revenge love

In less than 30 years of life, so far Han Jia's entire life, he has been waiting for death all the time.

Before the age of five, Han Jia woke up in this world every morning when he opened his eyes. One of the things he tried his best to do was to be mentally prepared that his mother might die today.

Mother, she is the only relative Han Jia has ever had in his life. Ever since Han Jia was sensible, he knew that the person he depended on would leave him soon and never return.

It was a serious heart attack, and no one knew which attack would take the patient's life.When Han Jia was three years old, he called the ambulance for the first time for his mother who suddenly fell to the ground. From the address of my home, the situation of my mother.

Of course, he never forgot the fear of death.

Every day he waited for death, and waited for it in terror.until that day—

That day, his mother fell to the ground again, and he wanted to make a call, but there was no sound from the receiver he picked up.Five-year-old Han Jia didn't know that it was his mother who cut the phone line, and he didn't know that it was his mother who locked the door. He beat on the door desperately to call for help, but the thunderstorm drowned out his voice. The phone line left him struggling in vain, so helpless.Many years later, Han Jia finally understood that his mother wanted to free him, so that he would not have to wake up every morning with the despair that today is the end of the world.He was only five years old at that time, he didn't know anything, because the room was pitch black due to the thunder and lightning, he couldn't do anything, he could only face the world cowardly and crying beside his mother who was getting colder.

After that, Han Jia became an orphan.

After he was sent to the orphanage, he never got a chance to leave.No one wants to adopt him, because no one wants to adopt a child with a congenital heart disease.

From then on, Han Jia began to wait for his own death.

If he cannot live longer than others, then he can only live faster than others in a limited time.

Han Jia, who grew up in an orphanage, skipped grades to complete her studies quickly.He came to university at the age of 17 on a full scholarship.Not long after enrolling, he began to work part-time as a tutor.

Kang Bingzhu was the second student Han Jia taught.When they first met, Han Jia really didn't like the boy Kang Bingzhu.Maybe that kind of emotion comes from jealousy. Han Jia, who was orphaned at the age of five and said to have nothing but congenital heart disease, has never had to work harder to obtain a little bit of happiness that ordinary people can easily get, and Kang Bingzhu is so blessed .He has parents who will never give up loving him no matter how mischievous he is, an easy-going personality that allows him to make many friends easily, and a healthy body that allows him to experience joy, anger, sorrow, joy and unbridled freedom without any worries. All the happiness is within his reach - however, he doesn't know how to cherish it.

He doesn't know how to appreciate everything he has with gratitude, squanders luck at will, doesn't make progress, and doesn't work hard.At that time, Han Jia thought, if he still had parents who loved and guarded him, he would never let them down, and he would repay his parents with the most attentive attitude towards life.Therefore, he didn't understand why Kang Bingzhu could let his parents down time and time again with his willfulness and stubbornness.

In his opinion, Kang Bingzhu is just a spoiled young master, relying on his own luck to waste his life there meaninglessly.So righteous and confident, I don't know how many people yearn for such happiness but can't ask for it.

He didn't bother to understand Kang Bingzhu, he simply used blows and deliberately belittled to stimulate the opponent's fighting spirit, so that this unyielding young man could shift his energy to study a little bit.

He never tried to get close to Kang Bingzhu. However, Kang Bingzhu inadvertently changed Han Jia's prejudice against him, which he didn't particularly care about.

Han Jia finally realized that Kang Bingzhu had a heart that could make him great.

The time that impressed Han Jia the most was when Kang’s father and mother Kang Bingzhu celebrated passing the first exam for Kang Bingzhu. They invited Han Jia to a certain hotel for dinner. Han Jia and Kang Bingzhu took the same elevator upstairs, only the two of them The elevator broke down, not only stuck in the middle of the way, but all the lights in the car were also extinguished.

Han Jia hates the dark.The darkness reminded him of that thunderstorm night, that night, he kept touching his mother's cheek while weeping, but what he felt in his palm was only the temperature getting colder and colder.

In the dark elevator, he began to tremble.At this moment, Kang Bingzhu suddenly turned on the lighter.

That was the first light that shone into Han Jia's dark world.

At that time, Han Jia pointed out that they would probably lack oxygen when the car was closed, but actually, he didn't want the light to go out at all.Kang Bingzhu showed a nonchalant smile behind the flames. "Are you shivering, are you afraid of the dark? If so, I'll laugh at you," he said, before adding, "But I'll laugh at you and protect you. So, nothing to be afraid of."

In retrospect, Han Jia should have fallen in love with Kang Bingzhu at that moment.Although he didn't realize it at the time.

It was Lu Fengtang's car accident that really realized how important Kang Bingzhu was to him.

At that time, Kang Bingzhu deliberately skipped Han Jia's class, and he sent a message to tell Han Jia that he and his friends were going to Tianlang Road to play.Han Jia had specially visited that place before, and there were indeed many teenagers who liked to skateboard on Tianlang Road, but Han Jia thought the terrain was too dangerous, and because of worry, he even managed non-teaching time and prevented Kang Bingzhu from going out many times.That day, Han Jia received the news that Han Jia rode there to arrest people. Before he arrived, he saw a group of people gathered at the intersection of Tianlang Road from a distance.

If there was no accident, how could there be so many people around that intersection?

Han Jia started to panic, he stopped his bicycle and ran into the crowd.There were three floors inside and three floors outside. Han Jia, who couldn't squeeze in for a while, could only hear everyone discussing that the boy shouldn't skateboard in such a dangerous place.An aunt said sympathetically, "He's only in the first and second grades, right?"

Han Jia has been waiting for death since childhood, from his mother to himself.He thought he had looked down on death, but Kang Bingzhu made him experience real fear again.

He pushed the crowd uncontrollably and broke in.When he saw the pool of blood on the ground, he could hardly stand still.If the boy lying on the ground is Kang Bingzhu...

Han Jia, who has always been very judgmental, took too long to realize that the school uniform on the boy was different from that of Kang Bingzhu.After that, he tried his best to save the strange boy with the first aid knowledge he had learned.Comparing his heart to his heart, he couldn't see what happened to Kang Bingzhu, and naturally some people couldn't see what happened to this strange boy. Han Jia tried his best to help the boy stay awake until he was sent to the ambulance.

When everything was over, that day's tutoring time had already passed, but in Han Jia, he had to see Kang Bingzhu, otherwise, the restlessness in his body would make him restless until he saw Kang Bingzhu with his own eyes again.So, he turned back to the Kang family.Only when he saw the intact Kang Bingzhu did he relax a little from his tense emotions.At the same time, he realized that he could no longer tolerate Kang Bingzhu's dangerous hobby.

This time, he explicitly asked Kang Bingzhu to promise never to go to Tianlang Road again.Naturally, Kang Bingzhu would not agree. Han Jia understood his character and knew that the tougher his attitude, the easier it would be for him to be strongly resisted by the other party, but this perception didn't work.He was so scared that he didn't have time to find a more appropriate way, he just wanted to ensure that Kang Bingzhu would never fall in that pool of blood.For the first time, in the confrontation with Kang Bingzhu, he didn't care what the reasoning was or what the rules were, and he allowed himself to hit the opponent out of control.

After regaining consciousness, Han Jia, who realized what mistake she had made, fled in a panic.He began to be afraid of his feelings for Kang Bingzhu, afraid that this feeling would make him act beyond his authority towards Kang Bingzhu.

Unable to face Kang Bingzhu anymore, he just sent a hasty message to apologize to the other party, and then he resigned from his tutoring job.

Han Jia was a very unlucky person since he was a child. He never expected that he could get to know the person he liked, so it was not that difficult for him to leave Kang Bingzhu.When he missed him the most, as long as he lit a lighter, he could see Kang Bingzhu's careless but warm face behind the flames.A random smile from the other party in the memory can comfort Han Jia's loneliness and loneliness.

The only thing that made Han Jia regretful was that in the end, he left Kang Bingzhu with the impression that he was still a strong, indifferent, vile and disgusting object.

Kang Bingzhu once said that he likes gentle girls.He disgustedly pointed out that Han Jia was no longer a girl, yet she was still so ungentle, it was hopeless.

Of course, Han Jia would never become a girl, but he subconsciously changed his attitude towards people and things.

Facing Lu Fengtang who was somewhat similar to Kang Bingzhu in terms of age and personality, Han Jia compensated Lu Fengtang for all the patience and tolerance that he had never given Kang Bingzhu.He treats Lu Fengtang who has been sticking to him because of the grace of saving his life in the most gentle way, and tries hard to make himself no longer hated by others.

Fortunately, he got along very well with Lu Fengtang, so he got such a good disciple.However--

Lu Fengtang will never be Kang Bingzhu.