Grandpa's Hangover Soup

When Song Chuo met Li Shuang for the first time, Li Shuang was 14 years old, standing next to Song Fan who was the same age, he looked only 12 years old.

He was slender and short, but his face was very outstanding, with a kind of handsomeness that couldn't be seen directly. Unfortunately, his expression was uneasy, and his figure was shrinking.

"Master Song, is it really impossible to deal with Song Fan?"

Song Chuo came back to his senses and saluted slightly to Li Jin who was seated above him, "Uncle Li, I'm afraid this matter is difficult to solve. After all, it was Marquis Wu Ping who decided to expel him from the clan. Even my father can't intervene in this matter."

The purpose of visiting during the New Year's Eve was to talk about Song Fan's affairs. He was not supposed to come to this matter. After all, he was waiting for the test in March, but his father entrusted this matter to him, just because he and Marquis Wu Ping is of the same generation, and he is also of the same generation as Uncle Li. It is more convenient to talk, and the Li family can have less scruples.

And Song Fan is the concubine of Marquis Wuping. Although he is only two years younger than him, he has to be called uncle.It is said that he was expelled from the house and expelled because he took the maid by force. As an uncle, Li Jin couldn't bear it, so he took him home and resettled him.

Li Jin held a sliver of hope, hoping that he would bring good news, but unfortunately, even though his father had come forward to persuade him, Wu Pinghou still insisted on this, as the patriarch's father was really helpless.

"...So Marquis Wuping is determined not to want this child?" Gao Shi, the old lady of the Li family, who was sitting in the main seat, struck heavily with her stick.

Song Chuo sighed imperceptibly, and said: "Old lady, my father means to let Song Fan stay in the Li Mansion for now, maybe after a while, Marquis Wu Ping will bring Song Fan back when he calms down." He said, He paid close attention to Song Fan, only to see that Song Fan couldn't hide his resentment, and stood proudly aside without saying a word.

In fact, he had verified it with Song Fan’s elder brother, Song Qi, and he knew that Song Fan was framed by his aunt and wronged. Marquis Wu Ping also knew about this. Still dealt with in this way, if it is said that he listened to one-sided words, he would not believe it at all.

He could only guess what secrets might be hidden in the Hou's mansion, so Wu Pinghou had no choice but to do so, but after all, this was his family's business, and he could not intervene and it was not suitable for him to intervene.

"No need, the Marquis of Wuping doesn't want this child. Our Li family wants it. From now on, the child's surname is Li, and it has nothing to do with the Marquis of Wuping's mansion." Gao scolded angrily.

"Mom, we can't be arrogant..."

"Who is acting on his will? How big is expulsion, how can it be a joke? He has already said that, from now on, Song and Li will have nothing to do with each other, and you... move your sister's grave back to our ancestral grave. I will take care of you." He can't protect his daughter, and he doesn't want to protect his grandson, so don't protect her, give it all back to me!" After Gao Shi shouted, he seemed to be furious, his eyes hung up, and he almost passed out.

In an instant, the hall was in chaos, Li Jin, his wife, and his son-in-law brought Mrs. Gao into the room, and there were only three of them left in the hall.

After a while, Song Chuo said in embarrassment, "Song Fan, you don't need to think wildly, just devote yourself to studying, and make Wu Pinghou look at you with admiration, so..."

"Will he take me back home?" Song Fan asked coldly.

"This……"

"He doesn't want me anymore, does he?"

Song Chuo said earnestly: "Song Fan, many things are not whether you want it, but whether you can have it. Maybe you can't understand or listen to what I'm telling you now, but one day, you will understand."

Song Fan lowered his eyes and remained silent for a while before he said, "Brother... didn't you say anything?"

"What can your elder brother say? Can he persuade your father's arrogant temper?" Song Chuo thought for a while and said, "Anyway, in Li's mansion, there is still a grandmother who is willing to take care of you, so just stay there, if you want If you want fame, then come to my house and worship at my father's door together. Let's study together. Even if you don't want to impress your father, at least you must live a good life and let the person who tries to make you unhappy know, even if there is no Marquis Wu Ping Asylum of the government, you are equally capable."

"Can I take the test?"

"Okay, maybe your father will have changed his mind by then, and the matter of expulsion—"

"If my father didn't change his mind, how would a person without a family take the exam?"

Facing Song Fan's serious expression, Song Chuo thought for a while, "Then you can use the surname Li, and you can take the exam if you are included in your uncle's registration. Of course, unless someone exposes your expulsion, don't worry, I won't will make this happen.”

Song Fan pursed his lips tightly and remained silent, but Li Buyang, who was standing beside him, tugged at Song Fan uneasily.

"Shu Ang." Song Chuo called softly.

Li Shuang froze for a moment, then raised his eyes timidly.

"Why don't you come to my house to study with Song Fan."

"...Can I?" Li Shu'ang asked in a low voice, his voice was hoarse like a teenager's.

"Of course, I think your father will not refuse." To be able to enroll in the school of the crown prince and Taifu to study is something that ordinary noble children may not be able to achieve.

Later, he thought, why he would do this at that time, maybe it was just because he pitied a poor bastard, a bastard who was cowed and bullied.

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In February, the two officially entered Li's residence to study, and Song Chuo and his father took turns to teach. Since he was busy with the examination in March, he temporarily agreed to four times in January. After the examination, he would be able to Let the two of them go to Li's residence to study every day, but in the third study, only Song Fan came and Li Shuang was nowhere to be seen.

"Where's Shu Ang?" He asked Song Fan.

Song Fan only said: "Auntie won't let Uncle Ang come."

Without saying a word, he immediately rode his horse to Li's residence.

Li Jin was not at the mansion, so he turned to visit Gao Shi, the steward immediately went to ask Gao Shi, taking advantage of the gap, he went straight to the west wing of Li Mansion.

At the beginning, he proposed to let Li Shuang study with Song Fan, but Li Jin was quite scruples at first, but Gao was so happy that he agreed.And the first time he was studying, when he came to pick up the two of them, he still clearly remembered the smile on Li Shuang's face.

He smiled timidly, so softly and shyly, somehow, he just looked dumbfounded.He thought that maybe it was because such a cowardly person smiled that he was particularly attracted to him.

Also because of this, he will never allow anyone to deprive him of the smile on his face, no one can!

As soon as he stepped into the archway leading to the west chamber, Song Chuo heard a woman not far away yelling loudly, "I said Second Young Master, what's the matter with you? You move slowly, what is it?" How long will it be washed, if people don't know, they will really think that my mother-in-law is guilty of crimes, evil slaves and deceitful masters!"

"...I'm washing."

"Second young master, you have to be more precise in your words. We didn't ask you to wash this, but you said you wanted to wash it yourself. Don't let people misunderstand you."

"...I want to wash it."

"That's right, the second young master has to be honest, don't hurt us, we don't want to worry about..."

Before the words were finished, loud applause broke up the mother-in-law's unfinished words.

Li Shuang raised his eyes abruptly, and saw Song Chuo angrily glaring at the woman lying on the ground, his deep black eyes slowly sweeping across the women and maids present.

"This is really interesting. Whose servant can be so presumptuous?" Song Chuo asked coldly.

A sharp-eyed woman immediately recognized Song Chuo, and hurriedly said: "Master Song misunderstood, the second young master soiled his robe, so he has to clean it by himself."

Song Chuo smiled and pointed to Li Shuang who was squatting by the pool. "That's really strange. The servants of our Song Mansion are rushing to do everything, even the tea is brought to the mouths of the men in person. You guys surround the second young master of the mansion and watch him wash his robes. What is the rule, it is said so that I can easily learn."

A few servants lowered their eyes guiltyly, and no one dared to help the woman whose tooth was knocked out.

Song Chuo withdrew his gaze and pulled Li Shu'ang up. "Go, it's time to study."

"I... can't go..."

"This is the old lady's promise. Who dares to disobey the old lady's wishes in the Li residence? How about we go to the old lady and make it clear."

The expression of several servants changed greatly when they heard the words, they winked at each other, and a servant girl sneaked away.

"But……"

"Li Shuang, are you a man!" Song Chuo couldn't help shouting angrily. "You figure out your identity for me. Even if you are a bastard, you are still the second young master of the Li family. Why do you teach these women and maids to bully you?"

It is because he has no courage at all that even the servants look down on him so flatly.

In fact, this matter is not difficult to guess at all, it is nothing more than Li Jin's wife is dissatisfied that he refused to let his son Li Boyu study together, so naturally he refused to let his uncle Ang study.

Please, Li Boyu, what kind of stuff is that? It's gone. He doesn't even have a student qualification. What else is there to study? It's a waste of his and his father's time.

Reading also requires qualifications!

Although Li Shuang is timid, he is extremely intelligent, especially with an amazing memory, as long as he has read it once, he will almost immediately remember it, this kind of students are happy when they wake up, who wants to teach that kind of bastard.

Li Shuang lowered his face slightly, unable to answer a word.

"Li Shuang, please remember, you must become strong, strong enough not to allow anyone to climb on your head and act wildly, strong enough to make everyone who looks down on you shut up, do you hear me!" Living in the mansion where even the servants are bullied, he is full of anger.

Li Shuang frowned and nodded slightly.

"Well, let's go to the old lady's for a meeting first."

The wife hasn't arrived yet, so Mr. Song can't just take the second young master to the old lady. If the old lady gets angry, they will be finished... Several women immediately surrounded him.

"Master Song, why don't you have a cup of tea first, the old lady is still resting at this time, and won't see any guests."

"Yes, yes, it's better to rest for a while before going, that...Chunhe, go to the old lady and ask if the old lady is awake."

Someone responded, and several women yelled, and surrounded the two of them. In the confusion, Li Shuang's feet were abducted, his body was bumped again, and he lost his balance and fell into the pool. He was afraid that Song Chuo would be affected, so he hurried He let go of his hand, and when Song Chuo noticed it, he stretched out his hand to grab it, but it was too late.

With a plop, Li Shuang fell into the pool.

Song Chuo took a breath, and turned his head to stare at the women and maids. He couldn't believe that they were so lawless, and jumped into the pool almost without thinking.

The water in the pond in February was as cold as a blade, and the flesh was piercing to the bone. Song Chuo gasped and pulled Li Shuang into his arms with all his strength. When he got ashore, the steward happened to arrive.

So, this matter was brought up in front of the old lady so logically, exposing the Li family's mother-in-law for bullying the concubine.

Logically speaking, he really shouldn't meddle in other people's housework, but Li Shuang's situation is much more difficult than Song Fan's, and he really can't turn a blind eye.

What's more, it turned out later that what he did was not wrong, because the old lady took back the power of daughter-in-law, took care of the house by herself, and brought Li Shuang and Song Fan to take care of her. From then on, Li Shuang could live a little more comfortably, and There is no need to be afraid of evil slaves deceiving the master.

Things seemed to end perfectly, but the next day, Li Shuang developed a high fever.

Worried about his condition, Song Chuo rushed to Li's mansion after finishing his studies, and saw two maids taking care of him, and Song Fan was sitting on the side bed reading.

"Uncle Chuo." Song Fan raised his eyes and saw him and called in a low voice.

Song Chuo walked to the couch and asked in a low voice, "Is he better?"

"Sometimes are good and sometimes bad. Yesterday one fever went away, and today another one has a fever."

"Didn't you change your doctor?"

"The doctor said that Shu Ang was caused by wind evil entering his body, coupled with long-term depression, the disease burst out all at once."

Song Chuo narrowed his eyes slightly, he could imagine that Li Shuang had been bullied for many years.

"Yesterday, I heard my grandmother muttering that Shu Ang's mother was also bullied to death. Shu Ang's face resembles his mother's. Maybe that's why my aunt hates Shu Ang when she sees him."

"What does it matter to children if adults make evil?"

"Yeah, what does it matter to us?" Song Fan snorted.

Song Chuo shook his head helplessly, seeing that the pair of cousins ​​were in a similar situation. The two seemed to cherish each other, but facing the unchangeable current situation gave him a great headache.

Just as he was thinking, the person on the bed moved and groaned in pain, Song Fan immediately got up and went to the bedside. "Shu Ang, Uncle Chuo is here to see you."

Li Shu'ang opened his eyes awkwardly, and when he saw Song Chuo, he stretched out his hand to pull him.

Song Chuo hurriedly held his hand, noticing that his hand was extremely hot, and hurriedly pushed his hand back under the blanket.

"Big brother..."

"I've told you several times to call you Uncle Chuo." Song Fan corrected.

"Forget it, let him do it." Song Chuo didn't care much, it was just a title anyway. "Shu Ang, your hands are still hot, take a good rest."

"Hmm..." He replied weakly, but a smile blossomed towards him.

The cheeks that were blushing due to fever were stained with a weak smile, which made Song Chuo's heart palpitate for some reason, and felt that he was very cute.

That day, he stayed by Li Shu-ang's bed, until late at night when he left, he was still thinking about Li Shu-ang, and the worst thing was that on the next day, he felt headache and light feet, and at night he started to have a high fever.

After that, he always felt groggy, his whole body seemed to be in the clouds or in the fire, making him uncomfortable but unable to wake up, until he heard a faint cry.

He struggled to open his eyes, and was surprised to see Li Shu'ang lying on the bedside crying, so frightened that he hurriedly asked: "Shu'ang, what's wrong with you, who bullied you again?" What, but when he stopped talking, he felt like his throat was on fire, and he couldn't help coughing.

Li Shuang raised his red eyes from crying, held his hand tightly, cried and laughed and said: "Brother, you finally woke up, do you want some tea?"

Song Chuo nodded in distress, Li Shuang quickly poured a cup of tea, half-supported him to drink it.

"Would you like a little more?"

"No need." He shook his head weakly, lay back on the pillow, ignoring the sore throat, and asked hoarsely, "Why are you here, why are you crying like this?"

It would be better if he didn't ask, but Li Shu'ang was forced to cry when he asked.

"I'm sorry for you...it's all my fault..."

"What's the matter?"

Li Shuang sobbed softly. "The test has passed..."

Song Chuo was stunned for a moment, and asked, "I've been sick for so long?" Is there any mistake? Made him sick to pass the exam?

"The doctor said that you were over-thinking and caught a cold, so you became ill suddenly and violently... It's all my fault. It would be fine if I didn't hold you all the time that day." Constantly slipping from the cheek.

"Hey, what's none of your business? Or...someone scolded you for this?" He asked suspiciously.

He didn't think that his parents would blame Li Shuang for this, if he really wanted to blame him, he must blame him for not taking good care of himself, and he couldn't blame anyone else.In other words, when he gets better, he will be scolded.

"No, sir didn't scold me, no one blamed me, but..."

"That's it." He calmly interrupted his unfinished words. "It's none of your business, so there's no need to force yourself on me, not to mention... I don't want to take the exam that much."

Li Shuang stared at him blankly, but when he was about to speak, he preempted him again.

"Do you think I'm comforting you? Sigh, in fact, I have been practicing martial arts since I was a child, and I was taught by Marquis Wu Ping himself. I am interested in military arts and martial arts schools, but my father doesn't want me to take martial arts exams."

"why?"

"The Song family has too many military positions. If they hold too much military power, it will cause the emperor's suspicion, which is not a good thing for the family." Seeing that he had only a half-knowledge, Song Chuo was not in a hurry to explain too much, and said to himself: "Anyway, in this world, there are always too many things that I can't help myself. I always have to cooperate with others and try my best to be comprehensive. As long as it is for the benefit of the people, I should sacrifice a little bit."

Li Shuang tilted his head and looked at him, half understanding.

He smiled and ruffled his hair. "You'll understand when you grow up."

"Brother is only two years older than me."

"Two years old is a lot of difference. Look at you, you are so thin and weak. You are two months older than Song Fan, but he is much taller than you."

"I will be taller than him in the future."

Song Chuo narrowed his eyes with a smile. "It doesn't matter whether you are tall or not. I see that your body is too thin. I will recover from illness some day and teach you boxing. You can strengthen your body and bones without being bullied."

"Really?" Li Shuang said overjoyed, almost sticking to his face.

Song Chuo stared at him, like a ghost, stretched out his hand, pulled him closer, and then kissed his pink and soft cheek.

Li Shuang's eyes widened in astonishment, and Song Chuo suddenly came back to his senses, wondering why he would do such a thing, so he could only bite the bullet and say: "In my house... I always treat my brother like this, you Knowing that I have two younger brothers, if they are obedient and well-behaved sometimes, I will kiss them, you know this is brother to..."

He couldn't make it up anymore, because he saw Li Shu'ang smiling shyly and cutely, as if he accepted his words completely, at that moment he hated himself, but he didn't regret it.

"It's great to be the younger brother of the elder brother." Li Shuang said sincerely.

Song Chuo smiled wryly, and didn't answer any more.

I really want to be his younger brother... It's okay, but it's just another younger brother, besides, Shu Ang is much cuter than his two younger brothers.

When I kissed him just now, I was probably just sick and dizzy. I thought he was too cute, like an innocent child, so I couldn't help it...

The next three years proved that Song Chuo's thinking at that time was correct, even if he got along day and night, he never made any disrespectful acts again.

Watching Li Shuang gradually grow taller and gain weight, he is full of a sense of accomplishment. It feels like raising a sick and weak puppy to be strong and vigorous. Li Shuang is now in full bloom and handsome, Just looking at it from the side feels extremely pleasing to the eye, no matter where I go, I want to take him by my side.

It's a pity that the three-year imperial examination was approaching, so he decided to apply with Song Fan. As for Li Shu'ang, he studied for self-cultivation and had no interest in scientific examinations, so he no longer forced him.

And Song Fan was really good. He won Jieyuan in one fell swoop in the name of Li Ruofan, and then took Huiyuan, and even won two yuan. He was almost crazy about him. Song Fan was an unregistered person and had no qualifications to apply for the election. Therefore, Song Fan was forced to pull out his fame and fell to the bottom of the valley.

And he, even if he won the champion in the palace examination, he was not happy at all.

Because he relied on Zu Yin, because if Song Fan hadn't been revoked, he must have won the No. [-] Scholar...

After the results were released, there was an endless stream of people coming to congratulate him. He responded with a smile on his face, and had nowhere to vent his depression until Li Shuang came to the door.

"How is Ruofan?" he asked.

"Not good." Li Shuang followed with a worried face. "Ruofan is so depressed these days that he doesn't say a word, and I can't help it."

"I want to see him, but I'm afraid he has a grudge."

"Brother thinks too much. He just hates his aunt. As a result, he can't pursue an official career or start a business. He doesn't know what to do in the future."

Song Chuo rested his chin and said abruptly, "Shu Ang, accompany me for a drink."

Li Shuang gave him a funny look. "Brother Zai can't drink bars, he was so drunk last time."

"Hey, I'm going to get drunk, so just knock me out, so as not to be embarrassing." I heard that he drank a glass of wine last time, ended up drunk like a lunatic, and kissed his second brother, who was fine for a while Run as soon as you see him.

Speech, what do you think of him, is he drunk?

That night, he was drunk, and a glass of wine made him so drunk that he lost consciousness.

But it was also after that night that he started to have sex dreams, and the person in the dream still couldn't see his face clearly. He thought it was because he was old enough to be interested in the relationship between men and women, so he didn't take it seriously.

What's more, he formally entered the Hanlin Academy. He was so busy getting familiar with the errands every day, and because of his seriously ill father, he agreed to marry the daughter of the minister of rites, so he had long forgotten his dream.

After the marriage was settled, he specially went to Li's mansion, firstly to tell the good news, secondly, to find out about Song Fan and Li Shuang, whom he hadn't seen for a long time. I was so overwhelmed, and the main reason was——

"Let her give birth to the child, and send her to Zhuangzi at that time." The staff sitting on the master's seat angrily reprimanded and immediately made a decision.

He saw that Li Shu'ang and a girl dressed as a maid were both kneeling in the hall, and as soon as Gao's decision came to an end, the maid immediately cried to death.

He couldn't believe that the well-behaved Li Shuang would bully the maid, and even make the maid pregnant...

Just as he was thinking, Gao Shi who was sitting on the main seat called him, he raised his eyes and saw Li Shu'ang turning his head back in panic, as if he wanted to explain something to him, but he didn't want to pay attention to him.

He once told Li Shu'ang that since he is a concubine, he must understand the suffering of a concubine, so he remembered that he would not accept a house and a concubine when he married a wife, but he had an affair with a maidservant and had a child before he was married... What is this bastard? Where did he remember everything he said!

At the end of that year, he got married, Song Fan and Li Shu'ang were both present, but he didn't look at Li Shu'ang from the beginning to the end, because he made him feel cold.

The next year, when he became a father, he finally managed to let him see his grandson before his father closed his eyes, so that his father passed away without regret.

In the same year, he heard that Song Fan and Li Shuang had opened a dental shop with Gao's support, but he didn't go to congratulate him, but when he passed by, he saw Li Shuang walking among the caravan merchants with a smile on his face. It's not like he knew Li Shu'ang at all.

The next year, when he heard that Mrs. Gao had passed away, Song Fan and Li Shu'ang left the Li Mansion together, and opened a shop near Yaxing. Because he really wanted to know how the two were doing, he went to check it out. Who knew it would be better if they didn't go? He was so angry that he almost vomited blood.

"Look, how beautiful this ocher red reflects the skin color."

Beat him into the shop, and when he found out that it was a gambling house, he held back his anger and was about to reprimand them severely, but when he walked to the backyard, he saw Li Shu'ang leading a little girl dressed as a young prince, with peach blossom eyes. Looking at the little girl, she hugged and hugged her, and the reason he was always proud of disappeared in an instant.

"Li Shuang, what are you doing?"

Li Shuang was startled, let go of the little girl's hand, and quickly came to him. When Yang Xiao was about to speak, he interrupted him angrily, "What are you doing? Let a little girl dress up like this, What kind of thoughts are you holding, what kind of sage books did you read in the past?"

"Big brother..."

"Don't call me big brother again. From now on, treat me as if I never knew you. If you bump into me on the street, you are not allowed to talk to me!" After saying that, he turned around and left. He doesn't care what kind of expression he feels.

He was going crazy, he was vomiting blood!It's just been a while, but it's unbelievable that that kid has degenerated to such a degree!

From then on, when facing Li Shu'ang again, he acted as if he didn't exist, and didn't look at him or talk to him.And he didn't seem to care much, chatting and laughing happily with people in the Yaxing gambling shop.

Not long after, the emperor intended to transfer him outside, and he readily agreed to go to Dajin City alone to take up his post.

He didn't tell Song Fan, and didn't let his family see him off. He took a carriage out of the city, but saw Li Shu'ang standing quietly in a corner outside the city gate.

He didn't look back, but he knew that Li Shuang was watching him the whole time.It was not until the carriage had gone so far that he could no longer see the city gate that he lifted the curtain and looked back, as if he could still see Li Shuang standing outside the city gate with a disappointed expression on his face.

What are you missing?What is there for him to be disappointed?

Who wants him to go further and further?If it wasn't for him, how could he ignore him...

Taking office alone, Song Chuo didn't feel homesick at all, but he would occasionally think of Li Shu'ang standing outside the city gate in a moon-white robe.

Sometimes when he misses him especially, he will appear in front of him.

Walking out of the yamen, Song Chuo narrowed his eyes, suspecting that there was something wrong with his eyes, but after a closer look, it was indeed Li Shu'ang standing across the street.

From a distance, he bowed to himself, but he just looked at him silently.

No conversation, just eye contact.

From then on, he would see Li Shuang every once in a while, but later he couldn't bear it anymore and talked to Li Shuang anyway. "Why are you always here?"

"Didn't the adults say that I am not allowed to talk to the adults?"

Song Chuo twitched his eyes, turned around and left.Don't talk without talking, is it rare?

In this way, during the three years since he took office, the number of times he ran into Li Shuang was astonishing. Especially in the third year, he was falsely accused and imprisoned. Later, witnesses reversed his confession in court and returned his innocence. In order to frame him as the governor, he also saw Li Shuang standing outside the yamen at that time. He pretended to meet him by chance and even waited in Jincheng for a whole month to accompany him back to Beijing.

This guy... really knows how to teach him to be soft-hearted.

But the most hateful thing is that he was the one who was soft-hearted towards him. On the way back, this kid turned to Pancheng just to redeem a flower girl. At that time, he even thought of strangling him to death.

Fortunately, that Hua Niang just became his shopkeeper and accountant, and he didn't intend to take her as a concubine at all... At that time, he was relieved.

why?Why does he have to worry about Li Shuang, why does he have to worry about gains and losses because of Li Shuang's every move?Why did Li Shuang influence him so much?

Song Chuo thought about it, but his thoughts kept breaking down, and he felt hot all over his body.

In a daze, he felt as if someone was under him. He opened his eyes and stared at the person under him. Suddenly, his heart trembled, because under him was Li Shu'ang whose skin was dyed crimson. His legs were pulled apart by him, he could even see the mole on the base of his leg, he entered him forcefully, buried his desire in his body, watching his scorching heat was also high-spirited, he was inexplicably excited, longing crazily again and again .

As if nothing was enough, he indulged in it, venting again and again.