought she was playing with me, but...it didn't..."

Ruan Youran's eyes were full of heartbreak, "Six months... half a year... one year... I wake up every day and tell myself that this is the last day, if she doesn't come back tonight, I will never forgive her Yes, she must be severely scolded, and even pushed out of the house..."

"Time and time again, hope is broken, from being angry and begging to begging and then ashamed... I think she's going crazy thinking about it, hating her like crazy, but I can't tell anyone... I even want to If she really comes back, my two mothers, my friends, what if they don’t accept her... I started weaving dreams for myself to lie to myself..."

Ruan Youran bit her lip so hard that it was bleeding, "In the first two years before she left, I used her tone to send postcards to family and friends from all over the world, creating the idea that she would come back soon, but it was just going abroad. Studying is just the illusion of a small fight with me..."

"Later...maybe the lie was spread for too long, and I almost believed it myself. Until my 30th birthday, I used her tone to send postcards to my mothers. At that moment, I suddenly didn't know what I was doing. What..." Ruan Youran looked at Sawyer: "I can't take it anymore, I can't let myself go on like this anymore, I can't sleep all night, I have to rely on drugs to maintain my life, I look in the mirror, already I can't find my original self... I can't be so selfish, I still have family members... I can't help it... I deliberately revealed to reporters with a smile in many interviews that I am not young and want to find my other half , a message to connect everyone...I want to force her to show up..."

"She appeared..." Ruan Youran's eyes were empty, like a doll that had lost its soul, "But, Sawyer, I'm too tired and in pain... I can't describe our relationship for so many years in a few words. It can be said that I gave all my love to her in the first half of my life, so I have no way to forgive her, forgive her for leaving without saying goodbye... In the second half of my life, I also have no way to love anyone anymore, so I just want to find A deserted corner, silently licking the wound, alone... just fine."