left hand writing love

Mr. Qian Zhongshu said in the siege that long-term acquaintances will not accumulate into love over time, just like every day in winter, you can’t add today’s temperature to yesterday’s, so that tomorrow will accumulate into a warm spring day.

I read the book at home and prepared for the postgraduate entrance examination.There is still one month left until registration.The first test is in mid-December.So there is not much time to prepare.Read political books.Also look at the second foreign language.So it was really stressful.But I feel at ease with this familiar sense of urgency.Sure enough, when you get busy, you don't have to think about anything.Most of the so-called love at this age cannot afford responsibility.Most of it is to pass the emptiness and boredom.We have never undertaken the consequences of breaking our promises, so love is unscrupulous.But I can't because I've already reaped the consequences.It's best to be alone.When you can't hold on to others, then hold on to yourself.I would rather solve it with my right hand, but I won't make an appointment like I did in college.Regarding the postgraduate entrance examination, some people have prepared for a year, some have only prepared for a few months, some are lucky, and some are unlucky.But these have already been taken care of for me. If I fail this initial test, I don't want to take the postgraduate entrance examination again.I am ready to submit my resume everywhere, and treat myself as a dish in a restaurant for people to choose.Don't show mercy to false people, just care about food and clothing.

Hello?fly.Well I'm back.How did you know.Did my mother say that?Well where did you meet my mom.oh.Well, I am now preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination.Haha, um, how are you doing now.Well sure, tonight.Liu Fei'er can be regarded as a child. He has been playing since he was a child, and he knew very early on that I was crooked.So many things will be told to him.Since I went to college, I left J City, and then went to Korea.He is also busy with his studies.When I went to Korea.He went to New Zealand as an exchange student.He is a language student like me.After the results of the college entrance examination came out, he went abroad for a study tour, so he went his separate ways after that, and hadn't contacted for a long time.He went to J University, so he is very close to home.Face off with old friends you haven't seen in years.I really still have some expectations in my heart, looking forward to whether Liu Feier's appearance and temperament will make my eyes shine.Liu Feier, as my so-called first love.To be precise, it is after bending.My real first love was a girl, in elementary school, maybe too young, but the so-called throbbing in that class was real.I met Liu Feier since I was in junior high school.He was a street bully back then, and I wasn't a white-faced scholar.We just got into a fight for reasons I can't remember right now, just knowing it hurts that kid is awesome and not as feminine as his name.At that time, I was very timid and said not to fight because it was really painful.But he still threw himself on me, even his own black eyes were swollen and blood was left on his face.If it weren't for someone stopping him, I guess it would be difficult for me to live to this day.The funny thing is, after a few months, we became buddies for reasons that I really can't remember.At that time, I foolishly told Liu Feier that I might have feelings for the man, but after that he kept his distance from me.When I went to high school, because the junior high school was the high school attached to the high school, I went straight to the high school. I didn't expect the grandson to do the same. Until the second year of high school, the grandson also took the liberal arts class. I always thought that he should enroll in the science class because he is so brave.People like me who are more timid and timid have signed up for liberal arts classes. There are so few liberal arts classes, so few that we are divided into the same table. The teacher said that in the third year of high school, it is taboo for men and women to sit at the same table, so basically it is men and women. Type, at that time I wanted to ask the teacher if I am crooked, can you replace the person next to me.Liberal arts is to be imaginative and imaginative in the world of words, no matter how bleak it is in real life.Afterwards he apologized to me and said that he should not alienate me. Fortunately, he did not continue to despise me, but fully understood me. I was really touched, so I did a lot of his meals and homework for those two years. of.It turns out that the result of this understanding is that I am going to be a coolie and I am still happy.I feel like I'm a psycho.For me now, even if there are a thousand people who don't understand me, look at me coldly, and belittle me.I don't care anymore.I don't even bother to change other people's views on me.Don't ask others to understand, just ask for a clear conscience.

When I arrived at a restaurant near J University, I heard Liu Feier said it was delicious, so I was called here.The environment is good, it feels like a waterside pavilion.I saw Liu Feier waiting for me at the door.waved to me.You really haven't changed.This is the first sentence he came up.real?Um really.I looked at him, his hair was cut long and shattered, and his hair was dyed dark purple, so he couldn't see it unless he was under the light.The eyes are still slender, the bridge of the nose is high, the shape of the face has changed to that of an oval face, and the lips are still small.Very southern elegance.Compared with high school, this guy has a lot less hostility.how is everything.I patted him.He led me inside.What else can I do, just like that.No way, people who have gone to so many countries can still be the same as they were a few years ago.Is that so, then tell me something is different about me.He looks at me.I was stopped by him for a while.Be handsome.I looked at him sincerely and smiled.Is it, yes.He became handsome, and his temper also changed.You just said that when we met?After living for decades until now, if you can't even hide your emotions, isn't your life in vain?He grinned broadly.Yes, it has been more than ten years, how many masks have been changed, and how many masks have been worn. Only I know the weight of this mask.I smiled awkwardly.After being seated, the food came out quickly.The food here is delicious, I want to bring you here for a meal very early.Then I will discuss why you violated the promise to apply for J University together, and then I can’t contact you, and then I often come here for dinner by myself or with my friends, and I want to bring you here to invite you to dinner, so I don’t plan sue you.Later, I heard that something happened to you and you went to school in South Korea, and you didn't return to City J for many years.I haven't eaten here again until now, when you come back, I will regard it as my wish come true.He smiled at me.I can confess anything now.Feier, the reason why I didn’t apply for J University is because I seem to like you, but I don’t know how to face you. That kind of liking seems to have started when we were fighting, and then I look forward to meeting you, looking forward to talking with you, looking forward to talking to you You waited for the bus to go home together, do you remember? When you were in the first year of high school, your homeroom teacher Ai Tuotang, so I waited for you at the bus stop. You didn’t come until the bus I was waiting for had passed several times, but when I waited for you, I was very happy. Happy, even though the car I was waiting for was the last one and walked home by myself.You didn't even know it at the time.I was waiting for bus 96, and the last shift would be at 7 o'clock, ah, now that I think about it, I'm pretty stupid, don't you think so?After I finished speaking, I looked at Liu Feier, his expression suddenly became serious, and he didn't say a word.I thought he was disgusted, so I said again, no Since so many things happened, my heart has been a taxi for a long time, and there are many people in the car, so it has become numb.I pointed to the seat of my heart.I picked up the chopsticks to pick up a few bites of food, but I said that I didn't eat any food.At this time, he suddenly grabbed my hand, I was a little nervous, I could feel the temperature between his hands, but he just held my left hand tightly.Not a word was said.I don't know what this is.The joy of reunion after a long absence or the sympathy of years of secret love confession.Either way I don't want it.I withdrew my hand from his.He looked up at me and I could tell something was flowing in his eyes.Yu Yi, in fact, I was also very confused about you at that time, that's why I went abroad.It was because I was afraid of meeting you. At that time, I didn't know that you didn't apply for JU. I was glad and contradictory when I heard that you didn't apply.So I regret that I couldn't keep you.So I don't want to stay in J city anymore.It's just that what I didn't expect was that you came back now after you left. Every year during the Chinese New Year, I will go back to J City to wait for you.He asked me with red eyes, Yu Yi, is it still too late?I smiled and said to him, Feier, I am no longer that kid waiting for the 96th bus at the bus station, and being able to say it today means that I can let go.Letting go means that you don't have to hide it anymore, you have to be on guard against others and take care of yourself.So, are you still living alone now?I said to Feier, um, how nice it is to be alone, isn't it?Fei Er, you are normal, don't be so hypocritical, the consequences of hypocrisy are like me, so is it not enough that I have already walked this road between the two of us?You get back on track.According to statistics in the book, there may be a few bends among dozens of people.But most of this doesn't seem to be their own will.They themselves accept that they are struggling, so why should they be ridiculed by the world.

Well, see you.I'm already very happy, but I still want to gossip, is there really no one in Yu Yi who has fascinated you in recent years?Excited?In the past few years, I have seen good-looking people and made appointments. It is not so much the heartbeat as the heartbeat of the lower body.The lower body is the most real and at the same time the most fake.If you want to talk about heartbeat, it is the grandson who is unattainable and can't reach the end no matter how you get along.I said, there is one.He suddenly opened his eyes and looked at me.I asked him, what's wrong?fine.Tell me, I'm very curious.There is nothing to say, but he is very good-looking, and he is a special man, a high-ranking son, we are unattainable, so I didn't think about it.who.Beijing.How are people.I didn't want to talk too much about Ouyang Yi at the time, because I really didn't want to talk about him recently.This guy is my bug.Touch my principles everywhere.That's why it's called heartbeat.Seeing the sudden and natural smile on your face, I think it is very beautiful.What is the difference between this smile and just now?The difference is big, well, just now it was the kind that didn't come from the heart.All right, my brother, are you studying criminal psychology?I quickly stopped him.Tell me about you, how are you doing recently.So we talked until very late.It was early in the morning when I arrived late, and I said I wanted to go back by myself and he insisted on seeing me off. When I arrived at the door of the unit, he said Yu Yi, and he would keep in touch with me in the future.Don't disappear anymore.Got it, go back quickly.I urged him to leave.I stood at the entrance of the corridor and watched Liu Feier's back disappear into the corner of the path.Then I went upstairs and opened the door quietly. My mother was already asleep.When I returned to my room, I didn't want to disturb her sleep, so I lay on the bed without washing anything, and went through all the big and small things that happened in these years like a movie.

The most profound thing is that in the winter of my sophomore year, I was surrounded by a boy who was as warm as a spring day. His temperature melted the frost in my memory and dispelled the wind and snow in my blood vessels.

So that I can continue to live.