fingers of musicians

After a while, Zhong Guanbai took out an envelope from his pocket.

He wrote on the paper: "Chief Lu, promise me."

Lu Zaoqiu didn't speak, just quietly looked at Zhong Guanbai.

Zhong Guanbai took out the pair of rings that the nurse had handed over to him from the envelope.He was already kneeling on the ground, so in this position, he wrote on the paper: "The ring I ordered hasn't been finished yet, so I proposed with the one you bought."

Looking at the two rings, Lu Zaoqiu frowned.

Zhong Guanbai wrote again: "Is it possible?"

Lu Zaoqiu stared at those three words with complicated expressions, and finally looked at Zhong Guanbai with calm and gentle eyes: "No."

Zhong Guanbai panicked, worried that they would misunderstand each other again, so he wrote down everything he could think of, everything about their first tour on paper.As he wrote, those images flashed through his mind one by one.He suddenly remembered that before they came to France, Lu Zaoqiu looked at the photo album of their first tour, and he casually said to Lu Zaoqiu, "Why wasn't I with you back then."

With a sore heart, he wrote earnestly on the paper: "Chairman Lu, I love you, and I will not change because of anything. I don't want to have that misunderstanding again. You are different from others. I love you. You are different from the past. , I love you too. I’m still the same as before—you can reject me for any reason, but it’s useless anyway.” He wrote in one go, “I will accompany you to dinner, drive you to where you want to go, give You compose, listen to..."

When he wrote the word "listen", his hand trembled suddenly, and the pen fell to the ground with a "snap".

He was supposed to write "Listen to You Playing the Piano".

Zhong Guanbai stared blankly at the word "listen", a tear fell from his eye socket, blurred the word, making it blurry.

Regarding Lu Zaoqiu's sudden deafness, in fact, he did not really accept it.These back and forth dialogues written on paper were like a temporary exercise. Rationally, he was informed of Lu Zaoqiu's condition, but subconsciously, he didn't believe that Lu Zaoqiu was really deaf.

Lu Zaoqiu gently picked up the piece of paper and carefully read the words on it.

Zhong Guanbai didn't dare to snatch the paper from Lu Zaoqiu's hand, but he was worried that Lu Zaoqiu would have a big reaction after reading it, but Lu Zaoqiu just stared at the paper in a daze.

He was reading the past written by Zhong Guanbai.

After a long time, Lu Zaoqiu called out, "Guan Bai."

Zhong Guanbai subconsciously responded to him.

Lu Zaoqiu seemed to be thinking about something, "In the past, Xiao Yu said that I should treat you better."

Zhong Guanbai shook his head, Lu Zaoqiu could not have treated him better.

"Tang Xiaoli also said that he wants me to treat you better."

Zhong Guanbai kept shaking his head.

"Actually," Lu Zaoqiu said softly, "I don't care that much about ED, and it doesn't matter if I'm laughed at by others."

"It's just that when I think about it, you are so good, but you have less things than others..." Lu Zaoqiu's voice became softer, "I feel very sad."

The low voice reached Zhong Guan Bai's ears like a roar.Word by word, like a giant steel beast passing by, crushing every inch of his body, including the viscera and internal organs.

"So, now that it's like this, I can't convince myself to agree to you." Lu Zaoqiu raised his hand to wipe Zhong Guanbai's tears, "Okay, don't cry."

Zhong Guanbai felt like a seven-inch snake being pinched by someone, unable to move, he picked up the pen stiffly from the ground, took another piece of paper, and wrote: "I have nothing less than others, I am more than anyone else." They have a lot. Chief Lu, think about it the other way around, if it was me lying here today, would you propose to me?"

Lu Zaoqiu looked at the line and didn't speak for a long time.

Zhong Guanbai suddenly thought, probably, there is no such possibility at all, because Lu Zaoqiu would never let him lie there, Lu Zaoqiu would always just block everything and protect him.He was about to write something more when he heard the nurse's voice.

Zhong Guanbai looked up, it was the nurse who opened the lock of the ward from the outside.

Lu Yingru followed behind the nurse.

The nurse pushed the machine over, measured Lu Zaoqiu's blood pressure, looked at his pupils, and said that everything was fine, and she would come back tomorrow morning.

Lu Yingru walked over, Zhong Guanbai silently handed her the pen and paper, closed the door of the ward, and went out.

Lu Yingru lowered her head and saw the paragraph on the paper: "I have nothing less than others, I have more than anyone else. Chief Lu, think about it the other way around, if it was me lying here today, would you propose to me?" ?”

Lu Zaoqiu looked at Lu Yingru, and answered the question that Zhong Guanbai had not answered just now: "I will."

Lu Yingru quickly wrote a few lines of words on the paper. The words were self-contained and had a strong character, "You can't. If it were you, you would definitely not pick such a time to propose marriage."

She knew Lu Zaoqiu too well, and knew that Lu Zaoqiu's "I will" was just to cover up Zhong Guanbai's inconsiderateness.

Lu Zaoqiu was silent for a while, "I just think he's so direct, I just think it's cute. Just now," there was a trace of tenderness in his eyes, "I almost agreed."

Lu Zaoqiu never said this kind of thing to Lu Yingru. It should be said that no one in the Lu family talked like this. Lu Yingru didn't know what to answer for a while, so he ignored it and wrote instead: "You need to rest, stop talking. I will simply write to you Explain the situation. I talked to the doctor, and I will have an examination tomorrow morning. If the situation is not good, I will transfer to another hospital. I talked to Lin Kai on the phone, and he cooperates with the best ENT hospital here."

Lu Zaoqiu nodded.

"I got the casualty list from the embassy and flew over from Paris, and I have to fly back to Paris in two hours." Lu Yingru finished writing quickly. Seeing Lu Zaoqiu lying there weakly, her heart ached, so she wrote another sentence, "Go to sleep." , I look at you."

Lu Zaoqiu was in low spirits, talking so much with Zhong Guanbai was already trying to hold on, he closed his eyes tiredly, but frowned, it didn't look like he was resting at ease.After a while, he opened his eyes worriedly and called out in a low voice, "Sister."

Lu Yingru asked with his eyes.

"You... don't embarrass him."

Lu Zaoqiu doesn't ask for help.

In Lu Yingru's memory, he only said this twice.

The last time was more than 20 years ago, when the young Lu Zaoqiu hugged his violin, stood barefoot in the corner of the wall, and said to his furious father, "You...don't smash my violin."

Lu Yingru, who was already taller than Lu Zaoqiu, stood in front of Lu Zaoqiu in a decent dress, "Dad, this is too ugly. There are still many guests waiting for you downstairs. Besides, with me, isn't it enough?" .”

Her expression is calm, her voice is full of confidence, and her momentum is already like an adult who lifts weight lightly. Only the young Lu Zaoqiu can see that her hands behind her back are shaking slightly.

After his father turned and left, Lu Yingru also left.

"Sister." The young Lu Zaoqiu whispered behind Lu Yingru, "...Thank you."

Lu Yingru paused, then walked back, picked up the slippers that fell on the ground, carefully put them on for Lu Zaoqiu, then lowered her head and said to Lu Zaoqiu word by word: "Zaoqiu, remember, there must always be someone in our family, You can do what you love and be who you want to be.”

Lu Yingru withdrew his thoughts, sighed lightly, nodded, and walked out the door.

"Sister." Lu Zaoqiu said behind her, "...Thank you."

Lu Yingru turned her head, Lu Zaoqiu was looking at her.In fact, his outline is already that of a mature man. For some reason, Lu Yingru still feels that at that glance, he looks a bit like when he was a child.

She smiled very rarely, and walked out the door.

Zhong Guanbai was waiting outside the door, Lu Yingru said to him: "Go in and accompany Zaoqiu."

Zhong Guanbai responded.

Lu Yingru said: "Zhong Guanbai, if I were you, I would first consider Chu Qiu's body, then his career, and finally discuss my relationship with him."

Zhong Guanbai was taken aback.

Lu Yingru looked at him for a while, then softened her tone: "It doesn't matter whether I like you or not. The Lu family didn't like anything that Lu Zaoqiu liked since childhood."

She finished speaking and left.

Zhong Guanbai looked at Lu Yingru's leaving back, that figure was like some kind of weapon, powerful, cold and lonely.

When Zhong Guanbai entered, Lu Zaoqiu had already fallen asleep, and the overly quiet sleeping position almost made him feel scared.

He went to ask the nurse for a set of clean hospital gowns, then tidied up in the bathroom of the ward, and quietly lay down on another bed.

He looked at Lu Zaoqiu's profile and thought, maybe Ying Ru's sister was right, he was too anxious to prove that no matter what happened, there would be no change between them.But what is lying in front of him now is already a different Lu Zaoqiu from before.

Thinking about it this way, Lu Zaoqiu is much stronger than him.

After his performance accident, Lu Zaoqiu said to him: "If you play like this, I won't comfort you."

Lu Zaoqiu will not prove anything to Zhong Guanbai, nor will he comfort him, Lu Zaoqiu will only say: "Start from the beginning."

Then he took Zhong Guanbai away, and silently accompanied him to practice the piano.

Lu Zaoqiu has always been like that, like the only surviving tree in a bitter cold place, calm and tenacious, unshakable.

Zhong Guanbai quietly got off the bed, and kissed Lu Zaoqiu on the forehead.

Lu Zaoqiu, if you go to a different place, I will be like you and bring you back to me.

When Lu Zaoqiu opened his eyes the next day, Zhong Guanbai was sitting beside the bed waiting for him with a sketchbook and a pencil in his hand.

Seeing him wake up, Zhong Guanbai picked up the sketchbook and opened the first page.

There are stick figures drawn on it, and text is also added.

A little man with the same hairstyle as Zhong Guanbai was holding a toothbrush cup and a toothbrush, beside which was written: "Chief Lu, brush your teeth."

Next to it, another little Zhong Guan Bai was holding a mug with the text: "The doctor said that you can't eat this morning, but you can drink water."

Lu Zaoqiu touched the little Zhong Guan Bai on the paper, and seemed to like it very much.

Zhong Guanbai handed Lu Zaoqiu the toothbrush filled with toothpaste and water cup, and turned another page in the sketchbook.

After Lu Zaoqiu finished brushing his teeth, he raised his head, and there was a dialogue box next to the mouth of the little Zhong Guanbai in the sketchbook: "The big Zhong Guanbai is not happy."

Lu Zaoqiu put down the toothbrush and quilt, and patted Dazhong Guanbai's head again.

Zhong Guanbai grabbed Lu Zaoqiu's hand, kissed the back of his hand lightly, and then turned over a page of the sketchbook.

There is a little Zhong Guanbai with a very shy expression on it, with the text: "Um, Chief Lu, do you want to go to the toilet? The doctor said you can't get out of bed, so Dazhong Guanbai learned from the nurse how to help you... His pleasure."

Lu Zaoqiu looked at Zhong Guanbai, Zhong Guanbai was serious.

When it came time to solve the problem, Zhong Guanbai looked serious, but he did not take advantage of what he should have taken.

Lu Zaoqiu said, "You...well, let go."

Zhong Guanbai withdrew his hand, cleaned up, held up the sketchbook, and turned a page.

Above is the shy little Zhong Guanbai, with the accompanying text: "Chairman Lu, are you satisfied with the service of Dazhong Guanbai? A. Satisfied; B. Satisfied; C. Satisfied; D. Satisfied."

Lu Zaoqiu didn't speak, but there was a smile in his eyes unconsciously.

Zhong Guanbai turned another page, a little Zhong Guanbai was wearing a stethoscope, with the text: "Chief Lu, if you are ready, we can go for an examination."

Lu Zaoqiu nodded, the smile in his eyes gradually dissipated.

Zhong Guanbai looked at Lu Zaoqiu's face, and quickly turned another page of the sketchbook.

In the sketchbook, there is a pitiful little Zhong Guanbai and a stern-faced little Lu Zaoqiu.Xiao Zhong Guan Bai said to Xiao Lu Zaoqiu: "If you behave well, I will kiss you." Xiao Lu Zaoqiu nodded sternly.

Zhong Guan looked at Lu Zaoqiu eagerly, and Lu Zaoqiu had a little helplessness in his eyes: "Okay, let's go for an examination."

Zhong Guanbai forcefully kissed Lu Zaoqiu on the cheek, and then went to call the nurse.He and the nurse pushed the movable bed and accompanied Lu Zaoqiu to do HRCT.

The test is quick, but it takes a while to wait for the results.

Zhong Guanbai held up the sketchbook, and the little Zhong Guanbai on it said: "Chief Lu, we have a quiz, please take it."

On the next page, little Zhong Guanbai tilted his head and asked, "Chief Lu, who do you like the most? A. Zhong Guanbai; B. Guan Bai; C. Abai; D. Baibai."

Lu Zaoqiu took the sketchbook from Zhong Guanbai's hand.

The thick book is almost full of drawings, almost all of Lu Zaoqiu's day-to-day life arrangements are drawn on the book.

Lu Zaoqiu looked at Zhong Guanbai, his eyes were so soft that they seemed to melt away: "Did you sleep last night?"

Zhong Guanbai was stunned, he didn't expect this question, so he didn't draw, so he shook his head at Lu Zaoqiu.

Lu Zaoqiu turned back to "Chairman Lu, who do you like best? A. Zhong Guanbai; B. Guan Bai; C. Abai; D. Baibai." and said to Zhong Guanbai: "Pencil."

Zhong Guanbai handed the pen to Lu Zaoqiu, and Lu Zaoqiu wrote in the notebook: "ABCD".

Even though he came up with the question himself, Zhong Guanbai was still a little embarrassed.He cheekily turned the sketchbook to the back, and on the back page it was written: "Chief Lu, ABCD and CD are all correct options. I will give you [-] points. Reward: Recite poems."

Zhong Guanbai bent down, with sparkling eyes, and said to Lu Zaoqiu: "Chief Lu, you are—"

He just opened his mouth when he suddenly panicked.

Lu Zaoqiu couldn't hear it.

This matter is far from being as easy to get used to as he imagined.

Lu Zaoqiu saw Zhong Guanbai's panic in his eyes, he didn't say anything, just gave Zhong Guanbai a deep and long kiss as he usually did when he stopped Zhong Guanbai from reciting poems.

"Cough." The doctor in charge of the examination came out of the room, holding a file bag in his hand, "Gentlemen, the results are out."

Zhong Guanbai walked over immediately, blocked Lu Zaoqiu's sight with his body, looked at the doctor almost threateningly, and asked, "It's a good result, isn't it?"