But unwilling to see the scenery

The cold raindrops hit Yan Ruoyu's bare skin.

The bone-piercing coldness made the boundary between reality and illusion clear for a short time, and he walked aimlessly forward with floating steps, with buildings on the left and canals on the right.

In a blink of an eye, the scene on the left and right was reversed, Jiang Nuo pulled his shoulder tightly to make people turn around, and patted his cheek with the other hand, it didn't hurt, but the voice was loud.

Jiang Nuo's hair was wet, and several strands stuck to his cheeks, making his face paler and his eyes more burning.

"We're not going to Paris, let's find a place to sit down first." He held Yan Ruoyu's cheeks with both hands, so close that the tips of his noses almost touched, he tried his best to persuade, "Anywhere, you are in a very bad state right now. Oops."

"Really..." Yan Ruoyu finally agreed to meet Jiang Nuo.He was not gentle at all, he pushed the person away and continued walking indifferently.

"Yan Ruoyu!" Jiang Nuo could only keep up. The rainy European streets were clear and cold, and the Japanese people wandered around thoughtlessly one after the other, and no one cast strange glances.

The whole world is no longer related to Yan Ruoyu, only Jiang Nuo stumbles into his world.

Jiang Nuo gradually said everything he could say, good words, reasoning, and witty words, and changed Yan Ruoyu's address all over again, Xiaoyu, brother, and young master.Yan Ruoyu didn't respond, Jiang Nuo was desperate, rushed to Yan Ruoyu and temporarily stopped him, calling him "Bruce" with a sense of strangeness.

Yan Ruoyu really stopped.

Immediately, he moved away his distorted gaze, bumped Jiang Nuo's shoulder and continued to move forward.Jiang Nuo froze in place, a few seconds of emptiness seemed as long as a century, he caught up with Yan Ruoyu, and blurted out a meter or two behind him: "Last year on February 2** sent me a lyrics. "

The corners of Yan Ruoyu's mouth twitched, because today is also February 2th.

"You wrote at the time that Bruce's parents died, so Gaotan has Batman, and your parents also died, but Ling'an City does not have your home."

"Then you sent another email the next day, saying that you were drunk yesterday and what you sent was all nonsense. Please forgive me for not taking it seriously. That day was February 2."

"Then a week later, you sent me a very long and sincere letter, which contained this sentence——

NoA, I really like the vitality in your and Jiang Shan's songs. The songs you collaborated with the insincere prayers are also very lively. You are all people who love life. I rarely experience this kind of love, so I want to be with you Cooperation, the price is of course easy to negotiate, March 3th, please reply when you see it. "

"NoA, if you read the news in the past few days, don't think that I have a bad temper and love to do things. I only created reporters who rumored that my parents were at odds. They love each other so much, which makes me redundant. Anyway, I still want to be with you. Cooperation, March 3th, looking forward to reply."

"NoA, I will definitely become a singer who is better than an insincere prayer. April 4st, I look forward to replying and happy April Fool's Day."

"NoA, I got inside information that this year's "MakeitBig" has been suspended, but I still want to cooperate with you, April 4th, looking forward to replying."

"NoA, if you don't reply, I don't expect a reply. On April 4, I look forward to replying."

"NoA, I'm so sad, I don't want to write to you again, May 5st."

"NoA, today is my 19th birthday. 19 years ago today I was born, [-] years ago today I lost the person who gave me life..."

Jiang Nuo was inexplicably out of breath, the rain dripped all over his face and drowned the uncontrollable tears, the continuous low temperature confused the boundaries of consciousness, making him feel the same fear and pain as Yan Ruoyu.

"...NoA, guilt and remorse torment me, like thorns coming out of my chest and going back in, dripping with blood. How many times have I woke up like a dream from a rainy night alleyway in flashbacks, wishing they weren't in my way , the person who sleeps forever without opening his eyes is me."

"NoA, why didn't they take me away with me, don't they expect me in another world?"

Jiang Nuo was slumped in the rain, exhausted, resisting physical nausea, and said the signature of the email: "August 8, looking forward to replying."

He is like an old machine, washed to the point of rust by the rain, and it is extremely difficult to turn around simply. He can only wait for Yan Ruoyu, who is behind, to catch up. He is definitely not tired, but he just doesn't want to listen to the letters he wrote. Heart.

Jiang Nuo was exhausted like never before, unable to stand still, and half-bent to prop up his knees.After some time, Yan Ruoyu walked up to him, Jiang Nuo said earnestly, "Your parents love you after all, if they are still alive, they will feel distressed seeing you like this."

Yan Ruoyu's eyes were red and moist, countless contradictory emotions collided and flowed, trust and suspicion had never been more intense, he wanted to hug people tightly, but also desperately wanted to hurt.

"What about you, you haven't given up on me until now, so what is it for? You are actually doing it for Jiang Shan, right? He was not fair before, and you are not reconciled, so you hope I win."

Yan Ruoyu became less and less calm, and started to make trouble out of no reason: "Why didn't I meet you first."

"I met you first, so you have a crush on me?" Jiang Nuo was also driven into a hurry, and then broke out: "Without Jiang Shan, I don't know where I am now. You don't know how lucky you are People love and care, you don’t even know what kind of life I lived before, my mother raised me until I was three years old and died, died! My father didn’t let me starve to death in my hometown, but took me to Ling'an City has raised it for several years, and I feel that they have not owed me anything if they give me food!"

He spread out the palm of his right hand and showed Yan Ruoyu the scalded scar under the sunflower tattoo: "Let me answer you now, yes, I was in pain at the time, and I still hated, wished I didn't have this father, but I realized later that he also It hurts, there is no one around who tells him that drugs should not be touched, he is the one with the most hopeless, wishing that he died early before taking drugs, he still gave me food for several years. Isn’t love just a mouthful of food, Your parents gave you more than a bite of food!"

"You don't understand, you don't know what's going on at all, you're making excuses!" Yan Ruoyu couldn't say no to Jiang Nuo, so he simply acted foolishly.He was confused, and Jiang Nuo was confused by him, and the two quarreled.

Yan Ruoyu asked: "Did you always follow me because of my wealth?"

Jiang Nuo was about to fight him: "You are crazy, you!"

Yan Ruoyu took out his wallet by himself: "Anyway, I only have money... I'll give you how much money you want, you go, don't follow me!"

Jiang Nuo threw his hands away, vowing that he would never care about this ancestor again: "You think I am rare, I don't care if you disappear completely!"

The leather wallet fell to the ground and was immediately wet by the rain, and the money and cards in the interlayer spilled out, including the handkerchief.

Jiang Nuo touched his pocket subconsciously, his handkerchief was obviously still in his pocket.

The raindrops were ticking, Jiang Nuo was so shocked that he held his breath, Yan Ruoyu's breathing became more and more rapid, he didn't dare to look at the veil that was hidden on the ground for a long time, and ran away as if fleeing, Jiang Nuo hurriedly Pick up the important things and chase after them, the vow just made was broken so easily.

They were all dizzy, the ones in front couldn't run far, the ones behind couldn't get rid of them, and they shuttled into the red light district in a daze.The colorful lights of red, blue, yellow and green are rendered by the rain, and the girls in the window are wearing revealing clothes, twisting gracefully to seduce pedestrians and tourists.Yan Ruoyu couldn't run any longer, and confronted Jiang Nuo, who was three to five meters away, holding onto the doorknob next to a certain window: "If you still follow me, I'll go in!"

Jiang Nuo admitted that he had a gamble: "If you don't have a cleanliness fetish, go in!"

Yan Ruoyu pushed the door in without saying a word, leaving Jiang Nuo to close the door resoundingly.

He was slumped in a chair directly opposite the door, soaked, slovenly and disfigured.The black-haired girl in the window was startled and almost called the police, but looking at Yan Ruoyu's face carefully, she felt that he didn't look like a bad person.

The girl closed the curtains and asked Yan Ruoyu in awkward English whether she wanted a full set or a half set. Yan Ruoyu needed a rest urgently and could barely lift her fingers. Only then did he remember that he threw the wallet to Jiang Nuo.

Yan Ruoyu's brain was broken, Yang Yang turned on the mobile phone, and asked the girl: "Is it possible to use Alipay and WeChat?"

Girl: "..."

Yan Ruoyu stood up in embarrassment, straightened her wet clothes, said "sorry" to the girl, and unlocked the door.Jiang Nuo was waiting at the door, his face darkened and his eyes fierce, instead of pulling him out by the ears, he pushed and kicked him mercilessly.Yan Ruoyu staggered back a few steps, and hit the wall of the cubicle with his back.

The girl's face turned pale, and she really wanted to call the police. Jiang Nuo found out all the cash on her body, it was all big bills, and gave her a big wad.

The girl was astonished.Once the yellow curtain in the window is drawn, it becomes a private space. She and the guests have done that thing here countless times. For the first time, she charged so much money, and the two men didn't need her to do anything.

Jiang Nuo stood in front of Yan Ruoyu who was squatting in the corner, and called him to get up, Yan Ruoyu rubbed the back of his head, and shouted at Jiang Nuo: "You hit me!"

Jiang Nuo became even more angry: "Who told you to really come in!"

Yan Ruoyu's voice was louder than Jiang Nuo's: "You are a fake Jiang Nuo, you are transformed from a bad sister, Jiang Nuo is a good sister, you can't bear to hit me!"

Jiang Nuo: "..."

Gianno suspects such things as psychedelic truffles are airborne.If he couldn't do it, his hands and feet were cold and weak, his knees were soft and his buttocks sat on his ankles, he surrendered, gave up, and admitted his mistake against his will: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't hit you."

Yan Ruoyu never expected that he would apologize, his face was dazed and dull.

Immediately, his tears poured out like money, and he hugged his knees with his hands and cried loudly, crying until he was breathless, crying until he hiccupped, his voice soon became hoarse, and hysterically said to Jiang Nuo, "I'm sorry."

Jiang Nuo: "..."

Jiang Nuo was weak: "Where did you go wrong?"

Yan Ruoyu seemed to be on another channel, crying loudly: "I shouldn't have trouble with them, there were no paparazzi that night."

Jiang Nuo couldn't feel the coldness of his limbs for an instant.

"It was I who harmed them, it was me..." Yan Ruoyu was still unable to get out of the 15-year-old phantom.

He lied to everyone, and no one knew that he was the first to leave the back alley on his own initiative that night, followed by his parents, and the three of them met the robber.

And none of this would have happened if the birthday party had gone off without a hitch.

Yan Ruoyu got deeper and deeper: "They said that the birthday gift they gave me was a younger brother who was three months old in my mother's womb. For that child, she was even willing to give up acting in a joint venture movie and return to China to raise a baby tomorrow. They don’t intend to let the media know about this child’s existence prematurely, they want to give him a normal life, unlike me, he doesn’t have much privacy.”

He chuckled: "It's the first time I've received such a gift, I—" He cried with despair like never before, "I asked her if there was something wrong with me that she wanted another child ... She touched my head and said no, and praised me for being sensible and obedient, so sensible and obedient, so that they have no demands on the second child, only peace and joy."

He said: "Everyone knows that Yan Songting and Cheng Yingmeng are in love, but they don't know that they love each other so much, it makes me appear redundant."

"They had another baby and I was the extra one," he said.

So, he had his first little quarrel that night, which caused his parents' last catastrophe.

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault..."

The stamina of the psychedelic truffles is still there, and Yan Ruoyu sees the real and the fake.

The girl has long since left and disappeared. The yellow curtain is like the light of Buddha, and the window behind the curtain is decorated with LED lights. When you rub your eyes and look carefully, it becomes the stained glass of a church.

"...Where am I?" Yan Ruoyu couldn't help but be quiet and not cry.The remaining rationality told him that this was the red light district of Amsterdam, but Jiang Nuo told him that he was confessing.

In Jiang Nuo's arms, resting on his thin chest, the wetness that dripped to his forehead was also his tears, like the nectar spilled by Guanyin after knocking over a clean bottle.

Jiang Nuo asked him: "Do you remember what happened before you were three years old?"

Yan Ruoyu shook his head in Jiang Nuo's arms and hiccupped tears.

Jiang Nuo said: "I remember, I remember that my mother has been sick in bed. She is a very gentle person, but she sleeps for too long. She sleeps during the day and sleeps at night. One day she waited for me to wake up abnormally. , give me a dime and let me go to the small store in the village to buy candy. Our family used to buy candy during the New Year and holidays. I was so happy that I came home with candy and prepared one for each of us. My mother fell asleep forever."

"I remember that day was August 8th. My mother died on that day, and I cried very sadly. Later, when I grew up, I was happier for her than eating candy, because I knew she was relieved. There is no more pain in another world."

"It was a good day, the sky was blue, the clouds were white, and the sun was golden. You were born on that day, right. You have to believe that everyone is in his best place, so don't be afraid and Don't beat yourself up, it was a good day for you too."

Yan Ruoyu said: "I'm not good, I'm a big villain who took the lives of my parents."

Jiang Nuo said: "Your parents are willing to block bullets to save you, a little villain."

Yan Ruoyu was about to cry again: "It's not worth it..."

Jiang Nuo patted him on the back: "It's not up to you."

When Yan Ruoyu calmed down, Jiang Nuo said: "You must live, whether it is blood or emotion, you are their continuation."

The voice was like an oracle, Yan Ruoyu repeated: "I must live."

"Yes, live well, and live like a man." Jiang Nuo hugged him even tighter, couldn't be tighter——

"If you live well, they will live forever."