fingers of musicians

Lu Zaoqiu had already called Ping Huiyuan to say that everything was fine and everything was fine, so Wen Yuean still called to inquire.At that time, Zhong Guanbai was thinking about how to raise swans when he returned to Beijing. A few crabs in Wen Yuean’s yard were fine, but raising swans was not enough. He even wondered if the two swans would not greet each other because the winter was too cold. Fly back south for the winter.

Thinking of this, he asked on the phone: "Is it warm there, teacher?" After hearing the word "warm", he asked Wen Yuean if there was a lake near his residence, and whether the vegetation by the lake was abundant. I went to live for two days, and as for the matter of bringing geese for the winter, I didn't dare to speak.This is like bringing an illegitimate child home. I'm afraid that if I say it in advance, I will be scolded. When we really meet, who wouldn't like a grandson (goose).

After hearing this, Wen Yuean knew that it was not a matter of staying for two days, but she only said, "Come on."

Zhong Guanbai asked what Mr. He meant, Wen Yuean raised his head and glanced at He Yulou who was reading beside him, and said, "He is not the one who decides this."

Relying on Wen Yue'an's momentum, Zhong Guanbai happily talked about the date of arrival, and then told him to pay attention to his health, and when he hung up the phone, he even said what he wanted to eat and drink.

Lu Zaoqiu still had work and was going back to Beijing, Zhong Guanbai sent someone to the airport, and then called Lu Yingru.He knew that the matter with Lu Huaichuan was not so easy to resolve, it wasn't that he and Lu Zaoqiu could be out of sight and out of mind as soon as they left.Lu Yingru listened to a few ins and outs on the phone, asked about the situation of the two, and then said: "I know, I was the one who made the call that night. Zhong Guanbai, you don't know him, but I do. I've said it before. It won't be as easy as you think. You're in a hurry."

Some things take years and months, and the Lu family is patient enough.

"Because I can't stand it for a day." Zhong Guanbai said, "He is like a ticking time bomb."

"You must be able to bear it." Lu Yingru's voice was clear and cold, with a certain hardness and weight, "Even if it is a bomb, it must be dismantled line by line."

"I think I have found the key thread." Zhong Guanbai was silent for a moment, and then said, "Sister Yingru, when we left, I asked early autumn why when I grew up, I had the ability, but I didn't do it again. Go find mother."

At that time they were on the lake, Lu Zaoqiu was rowing a boat, there seemed to be a rare moment of confusion between his brows, but after only a moment, his expression faded again, calm as usual: "I don't know."

After a long time, the boat docked, and Lu Zaoqiu used his hands to support Zhong Guanbai's waist to protect the people ashore. In that short few seconds, when he was standing behind Zhong Guanbai, Zhong Guanbai couldn't see his expression. Then he whispered, "She doesn't need me anymore."

She has her own life.

At that moment, Zhong Guanbai felt that he should have thought of it earlier, Lu Zaoqiu was that kind of person, he would rather endure Lu Huaichuan year after year than touch Ye Yu's life.Lu Zaoqiu should have no hatred in his heart, and even said that after more than ten years, Lu Zaoqiu is still willing to silently protect the departed mother in his vague memory, even though he doesn't even know the reason for her leaving.

When Ye Yu left, Lu Zaoqiu was still too young, but Lu Yingru could already observe certain undercurrents among adults alone, and make some judgments about them——

Who is good and who is bad.

Or, there are neither good nor bad people.

She listened to Zhong Guanbai's report, but did not answer.

Zhong Guanbai asked: "Sister Yingru, then, haven't you looked for it? If she is willing to come forward...maybe—"

"Zhong Guanbai, you seem to have a naive understanding of this world." Lu Yingru stood up from the chair and walked to the balcony.She attached herself to watch the traffic that looked like beetles or ants, and remembered those searches in the past.

If so.

For example, in the crowded crowd in front of the Brandenburg Gate, get rid of Lu Huaichuan's men, walk alone through the Jewish Monument and Potsdamer Platz to the Berlin Philharmonic Hall to listen to a concert with Ye Yu.

For another example, he ran all the way north amidst the salute of the Belvedere Palace, and finally hid in the Brahms Hall of the Vienna Music Association, sat in the row closest to the stage, and looked up at Ye Yu in a long black dress.She remembered that the long blond hair of the violinist closest to her was bound by a colorful butterfly hair clip. In the second half, because she played too much, the hair clip was thrown out and fell to the stage, just landing on her. feet.

Lu Yingru picked up the hairpin and handed it back to the violinist at the end of the song.

Because of this butterfly hairpin, she got a glimpse of Ye Yu.

That glance was like she was staring at the traffic below the tall building, distant, strange, ignorant of everything rushing below, and she thought that such ignorance was not unreasonable.

"You probably think that when we find Ye Yu, we will have a touching reunion, and our parents will have one," Lu Yingru smiled. This smile is a bit similar to Lu Zaoqiu, as if someone is deliberately showing a kind of love. Clumsy humor and others didn't find it funny, "The great reconciliation of the century. Lu Huaichuan untied his heart knot, and has since become a loving father, sending sincere blessings to you and Zaoqiu."

Although Zhong Guanbai didn't dare to imagine what sincere blessings could come out of Lu Huaichuan's mouth, his thinking was indeed similar to what Lu Yingru said.

Seeing that Zhong Guanbai was silent, Lu Yingru knew she had guessed right: "There are many people suffering in the world, but not everyone will become a..." She whispered the word, "Crazy."

Zhong Guanbai didn't know what to say, so Lu Yingru asked again: "Zhong Guanbai, do you know what I dislike about you the most?"

Zhong Guanbai laughed at himself: "I only know that you don't like anything, but I didn't know that there is something you don't like the most."

"I don't like your attitude that you put your music and your love more than anything else, and take it for granted." Lu Yingru said flatly, "You don't know what responsibility is. Like Ye Yu, she is for the so-called music and love. , even children can be sacrificed..."

Zhong Guanbai thought that Lu Yingru would say "give up" or "don't", but he didn't expect that she would use the word "sacrifice".

This word is too heavy and too extreme.

Zhong Guanbai didn't know Lu Yingru very well, but at this moment he could feel that she was a little abnormal, Lu Yingru shouldn't have said that.

Sacrifice.

In the blink of an eye, he suddenly thought of the name with a strong religious meaning in the last phone call: Abe——

Abraham decided to kill his son Isaac as a sacrifice to God to show his loyalty.

For the young Lu Yingru and Lu Zaoqiu, Lu Huaichuan could be regarded as God, or, in another sense, God was Ye Yu's partner, or, everything unknown could also be regarded as God.Anyone can be the master of two or two young children.

Zhong Guanbai suddenly felt a chill down his back.

God in the "Old Testament" finally sent an envoy to stop this sacrifice, so who is that envoy in the sacrifice Lu Yingru mentioned?Or, there is no so-called messenger at all?

"Sister Yingru," Zhong Guanbai asked abruptly, "Why is it called Abe?"

There are no questions about the subject.

Why are all the first secretaries named Abe?Lu Yingru said calmly: "Zao Qiu and I heard many stories at the dinner table when we were young, but when we grow up, I don't remember any of them, I still remember one."

Zhong Guanbai smiled on purpose, but couldn't help it: "The protagonist of this story is called Abe, right?"

"Of course not." Lu Yingru paused for a moment, then said, "The protagonist of the story is Jehovah."

Zhong Guanbai really couldn't laugh anymore.

The stories of Jehovah and Abraham are clearly the same story.

Zhong Guanbai said with some difficulty: "Every time you call the name Abe, doesn't it deepen...Can I say it is hatred?"

"How can there be so much love and hate." Lu Yingru retracted her gaze, raised her sharp jaw slightly, and stopped looking at the traffic and sentient beings who were far away from her. "The name Abe is just to remind me that I still have one more thing." It didn't get done."

"What is...?" Zhong Guanbai finished asking, and felt as if he had already guessed the answer.

Lu Yingru said a few words into the phone.

Her voice was very low, like a knife gently cutting through soft flesh without leaving any traces.

After Zhong Guanbai heard this, he was speechless for a long time. He didn't quite understand the method and couldn't ask more specific questions. , said: "... early autumn, I probably don't know."

"Of course. You probably want to ask, then why did I tell you?" Lu Yingru smiled, this time it seemed sincere, even with a gentleness that was impossible to see on weekdays, "I know that you are neither smart, And I am anxious to get things done, if I don't make it clear, you will have to go to my father to argue every day, and you don't know what troubles you will cause." After Lu Yingru finished speaking, the topic changed and her tone changed. The original one was so cold, "Besides, I want you to know that those who praise your love, thank you for your music, and talk about hopes and ideals like you, there are far-sighted bystanders and latecomers, and Those near you, whom you have abandoned, will not forgive you."

After Lu Yingru finished speaking, she hung up the phone.

She was wearing a thin silk shirt and stood in the cold wind for a long time before turning around.

The moment she turned around, she saw Abe standing not far behind her holding a woolen coat.

"How long have you been there?" Lu Yingru looked into Abe's eyes and asked.

The two looked at each other, and Abe lowered his eyes slightly: "Not too long."

Lu Yingru walked back to the office and rejected the jacket in Abe's hand: "You are off work."

Abe put away his coat and hung it in the closet, but didn't go out.He stood there, seemed to be hesitating, and after a while, he took two steps toward Lu Yingru and asked, "Mr. Lu, can I work overtime?"

Lu Yingru sat at the desk without raising her eyes or speaking.

Abe continued to take two steps: "Mr. Lu, you said a few months ago that happiness is a small probability event."

Lu Yingru still didn't raise her eyes: "Do you have any questions?"

"There is no doubt." Abe said, "It's just that I recently revisited probability theory and found a deduction."

Lu Yingru finally turned her head and looked at him.

Abe walked up to Lu Yingru, and met her gaze directly: "If the time is long enough, then any event with a small probability will inevitably happen."

Lu Yingru stared at Abe for a while, then closed her eyes, opened them after a long time, and drank a glass of water.

Abe was still standing in front of the table with a serious face and expectant eyes, as if he was waiting for an answer he didn't know.

Lu Yingru looked at him and smiled: "Abe, are you working overtime today? It's just right, let's drive to see off Zhong Guanbai, or he thought he could get on the high-speed rail with two geese cages."

Chapter69【"Ballade No.4 in Fminor, Op.52"-Frédéric Chopin】

Zhong Guanbai carried two luxurious goose cages, and when he walked to the gate of the courtyard, he darted in, because the courtyard was almost exactly the same as Wen Yuean's small courtyard in the suburbs of Beijing, except for the surrounding plants.He was used to walking around this kind of place, he almost regarded it as his own home, and he was thinking about the phone call with Lu Yingru all the way, so his mind was not focused on his feet.

"Teacher Zhong is here." After walking two steps, He Yinxu, who was wearing a white coat, came out of the small building. His black hair was past his waist, his lips were red and his teeth were white, and his eyes were slightly bent when he smiled.

"Student Xiaohe, didn't you go to school?" Zhong Guanbai also laughed.

"Well, come back from vacation for a week, and be with my father." He Yinxu saw Zhong Guanbai holding two huge cages covered with cloth in his hands, and said, "Let me get them, eh, is this a gift for Mr. Wen?" ?”

"Student Xiaohe, these are your two senior nephews. I hope you will treat them well." Zhong Guanbai said as he lifted the cover of the cage.

He Yin Xu Ben bent down curiously to look at it, and was startled by the two groups of white objects that could make noises at close range. When he regained his composure, he saw that they were two swans, and his face flushed a little. , I love it in my heart, I want to touch it but dare not.

Zhong Guanbai kept holding the cage close to He Yinxu's body, but he heard "Abai" before he could do anything.He immediately looked towards the door, at this time He Yulou was pushing Wen Yuean out of the room, Wen Yuean was wearing a pair of blue thin cotton jacket, holding a lacquered wooden snack box in his hand, and said: "Come and have some snacks."

Zhong Guanbai stuffed the goose cage into He Yinxu's hand, and ran to Wen Yue'an, but it was only a few steps away, and he asked while running, "What's delicious?"

Walking closer, holding the food box, he praised Wen Yuean's cooking skills. Seeing that both Wen Yuean and He Yulou looked good, he introduced him and Lu Zaoqiu's two geese. Then, while eating snacks, he exaggerated the sad history of the two geese, saying that the two white dumplings are Lu Zaoqiu's treasures, etc., and they want to be raised as sons, but Beijing is too cold in winter to keep the geese by his side. Keep it in the south, and wait for the spring to warm up before taking it back.

Wen Yue'an and He Yulou knew that most of Zhong Guanbai's words would be discounted, but they just indulged him, saying that they would raise him here if they wanted to, and someone would take care of him, but He Yinxu believed the whole story, and said: "Mr. Zhong, Then let me drive you to the lake later. Whenever I come, I will feed them."

Zhong Guanbai heard this, and quickly stopped delivering snacks to his mouth, and while there were still a few left in the food box, he waved at He Yin: "Student Xiaohe, let's eat together, come eat together."

He Yinxu didn't want to go, he was worried about the swan, and went to find grain and water, put the goose cage in a safe place, and then went to find others.

When he entered the room, He Yulou and Zhong Guanbai were chatting, Zhong Guanbai was talking about something, there was no hint of a joke in his tone, and his expression was not relaxed, he stopped talking when he saw him coming in.In Zhong Guanbai's eyes, He Yinxu is still a child, and many things are not suitable to say in front of him.

After dinner, He Yinxu and Zhong Guanbai took the goose to the lake.Zhong Guanbai asked He Yinxu to take a photo with him and the two geese. After confirming that the people and the geese in the photo looked very happy, he sent it to Lu Zaoqiu with a postscript: The geese are spending their winter vacation here. I will soon just come back.

He Yinxu said, "Mr. Zhong, can you take a photo of me too?"

Zhong Guanbai was still staring at the phone screen waiting for Lu Zaoqiu's reply, and continued, "Who do you want to send it to?"

He Yin replied generously, "My girlfriend."

"What?" Zhong Guanbai was taken aback, "Student Xiaohe, do you know what girlfriend means?"

He Yinxu nodded: "I know."

Zhong Guan Bai squinted, looking like a wolf with a big tail: "It's not just a little friend who just plays the piano together."

He Yinxu: "She doesn't study music, she studies mathematics."

Zhong Guanbai suddenly became extremely curious: "If you have any photos, let Teacher Zhong take a look."

He Yinxu opened a Facebook page.The profile picture on the home page is a photo of a fifteen or sixteen-year-old girl in ski equipment, standing alone on a white snow-capped mountain, with short hair that doesn't reach the ear, dark skin, and a pair of clear and bright eyes, very energetic.But the most eye-catching thing is not this photo, but the qualifications on the homepage - this little girl is studying for a Ph.D. in mathematics in the United States.

Zhong Guanbai immediately didn't dare to look at He Yinxu like a child: "How do you know each other?"

"A month ago, we all went to Pollini's recital and listened to him play Chopin." He Yinxu said, "We happened to be sitting next to each other."

Zhong Guanbai clicked his tongue twice: "Is this your girlfriend?"

Only then did He Yinxu's ears turn slightly red: "After the concert, she was about to leave the venue, and she sighed that she couldn't get enough of it. I didn't want her to hear enough, so I said...Actually, Chopin...I can play it too."

When Zhong Guanbai heard this, he almost wanted to applaud He Yinxu, and thought that he would invite Lu Zaoqiu to listen to the piano solo next time.

It just so happened that Lu Zaoqiu replied: "Okay, I'll pick you up then."

Zhong Guanbai hurriedly typed: Let's go to the concert when I come back.

Lu Zaoqiu: Good.

Zhong Guanbai happily put away his phone, and took He Yinxu's phone to take a picture of him.The long-haired boy happened to be squatting by the lake to feed the swans, his long hair hanging down to the lake, like a painting.He Yinxu took a lot of pictures, and He Yinxu looked at them for a long time, and in the end he only sent out one that usually stood by the lake and smiled, saying that he was afraid that the others were not manly enough.

On the way back, Zhong Guanbai kept asking He Yinxu why he liked him and what he liked about him, which was very annoying.

He Yin Xu answered honestly with a blushing face. He liked her for being generous, hearty, cute, and smart, and liked listening to her talk about the relationship between classical music and mathematics.

Zhong Guanbai couldn't stop laughing when he heard this, he couldn't close his mouth and kept clicking his tongue.When getting out of the car, he asked with a smirk and lowered his voice: "Does Mr. He know about this? Do you want to keep it a secret?"

"Father knows." He Yinxu hurriedly avoided Zhong Guanbai as soon as he got out of the car, fearing that he would ask for more details.

When Zhong Guanbai entered the courtyard, Xiao He had disappeared.When he walked into the small building, only He Yulou was reading a book in the living room. Seeing Zhong Guanbai come in, he whispered: "Yuean is taking a nap." He signaled him not to make noise.

Zhong Guanbai walked lightly to the bookshelf, took a book, and looked at it.But he had something on his mind, and most of the books on the bookshelf were difficult, and he couldn't even read the one he picked. He managed to read a few lines, but the words caught his eyes but didn't enter his mind, as if he didn't know them at all.Zhong Guanbai tried several times but failed to finish the first page, and he didn't want to load it again, so he returned the book to the shelf.

He Yulou glanced at him, closed the book in his hand, and said in a low voice, "Go for a walk."

Zhong Guanbai knew he had to continue what he hadn't finished before, so he followed behind He Yulou.

He walked out all the way, thinking about Lu Yingru's last words on the phone.For some reason, he always had a kind of worry. Lu Yingru told him this matter, not just the two reasons she mentioned.Zhong Guanbai is not afraid of being told by Lu Yingru that he is not smart, but he is also determined enough not to be unable to stand up because he has failed others.His fear was that these announcements might be some kind of farewell.He was afraid that something unexpected would happen to Lu Yingru, although there were no signs, at least no obvious signs.

But he did have a kind of fear when Lu Yingru said those few words.

"When Yue'an wakes up and sees you like this, I have to worry." He Yulou said after walking out of the courtyard for a long time.

Zhong Guanbai fell behind He Yulou, responded, and said, "I won't worry the teacher." If he could cheer up in front of He Yinxu, he would definitely be able to cheer up in front of Wen Yuean.

He Yulou slowed down a step, and walked side by side with Zhong Guanbai: "Tell me, what happened to the question about mental illness?"

Zhong Guanbai didn't know how to answer, he couldn't repeat Lu Yingru's original words: People who always go crazy should be sent to a mental hospital.

After all, he still thinks that this is Lu Zaoqiu's family affair, no matter how bad it is, he can't tell others.Don't say that He Yulou is not good, even when Wen Yuean is in good health, he can't tell Wen Yuean.Lu Zaoqiu's family affairs should be stopped when he comes to Zhong Guanbai, because he is part of the Lu family to a certain extent, and it can't be forgotten if he takes a step outside.

So he can only ask He Yulou about the method, what needs to be done to send his immediate family members to the mental hospital, and how difficult it is.Because Lu Huaichuan himself would definitely not go to see a doctor by himself.In other words, can Lu Huaichuan's state be considered a mental illness?Zhong Guanbai couldn't be sure, he recalled the few times he got along with Lu Huaichuan in the past, although it was indeed not good, it can't be said that he had a mental problem, but then he thought about Lu Huaichuan's certain relationship with Lu Zaoqiu in the information that Lu Yingru gave him. These behaviors, some sudden changes that seem to be out of his own control, are indeed not like a normal person.

Maybe Zhong Guanbai's trace of fear comes from this uncertainty.

Lu Huaichuan has not reached the point where he has to be imprisoned in a mental hospital, but once Lu Yingru starts to act, he must successfully prove that he is ill, because if he cannot be sent in, then she and Lu Zaoqiu will not know what is waiting for her.Even if she succeeds, if Lu Huaichuan was imprisoned for a lifetime because of a wrong diagnosis, can the rest of them really be worthy of their lives?

Walking to a crossroad, Zhong Guanbai stopped.

"Don't say it if you don't want to." He Yulou also stopped, "But don't be brave."

Zhong Guanbai really couldn't figure it out, so he asked vaguely: "Mr. He, if I have a relative who may be mentally ill, and I don't want to see a doctor, but everyone around me wants to send him to a mental hospital, what should I do?" As soon as the question was asked, Zhong Guanbai felt that it was wrong. Such a specific matter, simplified to such an absurd question, could not be answered at all.

He Yulou didn't care about this poorly asked question, and replied: "The identification of mental illness is not so easy. Even if the immediate family members raise it, the patient needs to cooperate. The equipment detects whether the brain is diseased, and the doctor conducts an interview with the patient. These are very difficult to do without the patient's cooperation." He knew something about this when he was looking for He Yuge back then. Guan Bai said it.

He Yulou talked for a while, and Zhong Guanbai asked some more questions, and he didn't know if he could get to the point.Finally, when Zhong Guanbai didn't ask any more questions, He Yulou glanced at his watch, and it was almost time for Wen Yuean to wake up, so he said, "It's time to go back."

The two returned the same way.

The way back seemed to be more restless than when he came here. Zhong Guanbai walked for a long time, and suddenly asked another question: "Then is there any way to get the patient to actively cooperate?"

He Yulou said: "The relatives persuaded, or consulted the doctor, and asked them to give advice."

Zhong Guanbai asked, "How should relatives persuade me?"

He Yulou thought for a while: "If the patient realizes that it is in his interest to receive diagnosis and treatment, then the situation may be better."

"It's good for him..." At that moment, as if by accident, a thought crashed into Zhong Guanbai's mind, making him break out in a cold sweat. Isn't this the method used by some murderers to escape legal sanctions?