Buddha, give me another smile

Part [-]

[-]. Pain is also an emotion

Zhang Tiaotiao hasn't dreamed for a long time.

At least he thought so.

As a punk who was lucky enough to be a medical experiment, he felt that life was not bad now.

Only later did he hear that the operation was rather dangerous, and they almost couldn't match up several times.

Oh, by the way, I forgot to mention that what he experienced was a head-changing medical experiment.The reason is very simple. He was beaten so hard on the curb that day that only his head was functional.

As for the other one, he had a very regrettable car accident, and only his head was broken.

The two corpses were sent to the same medical geek, and Dr. Chen made a big fuss, getting the head and the body together.

As for the specific procedure... uh... Zhang Tiaotiao still felt disgusted watching the videotape of the operation.

It's too calm, isn't it?But what can be done?Zhang Tiaotiao didn't know why or what happened, but he was no longer surprised.

Because it seemed that no matter what happened, he couldn't be moved.

Connecting the two bodies together like this still made him feel like it was fake.He touched this body in the mirror, looked at his face, and felt an indescribably weird feeling.

To put it simply, when he touches the current body, he always feels that he is touching someone else.

It felt pretty weird.

But very familiar.

He couldn't be sure whether this situation was good or bad.However, what does it matter?When it was original, he didn't have any sense of belonging, let alone it is not original now!

The head is a gangster, the body is a poor student, and the driver who caused the accident ran away. Fortunately, Dr. Chen has money, so he supports him, no, supports them.

And he... No, and they just need to be cute mice, provide corresponding data, and get on the machine at any time. What a pleasant life!

but……

Zhang Tiaotiao looked at the back garden of Dr. Chen's house, where there was a vat of water lilies.This water lily always made him feel pain, but he couldn't help but look at it.

He didn't know whether it was himself or the body that was hurting.He didn't know whether it was his brain hurting or his heart hurting.

He often doesn't feel like himself anymore.

Who is the original owner of this body, and what kind of story does it have?Will he be like him, who actually has nothing, no parents, no home, no girlfriend?

Thinking of his girlfriend, a very delicate face appeared in Zhang Tiaotiao's mind.

Who is that?

The name seemed to be on his lips, but he couldn't say it.

He doesn't know such a good-looking person, this person is probably the memory of this body!

It was routine, and he was standing in the monitored room again, which was where he needed to go every day.Dr. Chen said that testing the fit of body, mind, brain and spirit is more important than other physical conditions.

Is it important?

Zhang Tiaotiao didn't understand.

If the original him possessed these functions cooperated enough tacitly, he wouldn't be beaten to the head just because of a popsicle.Thinking of the popsicle that choked him to death, no, the popsicle that crippled him, Zhang Tiaotiao's mind paused.

At that time, his mind clearly wanted to get the popsicle first, but his body was fighting. The god at that time, he didn't know what it was, and his heart was watching jokes beside him for no reason!

fit?It's just a joke!

Are these scholars so neurotic?

Strange, why did he use both?Had anyone else he knew ever been this neurotic?

He shook his head and started a new test.

What's the fun in such a thing as a hobby if it becomes a routine?Zhang Tiaotiao couldn't tell. Anyway, his mind was empty, but his body was very different.

To put it simply, his mind is very clear, and he even feels dull, and no kind of stimulation can arouse his impulse.

But the body doesn't listen.

Is this mind controlling?He couldn't tell.Dr. Chen said that this was a failed operation, because sex is the theme of life.

But his synthetic body can't enjoy the fun brought by natural physiology.

pleasure?

Zhang Tiaotiao yawned super boredly while continuing to face the screen.He often feels that this body is not his, instead, he must take good care of it, dress it, clean it, feed it, and so on.

This is troublesome.

Dr. Chen shook his head helplessly as he looked at the obviously unwell person.The synthetic body is still the body, the heart is the heart, and the brain is the brain.

What he thought was the simplest and easiest test to pass turned out to be an insurmountable hurdle.

This composite is a scrap with unrelated parts.

He dropped the test.

"Zhang Tiaotiao."

"Doctor Chen."

"How are you feeling today?"

"same as before."

"No discomfort?"

"No."

"did you sleep well last night?"

"it is good."

"Is breakfast satisfactory?"

"satisfy."

"What do you want for lunch?"

"It will be all right."

"Want to go out?"

"Do not."

"Is there anything you want?"

"No."

It's the same answer again.

Doctor Chen sighed.

How can a person who has no idea about anything be considered alive?Human beings are alive, and are constantly working hard and making progress, isn't it because human beings have various desires and expectations? !

But Zhang Tiaotiao doesn't want anything!

That body's desire for life is much stronger than that of the brain.

His body is moving, his heart is beating, his brain is working, but his god...

Zhang Tiaotiao's spirit is in a state of death.

So he couldn't fit in at all.

Zhang Tiaotiao didn't know the medical judgment given to him by Dr. Chen. After getting off the machine, he went to the back garden alone, staring at the vat of water lilies in a daze.

Dr. Chen said that pain is also an emotion.

He looked at the white water lily quietly, feeling the pain.Why come here to enjoy it when you know it will hurt?Zhang Tiaotiao felt that he had become very hypocritical, no, he had become very masochistic, but he was out of control.

It's just a lotus flower, how could it attract him so much!

When Dr. Chen found him, he was surprised to see tears on his face.

"what happened?"

"your face……"

Zhang Tiaotiao raised his hand, only to realize that tears were streaming down his face.He squeezed a smile on his face, but there were more tears.

"Zhang Tiaotiao..."

"Doctor Chen, I'm fine."

"You're not good."

"I'm very good!"

"You're not good!"

The sudden yelling made Zhang Tiaotiao's nose sore, why did you attack me?It was rare for him to be wronged, but a voice echoed repeatedly in his mind.

"You shouldn't have asked..." Who was speaking?

"Come back..." Who is calling?

"Be obedient..." Who is explaining?

"Zhang Tiaotiao!" Dr. Chen called back the distracted man.

Zhang Tiaotiao was startled, what happened just now?

He looked at Dr. Chen who was looking at him worriedly, and said, "Dr. Chen, I'm fine, thank you. If it's okay, I'll go back to my room."

"Something happened."

Dr. Chen looked at the lonely figure and shouted.

Zhang Tiaotiao stopped and turned to look at the speaker.

"There is a new instrument, you try it."

"it is good."

"Aren't you going to ask what kind of device it is?"

"What does it matter?"

This indifferent answer made Dr. Chen's heart sink.He suddenly felt that he might be meddling in saving someone who shouldn't be saved.

Zhang Tiaotiao stood aside and waited for Dr. Chen to lead the way.

Dr. Chen walked in front, and Zhang Tiaotiao quietly followed behind him.

Whether it's an experiment or an experiment, Zhang Tiaotiao doesn't care.He does things when he has something to do, and he is in a daze when he has nothing to do. What is the purpose of dawdling like this?He couldn't tell.Who is it that told him to go back?He doesn't know either.Just follow Dr. Chen and prepare for the next experiment.

Zhang Tiaotiao was very calm, but Dr. Chen was not happy.

When he reached the corner of the stairs, Dr. Chen couldn't bear it anymore, turned around sharply and pushed Zhang Tiaotiao against the corner.

"..."

The surgical knife carried by the doctor was cold against Zhang Tiaotiao's neck.Dr. Chen threatened Zhang Tiaotiao. Anyone who saw it would feel scared and feel the approach of death.

But Zhang Tiaotiao just looked at him silently.

Is this normal?