Be gentle

Although Huaran occasionally mentioned the past, but she always passed it in passing, and Bai Shuyi never heard her mention her mother except for her dead grandfather and father.

Everyone has people or things that they don't want to mention. Bai Shuyi understands this very well, so he never asks.

But now, she finally heard Huaran mention that mother herself.

Xiao Zhen didn't know why her brows were throbbing at night, and her heart felt stuffy.She has an old ailment from a past accident and has taken some medicine but nothing works.

At this moment, she received a call from Hua Chun'er, saying that Granny Hua wanted to see her.

Granny Hua started to be hospitalized half a year ago, and aging finally made the old man's organs start to fail.Xiao Zhen contacted a doctor she knew for her, but recently she inevitably entered the stage of hospice care.

The old man probably realized that his life was not long, and wanted to see Xiao Zhen and Huaran when he was sober.

After Xiao Zhen hung up the phone, her heart ached even more—she suddenly realized that half of her life had passed, and it was time for the kind and kind Granny Hua to leave.

She recalled the first half of her life as if it was a big dream, and today, she can't even tell which ones are real experiences and which ones are just nightmares.

The longest memory Xiao Zhen can remember now is when her brother gave her a doll when she was five years old. This brother, who is much older than her, has been the person she relies on most for a long time.

But when she was 16, her nightmare came when news of her brother's impending marriage came.

The parents who were originally only indifferent suddenly turned into ghosts. She still remembers how frightening their bodies were when they were skinny and skinny due to long-term illness.

In order to raise a bride price for her brother, she was sold by her parents to a place poorer than their village.The person who bought her was a couple in their 60s. Their son was nearly [-] years old and never married because of mental retardation.

Xiao Zhen couldn't remember how many times she ran away from home, but only remembered that when she arrived at Huajia Village, her leg had been broken.

The only luck is that the young man who treated her was honest and kind, and notified the village chief overnight after discovering the abnormality.

But things are not that simple, this kind of thing is often the default behavior of the whole village.Don't say that she was sold by her parents, even if she was abducted, it is impossible to leave at this time.

If it weren't for Hua Xunshuang's stubbornness and his father's majesty and popularity in the village, her life would probably have been even more miserable.

800 yuan, Hua Xunshuang paid back all the money the couple paid for her, and carried her home.

She spent more than a month in Hua's family for her injuries, and gradually realized that Hua Xunshuang saved her not only because of a sense of justice.Youth's admiration is no stranger to Xiao Fengsheng, she had many suitors when she was in school.

Maybe it was because she was discouraged, maybe it was out of gratitude, or maybe she really fell in love with this handsome savior full of justice, so she stayed for him and got married a year later.

Naturally, the life at that time couldn't be said to be very comfortable. Moreover, the Hua family village was poor and remote, and the Hua family spent all their savings in order to redeem her.

But Xiao Fengsheng is not a person who can't bear hardships. Hua Xunshuang is diligent and down-to-earth. In addition, his father is the only doctor in the village, so he always has some extra income, and the family lives peacefully.

But after his daughter was born, every time Xiao Fengsheng saw her face, he would ask himself, is this really the life he wants to live?And when her daughter grows up, will she repeat her fate?

She suddenly became unwilling.

Before being sold by her parents, she had many dreams. She wanted to be a teacher like her brother, to see the outside world, and to earn a lot of money.

Although life is hard, she still studies hard, hoping to change her destiny.She has a role model, and her brother is respected and praised by others.

But when the parents said that she was not their daughter at all, when they said that her brother also agreed to this matter, when she was sold for only 800 yuan, when she was caught and her legs were broken every time she escaped, She died again and again, leaving only a skin.

All her dreams were shattered, leaving only the life tortured by reality.She did not grow from a maiden to a woman, but lived as a dead person.

But the birth of her daughter suddenly ignited her lamp, and the new life aroused her hope, not just something as simple as motherhood, she realized from this child that she was still young.

Yes, even today Xiao Zhen would never say that she is doing it for her daughter, she is really doing it for herself.

Unwilling to spend her youth in such a place, she heard from Aunt Hua that the outside world is changing with each passing day, and this impoverished and closed mountain village is like stagnant water.

She didn't want to live her life like this, and she didn't want her daughter to repeat tragedies in such a patriarchal place like herself.

She began to learn embroidery skills from Granny Hua, and began to persuade Hua Xunshuang to go to the outside world.

Just when she finally persuaded her husband, when she was finally about to get rid of this feudal and backward mountain village, the news came that Hua Xunshuang fell to the cliff and died.

Fate played a trick on her again.

In a poor rural village, the loss of the only male of prime age can be devastating for a family.

The family, which was not well-to-do, quickly became more and more struggling. At that time, she was only in her early twenties, and the orphan and widow lived with a father-in-law, which not only attracted people's covetousness, but also caused a lot of gossip.

Xiao Fengsheng did not give up the idea of ​​going outside, because she lost her husband, she strengthened her belief.She has no one to turn to and no time to grieve.

The daughter-in-law wanted to go out shortly after her son's death, which was very rebellious in the eyes of most people in Huajia Village.There is an elderly father-in-law on the top, and a young daughter on the bottom. It is a disqualification for a daughter-in-law to go to the world of flowers outside without being around to take care of her.

Even the villagers who coveted Xiao Fengsheng gave her father-in-law Hua's old clothes, asked her to remarry a villager, and could also provide for his retirement.

Hua Guyi never expressed her opinion, and it was not until Xiao Zhen expressed her wish that she was given two choices.

After leaving, I have nothing to do with the Hua family, but Hua Ran wants to stay.

Stay, inherit your own mantle, and wait until you die before you can remarry.

Human selfishness is always manifested most vividly at this time.

She only hesitated a little before choosing the former, and kept convincing herself that since she was unable to give her daughter a stable life now, it was best for her to follow her grandfather.She will definitely come back in the future and will definitely give her daughter better conditions.

But how can things be so easy?

In just a few years, the outside world has undergone earth-shaking changes.Relying on the skills she learned from Granny Hua and the introduction of Aunt Hua, she entered the garment factory. Although she studied hard and worked hard, her life was only a little more stable.

Every time she thinks of her daughter, she always feels that it is not enough, she has not reached the point where she can see her.And her ambition is growing day by day. The more she studies and sees the outside world, the more she desires to achieve herself.

She has always had one thing that she can't let go of, the child of the same parents, why can her elder brother get all the love, and besides being treated coldly, she was even denied being their biological daughter when she was sold off.

She hated her identity as a woman, and she also frantically wanted to prove that she was no worse than her brother, and that women were no worse than men.

Time is too precious to her, and she gradually has no time to miss her daughter.At that time, it happened to be a period of frequent exchanges at home and abroad, and embroidery, as a traditional oriental handicraft culture, was very popular with some foreign friends.

The garment factory she worked in was invited by a British collector who was obsessed with oriental culture to carry out cultural exchanges. She was sent to the UK because of her exquisite craftsmanship and her ability to speak English.

Here, she saw new possibilities and sprouted new ambitions.No longer just to prove that she is better than her brother, she wants to prove that she has unique talents.

The collector owns a clothing company, as well as a handmade clothing store.He saw Xiao Zhen's ambition, warmly invited her to stay, and helped her complete all the formalities.

Xiao Zhen first worked in a handmade clothing store, and at first she could only work as a layman.Collectors have the title of jazz, and the customers here are, without exception, wealthy people with high status or high net worth.

When she was gradually able to be independent and gradually gained some word-of-mouth among customers, she thought of her daughter.

The stability of life and small success in her career gave her a little extra, and her guilt and longing for her daughter became extremely strong.

At that time, it was not convenient to communicate with China, and she could only get a little news from Aunt Hua occasionally.

Just when she was going to go home to pick up her daughter to live with her, a car accident ruined everything she had worked so hard for.

The fingers of her right hand suffered comminuted fractures and extensive burns on her face. Xiao Zhen was once on the verge of death.

The beauty is gone, and embroidery has become out of reach. Although he has received a sum of compensation, treatment and rehabilitation also require huge expenses.

More importantly, her dream was once again shattered, and she had no face to see her daughter again.

But she has already died many times, and she has worked so hard to this extent that she is not reconciled to sinking.If this is her fate, then she has to say no to fate.

Xiao Zhen struggled to stand up again, recovered from plastic surgery, began to study design courses, and passed the art-related majors.

She believed in her life once, but now, as long as she lives, her fate is in her own hands.

Since she is no longer a qualified mother, at least let her not be a down and out person.Even if you can't make your daughter proud, at least you can't make her feel ashamed when she learns that she has a mother like herself.

The author has something to say: It is still a bit too urgent to use one chapter to describe the legend of Ran Mama.I don't make comments, everyone judges for themselves.Anyway, my point of view will be reflected in the text later, hhh.