But unwilling to see the scenery

The tears came too fast, Jiang Nuo touched it, and the emotion that triggered the tears came long after.

He couldn't tell what that feeling was, how calm the sea was, how rough the bottom of the sea was, he was sore and swollen and wanted to vent but was suppressed, instead of erupting in silence, he fell in silence.

"Jiang Nuo!"

Someone pulled him, holding his face in a panic, not knowing how to coax him, so he wiped his tears clumsily, his face was getting closer and closer, so close that he could kiss him——

"I'm fine." Jiang Nuo squeezed out a smile, and in turn comforted the anxious Yan Ruoyu.The boy who was three years younger was hurt more than him, and he was the one who shed tears, and he felt distressed as if someone had scratched his heart.

"Why are you all right? You're crying." Yan Ruoyu was so nervous that he was at a loss, and in a panic, he looked for the reason on himself, "Aren't you unhappy? This game made you unhappy, right? Then, let's go home , I will accompany you home, I will also retire, I—”

Jiang Nuo passed his hands across Yan Ruoyu's waist, and unconsciously rubbed his cheeks against Yan Ruoyu's ears.

He hadn't typed a draft in his stomach before, but Jiang Nuo's sudden hug made Yan Ruoyu forget who he was.

"...It's not because of you, I just suddenly thought of the past.

"Jiang Nuo didn't know how to explain it. Wang Zhaodi happened to pass by the backstage at the end of the stage. He stepped back and let go, putting a little distance away from Yan Ruoyu. Wang Zhaodi didn't look sideways, but her pace became slower and slower, and finally she turned her head back.

Wang Zhaodi said in a declarative tone: "You are NoA."

Jiang Nuo didn't speak, just looked at her.

"I'm sorry, I ruined your accompaniment." Wang Zhaodi raised her chin. How can I say that posture and tone are really uneducated. Nine out of ten people are upset when they see it.

And Jiang Nuo was the one left, and said slowly: "It doesn't matter, how you sing is your freedom."

Wang Zhaodi's neck was stiff at first, but as soon as Jiang Nuo's gentle voice came out, her shoulders couldn't stretch anymore.

She was repeatedly denied by Tang Yanguan on the stage without blinking her eyes. When Jiang Nuo said something to her in a good voice, her eyes turned red, she gritted her teeth and turned to walk towards the exit, leaving behind her back and raised her arms with her clothes on. The action of wiping eyes with sleeves.

"What are you waiting for, you are the only one left!" Seeing Jiang Nuo not coming out, Lin Zhe ran to the backstage to urge him, and handed the microphone to him.Yan Ruoyu was very worried, and wanted to grab his hand to make him stay off the stage, but stopped a moment before he was about to grab it, hanging in mid-air, not interfering with his choice to take over the microphone.

He introduced himself first, simply said that his name was Jiang Nuo, and signaled the staff to play the accompaniment.The nerves of the four tutors have been stretched all day, and they are even more exhausted after being tossed by Wang Zhaodi. At this moment, their eyes are shining with long-lost light, looking forward to Jiang Nuo's performance to leave a perfect ending for the second round.

But the greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment.

Tang Yanguan was the first to press the Fail button, looking at the lyrics monitor in his hand and then at Jiang Nuo, with a look of incredulity.The other three instructors also frowned to varying degrees, focusing on the lyrics display and the stage. Louis and Wang Sunglasses talked in a low voice, hesitating whether to press Fail, but finally felt that the flaw was too big, so they pressed it in the last five seconds.

The two screens above Jiang Nuo's head became "X", and only Liang Zhen's Pass remained.

Liang Zhen leaned forward, lowered his head and fell into deep thought. After considering the final decision to press it, 60 seconds passed, and Jiang Nuo once again advanced in an unrealistic way.

No one was happy, everyone could see that Jiang Nuo's performance was even worse than the audition, Tang Yanguan was even a little sullen, and asked Jiang Nuo: "How can you forget your words?"

Many people have forgotten their words on this stage, Jiang Nuo is not the first, and certainly not the last.

But in the first sentence, he forgot the word and forced it to the end with a freestyle that has no logic. He is unprecedented, and there may not be someone who will come later.

Jiang Nuo's attitude is indeed disappointing. Wang Sunglasses and Louis also said that Jiang Nuo's state does not look like he is here for the competition.

"You have to find your status slowly," Liang Zhen is always the one who sings the red face. "Although I forgot the lyrics, but it is not without advantages. Not all rappers have such a strong ability to perform freestyle on the spot."

"Then is this fair to the other eliminated players?" Tang Yanguan looked at Liang Zhen meaningfully, implying that Liang Zhen was letting go.

Liang Zhen could defend himself. There must have been a camera to capture it. He kept his head down in the second half and didn't pay attention to the time. It happened to be 61 seconds when he decided to press the Fail button.

Tang Yanguan insisted on standards for Liang Zhen: "Mr. Liang, you will be called a double standard."

But Liang Zhen would rather take the controversy on himself: "If he is promoted, he is promoted."

"That's it. Thank you for your hard work. I'll see you in the 1vs1 selection tonight." He stood up and bowed, announcing the end of the second round, and left the recording site without delay. Tang Yanguan couldn't find anyone to argue with him.

Also leaving was Jiang Nuo, who didn't stay on stage and left from the other side of the stage without meeting Yan Ruoyu.Yan Ruoyu called him, and after he connected, he said flatly that he wanted to be alone for a while.

Yan Ruoyu returned to the player's bench in a restless spirit.Almost all the players who had already advanced left the field. Lin Huai and East were still waiting at their original positions. Seeing that he was the only one who came back, they couldn't help but ask, "Where's Jiang Nuo?"

Yan Ruoyu dryly repeated Jiang Nuo's original words: "He wants to be alone for a while, let us go to eat first."

Lin Huai was well informed and asked worriedly: "I heard that Jiang Nuo cried before going on stage, what's the matter?"

"I also want to know what's going on," Yan Ruoyu really didn't know, "Maybe that Wang Zhaodi was too fierce and hard, which scared Jiang Nuo to tears."

Lin Huai: "..."

"Forget it, let's eat first, and I have to come back to choose someone at night." Lin Huai hooked Yan Ruoyu's shoulder to take him away. Yan Ruoyu didn't move, and no one could take him away.

"I know you're worried about Jiang Nuo, but people are like iron and rice is steel. If you don't eat a meal, you'll be hungry." Lin Huai sighed, and his words couldn't persuade him anymore.

The person who tied the bell had to be untied, he approached, and secretly told Yan Ruoyu: "The producer's lounge is all on the second floor, and the room reserved for Jiang Nuo is near a large balcony, or... where do you go to see it? "

Yan Ruoyu's eyes lit up a lot, he shook Lin Huai's hand gratefully, turned around and walked quickly to the stairs.It's not hard to find the lounge, but it's time for dinner, and the entire floor with the obvious echo was quiet. He walked cautiously to the big balcony at the end, and the closer he got, the shadow elongated by the setting sun was getting closer.

Yan Ruoyu's originally depressed face finally had joy, and he thought about how to jump out suddenly to scare Jiang Nuo, and took another step forward, only to find that there was more than one shadow.

Yan Ruoyu hurried back, leaning against the wall to hide himself, eavesdropping on the conversation between Jiang Nuo and Liang Zhen, Liang Zhen didn't mean to blame Jiang Nuo, but was very helpless, helpless to the point of powerlessness.

Liang Zhen said, "Do you know what is written on your face now?"

Jiang Nuo said slowly, "...what?"

"Right here, quickly eliminate me!" Liang Zhen poked Jiang Nuo's forehead, and Yan Ruoyu could distinguish this action from the shadows of the two.

"Although Song Zhou's child is also mourned... But he is willing to participate in the competition, he must want to fight, so he loses his style and demeanor in the song, but you, you are completely broken." Liang Zhen sighed. With a sigh of relief, he said emotionally, "You two are simply devastated."

Jiang Nuo felt guilty and said softly, "I'm sorry."

Liang Zhen didn't come here to hear an apology, he was complicated and entangled: "You were obviously not like this before, you were so ruthless before, when we first met..."

Even if he couldn't see the expression, Yan Ruoyu could hear the infinite nostalgia in Liang Zhen's tone.According to Liang Zhen, he wore the vest of insincere prayers earlier, and later passed it on to others, just like others passed it on to him, and passed it around to Jiang Shan and Jiang Nuo.Three years ago they had a brief personal relationship because of this relationship. He came to Ling'an specifically to find Jiang Nuo to buy an accompaniment, and Jiang Nuo gave it to him free of charge. The only request was not to add NoA's watermark to it.

At that time, Jiang Nuo was in awe of music. He would rather be famous than commercialized. He was very repulsed by money, so he only made songs for Jiang Shan, and ignored all the olive branches thrown by others.

In this point, he is very similar to Song Zhou, both of them are idealistic, but he does not have a good family background like Song Zhou, has not received an elite education, and is equally intelligent and kind, but he is not compatible with being reserved and restrained. Jiang Nuo, who wrote "makeitshit", is more like Wang Zhaodi today, full of anger, and then uses rap as a carrier to vent his anger.

"Where's your anger?" Liang Zhen couldn't figure it out. He felt that Jiang Nuo, who had no emotions, was very strange. He was lying in the corner like a puppet with layers of dust on it. It is hollow and lifeless.

"...anger is useless," Jiang Nuo didn't seem to be telling Liang Zhen, but more like telling himself, "It's meaningless, and it can't change anything."

Yan Ruoyu couldn't stand and slid down against the wall, his hands and feet were cold, his heart was throbbing in his chest, he realized that he had been with Jiang Nuo for so long, and as the person closest to him, he didn't notice Jiang Nuo He is so passive and evasive, and flattered that his sister is gentle in nature, far less so than Liang Zhen, who has only met him a few times.

But how can he be blamed for this, he has been absent for most of Jiang Nuo's life, and when they met, Jiang Nuo had already had long hair for half a year.

"Then why are you crying?" Liang Zhen asked, "Lai said that you have cared about Wang Zhaodi from the very beginning and paid close attention to her."

"Because she's really fierce, she dares to say anything, she doesn't care if it can be aired or not and what others think of her, she wants to say it, so she says it..." Jiang Nuo smiled, and laughed a few more times, feasting Hearing that he laughed so easily, Ruoyu covered his mouth to be happy for him, but tears almost poured out uncontrollably.

It's a pity that those smiles from the heart were fleeting, and after a while, Jiang Nuo became quiet again, completely different from the vigorous young man in Liang Zhen's memory in the rental house.Duras wrote about mental aging in "The Lover", saying that he had a face of drinking for many years before he reached the age of alcoholism. The same is true for Jiang Nuo. He is only 24 years old, and he has not yet reached the age of alcoholism. At an early age, there is a negativity that does not care about anything, and sees through its essence of nothingness and meaninglessness.

"What about Yan Ruoyu?" Liang Zhen asked again, helping Jiang Nuo to find a bond, "I see that you have a good relationship with him, and I thought you could be influenced by him to some extent, and have a good time together."

"Tell him," Jiang Nuo said thoughtfully, "he's fine..."

Yan Ruoyu stood up staggeringly, with his ears pricked up, and he was solemnly waiting for the oracle like a devout believer.

Numerous images related to Jiang Nuo appeared in front of his eyes, and the scroll of memory rolled out, and they returned to the church in Amsterdam.Obviously they have no religious beliefs, they sat on the wooden bench for a long time, not leaning on the back of the chair, but pillowing on each other's shoulders.

The passage of time is invisible and intangible, and the holy images on the four walls have never changed since ancient times. They are bathed in the golden light shining through the colored windows, as if engraved into eternity at that moment.

"How did the vest of the insincere prayer come from?" He asked Jiang Nuo at the time, and Jiang Nuo told him that he and Jiang Shan did not create this vest, and they did not know who the first person to wear the vest was. Like the retired rapper who gave them the vest, he has not been active for many years.

Then he asked again, "Why did you take the name Insincere Prayer?"

Jiang Nuo replied: "Because rap was born in the slums, and the black brothers who invented hiphop are so poor. They are so poor that they have no hope in life. They can only pray to God."

And if God really exists, how can he bear to let them live such a hard life.

The huge cross was right in front of them, and the corpse sculpture nailed to it was holy without any trace of decay. What they both thought of was the "Corpse of Christ in the Tomb" in the Swiss Art Museum. Christ is a mortal body, Christ is man himself.

"Personal struggle is more useful than prayer." Jiang Nuo said, "Live well for yourself, everyone is their own God."

Yan Ruoyu still remembered the admiration he felt spontaneously at that time. He felt that Jiang Nuo was very transparent and understood more and more thorough truths than him.But now, when he was standing in the 1VS1 selection scene, he was called by chief director Lin Zhe to ask for a number to choose a candidate. He stood in the middle of the crowd with a microphone in his hand, and his first sentence was to ask An Jing who was standing at the back. Jiang Nuo, why do you know so many reasons, but still choose to live without fighting spirit.

The microphone was close enough to catch his breath, and he looked straight in Jiang Nuo's direction.The few contestants standing in front of Jiang Nuo originally thought that Yan Ruoyu would choose him, and their eyes were darkened, fearing that their season would be over, but Yan Ruoyu didn't say anything for a long time, which made them gradually develop a fluke mentality, and slowly moved forward. Moved to both sides, Jiang Nuo, who was originally blocked, was still standing there.

Yan Ruoyu's lips moved, and he said his choice: "Jiang Nuo."

Everyone was quiet, and in their eyes, Yan Ruoyu's choice was absolutely crushing, the top-ranking capable player vs the passive producer, the outcome was obvious.

But Jiang Nuo was not upset, and smiled lightly, not feeling particularly surprised. Instead, he felt a little lucky that he was finally eliminated and said goodbye to this fucking world run by capital instead of "real".

"Yan Ruoyu...he will have a very bright future, and he has his own way to go." He said this to Liang Zhen an hour ago, and he was very proud of Yan Ruoyu.

But he couldn't walk by himself.

Yan Ruoyu did rap for eight months, and he also did songs for eight months.In the past eight months, he has not added NoA's watermark to any of his songs, and he has never called himself NoA since the audition.

Because NoA is long gone.

From the moment Jiang Shan passed away, Jiang Nuo's part as NoA also died.

"Jiang Nuo, I choose Jiang Nuo." Yan Ruoyu officially stated his choice.They have a week, and after a week, they need to hand over a song that they sang together, and the one with the better performance will advance to the top 20 in the country, and the other will be eliminated.

Lin Zhe, who presided over the selection process, asked Jiang Nuo, "Is there anything you want to say to Yan Ruoyu?"

Jiang Nuo shook his head, had no objection, and took the initiative to retreat to the place where other well-matched players were standing.Lin Zhe also put his hand into the small black box with the contestant number to choose the next one to make a selection. Yan Ruoyu moved the stage from the middle, holding the microphone, and declared war in front of everyone: " I have something to say to NoA."

This session was just a selection, not a duel, and the atmosphere was always light and relaxed without the smell of gunpowder, but Yan Ruoyu lifted everyone's nerves with just one sentence, and the aura was so overwhelming that others dared not speak out.

"NoA, if you're a man, come face to face with me!"

He has a high posture, is fully confident that he will win the victory in advance, and has the capital to wave the flag.

But he looked at Jiang Nuo with such urgency, as if Jiang Nuo was not a defeated man, let alone a trophy, but a god he worshiped like a star and moon.

He has never believed in gods and Buddhas, but he looks up to Jiang Nuo.

Jiang Nuo will either lose to him or come back to life.