all sunsets in my world

There are still two days before Qingheng officially starts school.

There were two rings on the neat suit, he bought it for He Wen, and the other was bought by He Wen for him.He Cheng lowered his head, sliding his fingertips over the clothes. He smiled lightly, imagining He Wen standing in front of him in this suit...it must be very handsome.

He locked the door of the bedroom, Yin Rou was worried that he had something to do and had been wandering outside the door, He Cheng lowered his head and said that he was going to have a haircut, Yin Rou wanted to take him there, He Cheng acquiesced.

Passing by a flower shop, there are delicate and vigorous gardenias in the window, as white as jade and graceful, He Cheng went in and bought a few bunches, Yin Rou talked to him with a smile: "Cheng Cheng likes gardenias."

He Cheng looked down and said nothing.

After returning home, it was already noon, and Yin Rou was going to the kitchen to cook, but there was no food or rice. He Cheng watched from the side, and said, "I want to eat braised fish, pork rib soup, and rice."

Yin Rou hurriedly nodded, with a troubled expression on her face again: "But there is no... Old Crane at home, you go out and buy some!"

He Zhiming got up to drive out, He Cheng turned around, and said in a flat voice, "Mom, you and Dad can go together."

"This... how can you do it alone?"

"I'm fine. I'm missing a lot of things at home. I still want to eat oranges. Dad can't finish them. I'll wait for you at home. I'm not going anywhere."

Yin Rou looked at him: "Really?"

He Cheng's eyelashes trembled, and he looked at her without answering.

He was too quiet during this time, and Yin Rou's defensive mentality has gradually diminished a lot, and it is rare for Hecheng to ask what he wants to eat today, she nodded in agreement, looked back at him before going out, and repeatedly told him: " Don't run around, Mom and Dad will be back soon."

He Cheng stood there, stretched out his hand and waved it, and with a "bang", the door was closed.

The bed in the bedroom was tidy, and the two suits and rings, along with the person, were gone.

……

When people are very young, people have no memory - so that I thought about this ridiculous thing carefully, that is why people can't have the ability to remember things in those years when they were young. At that time, after thinking about it, I thought it was outrageous... It was me Ridiculously stupid.

But I’m still wondering why I can’t have the memories of when I was a child, even if the first thing I see may be my biological mother who wrapped me up and threw me in an abandoned factory—then I have to start from the same age. From the beginning, I remember the teenager who appeared in my life and changed my life.

He is very good-looking, with such an indifferent and handsome face, I don't think he can laugh, but he still showed that kind of helplessness, and carefully hugged me into his arms, I stopped crying, so he smiled softly stand up.

I like his smile, I like his smile the most.

I have had the happiest time since then, I have a home.

Now 19 years have passed, but I still feel very short.

The person who has been by my side from the beginning to the end - to be honest, I don't think it's long.

I want him to be with me all the time, oh no, I want to be with him forever.

People are often impressed by unforgettable or extremely regrettable things, and I am no exception. What I remember is the warmth from his palms and his forbearing and tough protection.

Too bad I didn't find out so late.

It's a pity... This happy time is so stingy in my life, it seems to be set by someone, and everything will come to an abrupt end after that number, no matter how much I beg, it will leave me.

It didn't look back, and it didn't miss it at all.

It took away the person who had always protected me and loved me.

I can't imagine my life without him - and it happened.

I have no way to start a new life, because without him, I can't see the way ahead.

……

The car that crazily hit me from a distance that day, pushed me away recklessly, and the figures in the air fell heavily, accompanied by the bright red blood sprinkled in the air...and you, the last look at me.

I am sorry.

Brother, I'm sorry, I can't forget.

I force myself to fall asleep, every day and every night without you, every day and every night in this world where you don’t exist, but I always wake up quietly, it’s still dark outside, I look at the ceiling, I turn around Overhead, surrounded by empty bedding.

Why are you gone.

Why are you not here, why are you not here?

The weather in September is blowing with a cool wind, the sun is slowly setting, and it is no longer the sunlight that makes people unable to look directly——

The dusk of the sunset is unbelievably beautiful, and the subtle sunset red gradually spreads from the sky, plating a golden layer on the people in the photo.

There was no one in the cemetery at the moment, and He Wen's tombstone was cleaned very cleanly. He Cheng was wearing that white suit, holding a white gardenia in his hand, and looking at the black and white photo.

He Wen doesn't like to smile very much, and this photo is also expressionless, staring at him.

He Cheng shed tears in the wind, reached out to touch his cold photo, and murmured: "Brother, I'm here to see you."

"Can you see me? I'm wearing the suit you customized for me." He Cheng folded another suit and put it on his tombstone, tried to smile, and said, "I also brought yours." I really want to see how you wear it, it will definitely fascinate many people..."

"I also brought the wedding invitation, it's so beautiful..."

"...What a pity." The only answer to him was the sound of the wind blowing violently on the mountain.

He Cheng was choked with crying, and lightly rested his head on He Wen's tombstone, knocking again and again, without reducing his strength, tears slid down the bridge of his nose, He Cheng said: "Why...they always say I did something wrong, always They say I killed you, they always say we deserve it, can you tell me what you and I did wrong! What did I do wrong!"

He cried hysterically and yelled hysterically.The old He Wen would comfort him, the old He Wen couldn't see him cry, the old He Wen tried his best not to let him bear it.

"Bang bang, bang——" He Cheng closed his eyes and bumped his head against his tombstone, as if he didn't feel any pain, he just cried, "Brother, I miss you so much..."

Their relationship was not supported from the very beginning, and He Cheng didn't know at that time that those ugly words were just the beginning.

Because of these, he became afraid to express his love for He Wen outside. When he was afraid, He Wen protected him with love. At that time, He Cheng realized that his shrinking back and fear was too unfair to He Wen.

When I went to City C, I met a few lovely classmates who would support him with a smile, praise him, and wish him true love forever.

That was the first time Hecheng was moved and wanted to cry.

But he always felt like he was useless.

Although some people are not very friendly to them, there are always people in the world who treat them with a smile on their face, which is enough, and they are not greedy.

He always told himself, believe in the world, believe in the person he loves, try to love, don't care about gossip, go forward bravely, things are not that bad, don't need to scare yourself.

He Cheng still believes in the person he loves, and works hard to live, but words are like arrows, hitting him from all directions, hitting his legs, back, and scratching the skin on his arms.

He was bruised and bruised, and he had to listen to their bad words.

Being despised and ridiculed by others, being abused and despised by others.Parents who love them can't lift their heads, and when they go out, they have to bear the gazes from all directions, and the disgusted look in their eyes makes him dare not look.

Those who say hurtful and selfish "advice" and those who say it is "for your own good".

Is this wrong?Was it so unacceptable?

He naively thought that it was enough not to care about other people's eyes, but the reality always prevented them from indulging in their own world.Among the arrows coming from all directions, one shot straight into He Wen's heart, and He Cheng watched him fall to the ground and die in his arms.

He Cheng thought of He Wen's painful eyes, he closed them, it was too deep to forget.

Is anyone really strong enough to be invincible?I'm afraid he can't see it when he is sad alone.

Now He Cheng still believes in the person he loves, but he no longer believes in this world.

The skin on his forehead was scratched, and He Cheng was holding a few bunches of fresh gardenias in his hand. He placed it beside the tombstone, reached out to pick up the ring, and slowly put it on his ring finger.

He smiled, raised his hand to show He Wen, smiled but cried: "Brother, I'm married to you!"

He Wen's photo was watching him silently, and He Cheng choked up and asked again: "... Can you see it? Cheng Cheng married you, can you see it?"

"Don't leave me, brother..."

There was a ring and a few bouquets of gardenias on the black suit. It was quiet, only He Cheng's cries and whispers could be heard all around: "I'm coming, wait for me, don't go too fast..."

"I love your brother, I love you."

Nothing can stop me from loving you.

19 years of being dependent on each other, I am willing to depend on you for life and death.

Brother, there is no room for us here, so let's meet in another place.

I love you in heaven and hell.

Nothing can stop me from loving you.

He Cheng leaned on He Wen's tombstone, the marks on his wrist hadn't disappeared, and now there was a shocking wound, bleeding out, like a delicate rose, dazzling with a bloody smell.

……

—I knew you would come.

When He Wen knew that he couldn't survive, he lay half of his body in He Cheng's arms, his body was covered with blood, his hands were sticky, and he touched He Cheng's face with a bloody smell.

He smiled, but blood overflowed from his mouth, he looked at He Cheng, and just said: "Cheng Cheng... don't be afraid."

——Chengcheng, don't be afraid, there is a brother here.

They try to live, try not to care about other people's eyes, try to live, and try to believe that love in this world must be greater than hate, but what did they get in the end?

Until the last moment, He Wen didn't say that sentence to He Cheng: You must live well.Because he knew that neither of them could do without them.

Because he knew he would come.

The pure white gardenia was stained with bright red blood, He Cheng's hand was hanging powerlessly by his side, and the watch on his wrist had been removed and put on the suit.

He Cheng was lying in front of his tombstone. In a daze, he seemed to see a figure appearing in front of him. The man looked like seven or eight years old, wearing a simple white T and shorts, holding a baby in his arms. Knowing how to coax her, she was a little at a loss, but she was afraid that the baby in her arms would fall, so she hugged her tightly with both hands.

Hecheng learned to walk when he was ten months old. Although he fell down during the period, the child forgot the pain after taking the lollipop. His eyes were dark and bright, and he was babbling, and his eyes were full of innocence. shine.

"elder brother……"

One-year-old He Cheng learned to call people, and the first one he called was "Brother". He Wen squatted in front of him for a long time in a daze, then happily hugged him and kissed him.

The two-year-old He Cheng ran around the yard. He Wen would always come out to have a look at him when he was cooking, but he found that the vegetables grown in the garden had been uprooted by the little guy.

Three-year-old He Cheng was held in his arms by He Zhiming. He Zhiming and Yin Rou teased him. He held a rattle in his arms and opened his eyes. He was not very familiar with the couple in front of him. He Wen watched from the side, Xiaoxiao didn't speak, and reached out to take Hecheng in his arms.

The four-year-old Hecheng still can't accept the life in the kindergarten. Every time before sending him to school, he would hold Hewen's hand and cry for a while. go home.

Five-year-old He Cheng is lively and active. He finished his school homework early, bought a card book with pocket money, made a greeting card himself, and drew two people, one tall and one short, with the words: Brother and Cheng Cheng .

Six-year-old Hecheng was eating with his parents at home, Yin Rou teased him, Hecheng was silly, there were oranges on the table, he peeled the oranges himself, ran to the kitchen, and fed them into Hewen's mouth on tiptoe.

Seven-year-old He Cheng was seriously ill. He Wen asked for leave from school to take care of him at home. He Cheng fell asleep and felt very comfortable resting on his chest. He muttered "Brother", He Wen agreed, and he fell asleep peacefully.

Eight-year-old He Cheng is the top student in the class. His teacher likes him, but his classmates like to bully him.

Nine-year-old He Cheng had a fight with her classmates, which alarmed the teacher. The teacher wanted to call the parents, but He Cheng grabbed her hand and begged not to tell He Wen.He Wen never knew about this. The reason for He Cheng's fight was because his classmates insulted him.

Ten-year-old Hecheng celebrates his birthday with a sumptuous meal as usual. He Zhiming and Yin Rou are too busy to come back from work. There is a cake with candles on the table. He Wen sings a happy birthday song to him. Hecheng carefully cuts it. He stretched out his hand to bring the cake to his mouth, and said: Brother, you eat.

The 11-year-old Hecheng No. 1 in the final exam was very happy to receive his report card, and jumped into the house. Unfortunately, Hewen hadn't finished school yet, so he stayed in Hewen's house for two hours.

12-year-old He Cheng was walking down the street holding He Wen's arm. He was hungry and wanted to eat pure milk bread. banyan tree.

The 13-year-old He Cheng finally saw that He Wen had a birthday and wanted to give him a birthday present. He touched his pocket and had no money, frowning.

The 14-year-old Hecheng was blocked by a group of girls after school, and the reason was that they wanted Hewen's contact information. Hecheng said angrily that he didn't know, and was chased all the way by the girls again.

15-year-old He Cheng saw a girl standing in front of He Wen with shy eyes. He felt unexplainable discomfort in his heart. He frowned and watched the girl reach out to hold He Wen's hand. Wen dodged lightly.

16-year-old Hecheng was hit by an electric car on his way to school and rolled several times on the ground, surrounded by people.When He Wen arrived, seeing that he was fine, he hugged him fiercely into his arms.

The 17-year-old He Cheng felt strange, because He Wen didn't let him sleep in the same bed with him, and it didn't seem to work for him to play and roll. Because of this, He Cheng was so angry that he didn't want to eat properly for several days.

The Hecheng finally found that he fell in love with He Wen, and the Hecheng became irresistible, and the Hecheng heard the abuse and ridicule from other people, but no matter it was before or after, Hecheng would never regret it.

19-year-old He Cheng was wearing a white suit, and standing in front of him was He Wen, who was wearing a black suit. Yushu Linfeng, with a gentle smile, stretched out his hand to him.

He Cheng passed his hand over, as if he heard He Wen's voice: "I knew you would come."

Because we exist for each other.

It's sunset, let's go home.

He smiled and slowly closed his eyes.

At the same time, the official blog of Qingheng University responded.

——Our school has always been adhering to the concept of "people-oriented, goodness first" and rejecting "discrimination" and "unfair treatment".

Homosexuality is not guilty.

Here, on behalf of all teachers and students, I warmly welcome Hecheng to settle in our school.

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The author has something to say:

Thank you for reading, each article is a process of recording and self-improvement, grasping the brain hole and becoming a story.Reading is fate, I hope everyone is happy every day.

PS: The suit my brother ordered from M-Dream is from the famous designer You Zhi, which is also the subject in the next article.

"Sui Sui He Nian Nian" You Ye's X calligraphy.Next year HE, past life and present life, those who are interested can take a look.

Thanks again for watching.