Be gentle

How many families can produce a provincial champion?How many provincial champions can there be in a year?Standing out among thousands of candidates, they are naturally the group that the media cares most about every year after the college entrance examination.

Bai Shuyi quickly attracted attention, not only the school, but even the TV station found her and wanted to interview her.At this time, Bai Shuyi really realized the troubles that Huaran had in the past.

Apart from these, what troubled Bai Shuyi even more was that Huaran avoided her.

She originally thought that Huaran would be very happy if she got good grades in the exam, but the other party gave her the feeling that she was more preoccupied.Bai Shuyi didn't know what happened, but only knew that the two of them would drift apart if this continued - she decided to have a good talk with Huaran.

But it is not easy to find an opportunity to talk. After the hustle and bustle of the top scorer in the college entrance examination subsided a little, the driver's license training began again.Huaran now leaves early and returns late, even if she is in the drugstore every day, she may not be able to meet her, not to mention she has a lot of activities.

After the college entrance examination, relatives and friends took turns to invite guests, and Bai Wenxue also invited her several times.Bai Shuyi didn't expect that this summer vacation would be so busy, and the anxiety of not being able to communicate with Huaran gradually accumulated in his heart.

Because of her young age, Bai Shuyi has always adhered to the principle of not causing trouble to Huaran, but this time she really couldn't wait any longer.

Huaran has devoted a lot of time to work recently, going to the company before [-]:[-] in the morning, and coming back after [-]:[-] in the evening.But the long hours of work did not let her taste the harvest - her proposal was called back by the director and reworked several times.The dual pressures of relationship and work, as well as irregular diet and rest, tortured her stomach, which gradually evolved into frequent stomach pains.

Arriving home after eleven o'clock in the evening, Huaran dragged his tired body up the stairs, and what came into view was the scene of Bai Shu sitting at the door.

Bai Shuyi probably heard her footsteps, raised his head to look at her, and when he met Huaran's panicked sight, he smiled and said, "Ranran, you are back."

Huaran stood still, not knowing how to react for a moment.

Bai Shu stood up from the ground, "I haven't seen you for a long time."

She still had a smile on her face, and her voice inevitably carried some grievances.

Even if she forced herself, Huaran couldn't laugh.She could neither ask why she didn't call herself first, nor why Bai Shuyi didn't go inside and wait.She knew that Bai Shuyi must have sensed something strange about her.

Just because he was too gentle and kind, he neither forced her nor questioned her.

But, has it reached the limit?Both Bai Shuyi's patience and her selfishness have reached their limit.

She dragged on this matter, hoping to find a better solution, hoping that she could accept it, and hoping that things would turn around.But what is getting heavier and heavier is only guilt and pain, and only endless nightmares.

She couldn't find a way to get rid of it, and she didn't dare to tell anyone about it.But when the thought of breaking up came to her mind, she felt a deeper pain.

She has overcome so much, she has tried her best to be brave, she has indulged her selfishness, and finally found that what she needs to face is a more terrifying predicament than she imagined before.

She didn't even dare to tell Bai Shuyi about this, not because she was afraid that she would care, but because she was afraid that she would not care.She knew how brave Bai Shuyi was, and how he didn't mind the eyes of the world.

But she can't, she can't accept it, she is cowardly and cowardly and can't bear being looked at in that way, let alone accepting that the person she loves is looked down upon by others.

Xiaobai is such an excellent person, her life has just begun, she can't let this incident ruin her.

"Ranran, what's wrong with you?"

Bai Shu seemed to have a premonition, and held her hand cautiously.

Huaran took a deep breath, "Let's go in and talk."

Bai Shuyi gradually restrained his smile, "Okay..."

The two sat face to face for a long time, neither of them seemed to dare to speak first.In the past, Bai Shu would take the initiative in this situation, but this time it was Huaran who broke the silence.

"noob……"

Bai Shuyi gritted his teeth tightly and tried his best to smile.

"Ok?"

Huaran paused for a moment, then spoke again but still couldn't suppress the trembling of her voice.

"I've thought about it for a long time..." She struggled to say these five words, but it was as if they were stuck in her throat.

too painful.All the cells in her body seemed to be clamoring for the pain, preventing her from saying those two words.Tears quickly blurred her vision, and no matter how hard she wiped it off, she couldn't wipe it off.

Bai Shuyi handed her a handkerchief, and asked in a low voice, "Since it's so uncomfortable, why do you say it?"

Because it's the wrong thing to do, because it's not allowed.

There are so many people in the world, why do they fall in love with Xiaobai?There are so many men and so many women, why do you like a cousin who is related by blood?

No one will understand, no one will know, no amount of people can compare to her Xiaobai.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Xiaobai..."

"Is it because... my mother? Do you feel sorry for her? Are you afraid that she will blame you?" Bai Shuyi had envisioned such a scene a long time ago, so when Huaran started crying, she was not surprised Feel.But when the prediction came true, she realized how painful it was. She couldn't keep calm at all, sobbing and choking, "Don't be afraid, I will tell my mother, I like you, I am pestering you, You can't do anything about me. She loves me so much, she will definitely agree, Ranran, don't break up with me, I don't want to break up with you. "

Huaran shook her head and said "I'm sorry" over and over again.She couldn't tell Bai Shuyi, she couldn't tell the secret.

Bai Shuyi didn't believe that Huaran liked someone else, and he didn't believe that she didn't like him anymore, the only reason he could think of was this.She knows Huaran's character, understands her pressure, and wants to understand her choice.

But she didn't understand why Huaran didn't even give them the chance to work hard and try.

"Sorry……"

"I don't understand... Ranran, I don't understand." He was clearly thinking about the future before, why did he suddenly become like this?

Huaran didn't understand why things turned out like this.

"I'm sorry, Xiaobai."

Bai Shu covered his face, and cried in a broken voice: "I don't want to hear, I'm sorry...Ranran, I like you, and you obviously like me too...Why..."

Hua Ran suppressed her sobs, and after a while said with difficulty: "Because I'm not as brave as you...I'm sorry, I can't accept it..."

She felt that she was numb to pain, so she could say such cruel words.

As soon as Bai Shu heard the expected answer, a big hole seemed to be opened in his heart.She desperately catches up, works desperately, wants to grow up before the pressure accumulates enough to overwhelm Huaran, and wants to be strong enough to deal with such a situation.

But still not in time.

She doesn't want to force Huaran, if being with her is more painful than breaking up with her, then she doesn't want to force Huaran.

"I see..." Bai Shuyi took a deep breath, raised his head and showed an ugly smile, "I, I respect your choice..."

Hanaran struggled to see her face clearly in the blurred field of vision.

Bai Shuyi, who had just passed his seventeenth birthday, showed an expression completely out of age on his still youthful face.Even though she was in such pain and sadness, the way she tried her best to smile made Hanaran's heart ache more than crying.

These words seemed to be the limit of what Bai Shuyi could do, she stood up and cried while walking towards the door.

Huaran watched her go out, and the moment the door was completely closed, her heart suddenly became empty.Bai Shuyi seemed to have taken away all her vitality, and the coldness instantly invaded her body.

Huaran's ears were buzzing, and her mind went blank.

"Xiaobai..." She couldn't believe what she had done, Huaran suddenly stood up, and rushed to open the door like crazy, "Xiaobai!"

Bai Shuyi stood at the door and hugged Huaran when she rushed out.

"Xiaobai, Xiaobai..." Huaran hugged her tightly as if afraid of her disappearing, and kept calling her name.

Bai Shuyi pushed her back into the room with a half hug and half hug, and kissed her lips fiercely, which was always duplicity.

Huaran put her arms around her neck and responded to her kiss indulgently.She doesn't want to think about anything, she doesn't want to think about anything, as long as she is in Xiaobai's arms, she feels happy.

if only……

"Ranran, sister Ran..."

Bai Shuyi was intoxicated by her sweet and intense response, and subconsciously called her.When Huaran heard that title, it was like a flame that had been poured with cold water, and it went out instantly.

The body reacted faster than the brain, the stomach convulsed and throbbed, and the throat was full of sourness and pain.

Huaran pushed Bai Shuyi away, bent down and retched while clutching her stomach.

Bai Shuyi was stunned by her reaction, and it took him a while to come back to his senses, and hurriedly squatted down to help her up.

"Ranran, what's wrong with you? Where is the pain? Is it the stomach?"

Huaran pushed her away and stumbled into the bathroom, only Bai Shu was left standing there in a daze.

If Huaran's breakup was within her expectation, and Huaran's reluctance was also within her expectation, then Huaran's reactions now far exceeded her worries.

"Ranran... Is it because of me?" Huaran locked the bathroom door, and Bai Shuyi could only stand outside the door.The other party's reaction made her feel cold in her heart, she was only worried that Huaran was still unwilling to leave.

Huaran's suppressed cry came from inside.

"Sorry……"

Bai Shuyi really didn't expect that Huaran would be under so much pressure because of his relationship with him.If only she feels happy, if only she feels happy, if the other party has been enduring pain, there is no need to maintain such a relationship.

She stood silently for a long time, and finally said: "Ran, sister Ran, I won't force you anymore, so please don't hide from me and us in the future. Mom misses you very much too. You have been busy with work recently, so take care of your health. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Even if..."

She choked up a bit, and continued reluctantly: "Even if we are not a couple, I will support you, we will all support you...you are not alone."

Every time Bai Shu said a word, Huaran's crying became more and more sad.

"I put the stomach medicine on the table, remember to take it..." As if expecting Huaran's response, Bai Shu paused for a long time, "Then, then I'm leaving."

Huaran didn't know how long she had been crying, she just knew that she couldn't stop crying.Bai Shuyi's words made her feel pain all over, but she was unable to respond.

When she finally had the strength to go out and wash her hands, Bai Shuyi was no longer there, only a box of stomach medicine lying alone on the table.She picked up the medicine box blankly, and then found the wrinkled sticky note underneath, with Bai Shuyi's handwriting on it.

She said: Thank you.

The author has something to say: a lot of pain that you once thought may be nothing in hindsight. After all, there are more painful things waiting for you.